Thank you

Cher Arturo de París, I thought about sending this to your email for a couple of days, and after sitting with it, I decided not to do that, because I do not want to affect your life and your relationship with your wife. The truth is that I could not figure any other way for telling you this, so I just posted this here.  For the past seven years I have missed you, very much. Somehow, from time to time, I kept on seeing things that reminded me of you. As I wrote this letter, tears were falling from my eyes because I know that some feelings are still somewhere in me because I never got the chance to tell you how much you meant to me. Even though now you’re a total stranger to me.  Two weeks ago, I did a trip to Paris and obviously I couldn’t be in your city and not think of you… While I was there, I imagined what it would be like to actually see you again, even though the possibilities were really low. I wondered what would I do. Would I have the courage to say hello to you? “Maybe that would be wrong, I don’t know if he doesn’t want to talk to me” — I thought. I wondered that if you saw me, you would ignore me and I would’ve ignored you too? Or smile to you from afar? Thankfully, we didn’t cross paths, because I wouldn’t know what I would’ve done.  Some years ago, after our exchange semester in Warsaw, we were supposed to see each other but COVID and life happened, and then I decided not to risk going there to see you. There are few things I regret in my life and one of them was not taking that plane to Paris, but I am sure everything happens for a reason. I had many dreams of seeing you again, hugging you and just catching up on how were we living our lives and achieving our goals, because the truth is, I really wanted you to stay in my life… In that sense, and given the fact that we have not seen each other nor spoken in so many years, I wanted to let you know that I am very proud of you for becoming a sport coach. I always thought that you would be a fantastic teacher, and now you are! Applying philosophy into body and health. I am very happy for you and all that you’ve achieved with your Hyrox! Probably you don’t know anything about me. But in case you’re interested, here is the summary what I have been up to for the past years: I graduated with honors and after having so many ugly jobs, I (finally) worked where I wanted for three years, learnt a bit more of French and now I recently moved to Switzerland to do a Masters Degree specializing in Human Rights and Humanitarian Action. I still have not decided if I want to become Ambassador or not, but what I am sure is that my purpose is defend and promote minorities' rights. I remember all too well of what we lived in Warsaw. For me it was like a dreamy movie with some pain and sadness, but when I remember you in it, it also has a tint of happiness and a good feeling. I just wanted you to know that in many ways, you saved me. You also taught me so much about life and philosophy. I still carry that with me. Definitely meeting you was a way of discovering new things about life and about myself. I don’t know how to explain this, but I really felt seen with you, like you saw me for who I was. I don’t know if you ever felt it, but I must assure you that I felt something really intense and passionate towards you, something you can only experience once in your life. You were kind, intelligent, curious, funny, wise, and overall, a great human being. You’re a memory of a person that I will always remember fondly, and I hope you feel the same way about me, but if you don’t, that’s okay. With you, and after these past years, I’ve learnt that not everything in life has to last forever in order for it to be special. Some of the greatest persons in our lives don’t stay forever, and that is the case with you. Anyways, my final words to you are that I am glad and happy you that exist, because we got to know each other and coincide for a very short amount of time in our lives. You were transcendental in my life and will always be.  So go on and live a fulfilling life, help others and may all your goals and desires come true. I wish you the best for you and for all your family. If we ever cross paths again, I’ll smile at you, but that’s all. After this letter, there’s simply nothing left to say. So with this, I release you from my heart and I let you go forever Arthur,  Love you always, your María.

I love u so much kenja pls come back ill be better this time I wont annoy u pls js come back ur everything and all i want ken i dont want better u told me to forget it but i can never forget u n i will always love u bc u were sm i truly loved u will always have a space in my heart i love u soooo much ken i hope u change ur mind n realise how much my heart truly yearns for u j love u kenja pls come back ur all i ever wanted i miss the times we had the memories we made the long calls we had thank u for everything ken I love u pls come back ur all i ever want u will always stay on my mind 24/7 i love u ken i rlly do pls i hope u change ur mind i rlly hope🤍

Hey, I’m really sorry I always think about you. It’s hard because it’s not like we cut contact, I have your socials and it’s just so hard sometimes to not text you. I’m still mad at the stupid reason we left off, I don’t know if it was really sincere or not. I wish we could restart and see how it goes, although when we broke up I cried. And cried and cried. For 5 months every night I would cry and write you a letter. I would say the things I miss the things I realized. You were so sweet, I loved your laugh your kindness, your humour and your hugs and caringness. I really loved you, now u don’t know, u don’t know whether it’s the love of our memories or my original heart felt emotion from when we were together. You hurt me and I will never get over that, I hust hate that I still feel I need you in my life. I wish there was a 2nd chance for us, but obviously not, you moved on and I know that.

