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How could you neglect your child like that? was sick. Depressed. Neglected. Scared. And all I ever wanted was a father. All because I wasn’t perfect enough for you. All because I wasn’t my sister. I can’t remember so much of my childhood. I wonder if I even have a good memory of you…all I can see is you in my face threatening me. My father, threatening me.

You’ve been my friend for most of my life yet you treated me as an afterthought. I did so much for you. I begged and fought to be seen by you and you never cared for me. I tried to get over it but you’re just a selfish person deep down..

All I ever wanted was to be your friend and help you. But you’ve only ever been cruel to me. I hope karma is real and treats you the same. Please stop staking me. Please stop with the threats. Please stop sending people to me to spy on me. Please go away.

I’m sorry, baby, if I failed you again. I know I’ve said sorry so many times, but I still feel like those words will never be enough to make up for everything I’ve done. I didn’t even get the chance to properly say sorry because, honestly, hindi ko kinaya. Ang dami kong gustong sabihin, pero hindi ko alam kung paano ko sisimulan. I don’t know if you’ll ever see this, and I don’t even know if you still care enough to read it. I really wanted to do something for us last month pa but i am nahihirapan to adjust dahil sa nalaman ko. Ik nagsabi akong babawi ako nahirapan lang ako simulan. Pero please don’t fall for him. Tayo naman talaga eh. It is our love. Tayo talaga wala siya sa story baby. This is our story. I’m sorry for hurting you again and for making you feel like I never learned from my mistakes. I can’t change what already happened, but I wish I could go back and do things differently. If this is the only way I can say what I wasn’t able to say to you personally, maybe in the future. I really hope masabi ko toh. Mahal na mahal kita Erika Amacio.

The more time that goes past, the more time I wonder. My life is everything I ever imagined, everything I dreamed of. So why does it feel you're missing? Two years it's been since i've seen you. The biggest heartbreak of my life having to let you go. Fly across the world to filful your dreams. I never thought that loving you would've made me lose myself in the process, who would've thought that loving you more than myself was only hurting me. Without you I have grown, I am the best version of myself emotionally and mentally. I thrive in my life, but why do I wish you were still in it? I want to know about yours and how you are doing. I want to reach out and tell you I miss you. Not our relationship, I miss you. I miss my best friend, who understood me when I didn't even get myself. On the same wavelength when it came to our opinions on stuff, but also on completely opposite ends too. I miss arguing with you. Isn't that crazy? I don't argue with anyone in my life now. Do I just miss someone fighting for me enough? I miss your laugh and the way you looked at me. I always wonder what you would do if you saw me today. I wonder how you feel and most of all I wonder how I would feel. Two years has passed, I thought about you every month, became every week to now everyday. Is this just my karma for how I left things? All the resentment and anger I held towards you and leaving me here alone, I was broken. You were the love of my life and still my boyfriend, but across the world for ten months. It was the hardest thing in my life I have ever had to deal with and I wonder if it was the same for you. One thing I know, if you came back for Christmas, we would have made it through. I wonder about that from time to time and maybe you do too. My mind wanders, it always wanders back to you, I do still love you, what I have come to realise in the last couple of months but dropping my whole life for you would never be an option again. I have built myself from the bottom, I have a stable job, friendships which I've never had before and a stable/ healthy relationship. I miss you and I love you, if I could go back in time to our relationship I would, but I wish we had the personalities and attitudes towards life that we do now. Maybe growing separately was the thing we needed. I hope you are happy in your current life and reaching all your goals. I hope your relationship is happy, hopefully she loves you even just a quarter of the amount I did. I've never loved anybody in my life like I did you, never will I again. One thing I know for sure, in every other life. You are my soulmate. But in this one, I had to choose myself.

To my dearest, happy birthday! Even in silence, I hope you can always feel the warmth of every prayer I send your way. Wishing you the gentlest, happiest, and most comforting year ahead. Seeing one of your biggest dreams finally come true... stepping into that new world and braving all the tough steps makes me so endlessly proud of you. I hope every other dream you carry will gradually unfold and come true, too. The days might be intense and tiring, but I know how strong you are. May God always protect your steps, wrap you in strength, and keep you safe. :) Even from 294 km away, and even with everything that has changed between us, please know that I will always keep wishing you godspeed from afar. Thank you for being such a meaningful part of my life. Happy birthday to my absolute favorite person, always.

I will be all yours, but my schedule will never be yours to control. My time remains my own—my freedom, my Friday nights, my health breaks, the clothes I wear, my solitary moments, my dates with friends, and my deepest struggles. I love you, but you are not the sun around which I must revolve. I have a life of my own to live, and I fully intend to live it. - Ms. Ambitious

i am sorry, i shouldn't have been such a dick and start blabbering things. ik it totally insignified you and I should've been more considerate of how you feel. i am sorry, i'll try to be better.

