I miss you

Cher Arturo de París, I thought about sending this to your email for a couple of days, and after sitting with it, I decided not to do that, because I do not want to affect your life and your relationship with your wife. The truth is that I could not figure any other way for telling you this, so I just posted this here.  For the past seven years I have missed you, very much. Somehow, from time to time, I kept on seeing things that reminded me of you. As I wrote this letter, tears were falling from my eyes because I know that some feelings are still somewhere in me because I never got the chance to tell you how much you meant to me. Even though now you’re a total stranger to me.  Two weeks ago, I did a trip to Paris and obviously I couldn’t be in your city and not think of you… While I was there, I imagined what it would be like to actually see you again, even though the possibilities were really low. I wondered what would I do. Would I have the courage to say hello to you? “Maybe that would be wrong, I don’t know if he doesn’t want to talk to me” — I thought. I wondered that if you saw me, you would ignore me and I would’ve ignored you too? Or smile to you from afar? Thankfully, we didn’t cross paths, because I wouldn’t know what I would’ve done.  Some years ago, after our exchange semester in Warsaw, we were supposed to see each other but COVID and life happened, and then I decided not to risk going there to see you. There are few things I regret in my life and one of them was not taking that plane to Paris, but I am sure everything happens for a reason. I had many dreams of seeing you again, hugging you and just catching up on how were we living our lives and achieving our goals, because the truth is, I really wanted you to stay in my life… In that sense, and given the fact that we have not seen each other nor spoken in so many years, I wanted to let you know that I am very proud of you for becoming a sport coach. I always thought that you would be a fantastic teacher, and now you are! Applying philosophy into body and health. I am very happy for you and all that you’ve achieved with your Hyrox! Probably you don’t know anything about me. But in case you’re interested, here is the summary what I have been up to for the past years: I graduated with honors and after having so many ugly jobs, I (finally) worked where I wanted for three years, learnt a bit more of French and now I recently moved to Switzerland to do a Masters Degree specializing in Human Rights and Humanitarian Action. I still have not decided if I want to become Ambassador or not, but what I am sure is that my purpose is defend and promote minorities' rights. I remember all too well of what we lived in Warsaw. For me it was like a dreamy movie with some pain and sadness, but when I remember you in it, it also has a tint of happiness and a good feeling. I just wanted you to know that in many ways, you saved me. You also taught me so much about life and philosophy. I still carry that with me. Definitely meeting you was a way of discovering new things about life and about myself. I don’t know how to explain this, but I really felt seen with you, like you saw me for who I was. I don’t know if you ever felt it, but I must assure you that I felt something really intense and passionate towards you, something you can only experience once in your life. You were kind, intelligent, curious, funny, wise, and overall, a great human being. You’re a memory of a person that I will always remember fondly, and I hope you feel the same way about me, but if you don’t, that’s okay. With you, and after these past years, I’ve learnt that not everything in life has to last forever in order for it to be special. Some of the greatest persons in our lives don’t stay forever, and that is the case with you. Anyways, my final words to you are that I am glad and happy you that exist, because we got to know each other and coincide for a very short amount of time in our lives. You were transcendental in my life and will always be.  So go on and live a fulfilling life, help others and may all your goals and desires come true. I wish you the best for you and for all your family. If we ever cross paths again, I’ll smile at you, but that’s all. After this letter, there’s simply nothing left to say. So with this, I release you from my heart and I let you go forever Arthur,  Love you always, your María.

I love u so much kenja pls come back ill be better this time I wont annoy u pls js come back ur everything and all i want ken i dont want better u told me to forget it but i can never forget u n i will always love u bc u were sm i truly loved u will always have a space in my heart i love u soooo much ken i hope u change ur mind n realise how much my heart truly yearns for u j love u kenja pls come back ur all i ever wanted i miss the times we had the memories we made the long calls we had thank u for everything ken I love u pls come back ur all i ever want u will always stay on my mind 24/7 i love u ken i rlly do pls i hope u change ur mind i rlly hope🤍

you're still my muse.

