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Happiest birthday, my love! I am very, very proud and happy for my baby—for every big and small achievement you’ve made in your life. I’m also so proud of you for being so strong after everything that happened and for all the battles you’ve faced. I know there were times when things felt so hard, when you felt like you couldn’t do it anymore or that you wouldn’t be able to make it to the finish line. But despite all of that, you still chose to stand up, keep fighting, and continue moving forward. ‎ ‎You fought so hard to become the person you are today. Other people may not understand why you became the person you are now because they didn’t see the struggles you went through. They didn’t see how much you were hurting before, or how hard you had to fight just to become the strong person that you are today. But I did, and I want you to know that I will always be proud of you. ‎ ‎I’m always here for you, baby. I will never leave you, and I will never choose someone over you. No matter what happens, I’ll always be here to support you, listen to you, and remind you how loved you are. ‎ ‎Having you in my life feels like looking at the perfect view of the ocean—peaceful, beautiful, and something I could never get tired of seeing. I’m so happy, grateful, and contented that I get to have you in my life. ‎ ‎You deserve all the love, happiness, and beautiful things this world has to offer. I hope you never forget how special you are to me. ‎ ‎Happy birthday again, my baby lovelove. I love you so, so, so much.

my dearest, words can only do so much and so little at the same time when you feel like the world falls upon you, I have so much to say yet no words come out right. thousands of syllables I have in my mind yet nothing comes close to how I want to describe my feelings right now. so here it is. here's my nothing for you. that night, after our call. I cried. because what else could I do about it? walking home with you was the best walk I've ever had. we didn't get to go for hundreds of miles but it was more than enough. enough that I got to feel seen and understood and enough that I got to know you and how you see your world. when I first met you, it was not the kind of "fall in love at first sight" state of affairs. it was a gentle and quiet spark. a soft fitting that somehow grew into feelings so immense. my feelings for you, dare I say my dear. they were real. as real as my longing for your presence; my admiration for your soul; my respect for your efforts; my awe of your mind; my gratitude for your wellbeing; my craving for your warmth; my feeling of your weariness as my own; my adoration of your tenderness; my fondness of the time we spent together; and lastly my profound sense of deep affection, care, and devotion towards you. and if I had to put it into an equation. it all came down to "I love you". the kind that made me feel of "all ways" and "always". the kind that made me think of "this life or any other". but now what? I have to remember you longer than I've ever loved you. my love, isn't it sad that my eyes won't catch the reflections of you anymore? it's all just fading hues in my mind now. one day, I would forget how you smile when you look up. how you pause when you feel like you've been saying too much. I would forget the lines on your forehead or the crease around your eyes when you smile. those are the images I would never see again. and what saddens me the most is one day I would forget your beautiful voice. the way my name rolls off your tongue. the way you call me with such care and tenderness. down to the sound of your blinkings. how my heart aches with all of these thoughts. but all in all, who's there to blame? it's nobody's fault. perhaps it's the wind's or maybe we can just blame it on the air. there's always something in the air, right? love, they say. but not this time. at least not from you. it's sort of a revelation. an enlightening disclosure how you show me that it's all just in my head. I even almost said sorry for falling for you. but dear, I wish it were different for you. I wish you didn't have to carry your past this way. for how you're still haunted by your feelings or rather by the absence of them and for how you can't cross the threshold you set for yourself. I was willing to hold my hands out to reach you, hell I was even thinking of stepping into your parallel and carrying you out myself. but then I realised, I could run to catch your train in the rain for blocks but when you saw me standing on the platform you wouldn't even take one step out of the train. so there we are. looking into each other's eyes until the door closed and I walked home alone. my dearest, I've seen so many haunting scenes in my nightmares but you with your gentleness; your warmth; your kindness; your sweet disposition are worse than any bad dreams I've ever had. until never. with all due nothings, m.