I know we're friends and I'm super happy we are. But I love you more than just a friend. I'm sorry, I never wanted to feel this way about you but I can't help it. You mean so much to me and I can't risk losing our friendship if I ever confess. It hurts my heart when you talk about other boys all the time and I know you won't ever love me back since your straight and I'm a just girl and I'd never be your chosen one. I can't get you out of my head at all, you appear in my dreams too. I sometimes even feel my heart aching, my body feeling numb, and even nauseous sometimes. My mind keeps drifting towards memories of us, every compliment you gave me, your happy smile, when I make you laugh, and so much more. I even still have the hoodie and every little thing/ gift you gave me and I cherish it deeply for some reason even if it’s tiny. I care about you but I can’t help but feel jealous when you’re talking to other friends or people other than me. It’s horrible I know and I don’t want to feel this way. I hate how my feelings keep growing for you and building up as time passes, and I can’t do anything about it. Maybe one day in the near future I’ll realize this is was all just a phase and my feelings will fade eventually. But for now I love you so much sweetheart and in the end you deserve to end up with a person that will make you happy.

My dearest grandma, thank you for everything, and for being the most funny and lovable grandma there is. I love you so much with all your imperfections, and I'm so lucky to have you. I cannot imagine a life without you la, I know time will come that you will leave me, but I hope you'll be here when I reach my dreams. Let me give the life you deserve, let me experience a time where you lean on me not other way around. Let me take you and lolo to different places around the world, I know you have already gone to beautiful places but still. I love you lola, with all the love that I could offer stay with me please.

first of all,fuck you. secondly, im rlly sorry for acting like a btch yesterday, i know i shouldnt have done all the things i did yesterday. i know i shouldnt have walked away when i could have talked it out. i was the one who walked away yet im the one whos getting affected at peak bro. i feel a whole lotta things but idk how to say it to you bcus im afraid my feeling wont get validated. to be brutally honest, i like you like a fat kid loves cake so im def not well when we dont speak mi bruv and yes it is that serious. & love, looks alot like you so i'll murk a ho for u. cringeee but miss u, alot, like alot.

Hey Haris, I saw your letter just now on the 12th of September, it is currently 4:47am and wanted to say Happy 22nd Birthday. You'll probably never see this but I understand that feeling that no-one is around you so I hope that this will somehow reach you, if not who ever gets to read this please know that you are not alone. You matter.

i like you.(a lot)

when someone asks "what if u crossed paths again, would u want to try again?" why do I still want to? why do I still want u back? us back?

hi pingu, I hope ure doing well, I miss u a lot...

Hello! There you are! My best frienddd hiiiiiiiiii how you've been?? i know you are busy these days but i also know that you think about me so it's okay! I just wanted to let you know that i am so great full to have you in my life .I wanted you to know that talking to you has been very helpful to me as a very confused and stressed girl you are someone who makes my smile when i am sad [ that's something no one can do] You are some one who unknowingly stops me from taking the wrong path. You are someone who i will choose to love and be with in a heart beat. Always and forever Yours Zoye

its been past a week since you decided to put a break in our relationship, and i figured i would be seeing you less and less often. we barely speak as much as we did too, and i know its all my fault. the way i was only doing the bare minimum. how i took you for granted. but i know you didn’t want to do this, that you hold some love for me (the same love you had to hold back to make what we currently have now ‘work’) and despite it all, i respect that you wanted to choose yourself first. still, i love you, and i can never stop loving you. i’ll wait for you until you’re ready, and when i’m mentally prepared to have our future together. and if you do stop loving me and move on, i pray that you find someone who can love and accept you as much as i did.

I wish you loved me as much as I love you but its clear that will never happen I dont wish you happiness and good things in life anymore I hope you hit rock bottom and crumble into pieces because that's all you deserve, for hurting not just me countless times but everyone else I wish you were sorry and had a heart to even question if you hurt someone's feelings but I know you never will. We had a lot of good times together and I like to think back on those but I need to learn how to stop because you domanik is what's holding me back from my biggest potential I wish we never met I wish you were never apart of my story i know you won't ever think about me again unless its talking shit on me and lying about things I apparently did but we both know Id never hurt you and that I was truly the only one who actually loved you and gave you joy in life. So I'm saying goodbye Im done thinking about you, bringing you up in random conversations I never want to hear your name or see your disgusting pathetic bitch ass face again.

Happy birthday! i wish you happiness, health and goodness!

I'm so stupidly in love with you, but there's nothing I can do about it. I'm not in a position where I can just blow up my life as it is and ask you out. That's not possible for me, and I don't know that it ever will be. I desperately want to ruin our friendship, and I wonder if you know it. Every look we share secretly kills me, but I don't know if it does anything to you. I search for you in every room we're in together. You make me laugh so damn much. You're so beautiful, talented, caring and brilliant. I don't know if I'll ever say these words out loud, and I don't know that if I did that you would be receptive to my feelings, but writing them down here feels good. If I never get to love you, I hope that the person who does gives you everything you could possibly ask for and more. You deserve the world.