Hey, I’m really sorry I always think about you. It’s hard because it’s not like we cut contact, I have your socials and it’s just so hard sometimes to not text you. I’m still mad at the stupid reason we left off, I don’t know if it was really sincere or not. I wish we could restart and see how it goes, although when we broke up I cried. And cried and cried. For 5 months every night I would cry and write you a letter. I would say the things I miss the things I realized. You were so sweet, I loved your laugh your kindness, your humour and your hugs and caringness. I really loved you, now u don’t know, u don’t know whether it’s the love of our memories or my original heart felt emotion from when we were together. You hurt me and I will never get over that, I hust hate that I still feel I need you in my life. I wish there was a 2nd chance for us, but obviously not, you moved on and I know that.

Haii zoya , lemme be the one to tell you how much greatful I am , to have a person to look back to , to know that someone cares for me. I truly have lots of friends but ur the one I would comfortably share with. Meeting you is one of the greatest events in my life.I love you, to the moon and back With love, Your-nowadays tryna figure life out- bestie

I won’t say my name but you’ll know who it is. I don’t understand that. How I can move on from the relationship we had, but not from the friendship. I think about you all the time. It turns into dreams and extreme urges to see how you are. I miss our friendship so much it hurts. I don’t understand this. It’s never happened before. I Pray you’re doing well. As always, I’m proud of you.

You saved my life. You made the past few years bearable. And now we are apart. I miss you. I love you.

I wrote poems about you, I spoke to about you to people who wanted me. I was so blind thinking I could actually be loved. Though you did say the words I love you what are words without actions. You fell for another girl Im not angry at her though, I'm upset with you that u finally made me have hope and u crushed it. I was crying in those vms, I didn't want to confess that I was upset that u could move on so quick. Why where u so distant and rude to me before we stopped talking? Though we never dated you were the lines of poetry that filled my heart with pure joy. I never felt any kind of love like this. And I know you've moved on from me but I think about you every day. I loved everything about u that u didn't love about urself, those late night talks Mason when u would cry and you would reach out to me for reassurance and help was that all to fill in the empty void in ur heart. I never meant anything to you, I just hope you know my love for you will never go. I don't think I can actually ever hate you since I loved u more then life itself. Ur fav color is purple and it's now my least favorite color. I rmbr ur bday my now least favorite date on the calendar.

I personally think falling in love is something truly unique a kind of magic that turns two people into soulmates, people say a prince deserves a life with his princess. You know it is two souls connected for a lifetime, supporting each other through everything. I have a lot of financial problems right now that might crush me at any time, but I am still working hard. I wanted a way to send an anonymous message just to say: I really love you, and I’ve waited for you all this time. Please don't take me too seriously. I totally respect fate, which is even stronger than love. If my fate is a separation for a lifetime, then let it be. I have never met you, but I genuinely care about you. I tend to like science more than pure emotional thinking: if science is strong and we are destined to live a normal life together, let it be. After all, it's all about space-time. If there is a chance I never meet you across all of time, I just wanted to leave this message here so you might read it somewhere in the world one day. (And please, don't spam my social media! Lol :D) A quick note for everyone reading this: Take care, guys, be well, and learn about finances so you don't end up taking losses like I did!

I am caught on someone who will never speak to me again. I miss you and I wonder if you ever lay in bed with a lump in your throat thinking about me. I just want to get to know you again, just to talk. Fuck I love you still. I can’t believe someone else will get to marry you someday. I miss you. -S

I miss you my beautiful girl. I’ve been thinking about the choice i made and i’ve been regretting it ever since, i was a fool to leave you. You mean so much to me i just hope you knew that before our break up. If you ever need anything know i’ll always be here for you baba -999

Hey my love, i dont know if your ever going to see this. I just wanted to say that im sorry for the way i treated you, you meant everything to me and i wish i couldve done better my sweet girl. Ill always be here for you just shoot me a text. I miss you baba... -L -12411/999

Yesterday when your mom was okay with you talking to me I was confused but I really hope she is starting to like me again because I miss you. I love you I hope we can hang out again.

