Never told you

Hello Yashika

Hi, baby. I miss you so much. I wish I could turn back time to fix my mistakes—to fix everything. I love you. I love you so much, lablab ko. I hope you're okay. I'm silently rooting for you, and I will always be your number one fan! Agi, I miss you so much. I still can't move on. I know two years have passed, but two years is nothing if waiting and yearning means you're coming back. I'm more than happy to spend my whole lifetime waiting for you. If an alternate universe is real, I hope there's a place for me and Shana there. I hope there's a train that arrives on time so Shana and I can have the best time of our lives. I love you—Shanalaire. I will live in Switzerland, for us. I will live in Switzerland, for us.

this is wrong. what i feel for you is wrong. i cant stop myself from looking at your face, and i keep checking if you’re stealing glances of me too. sometimes i do catch you staring, but what does that mean? are you also having a hard time hiding? do you feel sick pag di ka nakakaharapit haak?masakit ba liwat ha dughan? or coincidence la adto? did you mean it han ginyakan mo nga maupay nak kaarot or han nagpakiana ak kun pogi ak tas nagyakan ka nga pogi na pogi after mo ak buligan pag belt? or were you just being friendly? gintry ko na tak best nga ig erase ka everywhere kay i know it’s wrong, pero i feel so sick and nauseous kay a lot of things remind me of you. singing reminds me of you, and its my favorite thing to do so ano man tak hihimuon? i don’t even know what this is for kay it’s useless. u love him and i think i love my gf too (at this point idk anymore), and i’m very much sure you don’t feel the same way if u happen to read this and if you’re sure kun hino ako, im really really sorry.

I sometimes wish you weren’t so easy for me to get to know, because maybe then I wouldn’t have gotten scared by how much I was starting to feel. I’m sorry if I suddenly got turned off or pulled away. I think I was just afraid of what being with you would be like, so I chose to protect myself and take good care of my heart. And yet, it’s already September, and somehow, I still find myself wondering about you—still thinking of you as one of my biggest “what ifs,” maybe even one of the greatest ones. So, I don’t know. If you’re okay with it, you can always message me anytime. Or maybe we can just leave it up to the universe and see where life takes us—whether we’re meant to rekindle something or whether things are simply better this way. Anyway, I’m genuinely proud of how much you’ve grown. I’ll always be rooting for you from wherever I am, and I’m praying that you find the success and happiness you deserve. - Z

I'll never look at Nottinghamshire the same again.

hey red, im trying so hard to move on but i js cant, every part of me wish for usto be more than what we are rn. i dont like the idea of moving on, knowing theres a part of me that wants to be with you, a part of me that wished we could try, a part of me that is yearning for us to try. ik its hard bcs we're friends, and we see each other like our own sibling, and thats the thing im regretting the most; falling inlove with my own best friend. ihyk one day if youre ready na, im still here waiting for you, and ill always will until i dont find any reasons left to wait for you. im sorry, and thank you for everything, my protein guy.

I used to really love your name, it was unique, it has a beautiful meaning, and most especially.. it's you. But now, it gives a sharp pain, a sting that's not easy to get rid of. We had a beautiful thing, in span of 850 days, 20,376 hours, 73,353,600 seconds. How did everything change? How did the man who used to cry abt the thought of losing me or ever hurting me suddenly just vanished as if he never existed? The man who comforted me through anything, my nightmares, my cries.. became the cause of my pain? My sweet, loving, caring man who makes sure I'm alright, that it's all okay and I'm doing well just didn't care about me on one random day. The man who promised that it's us against the world suddenly told me he does not want to fix what we had anymore, that he has already moved on. The man who I told about my fears because of my past relationships, the man who knows how much I loathed cheating.. that man cheated on me. Never I have ever thought that it would end between us, bcs of how you make everyday feel like there would be forever for us. Never have I ever thought that the reason that we'd be strangers again was because you betrayed me, you lied to me, you did not choose to tell me everything despite you knowing I would understand it all. Baobei, how did you become so cruel? I hope you know how much I loved you, and I'd be lying if I say that I have gotten rid of that. I gave you everything I could, and funny enough, I'm still willing to wait and start it all over again for us, give us another chance if only you would come and let go everything, be in my arms again. Bcs Jabez, I still believe in you, that one day I am praying that you would be man enough to know the weight of what you have caused, that you can apologize to me with the sincerity I have seen in you before, the genuineness that the Jabez that loved me has. I don't know if you'll ever come across this, but just know that I'm still that woman who loves you for who you are, that I'm here when you decide to actually want to fight for something precious to you. I pray that deep down in your heart, it really isn't just like that for us, that you still want and need us, that us always. You're the worst type of pain and I hope that I am for you too, or that just means you never really did mean everything we just had. I wish it just made me mad at you, that I can be mad at you or ever hate you but no, I don't think so at all. My light, come back to the path we've built if you ever think of us, alright?