Even though we’re no longer by each other’s side, every year, I’ll still hope that you have a wonderful birthday. I hope you’ll always be happy. Thank you for being my “orange cat.” I wish you had realized just how much you once meant to me. I wish you had known that, back then, all it would have taken was a single word from you for me to stay. Then I wouldn’t have had to cry and write those words, these lines, or all the things I would say afterward. I wish you had realized that. It’s still inside me. I want to tell you everything, but I just keep crying whenever I think about those memories. I can't tell you. Maybe we can be bestfriend in another lifetime. I’m sorry I can’t be there to see you succeed and be happy. But I hope that you will always be the best person in the world. Love you from far away. H

Haii zoya , lemme be the one to tell you how much greatful I am , to have a person to look back to , to know that someone cares for me. I truly have lots of friends but ur the one I would comfortably share with. Meeting you is one of the greatest events in my life.I love you, to the moon and back With love, Your-nowadays tryna figure life out- bestie

Hey...how have you been? I don't think you even remember me at all, but there was no single when I didn't thought of you. Arnav, you are my first love. I still remember the day I first saw you in second grade wearing white shirt and blue jeans. Then you came sat in front of me. That's how we became friends. Every moment with you is very precious to me. I remember playing in parks, making sand castles, and you favourite food being curd also how you were excited and patient with me to tell things. You might not know but in 2nd grade, I was bullied. You were the only happiness during those years. My childhood has become a precious memory because of you <3. You were the brightest person I ever met. I loved spending time with you. Even though, now that we're not in contact because of abrupt school transferring, just know I'll always cherish my time with you. Sometimes I wonder whether you remember me or not. Well, it doesn't matter, atleast one has to preserve these memories. Even though it's been 7 years since I last saw you, I still remember your face very vividly.

Hi, how's life? I just wanna say thank you for being a reason why i am so happy at that time, with all your presence, your words, your laugh, and everything you've done (to me especially). I'm sorry if my words are make u feel bothered, this is the only thing i can do to write this letters, because i'm too afraid to say it in person. thank you, once again. see you when i see you.

You saved my life. You made the past few years bearable. And now we are apart. I miss you. I love you.

Mace, this will be the last time I message you. Thank you for coming into my life; short as it was, I was truly the happiest. Don’t worry—maybe not today, next week, or next month, but I will surely be okay and move on, even if part of me doubts I ever fully will. Like I said, you’ll be the last one I love in this lifetime. I will carry this silent yearning until the pain fades—though I think I will just slowly learn to accept it while my heart is still beating. For the last time in this lifetime of mine, to my greatest love: I love you to the moon and back, Mace.

