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Heyy, This is Starr I’m writing this message a year in advance. The day I’m writing this is 10/22/26. We met on the first of October and that’s when you should get this message. Long intro mb😭. I have no idea what will happen in this year but I wanted to make this because no matter what happens I want you to know that I will always be grateful I met you. Everyday I’ve spent with you so far has been the best time in my life and I know it’ll keep being that. You are the most amazing and genuine and funny person I’ve ever meet. I love everything about you, I love your laugh, your smile, your kindness, your personality, the way you genuinely care about me. I want you to know I will always care about you deeply and nothing will ever change that. There’s nothing you could ever do that would make me see you differently, make me leave you, or make me not wanna talk to you. There may be rocky parts because we both have our own issues but no matter what I will always be here for you. I’ve never seen a future with anyone before and that scares me and that’s why I in the beginning act a little distant at times. I can see us living together and having a family which I never ever thought I’d even consider having kids but with you it feels different. I feel safe with you even though I’m scared you might leave I feel like you might not and that also scares me because I’ve never had anyone stay and that scares me because I don’t know how to act because I’m used to being able to act like who I really am and not care because I know they’re gonna leave but with you I’m scared to be myself because if you don’t leave you’ll know me completely and forever and that scares me because no one knows me fully not even my mom. Your the most amazing person I’ve ever met and I will always be grateful to have you in my life. There’s probably a million more things I could say but I won’t right now. I’m so excited to spend the rest of our lives together. Love, starr

ამ ყველაფრის შემდეგ, შეხედე, სადამდე მოვედით… ათასობით კითხვა გვაქვს, მაგრამ არც ერთი პასუხი… სათქმელიც აღარაფერი დაგვრჩა. და როგორ მოხდა, რომ სულით მონათესავეები უბრალოდ ორ უცხო ადამიანად ვიქეცით? მინდა, კიდევ ერთხელ დავლიოთ ერთი ბოთლი ღვინო, გავიხსენოთ… როგორ ვცეკვავდით ოდესღაც ვარსკვლავებთან ერთად… როგორ გვჯეროდა თითოეული ჩვენი ოცნების… მოგონებები მკლავს… და მითხარი, რა არის კარგი ამ „მშვიდობითში“?.. დღეს შენ მტოვებ მე, მე კი — შენ… სხვადასხვა გზით მივდივართ — სულები, კომპასის გარეშე დარჩენილნი… ამ ყველაფრის შემდეგ ორივე შევიცვალეთ. მე უკვე სხვა ქალი ვარ, შენ კი — ახლა უკვე სხვა კაცი… რა მოხდა? და როგორ? როგორ დაგროვდა ეს მანძილი იმ პატარა, ერთი შეხედვით უმნიშვნელო ამბებისგან? იქნებ უბრალო „გამარჯობა, როგორ ხარ?“ ჩვენი გადარჩენა ყოფილიყო… მე ხომ ჯერ კიდევ აქ ვარ!… რა არის კარგი იმაში, როცა მეუბნები: „კიდევ მომატყუე…“ როცა სიმართლე ასე მტკივნეულია?.. მარტოები, სხვადასხვა გზით მიმავალნი, ალბათ, უკვე აღარც ვიცით, საით მივდივართ… ჩვენ ორს, ერთმანეთისგან დაშორებულებს, თითქოს აღარც კი დაგვრჩა მიზანი…

I still love you with every piece of me. You know those times Id tell u ppl can make me easily stop liking or loving them if they make me cry or hurt me a lot? well with you I realized that wasn't true, maybe for them but all those times you hurt me and made me cry my mind, heart and soul still longed for you. That time back then when u disappeared, I had written to you almost every day though I knew u wouldn't see my messages either cuz id be unadded from ur life forever or cuz u followed through with u plan u said I couldn't save u from. Also after that time we had broken up y'know how I started talking to new people? well during that time with every new interaction, I felt sick to my stomach and just wanted my sweet boy (you) back but I tried to find new and better like u said tho i knew it was impossible cuz u were perfect in my eyes.I tried to find new so I could look tough, as if I didn't care and as if nothing such as a guy bothered me, but it so badly did. I remember the number of times I tried committing because of it, I thought "what was the point of living if i couldn't have u...my reason to live, now gone...unwanting of me.. what am i doing here? I don't matter surely? who am I supposed to be now?" I remember only finding purpose through you. but as time passed Idek and Im not sure why I'm still here but I think its cuz I still have hope...hope for us, even though ik u don't ever want me again like u said. I'm still willing to go through hell and back for you even If u don't want me to. I still love you so much, there was never a day I didn't love or think of u. Theres so much I left unsaid because I was scared, you'd stop loving me..but hey it happened anyway so idk why i was so terrified, I should've spoke my mind to you, straight forward. I still think of the hibachi baby videos and truly when i seen them back then i thought maybe once we settled down and were living right we'd have a kid or 2 and once they were 1 or 2yo we'd take them to the hibachi grill place and record their reactions. hahaha. I still think of it at times. I noticed myself thinking, saying and doing stuff id never do when I was with you, and alot of it helped me. I learned to love parts of myself i use to hate and learn to like and know about other things cuz of u. I still want to give you everything u want and deserve but I feel even tho its right at your door u want it to be another person to give it all to u I hope I could be that person in the future. when I see mangos, I still think of u, my handsome mango :) I wish u could see how I see you. I still have sm gifts I still need to give you!!!I hope I can someday, but face to face. You're perfect and idc if u say ur not because u are so dam perfect in my eyes i fricken love you so fricken much it aches me knowing I cant tell u this burning passion for u I still have hidden within. I try to keep my mind and distance to myself so u won't push me further away but i tend to ignore myself n yap then i beat myself for it cuz youd start distancing urself seemingly. I hate it whenever ur gone. It kills me so much, sometimes I wish u felt this pain i felt for u whenever u was gone and during all the other things. I YEARN SO BAD FOR YOU BUT YOU JUST DONT SEE IT OR DONT CARE... Im sorry for the ways I am. Please know I keep my promises,every single one i ever made to u (that's if U want me to still follow throug with them) and I will love u till the day that I die, even in the after life.