I miss u aloottt

I'm sorry i never got the guts to apologize and to talk to you. I never really wanted to not talk but it just happened and its mainly my fault, I just wish I could be braver to speak my feelings. If I'm being honest I've always been incredibly jealous of you and your family but I'm embarrassed about it. When we were younger and I saw you with a cool phone, wearing what you wanted and having boyfriends it was so cool to me but you and the others always ingored me and I grew to be mad at you but I didn't mean it. I still think you're so cool and pretty and a little jealous of you still but I'm older and I realize now that thats just how it is for me and I notice the little commentsyour mom's says(she's upset that she's close to my sister and not to me and keeps trying to win me over with things but she already won me over and I try to show it), I'm not close to you guys but its okay. I still love and think about you guys. One day, I'm going to tell this to you in person and I'm going to apologize.

Ryooo, happy third monthsary yaaa. im really grateful we made this far, even tho we ended things at a bad term. aku sebenarnya ga benci kamu kok, i miss you everyday, i wonder how youre doing, i look at our old chats and think, lucu banget ya kita dulu begini. sebenarnya aku sayang banget sama kamu, kamu tetap ada di hati aku, because youre one of the most precious person in my life. im really grateful i met you, i know i wont be able to call you sayang again, but just know im here cheering for you from afar, seeing you be succsesful in life with me, be happy and healthy always ya ryo, im here if you need me. youve been the best person in my life, always supportive, always making time for me, even tho i know you wony be able to do the same thing to me now. there were a lot of obvious signs that i deeply miss you, but you probably didnt noticed wkwk. semangat ya ryo sayangg. that will be the last time ill ever call you that. haru selalu cinta ryoo.

To my dearest, my tofu, my panda, my cediebee, I always love you. Love; but in such ways that even I couldn't fathom. I love you in a way that I don't know how to express because I'm too scared of being too much. I love you as a friend, as someone much more than that, and I love you most as just another human being. I see the goodness in you and I know you might be a little dense but I also know that you're all genuine. I apologize for all the confusion taht I may have caused you. Perhaps I don't really know what love is; perhaps I know what it is but I just don't know how to. It pains me a lot to carry the guilt of lying to you just to keep you around. I know you don't deserve any of those bullcrap. Cedie, I mostly think you deserve someone better but I also really wish I could be that someone. My insecurities are eating me alive and even the bugs could taste how bitter it is. I couldn't even get myself to meet you and have lunch together because I'm afraid you'd never see me the way you did in your phone. Just know, I may not have the same face, but I still have the same heart, the same soul, and the same person that loves you, accepts you, and is willing to take you in. Thank you for being a good friend, or maybe something more than that... But thank you still for being a good person. I still don't know where this will take us but I'll gladly accept it even when it leads me to my grave. I love you. Probably not your dearest, but someone who loves you best, Clara.

I miss your so much. I will miss you for the rest of my life. BROOKLYN

hey, Just know that you are really strong and you can do it. Even if the whole world is against you, you have yourself. It doesn't matter if you find someone or not; just know that you have yourself. Anyways, today was ur sis's birthday. i hope you guys still talk and you achieve everything you want. Which is travelling the world, being free. Oh, imagine that you get into Sufism; I hope you become a better version of yourself.

