To my ex

I hope you achieve the things you've always dreamed about. We may not be together but, I wish you all the best and I hope you're happy now with someone. I love you! May this letter find you, I can't be open about anything and sincere but I want to let you know that I did all those things then because I'm scared that you'll leave me and you did. However, those words that you've said to me before our final goodbye, always and had been always impacted my whole life. If we're meant to be, we will find our way back to each other. It's just so ironic, and a lil' promising that I end up moving on with someone else.

I love u so much kenja pls come back ill be better this time I wont annoy u pls js come back ur everything and all i want ken i dont want better u told me to forget it but i can never forget u n i will always love u bc u were sm i truly loved u will always have a space in my heart i love u soooo much ken i hope u change ur mind n realise how much my heart truly yearns for u j love u kenja pls come back ur all i ever wanted i miss the times we had the memories we made the long calls we had thank u for everything ken I love u pls come back ur all i ever want u will always stay on my mind 24/7 i love u ken i rlly do pls i hope u change ur mind i rlly hope🤍

you're still my muse.

Hey, I’m really sorry I always think about you. It’s hard because it’s not like we cut contact, I have your socials and it’s just so hard sometimes to not text you. I’m still mad at the stupid reason we left off, I don’t know if it was really sincere or not. I wish we could restart and see how it goes, although when we broke up I cried. And cried and cried. For 5 months every night I would cry and write you a letter. I would say the things I miss the things I realized. You were so sweet, I loved your laugh your kindness, your humour and your hugs and caringness. I really loved you, now u don’t know, u don’t know whether it’s the love of our memories or my original heart felt emotion from when we were together. You hurt me and I will never get over that, I hust hate that I still feel I need you in my life. I wish there was a 2nd chance for us, but obviously not, you moved on and I know that.

I’m just gonna say this here because I really wanna let this out of my chest, and I know you don’t know this website so, I probably am safe here. I’ll start with; hello, hi, how are you? I mean, after embarrasing myself by messaging you I still have the guts to send this. But I’m curious, are you really doing well? Because that honestly sucks. I’m not happy for you. I gave you an ego boost, and you’re bathing in it. Throughout our relationship, you’ve always been narcissistic. You made me feel loved too much, so that it will give you the feeling of being someone important to me. Someone who I can’t let go of easily. You were horrible, I’ll always say that despite of the beautiful things and feelings you’ve gave me. I don’t know how many more months, or years I’ll suffer, but I know right now I’m hating you. You treated me really well but really badly. It was a feeling I would always look for, something I would always chase from you. Hell I even begged you to stay—and fuck I really did fucking love you. Just so you know, it was really petty of you to not give me closure, just because I didn’t give that to you when you wanted it. And I know you’re capable of giving it to me when I asked you, but you didn’t because you want to be petty about it. I hate you for it. I don’t even think about you all day, and still you manage to show up in my dreams. Every. Single. Night. I’m tired of it. Please just leave me alone. It hurts to think that I’m needing you in my dream, and it hurts to think that I don’t have you when I’m awake. Two worlds. Even that I can’t have peace. I know I sent you a message that says I’m letting go of my hate, but I can’t. Not when you’re that happy. You ruined me, and you’re the one who gets an happy ending. Okay, fine, I’m blaming you for it. I’m blaming you for everything that’s happening in my life right now. I hope you end up as miserable as I am. No, I hope it’s worse, and I wish the worse for you. I hope you get treated like when how you treated me. You’re the worst, but just so you know, I can be worse. You manipulate the people around you, even the people around me. Who do you think you are? and to think I still have something left for you, is fucking sickening. I still have sympathy left because I just erased a sentence here that would cause you your sanity, YOU’RE WELCOME. I just hope you stop talking about me, and stop talking to the people around me. I don’t care how you think that’s crazy but you know how I’m crazy. And I can get crazier if I want to, but I’m holding back, cause I know you’ll use everything against me. I know you too well. That’s why I sent this message here so you won’t ever get a chance of reading it. Because what’s the purpose of you reading it, while I know for in fact you won’t get it? how do I know that? because I know you well enough. Fuck off.