I miss you to be honest, I dont like admiting it because its painful. I am still your friend, I see you everyday, but I know that you dont like me anymore. You did though, you did like me and from one friday to another u decided that we werent meant for each other, that we were not alike and that you just didnt like me anymore and that you didnt want any drama from it. We didnt even date, I know that, its just that for me even though we didnt date, it was real for me. Whatever we had was the best thing and realist thing that has ever heppened and I pussed u to hard on trying to make you ask me out that I dont know, I got a bit annoying, but I just wanted to see if someone cared enough for me to actually do the firtd step, because I have always been the one doing the most effort. I do miss you but I know that we wot have anything anymore so I shouldnt care that much anymore. Well I guess I will see u tomorrow friend.

Heyy, This is Starr I’m writing this message a year in advance. The day I’m writing this is 10/22/26. We met on the first of October and that’s when you should get this message. Long intro mb😭. I have no idea what will happen in this year but I wanted to make this because no matter what happens I want you to know that I will always be grateful I met you. Everyday I’ve spent with you so far has been the best time in my life and I know it’ll keep being that. You are the most amazing and genuine and funny person I’ve ever meet. I love everything about you, I love your laugh, your smile, your kindness, your personality, the way you genuinely care about me. I want you to know I will always care about you deeply and nothing will ever change that. There’s nothing you could ever do that would make me see you differently, make me leave you, or make me not wanna talk to you. There may be rocky parts because we both have our own issues but no matter what I will always be here for you. I’ve never seen a future with anyone before and that scares me and that’s why I in the beginning act a little distant at times. I can see us living together and having a family which I never ever thought I’d even consider having kids but with you it feels different. I feel safe with you even though I’m scared you might leave I feel like you might not and that also scares me because I’ve never had anyone stay and that scares me because I don’t know how to act because I’m used to being able to act like who I really am and not care because I know they’re gonna leave but with you I’m scared to be myself because if you don’t leave you’ll know me completely and forever and that scares me because no one knows me fully not even my mom. Your the most amazing person I’ve ever met and I will always be grateful to have you in my life. There’s probably a million more things I could say but I won’t right now. I’m so excited to spend the rest of our lives together. Love, starr

ამ ყველაფრის შემდეგ, შეხედე, სადამდე მოვედით… ათასობით კითხვა გვაქვს, მაგრამ არც ერთი პასუხი… სათქმელიც აღარაფერი დაგვრჩა. და როგორ მოხდა, რომ სულით მონათესავეები უბრალოდ ორ უცხო ადამიანად ვიქეცით? მინდა, კიდევ ერთხელ დავლიოთ ერთი ბოთლი ღვინო, გავიხსენოთ… როგორ ვცეკვავდით ოდესღაც ვარსკვლავებთან ერთად… როგორ გვჯეროდა თითოეული ჩვენი ოცნების… მოგონებები მკლავს… და მითხარი, რა არის კარგი ამ „მშვიდობითში“?.. დღეს შენ მტოვებ მე, მე კი — შენ… სხვადასხვა გზით მივდივართ — სულები, კომპასის გარეშე დარჩენილნი… ამ ყველაფრის შემდეგ ორივე შევიცვალეთ. მე უკვე სხვა ქალი ვარ, შენ კი — ახლა უკვე სხვა კაცი… რა მოხდა? და როგორ? როგორ დაგროვდა ეს მანძილი იმ პატარა, ერთი შეხედვით უმნიშვნელო ამბებისგან? იქნებ უბრალო „გამარჯობა, როგორ ხარ?“ ჩვენი გადარჩენა ყოფილიყო… მე ხომ ჯერ კიდევ აქ ვარ!… რა არის კარგი იმაში, როცა მეუბნები: „კიდევ მომატყუე…“ როცა სიმართლე ასე მტკივნეულია?.. მარტოები, სხვადასხვა გზით მიმავალნი, ალბათ, უკვე აღარც ვიცით, საით მივდივართ… ჩვენ ორს, ერთმანეთისგან დაშორებულებს, თითქოს აღარც კი დაგვრჩა მიზანი…