I wish you would think less about the past, especially our parents’ past, because there’s nothing we can do to change it. I wish you would stop worrying so much about how other people feel about it, because at the end of the day, it doesn’t really matter. You don’t have to carry the weight of something that happened before you could even understand it. I wish you could confidently fall in love. I want you to experience the emotions that come with love—to love someone without being afraid of what might happen, without constantly questioning whether you deserve it, and without holding yourself back. I want you to know what it feels like to be loved and to let yourself be happy because of it. I wish you would stop doubting yourself and start loving yourself. Get to know yourself, understand what you want, what makes you happy, and what kind of person you want to become. Be a better person, but not for anybody else. Do it for yourself. You don’t have to prove your worth to anyone. I wish you knew that there is a future waiting for you, no matter what it looks like. You don’t have to have everything figured out right now. It’s okay to make mistakes, to change your mind, to take your time, and to start over. Your past doesn’t decide who you’re going to be. Most of all, I wish you would allow yourself to be happy without feeling guilty about it. You deserve to live your own life, to make your own choices, and to find your own happiness. And no matter what happens, no matter where life takes you or what you choose, I will always support you. I’ll always want the best for you, and I’ll always be proud of the person you’re becoming.

times may be tough but remember go beond

gusto ko lang sabihin na sobrang na-aappreciate kita and yung presence mo sa buhay ko kahit may mga time na nagaaway tayo, gusto kong malaman mo na mahalaga ka sakin bilang kaibigan ko na-aappreciate ko kung paano ka mag-alala sakin, mag-care, at kung paano mo pinapaalam sakin na nandiyan ka palagiii, thankful pa rin ako sa lahat ng effort at oras na binibigay mo sakin sana maging maayos lagi ang araw mo at mag-focus ka rin sa mga ginagawa mo salamat sa lahat at mag-iingat ka lagi, malay mo makita mo to :)))

Happy boyfriend's Day barfi 🫶🏻😚💗May you achieve everything you dream of....it's been 6 months and 25 day since you became my boyfie:p i adore the time we have spent together and the things we've done together....from having our first kiss in a unexpected place to watching marvel movies with you🤭. I'm glad that i got such a cute, handsome, caring and loving boyfriend 💗💕

yrr im sorry idk whats wrong with me i lost my senses i just argue with u on small thingg iloveyouuu so muchh yrr plss dont get gussa im so so sorry im pgl

Hi mommy, its your daughter. I resent you so much, I love you nonetheless. I dont think there's enough words to explain how much i dislike you now. It wouldve never been this way if you never got with him, i hate your husband. As much as i laugh and play with him, i hate him more than fabiola who talked me into having intercourse with her. After you two got together, i have only been doing such heinous things, you used to never have screaming matches with me, you would never take away things i hold so dear to me for such extended periods of time, i never had a drink, i would have never cut myself, i wouldve never almost killed myself. I would have never done any of this, if it weren't for him. He changed you for the worse. I can't even come to you if i've had a bad day. Now you use anything i tell you against me. I hate when you use my grief as ammunition. I wanted to be a kid, i cant anymore. Now i have to talk through my aunt just so you can understand me, my aunt was more of a mother than you have ever been. I dont think i can even form a solid opinion about you. I have wanted you to understand me ever since you got with Darian. now you just think everything i do is unreasonable or im doing it for attention, or im just being a rebellious almost-teenager. Im doing all of this so i can get away from you, everyday i get home i have a headache knowing i have to at least talk to guys once. I dont know if its menopause but that is no excuse for the way you have been treating me at all. You have been treating me like absolute shit, you say "you said you feel like a guest in your own home, but you stay in your room all day" but i try to come out nd fucking talk to you guys im just met with indifference, ignorance, and if im not you just ignore me. I have tried to talk to you guys about my feelings exactly once, you BOTH stopped listening. That was and will be the last time i ever try to explain my self to guys. I have no way to contact anyne unless its through you guys, and i havent because i dont even like asking for anything. All you do is bring it up later so you can say no. Deep down, i hate you more than anyone. My own mother who is supposed to love, care and protect me cant even protect me from herself.

For more time with you ..

I find the trails of your smell in the hoodie I was wearing when I saw you, Every night I find myself looking out the window, Thinking maybe you’ll make for a bit, Hoping I’ll be at the balcony. I was wrong, and I lied to you, And I’m sorry for that. I’m sorry that I should’ve taken your hand And asked if you were serious, as much as I was— Because there’s simply no way. I’ve realized I might have loved you More than just a bit, Craving more time to look into your eyes, More time to take and hold you. You were right, And you shouldn’t had let me get out of your car, Because now I can’t get you out of my mind. Now how do I? And how do you not text me? Just one time, of everything with you— And I’ll be complete.