Mace, this will be the last time I message you. Thank you for coming into my life; short as it was, I was truly the happiest. Don’t worry—maybe not today, next week, or next month, but I will surely be okay and move on, even if part of me doubts I ever fully will. Like I said, you’ll be the last one I love in this lifetime. I will carry this silent yearning until the pain fades—though I think I will just slowly learn to accept it while my heart is still beating. For the last time in this lifetime of mine, to my greatest love: I love you to the moon and back, Mace.

it’s almost been a year since we broke up. i still think about you sometimes and tbh i will never love someone the same after you. you were genuinely my first love and our bond was so special and unique i thought you were my soulmate. why did you have to ruin it? what did i do to deserve this because all i did was love you so much and supported you through everything. you genuinely ruined me and broke my heart. why did you do this to us. why did you throw me away so easily like i meant nothing to you, like we had nothing. i hate you and and im glad you got into that crash, and i believe karma got you for hurting me and treating me the way you did. i wish i never met you and you never meet anyone as great as i was, because i know deep down i actually was special to you at some point.

I miss you my beautiful girl. I’ve been thinking about the choice i made and i’ve been regretting it ever since, i was a fool to leave you. You mean so much to me i just hope you knew that before our break up. If you ever need anything know i’ll always be here for you baba -999

Hey my love, i dont know if your ever going to see this. I just wanted to say that im sorry for the way i treated you, you meant everything to me and i wish i couldve done better my sweet girl. Ill always be here for you just shoot me a text. I miss you baba... -L -12411/999

I'm grateful that you were my first. My first kiss, my first boyfriend, the one I learned new things with. I don't regret ending it, ending us but I don't regret our time either. And I'm sorry if how I ended it made you not feel the same. I'm writing this because I'm realizing how good of a boyfriend you were. I always knew that but it's been made more clear by my friends' experiences with their now exes how bad people can be. All that to say I hope you can still be a good boyfriend with whoever you end up with. Don't let hurt and bitterness change you. Please still be kind and respectful even when you've been hurt. -bee

ამ ყველაფრის შემდეგ, შეხედე, სადამდე მოვედით… ათასობით კითხვა გვაქვს, მაგრამ არც ერთი პასუხი… სათქმელიც აღარაფერი დაგვრჩა. და როგორ მოხდა, რომ სულით მონათესავეები უბრალოდ ორ უცხო ადამიანად ვიქეცით? მინდა, კიდევ ერთხელ დავლიოთ ერთი ბოთლი ღვინო, გავიხსენოთ… როგორ ვცეკვავდით ოდესღაც ვარსკვლავებთან ერთად… როგორ გვჯეროდა თითოეული ჩვენი ოცნების… მოგონებები მკლავს… და მითხარი, რა არის კარგი ამ „მშვიდობითში“?.. დღეს შენ მტოვებ მე, მე კი — შენ… სხვადასხვა გზით მივდივართ — სულები, კომპასის გარეშე დარჩენილნი… ამ ყველაფრის შემდეგ ორივე შევიცვალეთ. მე უკვე სხვა ქალი ვარ, შენ კი — ახლა უკვე სხვა კაცი… რა მოხდა? და როგორ? როგორ დაგროვდა ეს მანძილი იმ პატარა, ერთი შეხედვით უმნიშვნელო ამბებისგან? იქნებ უბრალო „გამარჯობა, როგორ ხარ?“ ჩვენი გადარჩენა ყოფილიყო… მე ხომ ჯერ კიდევ აქ ვარ!… რა არის კარგი იმაში, როცა მეუბნები: „კიდევ მომატყუე…“ როცა სიმართლე ასე მტკივნეულია?.. მარტოები, სხვადასხვა გზით მიმავალნი, ალბათ, უკვე აღარც ვიცით, საით მივდივართ… ჩვენ ორს, ერთმანეთისგან დაშორებულებს, თითქოს აღარც კი დაგვრჩა მიზანი…