Alam mo, kahit anong pilit kong paliwanag, kahit ilang beses kong sabihin, my love for you will always be greater than words could ever express. Paano ba ipapaliwanag ang pagmamahal na hindi nasusukat ng salita? How do I even begin to describe something so deep, so real? Hindi kaya gawan ng paraan ng mga letra na ilarawan kung gaano kalalim ang pagmamahal ng puso ko para sa 'yo. Nalulungkot ako na nasaktan kita—not once, but twice, or even more than that—pero ngayon, sigurado na ako sa 'yo. Alam kong mahirap paniwalaan, pero sana subukan mo pa ring bigyan ako ng pagkakataon. And if I could spend a lifetime proving it, I would. Because the truth is, even if I say "I love you" a million times, it will never be enough to capture how much I truly do. Makakaasa ka na nagbalik na 'yung dating ako na minahal ka ng higit pa sa lahat-lahat. I don't know what my future holds, pero umaasa ako na ikaw ang kasama ko doon. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang naghihintay sa akin sa bukas, pero sigurado ako sa isang bagay: I'm praying you're in it. Sa bawat pagpikit ko, iniisip ko kung anong klaseng mundo ang bubuksan ng tadhana para sa akin. Will it be kind? Will it be cruel? Pero kahit ano pa 'yan, ikaw ang tadhanang hinihiling kong makamtan. I know life is a series of questions without answers, parang pelikulang walang script, but if there's one thing I'd bet my heart on, it's you. Sa lahat ng hindi sigurado, ikaw ang bagay na gusto kong panghawakan. I don't want just a future; I want our future, and I'm praying, hoping, and fighting for you to be in it. From the quiet parts of my heart, I just want you to know how much you mean to me every single day. I may not be the best woman you've ever met, but I want you to know that I have always been sincere in my feelings for you. I've never pretended to love you—my emotions have been genuine from the start. Rest assured that I will never leave your life unless you want me to. And if you ever find someone better than me, don't hesitate to let me go. Everyone deserves the best, especially you. Kung dumating man 'yung araw na sarado na ang puso mo para sa 'kin, tandaan mo na kahit anong mangyari, palagi kang may puwang sa puso ko, palagi akong susuporta sa 'yo, at palagi kang may taong tatakbuhan sa mga araw at oras na pinanghihinaan ka ng loob. In case I don't say it enough: I'm proud of you, I'm rooting for you, and I love you. Don't push yourself too hard; may panahon para lumaban at may panahon din para magpahinga. Kung dumating man ang araw na manghina ang loob mo, sana isipin mo na may ako na pwede mong takbuhan anytime and anywhere. Mapagod man ang mundo sa 'yo, asahan mong may isang taong hindi mapapagod na saluhin at mahalin ka—at ako 'yon. I’ll always be your greatest silent angel. I’ll never get tired of believing in you, cheering you on, and celebrating every step you take toward your dreams. Gusto kong maging saksi sa lahat ng tagumpay mo—in every achievement, every breakthrough, and every little moment that makes you proud of yourself. Kahit gaano pa katagal o kahirap ang proseso, hindi ako mapapagod na suportahan ka. I hope you think of me every single time you see the moon, the stars, and the fireworks lighting up the night sky. Let the moon remind you of my quiet love that stays with you even in the silence, let the stars remind you that I’m your ally fighting alongside you in the dark, and let the fireworks remind you of how much joy you bring into my life. No matter where we are or what season of life we find ourselves in, I will always be your constant light, your safest space, and your number one supporter in everything you do. GI, PINIPILI KITA DAHIL MAHAL KITA. And to the world, he may look strong, but to me, he'll always be my little mumu quietly fighting battles he never talks about. I see the weight he carries behind his quiet smiles, and I wish I could take away every burden on his shoulders and replace it with pure peace. Until I can shield him from the noise of the world, all I can do is pray. God, please watch over him. Keep him safe, protect his heart, give him strength when he feels weak, and remind him that he is deeply loved, even on the days he forgets it. Wrap him in Your comfort whenever his thoughts get too heavy, and let him feel that he never has to carry the world all by himself. Guide his steps, ease his tired mind, and please bring him home safe to me. That's all I ask.

Dear jeremy i am very hurt and upset with the fact that you told me that i could help out at the rec and find out that you backstabbed me! i really wanted to work there!

too many what if's got into my mind,even before anything started between us,farewell came before anything could even made its opening.Here i am saying one sidedly closing a chapter that doesnt have any page inside it for the thousand's time. love is something so beautiful,too good to be true. if it cant be you,can i be selfish and hope that i'll receive that love from someone else like how i love you? You got me wondering,do i cross someones mind like how you crossed mine? a cliche way to say you'd never look at me,but this ain't romantic book,so sadly,that words are true. Here i am giving you the biggest hint while being your biggest nobody as an anonym. New years keep passing by,im still here and will be here even when i feel like i cant stay anymore. I apologize for not giving a happy birthday to you this year,i finally can hold myself to not to.

