First love

00.00, i love you sayang. Kaka sayang sama kamu, more than I can put into words. I hope you always feel loved, even on your worst days. I love you mbul, cantik, mbuy, gemes, menal menul, adek, dede, ndut.

I love u so much kenja pls come back ill be better this time I wont annoy u pls js come back ur everything and all i want ken i dont want better u told me to forget it but i can never forget u n i will always love u bc u were sm i truly loved u will always have a space in my heart i love u soooo much ken i hope u change ur mind n realise how much my heart truly yearns for u j love u kenja pls come back ur all i ever wanted i miss the times we had the memories we made the long calls we had thank u for everything ken I love u pls come back ur all i ever want u will always stay on my mind 24/7 i love u ken i rlly do pls i hope u change ur mind i rlly hope🤍

Hey...how have you been? I don't think you even remember me at all, but there was no single when I didn't thought of you. Arnav, you are my first love. I still remember the day I first saw you in second grade wearing white shirt and blue jeans. Then you came sat in front of me. That's how we became friends. Every moment with you is very precious to me. I remember playing in parks, making sand castles, and you favourite food being curd also how you were excited and patient with me to tell things. You might not know but in 2nd grade, I was bullied. You were the only happiness during those years. My childhood has become a precious memory because of you <3. You were the brightest person I ever met. I loved spending time with you. Even though, now that we're not in contact because of abrupt school transferring, just know I'll always cherish my time with you. Sometimes I wonder whether you remember me or not. Well, it doesn't matter, atleast one has to preserve these memories. Even though it's been 7 years since I last saw you, I still remember your face very vividly.

i wanna be ur girl (please)

its hard to not be angry at you, even though i said i never could be, and i still dont think i can be, but i hope youre happier with them, i hope they give you everything i couldnt, and i hope theyre more of a man for you than i was, whether they are a man or not, i dont know. i cant bring myself to be your "best friend" after everything though, i cant just be someones friend after ive held them so close to my worst insecurity and kissed their face, and im sorry for that

I miss you my beautiful girl. I’ve been thinking about the choice i made and i’ve been regretting it ever since, i was a fool to leave you. You mean so much to me i just hope you knew that before our break up. If you ever need anything know i’ll always be here for you baba -999

Hey my love, i dont know if your ever going to see this. I just wanted to say that im sorry for the way i treated you, you meant everything to me and i wish i couldve done better my sweet girl. Ill always be here for you just shoot me a text. I miss you baba... -L -12411/999

I miss you to be honest, I dont like admiting it because its painful. I am still your friend, I see you everyday, but I know that you dont like me anymore. You did though, you did like me and from one friday to another u decided that we werent meant for each other, that we were not alike and that you just didnt like me anymore and that you didnt want any drama from it. We didnt even date, I know that, its just that for me even though we didnt date, it was real for me. Whatever we had was the best thing and realist thing that has ever heppened and I pussed u to hard on trying to make you ask me out that I dont know, I got a bit annoying, but I just wanted to see if someone cared enough for me to actually do the firtd step, because I have always been the one doing the most effort. I do miss you but I know that we wot have anything anymore so I shouldnt care that much anymore. Well I guess I will see u tomorrow friend.

I don't want to see you anymore, I can't look at you the same anymore. -honey

ამ ყველაფრის შემდეგ, შეხედე, სადამდე მოვედით… ათასობით კითხვა გვაქვს, მაგრამ არც ერთი პასუხი… სათქმელიც აღარაფერი დაგვრჩა. და როგორ მოხდა, რომ სულით მონათესავეები უბრალოდ ორ უცხო ადამიანად ვიქეცით? მინდა, კიდევ ერთხელ დავლიოთ ერთი ბოთლი ღვინო, გავიხსენოთ… როგორ ვცეკვავდით ოდესღაც ვარსკვლავებთან ერთად… როგორ გვჯეროდა თითოეული ჩვენი ოცნების… მოგონებები მკლავს… და მითხარი, რა არის კარგი ამ „მშვიდობითში“?.. დღეს შენ მტოვებ მე, მე კი — შენ… სხვადასხვა გზით მივდივართ — სულები, კომპასის გარეშე დარჩენილნი… ამ ყველაფრის შემდეგ ორივე შევიცვალეთ. მე უკვე სხვა ქალი ვარ, შენ კი — ახლა უკვე სხვა კაცი… რა მოხდა? და როგორ? როგორ დაგროვდა ეს მანძილი იმ პატარა, ერთი შეხედვით უმნიშვნელო ამბებისგან? იქნებ უბრალო „გამარჯობა, როგორ ხარ?“ ჩვენი გადარჩენა ყოფილიყო… მე ხომ ჯერ კიდევ აქ ვარ!… რა არის კარგი იმაში, როცა მეუბნები: „კიდევ მომატყუე…“ როცა სიმართლე ასე მტკივნეულია?.. მარტოები, სხვადასხვა გზით მიმავალნი, ალბათ, უკვე აღარც ვიცით, საით მივდივართ… ჩვენ ორს, ერთმანეთისგან დაშორებულებს, თითქოს აღარც კი დაგვრჩა მიზანი…