I still love you with every piece of me. You know those times Id tell u ppl can make me easily stop liking or loving them if they make me cry or hurt me a lot? well with you I realized that wasn't true, maybe for them but all those times you hurt me and made me cry my mind, heart and soul still longed for you. That time back then when u disappeared, I had written to you almost every day though I knew u wouldn't see my messages either cuz id be unadded from ur life forever or cuz u followed through with u plan u said I couldn't save u from. Also after that time we had broken up y'know how I started talking to new people? well during that time with every new interaction, I felt sick to my stomach and just wanted my sweet boy (you) back but I tried to find new and better like u said tho i knew it was impossible cuz u were perfect in my eyes.I tried to find new so I could look tough, as if I didn't care and as if nothing such as a guy bothered me, but it so badly did. I remember the number of times I tried committing because of it, I thought "what was the point of living if i couldn't have u...my reason to live, now gone...unwanting of me.. what am i doing here? I don't matter surely? who am I supposed to be now?" I remember only finding purpose through you. but as time passed Idek and Im not sure why I'm still here but I think its cuz I still have hope...hope for us, even though ik u don't ever want me again like u said. I'm still willing to go through hell and back for you even If u don't want me to. I still love you so much, there was never a day I didn't love or think of u. Theres so much I left unsaid because I was scared, you'd stop loving me..but hey it happened anyway so idk why i was so terrified, I should've spoke my mind to you, straight forward. I still think of the hibachi baby videos and truly when i seen them back then i thought maybe once we settled down and were living right we'd have a kid or 2 and once they were 1 or 2yo we'd take them to the hibachi grill place and record their reactions. hahaha. I still think of it at times. I noticed myself thinking, saying and doing stuff id never do when I was with you, and alot of it helped me. I learned to love parts of myself i use to hate and learn to like and know about other things cuz of u. I still want to give you everything u want and deserve but I feel even tho its right at your door u want it to be another person to give it all to u I hope I could be that person in the future. when I see mangos, I still think of u, my handsome mango :) I wish u could see how I see you. I still have sm gifts I still need to give you!!!I hope I can someday, but face to face. You're perfect and idc if u say ur not because u are so dam perfect in my eyes i fricken love you so fricken much it aches me knowing I cant tell u this burning passion for u I still have hidden within. I try to keep my mind and distance to myself so u won't push me further away but i tend to ignore myself n yap then i beat myself for it cuz youd start distancing urself seemingly. I hate it whenever ur gone. It kills me so much, sometimes I wish u felt this pain i felt for u whenever u was gone and during all the other things. I YEARN SO BAD FOR YOU BUT YOU JUST DONT SEE IT OR DONT CARE... Im sorry for the ways I am. Please know I keep my promises,every single one i ever made to u (that's if U want me to still follow throug with them) and I will love u till the day that I die, even in the after life.

ik I was a b*tch to ur mom but I'm sorry now and I js wish we could hang out and be 2 regular teenagers who are stupid in love with each other like we used to

leo, i’m so sorry for being so intense since you left. i want to get better. but i don’t know how. i’m so alone now. i’ve never felt for anyone the way i felt for you, and i’ve never felt heartbreak like this. i don’t know how to make it stop hurting or how to stop missing you so much. i’m trying, even if i don’t know how to do this yet. i’m sorry for struggling so much with letting go. with all my love, always. —mae.

can’t sleep. i haven’t slept properly in a week since you left. every time i try, I wake up after thirty minutes, sweating and crying from another nightmare. sometimes it’s about you leaving me. sometimes it’s about you coming back. sometimes it’s just reliving how much we adored one another, and how happy we were. somehow, even the dreams that are supposed to be good feel like nightmares when i wake up and remember that none of it is real anymore. i don’t know how to make my brain understand that i’m supposed to sleep without you now. i don’t know how to make the nights hurt less. i just know that i’m exhausted, and i miss you more than i know what to do with. dreaming of you. —mae