I wanted to say that, i am not good. I am in hospital. I just want you to help me in studies and if it's possible call me daily. I don't know what else to say, Hope you stay healthy unlike me. Goodbye.

How do I tell you you're my first love? You've been my best friend since childhood, so how could I possibly tell you that our friendship has most definitely always been one sided? I've always known im gay, it's not something I've always been in terms with, I always hid it, kind of ashamed of what it could mean for my family. We went to school together but we never spoke, so when i saw you at my cousin's wedding, you came up to me and my cousin and spoke to us, i was nervous for no absolute reason, but we became close and we ran around, we had fun, but that was it. I moved away, miles away and I thought of you all the time, but eventually I got back to the real world and buried you deep in my heart. and just like that fate brought us back to each other. i met you again in my dugsi (quran school), i recognized you in an instant but we didn't talk, we made eye contant a lot of times, you always kept staring, but then again you looked at everyone, i wasn't special. We met again, but in school this time. We were in different classes, but same year. I was new to town and to the school, everyone already knew each other and I felt so out of place, I cried every day in the bathroom, I missed my old place, where I knew everyone for years and was well loved, i missed it. my loneliness didnt last long, thankfully. i sat alone, in the corridors, everyone was at lunch and i was an*rexic at the time, being new and no friends made it even worse. but you approached me, i tried pretending i didnt see you, i looked down at my phone, my heart was at my throat and i felt nauseous because of how nervous i was, but you came up to me, smiling so brightly i felt the world stopping, everything i always saw in my silly kdramas. you said "aren't you the girl in my dugsi?" I didn't stutter, if there's one thing I'm good at, it's pretending. i smiled and said "yeah, i have seen you", we smiled and chuckled and she asked if i wanted to take a walk, we walked and then sat down and talked the whole lunch break. I was screaming inside, I couldn't believe you were talking to me. we became friends instantly after that, there was no way i was letting you go after the universe gave you back to me. you introduced me to your other friends, and through you I reunited with my childhood best friends (still my best friend till today). she was the first person I came out to, using another girl's name, like I always did back then. I used different kids in our school to try and get over you, boys and girls, anyone, but nothing worked. I could never fall in love with anyone else (even till today). I love you so incredibly much, I am willing to wait till you can see me as a potential, I believe we are the right choice for each other, I truly do. I know your type, I know I'm not it, but I believe I could be, I’m gonna do everything I can, I will do everything I can to be the one for you. The universe would not give you to me time and time again just for us to not be each other’s soulmates. And if we are not, if you find someone who you love and loves you, I will always be your best friend, I will support you full heartedly, I mean it. i know im your number one, im your best friend after all but when you look at me, hug me or simply touch me, I don't see you as a friend, I never did. I try hard to meet new people, I go out on dates, I go from talking stage to talking stage, but none feels real. I pull away the moment someone shows any real interest in me, I always thought I was avoidant, or just scared of intimacy, until I realised that I’ve just always wanted you. Knowing you is and will forever be the greatest thing to have happened to me. I don't even want to imagine a life without you, I don't ever want to lose you, just the thought of it brings me to tears. Every part of my life is touched by you, this city, my heart, my future and thoughts, mind, everything I am is because of you. I was so ready to give up and give in and you held my hand through it all, you didn’t question, you were you, your kind, thoughtful, mindful, and beautiful self, I am forever thankful and grateful to you. I am so thankful to have grown up beside you. 13 years of us. Fifi and Safi. two peas in a pod. Whether it is us as an end game or us as bridesmaids for each other, I still do, and will always want you in my life. i love you.

