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I have the most sweetest dream. He unblocked me and then we talk for an hour, funny right? cuz joke aside he would never unblock me. I still have no idea why did he need to end our relationship and go play his games like nothing happened after. Is it creepy if someone stalk their ex's whole game account's profile just becuasr they miss them? and learned how to play game that they dont even know how to play or like before (asking for a friend) i really miss you tho dear yuma, i dont even think i will forgot you cuz you keep appearing in my mind telling me you love me all over again... sighh seriously is it normal if someone do that? i haven't done it yet.... yeaahhhh heh -Your K 💐

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I miss you so much, to the point it hurts me that you were the one who left. I've never got to know why did you do that or what did i do wrong and i really want the answer that i know I'll never get from you. You blocked me and telling me to live my life fully but it wil never be fullfil becuase you weren't in my life anymore, remember the day before you blocked me? Haha we played a game called "a long road" and I was so tired I went to bed first but before I was about to leave, you said we'll play later but guess there was no more later now. You didn't even give me a chance to play with you one last time and uhm hey I counted it all, you gave me 43 kisses even though those are just texts I love that and i am so sorry that i didn't show you enough love before i tried. You'll never know that I actually figured it out that your roblox user was .. yk since when you showed me your grinding scene with your alt account tbh I dont want you to leave me but what can I do? It's your choice and i cant control it.. idek if you really loved me or just want to feel loved by someone and I couldn't give what you want so you left. At this point i dont even care as long as you're here for me to keep loving you that will be really great but sighhh there's no more you. I've only played game with you once and that's suck i keep blaming myself why didn't I stay longer? why didn't I give you more love? and oops i had a feeling that you have other and i feel really guilty about this.. you thought i was 2 hours ahead of you but im actually 4 hours ahead and wdym by hindu? im not. You forgot my name becuase you keep calling me sweet nicknames but ykw i LOVE that.. i love and miss you so much i could turn into my old self and write a whole paragraph of how i love you like right now.. I remember telling you to sleep well and have sweet dreams not sleep well and then gone out of my life so sudden.. You play JJS, CW and raised a floppa 2 while i was feeling sick in the head.. I havent cried for someone in so long and you are the first person to make me fucking cry this year. You mentioned cuddling with me 10 times.. wow! you want me to cuddling with air? or what you aren't here anymore.. yuma , MY yuma i love you so much, you said im yours and you are MINE.. huh? where are you to be mine now???? why did you have to leave me this way what about staying as friend? i wont bite you, yuma. I can control myself, friend is friend i wont cross the line as long as you're here i can admire you as A FRIEND not as "a girl who like you". I thought letting you vent to me, try to make you feel better and everything will make u stay but NO you chose to leave.. is it becuase i dont look good? is it becuase i dont send my selfie regulary like other couples? is it becuase i dont update about my life that much? i just dont want to bother you.. i thought it will make you stay... TO THE CONCLUSION; I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I WILL WAITFOR YOU PLEASE UNBLOCK ME PLEASE TALK TO ME -Your K. 💐

Alright jokes over how do I delete it

I know you’ll never see this which is exactly why I’m typing it. It’s stupid honestly because I’m doing this on an app that’ll probably crash in a year from now. I love you Rickki. I’ve always loved you. I’ll never be able to tell you the truth because we’re supposed to be best friends. I’m. It supposed to feel the things that I do for you. I’m not supposed to love you the way I do or think about you the way I do. I’m not supposed to mourn over your body against mine or your hands in my hair. I’m not supposed to look into your eyes and feel the sparks around me. You’re supposed to be my best friend, and you are, but I’m not supposed to want more. The first night we kissed, I remember it like it was yesterday. It was supposed to be a joke, a silly little flirty joke for everyone in the car to laugh at. We let it go too far. We drug it out and we did things. Things that best friends don’t do. I know you have to feel something. A little bit of something. We talk and all I can think about if your lips on mine, or your heart beating against my chest or the way you spoke to me on those late nights we would stay up for hours talking. There is so many things I want to tell you but simply cannot because I will never risk losing you. I would be your friend and hurt till the day I die then tell you how k really feel and never have you again. I love you, all of you. I hear you talk about other people and I get jealous and trust me when I say I k ke I’m not supposed to. I act like I love jt and I do but because it makes you happy. But I hate it for me because I wish I was that person that wa snaking you feel things and making you smile and laugh and giving you THE feelings. I talk to you everyday but never will I ever mention how I feel. Part of me hopes you’ll one day ask but even then I don’t think I could. I say you have to feel it too but the truth is I don’t think that you do and that’s why I can never speak on it. I’ve thought about you every single day since the day you left. I’ve cried over you. I’ve prayed to have you. But I’m so scared of losing you I can’t tell you. Sometimes I’ll bring you things or offer to do things just to be able to see you. I mourn for you. If I could go back and do tho he differently I would but doing what I did with you would not be anytbing I would change. You were the best thing that has ever happened to me and I know it’s not that way for you because you’ve experienced so much and so much better with other people but the feeling you gave me I have not been able to find it again. Maybe it’s not that “we” took it too far maybe it’s that I did. I read to into it and hear I am, in love with my best friend. I tell you everything and one of the things I told you was how I’ve tried talking to so many people but none of them give me the feeling I was looking for. That’s because the feeling I was looking for was the feeling you gave me. I look for you in everyone. Down to the looks and the personality and the lifestyle, i try to find you in everyone. I’ve heard the saying “I look for you in everyone” before but I never understood it until you. You’re always on my mind even when we’re talking you’re on my mind. You get me and you get me so good but you get me as k am your best friend. And I get you as you are the love of my life. I will never do anything to lose you as my best friend, even if that means never getting to have you as my love.