milin, i dont really know how to start this, but i wanted to explain myself a little, i never wanted you to think i was cold or that i didnt care about you so after being alone for so long, i lowk forgot how to act in a rls and im so sorry for taht ,,when you said you wanted a clingy boyfriend, i tried really hard to be that person u want but i took ir way too far i hate that ims orry ive been making you uncomfortable without knowing myself if i know i could've stopped but sighh i didnt :( , and i kept saying i was obsessed with you when i really just meant i cared about you a lot i used wrong word and i'm really sorry for that .i never wanted to make you cry or feel sick in the head i was js scared of losing you or making you lose feeling for me, i know saying sorry wont magically fix everything, but i still want u to know that you've meant a lot to me i really appreciate that, and no matter what happen, i am genuinely proud of you. i really hope we can still be close like before even if it's just as friends istg i wont acting weird or trying too hard now 🙏 i dont want thing to end with us hating each other or feeling awkward i know that'll depend on how you feel, and ofc i'lll respect ur decisoon but i hope u already think it carefully i am really sorry, again (listen to eve by shy the eternal i know it might sound pop or unserious but its really how i feel because im alright🙃 il love you with care muah i dont want to hurt ur feelings❤️‍🩹) -baiyok

Oh you've got me wrapped around your finger good. I can't seem to find a way to escape this feeling, and rightfully so, it's overwhelming and scary dude. It feels wrong to feel this way with you we're friends and you've got someone you're yearning for, and even so if you didn't I don't think we'd be each other's. I'm in a world far away from you, and yours is better while I'm just here. Trapped in a cage I've built myself while you're freely you. You say we're so similar in many ways and that we're just the same person, different fonts—I don't see it that way. You're everything I've ever wanted to be, and you're everything I've wanted to have; someone who's love I've dreamt about. While I've been trying to understand love, you've been living your life with love. How glad I am to have you in my presence. I am a bit jealous over that guy you've been crushing on, but I don't have the right to be like this. I'm your friend and it stays that way. I really wish you the best, my angel. -Aen

Dear Dominic, I don’t really know if you’ll ever read this, and maybe that’s okay. I think I’ve spent so much time replaying everything in my head that I just needed somewhere to put the words instead of carrying them around. I know you knew I liked you, and I know things probably looked strange from your perspective. Maybe I came across as too much. Maybe I made you uncomfortable. Maybe you thought I was crazy. If that’s how it seemed, I’m genuinely sorry. That was never what I wanted. The truth is much simpler than it probably looked. I had a crush on you, and because I barely knew you, my mind filled in all the blanks with hope. Sometimes hope makes people do things they normally wouldn’t. It makes them overthink every interaction, wonder if a glance meant something, or read too deeply into small moments. Looking back, I know I probably built up an idea of you more than I ever got the chance to know the real you. I think what’s been hardest isn’t that you didn’t like me back, it’s the embarrassment that came afterward. Knowing you probably saw me differently than I saw myself has been difficult to carry. I keep wondering what you thought when my name came up, whether you laughed about it, whether you rolled your eyes, or whether you just wanted me to disappear. Those thoughts have been louder than I’d like to admit. I’ve questioned myself over and over, asking if I really was as weird as I feel now. I replay everything, searching for the exact moment I crossed a line or became someone you’d never want to talk to. Maybe there wasn’t one moment at all. Maybe things just weren’t meant to be anything more than two people who briefly crossed paths. Still, it’s hard not to wish I could go back and handle everything differently. The age difference was something I thought about constantly. It was one of the reasons I never really tried to talk to you much in the first place, because I knew it could make things awkward. I never expected you to feel the same way, and I never wanted to put you in an uncomfortable position. I just couldn’t help how I felt. Feelings don’t usually ask for permission before they show up. They don’t care whether the timing is right or whether the situation makes sense. They just happen. I wish mine had been quieter. I wish they hadn’t made me overthink so much or made me feel so exposed. For a while, I let this whole situation convince me there was something wrong with me, that caring too much somehow made me broken. I’m trying to believe that isn’t true anymore. I’m writing this because I don’t want this to be a story I keep carrying forever. Whether you thought I was weird, immature, or simply someone you didn’t know, I accept that I can’t change your opinion. What I can change is how I see myself. I don’t want to keep calling myself crazy for having feelings. I don’t want one crush to become the thing that defines my confidence. I hope, if you ever think about me, you don’t remember someone “crazy.” I hope you remember someone who was awkward, outgoing, kind, thoughtful, maybe a little too hopeful, but ultimately just a person who liked you and didn’t know what to do with those feelings. I truly wish you the best, and I’m ready to let this become a chapter that is left unfinished, instead of the whole story. Thank you for reminding me that sometimes growing up means learning to let go with kindness, even when your heart doesn’t want to. I truly wish you the best.

i am with you in college , i know you will never find me , but i really love u ..the way u look me . the way u trust me makes me feel erotic . i know its not right but u look so handsome i cant even tell u . but u are so unclear about your feelings so i am also done with your breadcrumbing behaviour. so goodbye