I still love you with every piece of me. You know those times Id tell u ppl can make me easily stop liking or loving them if they make me cry or hurt me a lot? well with you I realized that wasn't true, maybe for them but all those times you hurt me and made me cry my mind, heart and soul still longed for you. That time back then when u disappeared, I had written to you almost every day though I knew u wouldn't see my messages either cuz id be unadded from ur life forever or cuz u followed through with u plan u said I couldn't save u from. Also after that time we had broken up y'know how I started talking to new people? well during that time with every new interaction, I felt sick to my stomach and just wanted my sweet boy (you) back but I tried to find new and better like u said tho i knew it was impossible cuz u were perfect in my eyes.I tried to find new so I could look tough, as if I didn't care and as if nothing such as a guy bothered me, but it so badly did. I remember the number of times I tried committing because of it, I thought "what was the point of living if i couldn't have u...my reason to live, now gone...unwanting of me.. what am i doing here? I don't matter surely? who am I supposed to be now?" I remember only finding purpose through you. but as time passed Idek and Im not sure why I'm still here but I think its cuz I still have hope...hope for us, even though ik u don't ever want me again like u said. I'm still willing to go through hell and back for you even If u don't want me to. I still love you so much, there was never a day I didn't love or think of u. Theres so much I left unsaid because I was scared, you'd stop loving me..but hey it happened anyway so idk why i was so terrified, I should've spoke my mind to you, straight forward. I still think of the hibachi baby videos and truly when i seen them back then i thought maybe once we settled down and were living right we'd have a kid or 2 and once they were 1 or 2yo we'd take them to the hibachi grill place and record their reactions. hahaha. I still think of it at times. I noticed myself thinking, saying and doing stuff id never do when I was with you, and alot of it helped me. I learned to love parts of myself i use to hate and learn to like and know about other things cuz of u. I still want to give you everything u want and deserve but I feel even tho its right at your door u want it to be another person to give it all to u I hope I could be that person in the future. when I see mangos, I still think of u, my handsome mango :) I wish u could see how I see you. I still have sm gifts I still need to give you!!!I hope I can someday, but face to face. You're perfect and idc if u say ur not because u are so dam perfect in my eyes i fricken love you so fricken much it aches me knowing I cant tell u this burning passion for u I still have hidden within. I try to keep my mind and distance to myself so u won't push me further away but i tend to ignore myself n yap then i beat myself for it cuz youd start distancing urself seemingly. I hate it whenever ur gone. It kills me so much, sometimes I wish u felt this pain i felt for u whenever u was gone and during all the other things. I YEARN SO BAD FOR YOU BUT YOU JUST DONT SEE IT OR DONT CARE... Im sorry for the ways I am. Please know I keep my promises,every single one i ever made to u (that's if U want me to still follow throug with them) and I will love u till the day that I die, even in the after life.

Hola Alex, pupuchito, bobo, tonto... Gracias por todo, otro pequeño lugar donde dejar una huella del gran amor que te tuve 🫶 No te guardo resentimiento, te guardo gratitud y amor Creo que lo que más espero haberte enseñado y dejado es mi maravillosa forma de amar <3 Con cada día que pasa yo te he dejado ir más y más, creo que es natural dejar ir las cosas, aunque sinceramente nunca creí que te empezaría a superar tan pronto...quizá es porque hice todo en mis manos para que te llegara mi amor y con eso me quedo, di todo de mi, di mi alma y corazón y te los entregué las veces que pude antes de irme cansando y entendiendo que hay cosas más allá de nosotros. Soy una romántica eso es algo que me di cuenta, quizá idealista incluso jajaja Quizá nunca encuentre lo que mi corazón necesita, no lo sé Te amo mucho y como no tienes idea

Even though I hate the thought of you getting drunk, thinking of you holding her while being sober is way worse. Gosh, and I thought we were on the same level of understanding. This is why communication is so important to me, Marwan. Can you see it now? Can you understand now? After it is too late?