So often my heart hurts. Too often I wish I could tell you I’m fine. Too often I wish i didn’t feel the way I do. But I can no longer pretend. I’ve been dying from my own mind, succumbing to my trauma. I’ve never been ok since we first met back on May 2013. You were the only hope I had left in life. You saved me that day by the fountain but i would never tell you. I’d rather you believe I am strong. Believe that I can handle my life. But I can’t. I can’t pretend to be happy with my life. Can’t pretend that I don’t believe you when you say I’m your friend. A friendship where I’m constantly isolated from you yet everyone always with you and are closer than I’ll ever be with you. The truth of the matter is I constantly feel you only pretend that I’m your friend because i don’t leave your side. I’ve been here through your good and through your bad but yet you’re never there when I need you. Never there while I’m silently being swallowed up next to you. Despite all that. Despite my dad constantly raping me, despite getting multiple abortions, despite dating men to have a place to live even though they constantly drive me to suicide because they don’t actually love me, despite the fact that every little time you got angry at me or had one of your characters break up with me that led me to attempting to drink bleach. I can’t kill myself. Can’t let you be hurt because you didn’t do something to save me. Didn’t notice my pain and the feeling of isolation that would snap and crumble the moment you let me go as a friend. I could never hate you. I’m incapable of hating you. For you are the only thing keeping me alive. You have always been my rock and the reason I live. Even the years we never talked i stayed in hopes of you reaching out. So I’ll keep living an unhappy life, a stable toxic life, a life where I can still see you live and be happy. I’ll stay living and breaking my body for a stable life that isn’t on the streets. I know it isn’t healthy to put my happiness and hope all on you but I honestly don’t have anything else to look forward to. I should have died when I was born with my umbilical cord wrapped around my neck and a hole in my right lung, i should have died at 10 when my mom fed herself and me sleeping pills and hit my head with a fireplace log. I should have died at 11 when my dad took all the pills in the medicine cabinet. I should have died at 16 when the first boyfriend to get me pregnant shot me and the friend I kept my son at so my father wouldn’t find out and kill me. I should have died the 5 pregnancies from my dad that he wouldn’t let me go to a hospital to have that resulted them to be stillbirths. I should have died when I was ready to give up my life unable to bare being a sex doll to my dad anymore. But I never did. Life kept pushing me unhappily forward and while I keep finding brief moments of happiness it’s constantly taken away. Taken by friends leaving me, taken by men tired of my used up body. Taken by fake friends who talk behind my back. I know you’ll never discover this unless i ever show you and I hope you never do find this. I wish Jewel could just be make believe. I wish I could just separate the character of you guys from real life but I can’t. This is all real to me. The feeling of isolation from Fenrir and Ivarr, the hatred from Nate and him calling me a whore who should die, the unfriending of my character. but i can’t this is all my reality because it’s Jewel’s reality. I’m sorry as I let the blood flow down my arms again just like I had after azure left Jewel, again as Fenrir scolded for the hair dye when I did it to my own hair in real life, and finally again now seeing Nate unfriended Jewel and Sapphire from where winds meet. If I still survive this yet again it’ll just be one more unhappy day watching you have the best life. If I don’t make it finally I’ll be happy to be free of my earthly body and watch you from the afterlife to make sure you never know pain again

Dear Ki, Hello, Dear! I would like to say that I apologize again if I have ever hurt or offended you. I have never intended to hurt you or your family and if you feel as though I have, I am sorry. Everything I did was out of either love, confusion, or authenticity. I felt a true, spiritual connection with you that I still do. Whatever occurred truly brought great things for everyone, we make the best pair. I understood or felt like I understood parts of you and you did for me. I do still have love for you and am willing to forget everything and act like it never happened. I am willing to move on as I am 100% professional and do not need monetary compensation as hush money or anything. I have no ill will or hatred and now seek to carry on my vision for the purpose of these women who need leadership. I will stay out of your way and won't be a bother. I hope that I helped you in the time that we connected. I am afraid that I am made to being set up which I worked too hard to have happen which is why I am hesitant in moving forward. I am professional and am focused on the work and betterment of the communities. I cannot move in ill environments, I cannot continue to play the games. I am grateful to everyone and hope that everyone can see my true heart now just as much as they did back then, I am just stronger now. I love you! I am embarrassed at the mistake that I made but I have already repented for doing so. It still crosses my mind from time to time. I may not ever get to talk to you, as I actually want to live and am not risking my life anymore. You know what I am, and I thank you for not judging me. Please do not tell anyone about my intimate life. I am a professional first. I am whole. I thank you for everything! I am looking to help people and use the gifts for healing just as much as this matter was able to create. Distance may be best between us for professional matters. Thank you again to everyone! Continuing to work and walk in my calling. Best, Tianna

Hey. I was thinking about you again, wondering if you too think about me. I’m going through a lot right now, it feels like life is just slapping me left and right, but when I see you, when I talk to you, life reminds me that there are moments like that, that gets me going. As much as I want to know the answer to my question, I am quite content with the pace of this… friendship? Although, I want it to be more, but I am afraid that I would ruin this connection. I’d rather have you as a friend than to lose you from my life. This might be a one-sided connection, but I swear I feel it! The way you glance at me, the way we speak, the way we move, but I also feel that we have the same fear or maybe I just deluded. But for now, I won’t burden you with my feelings. I just realized through this awakening that shook my life, I love you and I don’t have to do anything about it. I can simply love you from afar, and that’s okay. I don’t have to have you… like a beautiful flower, you don’t pick it, you water it and let it grow. But I am letting you go, if you find your person and that’s not me, it’s okay. You were never mine to lose anyway. I love you and I hope you find what you’re looking for, even if it’s not me. 😭 but lowkey I wish it was me! 🫠 I will be the person I am meant to be, and if you were for me, I will meet you there. 😌 With much love, ~J

Sorry, my teacher. But I'm not too smart or hard-working like you think. i like playing video games and drawing. But I never want to study english like that... I'm so sorry... My english teacher. Thank you for helping me, now I have to do better in the next school.