I miss u soo much I can't stop thinking about you.85811110

I care about you too and I so wish that things hadn’t ended so badly. You can always reach out, I’m on Pinterest. I’m sorry, you were very special to me. M xx

I'm feeling low rn. I need u ig... I wanna sleep peacefully in ur arms #sukoon #nofikar ~Akku

Dear Monika, I thought to write to you so many times but could not, I wanted to tell you how sorry I am to let you down. I didn't have the kind of courage you deserved, I took the easy path and didn't fight for you till the end. I want to tell you that this is the only regret of my life. I am happy in my life and I wish you are too. You were a wonderful person who touched my life and made it better. Years have gone by and years will go by , but I will never forget you. There will still be a dream one odd day whcih will make it feel so real.

You deserve the world. I'm sorry I can't be the one to give it to you.

Happy18mothsary too youpo loviee ko thankful po ako loviee kasi nanjan kapo palagi sa tabi ko while nahihirapan po ako sa mga problema ko and andito langdinpo ako palagi💌💐 loviee ko iwell never laeve youpo loviee pangako kopo sayo na hangang dulo po ako hanggang dulo po kitang mamahalin loviee ko. mag iingat kapo palagi loviee ko komaen kapo sa tamang oras im veryy happy loviee ko kasipo omabot tayo ganto ka tagal 💌💐loviee ihope madagdagan papo loviee ko and mag stay kalangpo loviee ko mamahalin kita nang subra subra loviee Palagi mopo tatandaan na mahal na mahal po kita loviee hindi po ako susuko nang madalian loviee ko mahal kita and wala akong oras na makipag hiwalay sayo loviee kapag sinabi💌💐 konapo na ikaw na yong last ko ikaw napo talaga maniwala kapo mahal kita at mahalin natin ang relasyon nato alam kopo na sabik kanapo sa hug loviee but soon loviee mayayakap natin ang isat isa loviee ko pangako kopo sayo loviee btw im veryy happy po talaga loviee ko wagkanapo sana mawala sa buhay ko loviee sayo kolangnaranasan ang ganto ka saya na buhay kasama ka loviee happy18mothsary loviee ko 💌💐

Can we still be together?I could not live without u being a part of my life you were the only one i could wish for. Without you my life feels empty Theres no one like you. Can you be the one for me? You are the only one i needed, no one else can replace you,Please ถึงแม้เธอจะพูดว่าเราไม่เหมาะกันอย่างงี้ แต่เค้าไม่เคยคิดอย่างงั้นเลย ชีวิตคู่เราต้องปรับกันอีกเยอะ นี่แค่จุดเริ่มต้น เค้าขอโทษถ้าทำตัวเหมือนเหนื่อยมันก็แค่อารมณ์ชั่ววูบอย่างนึง ถ้าให้คิดดีๆเค้าก็อยากจะง้อแล้วคืนดีอยู่เสมอ เรามีกันและกันไปอีกนานๆได้ไหม เธอคือคนเดียวที่เฝ้ารอแล้วปราถนาเสมอมา