I still love you with every piece of me. You know those times Id tell u ppl can make me easily stop liking or loving them if they make me cry or hurt me a lot? well with you I realized that wasn't true, maybe for them but all those times you hurt me and made me cry my mind, heart and soul still longed for you. That time back then when u disappeared, I had written to you almost every day though I knew u wouldn't see my messages either cuz id be unadded from ur life forever or cuz u followed through with u plan u said I couldn't save u from. Also after that time we had broken up y'know how I started talking to new people? well during that time with every new interaction, I felt sick to my stomach and just wanted my sweet boy (you) back but I tried to find new and better like u said tho i knew it was impossible cuz u were perfect in my eyes.I tried to find new so I could look tough, as if I didn't care and as if nothing such as a guy bothered me, but it so badly did. I remember the number of times I tried committing because of it, I thought "what was the point of living if i couldn't have u...my reason to live, now gone...unwanting of me.. what am i doing here? I don't matter surely? who am I supposed to be now?" I remember only finding purpose through you. but as time passed Idek and Im not sure why I'm still here but I think its cuz I still have hope...hope for us, even though ik u don't ever want me again like u said. I'm still willing to go through hell and back for you even If u don't want me to. I still love you so much, there was never a day I didn't love or think of u. Theres so much I left unsaid because I was scared, you'd stop loving me..but hey it happened anyway so idk why i was so terrified, I should've spoke my mind to you, straight forward. I still think of the hibachi baby videos and truly when i seen them back then i thought maybe once we settled down and were living right we'd have a kid or 2 and once they were 1 or 2yo we'd take them to the hibachi grill place and record their reactions. hahaha. I still think of it at times. I noticed myself thinking, saying and doing stuff id never do when I was with you, and alot of it helped me. I learned to love parts of myself i use to hate and learn to like and know about other things cuz of u. I still want to give you everything u want and deserve but I feel even tho its right at your door u want it to be another person to give it all to u I hope I could be that person in the future. when I see mangos, I still think of u, my handsome mango :) I wish u could see how I see you. I still have sm gifts I still need to give you!!!I hope I can someday, but face to face. You're perfect and idc if u say ur not because u are so dam perfect in my eyes i fricken love you so fricken much it aches me knowing I cant tell u this burning passion for u I still have hidden within. I try to keep my mind and distance to myself so u won't push me further away but i tend to ignore myself n yap then i beat myself for it cuz youd start distancing urself seemingly. I hate it whenever ur gone. It kills me so much, sometimes I wish u felt this pain i felt for u whenever u was gone and during all the other things. I YEARN SO BAD FOR YOU BUT YOU JUST DONT SEE IT OR DONT CARE... Im sorry for the ways I am. Please know I keep my promises,every single one i ever made to u (that's if U want me to still follow throug with them) and I will love u till the day that I die, even in the after life.

how are you? how's work? i miss you so much :(( i never should have said those words to you; i was wrong and now, i'm miserable. i miss the way you care for me; you were the only person who truly knows me. -C

Even though I hate the thought of you getting drunk, thinking of you holding her while being sober is way worse. Gosh, and I thought we were on the same level of understanding. This is why communication is so important to me, Marwan. Can you see it now? Can you understand now? After it is too late?