hi i really miss sharing random chika to you, i'm sorry for everything. i'm avoiding you right now because I don't want to talk to you anymore, baka may magawa na naman ako sayo. hindi sa ayaw na kitang kausap hahaha nahihiya lang akong ipakita ang mukha ko sayo,pinagsisisihan ko lahat ng naging desisyon ko sa buhay ngayon, madali lang sabihin ang mga katagang "gusto kita, babawi ako sayo" pero hindi ko yun mapanindigan dahil masama akong tao. sinubukan lang ako ni Lord kung gusto ba talaga kita ay bumitaw agad ako nung dumating siya hahahahahahha. I wish hindi na tayo maging okay hahaha, friendship over kumbaga :((( ilayo sana ako ni Lord sayo, ilayo kana oo.

i miss you i’m sorry i messed it up it’s just that i was so scared and i genuinely felt so hideous but you made me feel beautiful inside and out and there was nothing wrong with you i hate that you don’t see how beautiful and handsome you are and how much i admire you i wish you knew how much you made my heart ache and dance and beat all at once and i’m sorry i’m still scared and that i can’t even look at you when you’re near because i’m afraid you’ll think i’m ugly or you’re just uninterested and i hate that we didn’t even date and i hate that i’m probably too late because someone told me you might be talking to someone new and i wanna lie and say i hope it goes well but i don’t and i hope it doesn’t work out so you can just come back to me i think i love you i’m really sorry you probably wouldn’t even expect this from me and i know you gave me so many chances to start again and i know i’m the one being distant but i think i really fucked it up this time and you probably don’t miss me or want me anymore and you’re probably sick of me or even disgusted of me but i can’t help but feel so much for you and towards you this is so stupid i wish you knew what you did to me please just come back to me i’m so afraid of making the first move what if you already hate me

ik I was a b*tch to ur mom but I'm sorry now and I js wish we could hang out and be 2 regular teenagers who are stupid in love with each other like we used to

Dear Shelly Belly, Happy 18th birthday! You're a granny now and it's so surreal that we've known each other for more than half our lives. I will cherish our memories forever and I know we will continue to make new memories throughout the future. Thank you for being my best friend for so long and being someone I can depend on. Always know that I love you and I will continue to support you no matter what. Remember that you are always loved and cared for. I hope you have the best birthday ever! With Lots Of Love, Your Claire Bear

You will always be a cheater. Especially to that whale. Good thing you finally found someone on your level. Keeping you after this proves it. As you said you’ll always love me. And now, you’ll always miss me too. There is a reason live treats you like it does.

leo, i’m so sorry for being so intense since you left. i want to get better. but i don’t know how. i’m so alone now. i’ve never felt for anyone the way i felt for you, and i’ve never felt heartbreak like this. i don’t know how to make it stop hurting or how to stop missing you so much. i’m trying, even if i don’t know how to do this yet. i’m sorry for struggling so much with letting go. with all my love, always. —mae.

can’t sleep. i haven’t slept properly in a week since you left. every time i try, I wake up after thirty minutes, sweating and crying from another nightmare. sometimes it’s about you leaving me. sometimes it’s about you coming back. sometimes it’s just reliving how much we adored one another, and how happy we were. somehow, even the dreams that are supposed to be good feel like nightmares when i wake up and remember that none of it is real anymore. i don’t know how to make my brain understand that i’m supposed to sleep without you now. i don’t know how to make the nights hurt less. i just know that i’m exhausted, and i miss you more than i know what to do with. dreaming of you. —mae