I know we were just talking today, but I couldn’t stop thinking about you. I always think about you, even in my dreams. I get sad but also feel comfort when I wake up, talking to you feels like home. You showed me that again today. I will always appreciate you and everything you do. You were my first real love and I’m not sure that feeling will ever fully go away. I know we’re in completely different places in life now but you’re still a huge part of mine. I could never straight up say this to you that’s why I’m doing it on here. A site that actually works lol! I wish things could have gone differently in the past, maybe we would be together today but who knows… I always loved you bubs. Another thing I’ve been dying to say but could never say to you is that I often day dream of how things used to be, I know a lot of our relationship relied on sex, but it was so good how could it not. I think about you and the things you could do to me, you always knew how to make me feel good if you know what I mean. Anyways I miss you bubs, just know I’m always thinking of you and wishing for a happy life for you❤️

Hello, Love. Just wanna say "hi", even you won't reply. You know, I have a lot of something to say.. But, I guess.. I'll just keep it myself 🤷🏻‍♀️. Honestly, I really want to talk to you, confess (again and again), have a long deep conversation with you, hang-out with you, I want to get to know you more. Unfortunately, we can't. You know we can't do that, sweetheart. This love is forbidden. And even if I say I don't care, it still does matter. We both know that. But even with all the prohibitions and obstacles, it doesn't change the fact that my feelings for you are genuine. I know this is real, admit it or not. I don't know how, when, why, or what are the reasons why I am inlove with you. I just feel it. Like what I've said before, you don't have to reciprocate me. But sometimes, I won't deny it... It breaks my heart and I can't accept the thought that you will never be mine. We will meet some other people, and you might forget me. A part of me hopes that one day, if life ever allows it, I could be your last. I want to prove my love, I want to show you and make you feel it. But maybe, I'm meant to love you quietly. I hope that you'll find all the happiness you deserve. I truly mean it. Maging tayo man o hindi sa huli, tunay kitang iibigin. Tatanggapin ko ng buong-buo, ano man ang mangyari. I'm not asking for anything, I'm just stating the fact. Sa puso ko ikaw ang nag-iisang naka lock (wala lang, ni rhyme ko lang ang "lock" sa "fact"). Kidding aside, mahal na mahal kita. 🤢💘

Eu te amo. Eu te amo muito. Mas eu sei que você não vai me aceitar, eu sei que caso aceite nossa amizade nunca mais será a mesma. Eu gostaria que você fosse menos extremo. Sei que a única coisa que posso fazer é continuar tendo sua amizade e esperando que você me veja como eu te vejo, ou pelo menos que isso morra dentro de mim. Octavia.

HEYY THERE ELLEILAH! FIRST OF ALL, HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!, I HOPE YOU HAVE WONDERFUL AND MEMORABLE BIRTHDAY BECAUSE U TRULY DESERVE IT. I JUST WANNA SAY THANK U BECAUSE I GOT THE CHANCE TO KNOW U AND TO BE CLOSE WITH U. I JUST WANT TO TELL U THAT I REALLY APPRECIATE YOUR PRESENCE IN MY LIFE. YOU MAKE MY ORDINARY DAY FEELS A LITTLE SPECIAL WITHOUT EVEN TRYING. I'M GENUINELY GRATEFUL THAT U CAME INTO MY LIFE. I AM GRATEFUL FOR THE TIME YOU GIVE ME, YOUR EFFORT, YOUR CARE AND THE WAY U PROVIDE ME WITH WARMTH AND COMFORT. YOU MIGHT THINK WHAT YOU'RE DOING IS SIMPLE BUT FOR ME IT'S A REALLY BIG DEAL. YOU'VE BECOME ONE OF THE SOURCE OF PEACE, SUPPORT, AND HAPPINESS IN MY LIFE. IT'S HONESTLY CRAZY TO THINK THAT WE STARTED AS TWO STRANGERS WITH ONE RANDOM CONFESSION ON A RANDOM DAY ALSO HAHAHAHHAHAHAH. YET SOMEHOW, THAT SIMPLE MOMENT LET TO ALL THE CONVERSATION, MEMORIES, AND BOND WE SHARE NOW. AND FOR THAT, I'M ALWAYS BE THANKFUL. AND IF U REALLY DO LEAVE HERE SOMEDAY, I HOPE U WON'T FORGET ME HAHAHAHAHA LOLZ. I JUST WANT U TO KNOW HOW GRATEFUL I AM THAT OUR PATHS CROSSED. I'LL BE THANKFUL FOR THE MEMORIES WE MADE TOGETHER. PLEASE TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF THEREE,OKAYY?? AND JUST KNOW THAT I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR U WHENEVER YOU HAVE PROBLEMS,NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO, OR JUST SIMPLY NEED SOMEONE TO LISTEN ON UR CHIKASS. U DON'T HAVE TO FACE EVERYTHING ON UR OWN. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, I'LL ALWAYS BE ROOTING FOR I AND WISHING THE BEST FOR U. I HOPE LIFE TREATS I KINDLY, THAT UR DREAMS SLOWLY TURN INTO REALITY, AND THAT U FIND HAPPINESS IN THE THINGS THAT TRULY MATTER TO U. KEEP BEING THE AMAZING PERSON THAT U ARE, AND NEVER HOW VALUED AND APPRECIATED U ARE BY THE PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT U. MEETING U WAS ONE IF THOSE UNEXPECTED THINGS THAT IM TRULY GRATEFUL FOR. I GUESS THAT'S ALL I WANTED TO SAY FOR NOW HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA. I JUST DIDN'T WANT THIS DAY TO PASS WITHOUT LETTING U KNOW HOW MUCH I APPRECIATED U. ONCE AGAIN, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CELEAHH🥳🥳 ( ohh nagtranslation HAHAHAHAHAHAHA from elleilah to celeah) I HOPE THIS YEAR BRINGS U ENDLESS HAPPINESS, SUCCESS AND ALL THE THINGS YOU'VE BEEN PRAYING FOR. MAY I CONTINUE TO GROW INTO THE AMAZING PERSON THAT U ARE AND NEVER LOSE THE KINDNESS THAT MAKE U SO SPECIAL.🤍🤍

