i miss you i’m sorry i messed it up it’s just that i was so scared and i genuinely felt so hideous but you made me feel beautiful inside and out and there was nothing wrong with you i hate that you don’t see how beautiful and handsome you are and how much i admire you i wish you knew how much you made my heart ache and dance and beat all at once and i’m sorry i’m still scared and that i can’t even look at you when you’re near because i’m afraid you’ll think i’m ugly or you’re just uninterested and i hate that we didn’t even date and i hate that i’m probably too late because someone told me you might be talking to someone new and i wanna lie and say i hope it goes well but i don’t and i hope it doesn’t work out so you can just come back to me i think i love you i’m really sorry you probably wouldn’t even expect this from me and i know you gave me so many chances to start again and i know i’m the one being distant but i think i really fucked it up this time and you probably don’t miss me or want me anymore and you’re probably sick of me or even disgusted of me but i can’t help but feel so much for you and towards you this is so stupid i wish you knew what you did to me please just come back to me i’m so afraid of making the first move what if you already hate me