I'm grateful that you were my first. My first kiss, my first boyfriend, the one I learned new things with. I don't regret ending it, ending us but I don't regret our time either. And I'm sorry if how I ended it made you not feel the same. I'm writing this because I'm realizing how good of a boyfriend you were. I always knew that but it's been made more clear by my friends' experiences with their now exes how bad people can be. All that to say I hope you can still be a good boyfriend with whoever you end up with. Don't let hurt and bitterness change you. Please still be kind and respectful even when you've been hurt. -bee

Heyy, This is Starr I’m writing this message a year in advance. The day I’m writing this is 10/22/26. We met on the first of October and that’s when you should get this message. Long intro mb😭. I have no idea what will happen in this year but I wanted to make this because no matter what happens I want you to know that I will always be grateful I met you. Everyday I’ve spent with you so far has been the best time in my life and I know it’ll keep being that. You are the most amazing and genuine and funny person I’ve ever meet. I love everything about you, I love your laugh, your smile, your kindness, your personality, the way you genuinely care about me. I want you to know I will always care about you deeply and nothing will ever change that. There’s nothing you could ever do that would make me see you differently, make me leave you, or make me not wanna talk to you. There may be rocky parts because we both have our own issues but no matter what I will always be here for you. I’ve never seen a future with anyone before and that scares me and that’s why I in the beginning act a little distant at times. I can see us living together and having a family which I never ever thought I’d even consider having kids but with you it feels different. I feel safe with you even though I’m scared you might leave I feel like you might not and that also scares me because I’ve never had anyone stay and that scares me because I don’t know how to act because I’m used to being able to act like who I really am and not care because I know they’re gonna leave but with you I’m scared to be myself because if you don’t leave you’ll know me completely and forever and that scares me because no one knows me fully not even my mom. Your the most amazing person I’ve ever met and I will always be grateful to have you in my life. There’s probably a million more things I could say but I won’t right now. I’m so excited to spend the rest of our lives together. Love, starr

ამ ყველაფრის შემდეგ, შეხედე, სადამდე მოვედით… ათასობით კითხვა გვაქვს, მაგრამ არც ერთი პასუხი… სათქმელიც აღარაფერი დაგვრჩა. და როგორ მოხდა, რომ სულით მონათესავეები უბრალოდ ორ უცხო ადამიანად ვიქეცით? მინდა, კიდევ ერთხელ დავლიოთ ერთი ბოთლი ღვინო, გავიხსენოთ… როგორ ვცეკვავდით ოდესღაც ვარსკვლავებთან ერთად… როგორ გვჯეროდა თითოეული ჩვენი ოცნების… მოგონებები მკლავს… და მითხარი, რა არის კარგი ამ „მშვიდობითში“?.. დღეს შენ მტოვებ მე, მე კი — შენ… სხვადასხვა გზით მივდივართ — სულები, კომპასის გარეშე დარჩენილნი… ამ ყველაფრის შემდეგ ორივე შევიცვალეთ. მე უკვე სხვა ქალი ვარ, შენ კი — ახლა უკვე სხვა კაცი… რა მოხდა? და როგორ? როგორ დაგროვდა ეს მანძილი იმ პატარა, ერთი შეხედვით უმნიშვნელო ამბებისგან? იქნებ უბრალო „გამარჯობა, როგორ ხარ?“ ჩვენი გადარჩენა ყოფილიყო… მე ხომ ჯერ კიდევ აქ ვარ!… რა არის კარგი იმაში, როცა მეუბნები: „კიდევ მომატყუე…“ როცა სიმართლე ასე მტკივნეულია?.. მარტოები, სხვადასხვა გზით მიმავალნი, ალბათ, უკვე აღარც ვიცით, საით მივდივართ… ჩვენ ორს, ერთმანეთისგან დაშორებულებს, თითქოს აღარც კი დაგვრჩა მიზანი…