I suppose I always thought ‘we’ were going somewhere. You felt it too, right? You must know- the power you hold over me. Even when my mind flakes, when it tells me your face is reprehensible, your voice is grating, your personality so overtly sugary… my body still yearns for you. Despite everything, I want to make you smile, to hold your hand, to pry you wide open and crawl inside you, where it’s safe. Even now, if you’d only ask, you know I’ll give up everything for you. But you won’t ask, will you? It’s ridiculous, really, how quickly I can fall back into you. With you or without you, there’s always something missing. I know we’re incompatible. You need reassurance every other day, I need my independence. You believe so strongly- that there are ways things should be, things we should do to make it right. I’ve always thought that’s admirable; naive, but admirable. I, on the other hand, couldn’t really care less. What’ll happen when you realise that, love? What was it you said- “I couldn’t be friends with someone who didn’t try to do the ‘right’ thing” ? Friends. I’d made some dumb joke- “I don’t like you like that,” you said. If that’s true, how come you got with ‘them’ to forget me? How come you stopped talking to ‘them’ the moment I started to talk to you again? How come all those months ago, when I was dosed so high on pain killers, I could finally say ‘I love you,’ without being repulsed, and a few days later you told me you loved me ‘like that.’ You don’t know what you want. Back then I didn't know it too. Ah, but no. You “forgot,” that ever happened, didn’t you? God, it makes me feel so pathetic when I know what you do to me. One minute I’d be pleased if I’d never have to speak to you again, the next I’d want to crawl into your lap and kiss you stupid. You’ve driven me insane, don’t you know? There’s no point to this, no point waiting. What I need to do is let you go. I suppose that’s why I’m writing this; one, to confess outside the sanctity of my mind that yes, I did fall for you; two, to set myself free. It’s not fair to you, is it, my back and forth. If I let this desire- the one that demands I tie you to me and never let you go- free, maybe I’ll be a better friend. One can truly appreciate you. So, here it is: I love you. I love you so fucking much. And yet, and yet, I hate you. I hate what you’ve done to me, I hate that you live in the recesses of my mind, always. This is an act of selfishness, darling. I love you, so I’ll let you go. I’ll always love you, but, I hope, not quite like this. Won’t you forgive me?

sadafasfa :) love u

Hiieee babyyy, There are so many things I never say out loud, so I'm writing them here instead. One thing I've realized is that talking to you always makes me feel better. It doesn't matter if my day has been exhausting, if I'm stressed, overthinking, annoyed, or just feeling weird for no reason. Somehow, after talking to you, everything feels a little less heavy. It's like my mind finally decides to calm down. Sometimes you don't even have to say anything special, you'll just be there, talking about random things, making dumb jokes, or telling me something completely unnecessary, and somehow it still works. I don't know how you do it, but you do. Let me remind you that you also manage to piss me off more than almost anyone else. You f*ck up. A lot. Like...*a lot*. There are moments where I genuinely wonder how one person can be so adorable and so unbelievably annoying at the exact same time. You overthink the wrong things, forget obvious things, say the dumbest stuff with a straight face, and somehow still expect me not to roll my eyes -_- It's honestly unfair. No matter how irritated I get, somehow I still find myself wanting to tell you about my day, hear about yours, laugh with you, or just exist with you. I guess that's what happens when someone slowly becomes your comfort without even realizing it. There's another thing I've never really admitted. I really like it when you say my name. For the longest time, it was just...my name. Nothing more. I never really thought much about it. But lately, whenever you say it, it sounds different. It feels special in a way I can't explain. I don't think it's the name itself that changed. I think it's who's saying it. When you call me by my name, it doesn't sound ordinary anymore. It sounds like home. It sounds like someone is genuinely happy to have me there. And I know this might sound dramatic, but I genuinely don't think I like hearing my name from anyone else as much as I like hearing it from you. Out of everyone in this world, you're my favorite person to hear it from. It's weird how one person can change something you've heard your entire life. Sometimes I even replay the way you've said my name in my head. And you somehow manage to become both the reason I smile the hardest and the reason I sigh the loudest. So yes, you mess up. You drive me crazy. You make me question your brain cells every now and then. AND, don't let this get to your head too much, okay ? You're still a certified idiot. Just my favorite one