Hola Alex, pupuchito, bobo, tonto... Gracias por todo, otro pequeño lugar donde dejar una huella del gran amor que te tuve 🫶 No te guardo resentimiento, te guardo gratitud y amor Creo que lo que más espero haberte enseñado y dejado es mi maravillosa forma de amar <3 Con cada día que pasa yo te he dejado ir más y más, creo que es natural dejar ir las cosas, aunque sinceramente nunca creí que te empezaría a superar tan pronto...quizá es porque hice todo en mis manos para que te llegara mi amor y con eso me quedo, di todo de mi, di mi alma y corazón y te los entregué las veces que pude antes de irme cansando y entendiendo que hay cosas más allá de nosotros. Soy una romántica eso es algo que me di cuenta, quizá idealista incluso jajaja Quizá nunca encuentre lo que mi corazón necesita, no lo sé Te amo mucho y como no tienes idea

i don't want anything from this. not an outcome. not a return. not a sign. i just... loved him. not with ownership, or requirements. i loved his soul. and i don't know what to do with that except give it to you. if any part of that love can reach him, let it land in him. not from me, not through me, just... in him. let him feel safe in himself. let him feel whole in himself. let him feel the kind of love for himself that doesn't need anything outside of her to hold it up. please. i never believed in you before. but i will if you keep him safe. his, always. —mae.

i don't want to make him love me, i just want him to realise how much i care about him. maybe i just want him to know that he's loved more than he ever realises. i don't want to force my way into his heart or make him feel something he doesn't. i just wish he could have seen how much love i carry for him, even if i don't get to show anymore. i don’t need him to love me back, i just want him to understand that behind everything i genuinely care about him. that he always has a place in my heart, and that if i had the choice, i would choose him every time. more than wanting him to be mine, i just wanted him to realise that he never had to face the dark alone as long as i was around. i don’t know why he doesn’t want me around. —i’m sorry.

i'm trying so hard not to disturb you anymore. not because i don't want to, not because i don't miss you with everything i am, but because i know that sometimes, silence is the only thing left to give. i've already said what i needed to say, i've already reached out so many times, and i've made it clear how much i cared. but now, i don't want to keep forcing myself into your life if i’m not really wanted there. i don't want to keep waiting for a reply that may never come, or hoping for a call that you'll never make. i think i always will, even though i want so badly not to. it hurts, but i have to respect the space between us. i'm reminding myself that i've already done my part. because if you wanted to reply, you would have. if you wanted to stay, you would have. and since you didn't, i'll take that as my answer. i won’t stop leaving messages here, though. my love still deserves a place to exist, even if it’s not with you. #comebackanytime —mae.

i dont know why i cant be strong. i was sober for almost two years. i had three months left. i’m worse than i’ve ever been.

my sugar daddy scammed me

how are you? how's work? i miss you so much :(( i never should have said those words to you; i was wrong and now, i'm miserable. i miss the way you care for me; you were the only person who truly knows me. -C

Even though I hate the thought of you getting drunk, thinking of you holding her while being sober is way worse. Gosh, and I thought we were on the same level of understanding. This is why communication is so important to me, Marwan. Can you see it now? Can you understand now? After it is too late?

HIII LEIA.... GIRL I LOVE YOU SO MUCHB YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME... I just want you to know your my bestest friend and hope we're together forever... You get me so well and your truly are a great friend... Don't let others let you down and I'm always here for you to talk too<33 Just know that you can talks to me about anything LITTERLY ANYTHING... And I won't judge... I've got soo much to say but my dumb head can't think of itt😭😭... Leia, you make me soo happy, even during my bad days and my worst you always make me laugh and smile... And just know that I'm always here for you, Ill be here to make you laugh and be there during your worst... I can go on and on(like a never ending song heheheh) on how your one of my bestest friends.... And imm sooo sorry for making you sit through all of my yapfests about my new fandoms like girl u need a raiseee???!???! Soo just remember that I'll be here for you in anything and everything and you can tell and ask me anything ❤💛💛

i miss you, leo. i miss hearing your voice, hearing the smile in it when you were happy, when you were being silly with me. i miss knowing that even with everything you’ve been through, there were still moments where you felt safe enough with me to smile and laugh. i miss being there for those moments. i miss how gentle you were with me, how safe you made me feel, and how happy i was just getting to know you. i know you’ve been hurting, too. i know there are things you struggle with that i can’t fix for you, no matter how much i wish i could. i just wanted to be someone you could feel safe with, someone you could laugh with when things were hard, someone who cared about you even on the days you couldn’t see anything good in yourself. i saw all of it. i don’t just miss being loved by you. i miss you as a person. i miss the little things about you that probably seemed insignificant to you at the time, but mean everything to me. i wish i could hear your voice one more time, hear you smile, and know that you’re okay. i don’t think you understand how much this hurts. i’m trying to make sense of losing someone who meant so much to me, without even getting to understand what happened or say goodbye properly. i miss you in all the little moments, and it feels like everything i was looking forward to has disappeared overnight. i wish i knew how to make this hurt less. i wish missing you didn’t feel so heavy, especially knowing that all i want is to hear your voice and know that you’re okay. i still care about you so much, leo. i don’t know what happens from here, and i know i can’t make you come back. i just wish things had been different. i wish we could have talked through everything instead of losing each other like this. i miss you, and i hope that somewhere, even if i’m not there to hear it anymore, you’re still finding reasons to smile. i’ll wait for you. —mae.