I still love you with every piece of me. You know those times Id tell u ppl can make me easily stop liking or loving them if they make me cry or hurt me a lot? well with you I realized that wasn't true, maybe for them but all those times you hurt me and made me cry my mind, heart and soul still longed for you. That time back then when u disappeared, I had written to you almost every day though I knew u wouldn't see my messages either cuz id be unadded from ur life forever or cuz u followed through with u plan u said I couldn't save u from. Also after that time we had broken up y'know how I started talking to new people? well during that time with every new interaction, I felt sick to my stomach and just wanted my sweet boy (you) back but I tried to find new and better like u said tho i knew it was impossible cuz u were perfect in my eyes.I tried to find new so I could look tough, as if I didn't care and as if nothing such as a guy bothered me, but it so badly did. I remember the number of times I tried committing because of it, I thought "what was the point of living if i couldn't have u...my reason to live, now gone...unwanting of me.. what am i doing here? I don't matter surely? who am I supposed to be now?" I remember only finding purpose through you. but as time passed Idek and Im not sure why I'm still here but I think its cuz I still have hope...hope for us, even though ik u don't ever want me again like u said. I'm still willing to go through hell and back for you even If u don't want me to. I still love you so much, there was never a day I didn't love or think of u. Theres so much I left unsaid because I was scared, you'd stop loving me..but hey it happened anyway so idk why i was so terrified, I should've spoke my mind to you, straight forward. I still think of the hibachi baby videos and truly when i seen them back then i thought maybe once we settled down and were living right we'd have a kid or 2 and once they were 1 or 2yo we'd take them to the hibachi grill place and record their reactions. hahaha. I still think of it at times. I noticed myself thinking, saying and doing stuff id never do when I was with you, and alot of it helped me. I learned to love parts of myself i use to hate and learn to like and know about other things cuz of u. I still want to give you everything u want and deserve but I feel even tho its right at your door u want it to be another person to give it all to u I hope I could be that person in the future. when I see mangos, I still think of u, my handsome mango :) I wish u could see how I see you. I still have sm gifts I still need to give you!!!I hope I can someday, but face to face. You're perfect and idc if u say ur not because u are so dam perfect in my eyes i fricken love you so fricken much it aches me knowing I cant tell u this burning passion for u I still have hidden within. I try to keep my mind and distance to myself so u won't push me further away but i tend to ignore myself n yap then i beat myself for it cuz youd start distancing urself seemingly. I hate it whenever ur gone. It kills me so much, sometimes I wish u felt this pain i felt for u whenever u was gone and during all the other things. I YEARN SO BAD FOR YOU BUT YOU JUST DONT SEE IT OR DONT CARE... Im sorry for the ways I am. Please know I keep my promises,every single one i ever made to u (that's if U want me to still follow throug with them) and I will love u till the day that I die, even in the after life.

Dear Shelly Belly, Happy 18th birthday! You're a granny now and it's so surreal that we've known each other for more than half our lives. I will cherish our memories forever and I know we will continue to make new memories throughout the future. Thank you for being my best friend for so long and being someone I can depend on. Always know that I love you and I will continue to support you no matter what. Remember that you are always loved and cared for. I hope you have the best birthday ever! With Lots Of Love, Your Claire Bear

Hola Alex, pupuchito, bobo, tonto... Gracias por todo, otro pequeño lugar donde dejar una huella del gran amor que te tuve 🫶 No te guardo resentimiento, te guardo gratitud y amor Creo que lo que más espero haberte enseñado y dejado es mi maravillosa forma de amar <3 Con cada día que pasa yo te he dejado ir más y más, creo que es natural dejar ir las cosas, aunque sinceramente nunca creí que te empezaría a superar tan pronto...quizá es porque hice todo en mis manos para que te llegara mi amor y con eso me quedo, di todo de mi, di mi alma y corazón y te los entregué las veces que pude antes de irme cansando y entendiendo que hay cosas más allá de nosotros. Soy una romántica eso es algo que me di cuenta, quizá idealista incluso jajaja Quizá nunca encuentre lo que mi corazón necesita, no lo sé Te amo mucho y como no tienes idea

HIII LEIA.... GIRL I LOVE YOU SO MUCHB YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME... I just want you to know your my bestest friend and hope we're together forever... You get me so well and your truly are a great friend... Don't let others let you down and I'm always here for you to talk too<33 Just know that you can talks to me about anything LITTERLY ANYTHING... And I won't judge... I've got soo much to say but my dumb head can't think of itt😭😭... Leia, you make me soo happy, even during my bad days and my worst you always make me laugh and smile... And just know that I'm always here for you, Ill be here to make you laugh and be there during your worst... I can go on and on(like a never ending song heheheh) on how your one of my bestest friends.... And imm sooo sorry for making you sit through all of my yapfests about my new fandoms like girl u need a raiseee???!???! Soo just remember that I'll be here for you in anything and everything and you can tell and ask me anything ❤💛💛