i don't want to make him love me, i just want him to realise how much i care about him. maybe i just want him to know that he's loved more than he ever realises. i don't want to force my way into his heart or make him feel something he doesn't. i just wish he could have seen how much love i carry for him, even if i don't get to show anymore. i don’t need him to love me back, i just want him to understand that behind everything i genuinely care about him. that he always has a place in my heart, and that if i had the choice, i would choose him every time. more than wanting him to be mine, i just wanted him to realise that he never had to face the dark alone as long as i was around. i don’t know why he doesn’t want me around. —i’m sorry.