Idk what to say I know I’ll never have you again.. but I honestly can’t get you out of my head I’ve tried I’ve tried so hard but I genuinely don’t understand why you have effected me so much .. maybe bc you truly loved me and I never realized till now.. fuck man I miss you I really do Vero I wish things were different I wish you gave me a chance to prove to you my love I wish I can go back in time and just hear your voice,laugh just be in your presence one more time I’ll do anything for that.. but it’s in the past I really hope you get to see this ugh Vero I wish you were mine you genuinely don’t understand how badly I miss you🫠 and i genuinely don’t understand why why can’t I get over you man… yk I still have those 2 bracelets I was supposed to give you the day you were supposed to become mine.. fuck man I just wish I can talk to you be in your presence again Veronica you don’t understand how much I miss you genuinely…. Anyways I know you’re building a life with someone else but I just want you to know that no matter how much time passes no matter what happens I’ll always have love for you and appreciate that you were once apart of my life. Thank you Veroni/pepperoni for everything if you ever read this I just want you to know that I love you Veronica I’ll always will and I’ll do anything for you.. I’m sorry for always bothering you with all these messages.. I hope you’re happy and enjoying everything I’ll always pray for your happiness and for you to always be ok… I love you Veronica I’ll always will.

you've become too dear to me in the few days we've been together.. i want you to like me so much and i want my love to be mutual. you are very dear to me, i am so afraid of spoiling everything...

I'm sorry I was a bad person but I'm different and I just wish I was different with you. It hurts my heart knowing how terrible I was. I truly miss you. I hope you are happy now and i hope shadys doing good. I also hope you found your cat Gucci I think his name was. He was a Orange Tabby. I hope you see this even though i know you probly wont. Im so sorry i couldnt be your person but im glad we arent together sometimes because i realised how missriable we both were. I wish we could be just friends but that wont ever work. I know if we get back incontact it will probly ruin both of our lives. I want to talk to you so bad though and see what you are doing and how you are and if you found your person yet. Its not fair what happend but it had to happen. I hope you are well Kaleb B. Truly, K

I’m sorry for how things ended, I still love you I always will, I hope you find the right person for you and wish nothing but good things for you. With much Love ~ A

And perhaps that is what frightens me most about you: how effortlessly you have become a part of me. How I find myself saving little things throughout the day just to tell you about them, as though every passing thought becomes a little less ordinary if I can share it with you. I catch myself wondering what you'd say, what your face would look like, whether you'd laugh at the same ridiculous things I do. It's embarrassing, really, how much of my world has begun to make room for you. I think if you were here, I wouldn't even need anything extraordinary. I'd want the sleepy mornings, the tangled limbs, the quiet laughter against your shoulder. I'd want to watch you exist without feeling the need to fill every silence. I'd want to learn the language of your little habits, memorise the expressions you make when you're concentrating, and discover all the different ways your voice sounds when you're tired, excited, or trying not to laugh. I'd want to know you in the ways that don't fit into words. Because I don't just want the beautiful parts of you. I want the strange, inconvenient, wonderfully human parts, too. The overthinking, the rambling, the moods you cannot explain, the thoughts you hesitate to share because you're afraid they might be too much. I want you to feel as though you never have to make yourself smaller for me. You can be as peculiar, as vulnerable, as gloriously yourself as you wish. I would rather know the unfiltered truth of you than fall in love with some polished version you think I might prefer. And God, I think I'm already falling for the things you haven't even realised are lovable about you. Sometimes I wonder whether you understand what you've done. You came into my life, and suddenly there are mornings I look forward to, songs that sound different, and little moments that make me wish you were there to witness them. You have somehow made the world feel like a place I want to stay in a little longer. Not because everything is suddenly perfect, but because somewhere in the middle of all its imperfections, there is you. I don't know what the future has written for us, and I won't pretend that love can promise us an easy road. But I know that if I get to keep discovering you, slowly and sincerely, through all the ordinary days and unexpected turns, I will consider myself terribly lucky. So, if you wake up tomorrow and wonder whether you crossed someone's mind before the sun rose, let it be enough to know that you did. You were there in the quiet, in the first thought I couldn't quite shake, in the little ache of wishing distance were a thing we could simply laugh away. And if the universe ever grows tired of granting me wishes, I think I'd ask it for just one more morning with you. No grand declarations. No elaborate plans. Just you, beside me. Your hand finding mine beneath the blankets, your sleepy voice breaking the silence, and the whole world waiting patiently outside our little corner of it. Because, darling, I think I could spend a lifetime learning the extraordinary art of being ordinary with you. And somehow, I think that would be the most extraordinary thing of all

hi, i miss you.

I met this guy through a friend we both broke of bc of toxic reasons; he kept sharing his feelings about me, and I started liking his company, even started to wait for the next time we would talk. Today he un-added me and then left the gc. We are both in; I'm confused about what to do. Why do I care? Why? I feel like I shouldn't care, but I think I do. I hope I get some advice or a message from the universe.