I’m sorry for how things ended, I still love you I always will, I hope you find the right person for you and wish nothing but good things for you. With much Love ~ A

i hate you so much:( how can i move on? tell me, how can i forget you?:(

hi, i miss you.

I am sorry, I pushed you away again and again and when its turn to finally let you go it has become really difficult to do so, you have probably moved on which is a good thing but I can't, even with the distance between us I felt we could work it out, but it did not. I felt really bad to not wish you on your birthday, it has been several months and I feel like I don't even know you anymore. I wish the best for you, I really do. I don't even know if we will talk again but I am sorry for everything, I gave a thought to our relationship and how it went over the course of these several past years and I feel majority of the times I ran away from the conversation which could have easily been solved if i simply communicated, I am sorry I ruined what we had, I don't feel we should be together even if we get another chance I don't think I will change. I really do not know what to say to you or even see you anymore, I can't seem to remember your face, your voice and it feels really empty, but I hope you have moved onto better things in life, I am sorry to not wish you again on your birthday as well but happy belated birthday I guess, wish you nothing but the best.

‎Hello, Amyra. ‎ ‎Baby, this might be the last time na mag-message ako sa'yo. Hahahaha. I’m truly sorry for all the broken promises I made and for everything I’ve done that hurt you. I’m sorry for the times when I failed to understand your side fully, for the moments when I made you feel unheard, and for the times when my actions didn’t match the love and promises I gave you. I know that saying sorry won’t undo the pain I caused, but I want you to know that I genuinely regret the things I did that hurt you. ‎ ‎Thank you, thank you so much for all the memories and lessons we shared with each other. I hope that someday, we can both grow from everything we went through, even if we have to do it separately. Thank you for your family and for welcoming me so warmly into your lives. I will never forget how kindly they treated me and how they made me feel like I was one of their own. I will always be grateful for that. Thank you, too, for treating my family with kindness and love. I appreciate it more than words can explain. ‎ ‎I appreciate you so much, Cha. Your presence, your love, your efforts, your kindness, and every little thing about you will always mean something to me. You became such a beautiful part of my life, and I will always be thankful that our paths crossed, even if they might not cross again someday. I sincerely hope that life gives you the happiness, peace, and love you have always been looking for. I hope that someday, you find the kind of love you truly deserve, someone who will love you gently, understand you even when things get difficult, and treat you better than I did. Someone who will keep the promises they make to you and never make you question whether you are worth the effort. Someone who will choose you, not just when things are easy, but even when loving you requires patience, understanding, and sacrifice. ‎ ‎Cha, I love you, sobra. You know how deep my love for you is, and I don’t think words will ever be enough to explain just how much you mean to me. Even if this is where our story ends, please know that what I felt for you was real. I loved you with all that I had, even if there were times when I failed to show it in the ways you needed and deserved. I’m sorry that there were parts of our love that I couldn’t take care of properly. If there is one thing I wish I could have done better, it would be loving you in a way that made you feel safe, understood, appreciated, and assured that you were never alone. ‎ ‎And, baby, please, stop wasting your time on things and people that only drain you or make you forget your worth. Please don’t neglect yourself just because life gets too heavy. Don’t forget to eat on time, get enough rest, and take care of yourself, especially on the days when you feel like you can’t handle everything anymore. Please be gentle with yourself. Don’t be too hard on yourself when things don’t go the way you want them to. I hope you never lose yourself trying to make other people happy, and I hope you always remember that you deserve the same love and care that you so willingly give to others. ‎ ‎Sana, kahit wala na ako sa tabi mo, huwag mong pababayaan ang sarili mo, ha? Please keep choosing yourself, even on the days when it feels difficult. Huwag mong kalimutang alagaan ang sarili mo, kasi mahalaga ka. You are worth so much more than you sometimes realize, and I hope you never settle for anything less than the love, respect, and happiness you deserve. I may no longer be the person who gets to remind you of these things, but I sincerely hope that you never forget them. ‎ ‎I hope you continue chasing your dreams, reaching your goals, and becoming the person you have always wanted to be. I hope you find reasons to smile even on the days when everything feels heavy. And whenever life gets difficult, I hope you remember that you have already survived so many things, and you are capable of getting through so much more. Please don't give up on yourself, Cha. There is still so much beautiful life waiting for you. ‎ ‎I wish I could have loved you better. I wish I could have kept every promise I made and given you the kind of love that would have made you feel certain about us. I wish things had turned out differently for us. But maybe, despite how much we love each other, there are things we need to learn and parts of ourselves we need to heal separately. And as much as it hurts, I think I have to accept that. ‎ ‎Please know that letting you go doesn't mean that you suddenly became less important to me. It doesn't mean that the memories we shared no longer matter, or that the love I have for you will simply disappear. It only means that I am learning to accept what I can no longer change. And if walking away is what will finally give us the space to grow, heal, and find the peace we need, then I hope that someday, we will understand why things had to happen this way. ‎ ‎I will always pray for your happiness, even if I am no longer part of it. I hope life treats you kindly, and I hope that whenever you look back on us, you remember not only the pain but also the beautiful moments we shared. I hope you remember that, at some point in our lives, we loved each other, tried our best, and created memories that will always be a part of who we are. ‎ ‎I love you so much, Cha. Sobra-sobra. And if this really is the last time I get to tell you how much I love you, then I want you to know that you were never just an ordinary person in my life. You were someone I genuinely loved, someone I cared for deeply, and someone I once imagined spending so much of my life with. ‎ ‎Thank you for being part of my life, baby. Thank you for the love, the memories, the lessons, and for being you. I'm sorry for the pain I caused you, and I hope that someday, when the hurt is no longer as heavy, we can both look back on what we had with peaceful hearts. ‎ ‎Goodbye, my Cha. Please take care of yourself for me, okay? Be happy, keep growing, and never forget how worthy you are of a love that will never make you question your place in someone's life. ‎ ‎I love you, always. And even if I can no longer say those words to you every day, a part of me will always be grateful that, for a time, I got to love you and call you mine.