Happyyy Boyfriend’s Dayyyy MyyyKunjjuuuuu🥺🥺🥺🥺💋💋💋💋 Illoovveeyoouuhhhssoossooommuucchhh🥺🥺no matterr how muchh wee fight orr arguee, I could nevrr stopp lovvinng youu😭 i just want us to bee enough for each other and I don’t want anyone else to come btw uss😔🫂🫂 I want it to always be you and me🥺👉🏻👈🏻togetherrr no mattr whatt happens ill neverr leavee uu and ill always bee here for you😌🫀 andd uu bitchhh pleasee send mee your vdeos and photos😭 i realyy miss getting random snaps frm yuu😔💔 ig u hatee mee😔💔💔💔💔 yuu havee noo ideaa how happyy itt makess mee🥺😔 just spamm mee bitchh gotit?😔 soo byyee guyyss mmwuuahhh illovveyouhhsoososmuuchh heheeh🥺🫀💋

i know you won't read this and even if you do it will probably be too late. i know youre done with me but i really did love you and i dont understand why it had to be this way. i was willing to wait but you just broke up with me instead. i told my mom the day i read your text. i felt so stupid knowing i was texting you after you deleted your account. i didnt know u did. i cried all day. even at work i tried to tell everyone i was okay but i couldnt stop. i had to block you and im sorry. i do love you but you broke my trust. it felt like i was never enough for you. even after 3 years i just couldnt understand why i wasnt enough for you. every year almost like i was someone else but it wasnt enough. it hurt knowing you would never love me as much as i do. it hurt even more hearing you say it to me. it hurts the most whenever i remember you saying it to me. how dumb i felt trusting you. how i thought i could. i thought i could hold on to you. you were the reason i wanted to get better. in reality you made it worse. so much worse... i constantly compare myself with every girl i see. even more so the ones u said were ur type. i cant get it out of my head. i still remember asking what you liked and how it broke my heart knowing u would never like me just the way i am. im sorry im not enough and im sorry for loving you. you hurt me after promising me we would see each other. it hurt me more when i started thinking about everything i had said to you before. mohannad i would have given up everything for you. i told you i would stop my studies for you. seriously i would have. i was willing to move my parents just to be able to take care of them and be with you. i was willing. i wanted to. i love you. i wanted us to work because you are everything i have ever wanted. youre so precious to me amor. i'll adore you until the day i die. if u ever miss me read my notes but you'll have to wait a bit longer for me. i probably wont unblock you until my birthday or yours im not sure yet idk what i would even get out of that. i wish u would reach out but i know its over. sometimes i guess its true that to love is to let go but i dont want to. you told me this song reminded you of me. i love you amor i hope you love me back for me one day

sometimes I love you and sometimes I ask myself how I manage to love you, when I feel like you dislike me. Actually, I think I even forgot the meaning of “loving”. I wouldn’t “love” someone who yells. I wouldn’t love someone who makes my day worse. You hate my looks. I love my short hair. Why don’t you? You always make sure to bring up my teeth in every argument. Or maybe the way I hide in my room. Or when I recut my bangs. Yes, it sounds stupid, but it means a lot. I hope, mama, one day, you’ll find the beauty my friends found in me years ago.

Hey, I've been increasingly dreaming more about you and I genuinely don't know why. Because of that, I think I've developed feelings for you. And this infatuation has caused me to appreciate the little things about you more. The fact that you are just so honest, cheerful and notice the things that most people would look past. The fact that you CARE. I don't know if I should delete these feelings or stick with it but I've been praying about this. However, not gonna lie, it does hurt at the thought of you having a liking to anyone other than me. I'm just going to hope everything goes well for the both of us and Allah s.w.t will take care of the rest. Meanwhile, you should get the hint by now >:/

I’ve done the worst you could ever imagine of I know. I don’t know what led me to do that I’ve ruined so much Our friendships Our future Our mental health I’m so so sorry for what I’ve done to you two

Happy Boyfriend’s Day to someone who means so much to me. ❤️ You’ve brought so many beautiful moments into my life, and I’m truly grateful for every little memory we’ve shared. Your kindness, your support, and simply having you around make my days feel a little brighter. I hope you always know how special and appreciated you are. Wishing you a day filled with happiness, because you deserve it. 🫶✨

Happyyy boyfriends day my love one 🫂🫀 I had the besttt days days with youuu I am falling more for youu day by day Being with youuu feels me the safe and happiestttttt I loveeee youuuu so muchhhhh 💗 I misss youuu so muchhhh See youuuu super soon Cutieee🎀🪬🥹🫂🫶

hi, i know you probably moved on and thats great for you. its just hard for me to forget about our memories together. i dont want to chase you again but it was..nostalgic. Paalam.