მიყვარს გულწრფელობა და იმის პირდაპირ თქმა, რასაც ვფიქრობ… როცა შენს თვალებში ვიყურები, ჭკუიდან ვიშლები… წარმოვიდგენ, რომ ჩემს გვერდით ხარ — სწორედ ეს მინდა. ზოგჯერ კი ისეთი სურვილი მიჩნდება, რომ გითხრა, როგორ მიყვარხარ… შენ ჩემს ფოტოს იღებ, მაშინ როცა ჩემი ხმა დინამიკიდან ისმის. თუ შენ ჩემი პირადი ნარკოტიკი ხარ, მაშინ სასწრაფოდ მჭირდება შენი სიყვარულის ზედოზირება… ჩვენ ორივე ვგრძნობთ, რომ ბევრი სიტყვის თქმა საჭირო არ არის. თვალებით საუბარი ნებისმიერ არსებულ სიტყვაზე ძლიერია… და ჰო… იმედი მაქვს, უარს არ მეტყვი, როცა გკითხავ, გინდა თუ არა ჩემთან სექსი. დრო გადის, აწმყო კი უკვდავია… წარსული უკან მოვიტოვეთ და მომავალი ერთად შევქმენით… ბევრი მეუბნება, რომ უცნაურად ვიქცევი… მაგრამ შენი სურნელი ისე მათრობს, რომ, ჯანდაბა, თავბრუ მეხვევა… და მე მხოლოდ ერთი სურვილი მაქვს… თუ რეინკარნაცია არსებობს, მინდა, შემდეგ ცხოვრებაშიც ჩემი მამაკაცი იყო… ჩვენს შორის მომხდარი აშკარად უბრალო დამთხვევა არ ყოფილა… ჩვენს შორის არც ერთი მანძილი არ არის ზედმეტად დიდი. ყველაფერი, რაც მინდა, შენი მკლავების სითბოში ყოფნაა… ნება მომეცი, შენი კანის სურნელში გავეხვიო…