Dear Ethan, I still remember the day we met. It was the beginning of something that would become both magical and painful. When I met you, I was going through a rough patch. I never thought one person could make such a difference in my life, but you proved me wrong. I developed feelings for you after only a few conversations. Every time I was around you, I felt happier. You always knew how to make me smile, even on my worst days. I remember one day I had a terrible day at school and was in such an irritable mood. Then I saw you. We said hi, and somehow, just seeing you made everything feel lighter. I smiled without even thinking about it. It was those little moments—ones you probably never even realized—that slowly made me fall for you. When we had our first deep conversation after two months, that's when everything became real. Sparks turned into fire. It was something I had never felt before. It wasn't admiration from a distance anymore. My feelings grew the more I got to know you—your struggles, your insecurities, your family life. I wasn't falling for some perfect version of you that I had imagined in my head. I was falling for the real you. Those conversations also made me realize how much we had in common. Knowing that we had gone through similar things and understood certain feelings in the same way only made me feel closer to you. You made me feel understood in a way no one else ever had. For the first time in a long time, I felt like I had someone who truly got me, and that changed more than you'll probably ever know. You never made me feel crazy for the things I told you. Somehow, you always knew exactly what to say. Even after you found out I liked you, nothing changed. You never treated me differently, and I'm so grateful for that because having someone like you is so rare. I was terrified that you knowing would cost me our friendship, but it didn't, and I'll always be thankful for that. That still didn't change the fact that I liked you. I tried so hard to convince myself not to because I knew I never had a chance. But feelings don't disappear just because they're inconvenient. Somewhere along the way, you became everything I had been looking for, and no one else ever seemed to compare. I kept telling myself it was just another crush. Then weeks turned into months. Every time I thought the feelings had faded, I'd talk to you again, and they would come back even stronger. That's when I realized it wasn't a crush anymore. I love you. Not because you were the first person to show me kindness. Not because you happened to be there during one of the hardest times in my life. I love you because the more I got to know you, the more there was to love. Every conversation made me admire you more. Every little thing I learned about you made me want to know you better. Somehow, instead of the mystery fading, my feelings only became stronger. Loving you never felt like a choice. It just happened so naturally that one day I woke up and realized my heart had already made its decision long before my mind ever caught up. When I found out someone else liked me, I tried to put my feelings for you on pause. I convinced myself—and everyone else—that I was finally over you. But I was lying. By the time I realized that, I had gotten myself into a situation that had become far too complicated to untangle. I remember hanging out with someone else. It was kind of a date. But the entire time, I couldn't stop thinking about you. I wished they were your eyes I was looking into. I wished it was your voice I was listening to. I wished it was you sitting next to me. It wasn't anything he did wrong. He was genuinely sweet and kind. He just wasn't you. I think that's what hurt the most. I wasn't comparing him to some impossible fantasy—I was comparing him to someone real. Someone who had already shown me what it felt like to laugh until my face hurt, to feel understood without having to explain myself over and over again, and to feel safe just by being around them. Once I knew what that felt like with you, I couldn't pretend it didn't exist. My chest hurts knowing that we'll never be together. Knowing that I'll never get to hold your hand, fall asleep in your arms, or spend quiet nights watching movies with you. Sometimes I catch myself replaying our conversations or rereading our texts because I miss your presence whenever you're not around. Sometimes I wonder what it would have been like if things had been different. I imagine the little things more than the big ones—walking together without needing to say anything, sending each other videos, laughing over something only we would understand, or simply sitting next to you knowing I was exactly where I wanted to be. Those are the moments I'll never have, and somehow they're the ones that hurt the most. I knew you only saw me as a friend, and I tried so hard to stop loving you. But you make it impossible. It's not even anything you do. It's simply because you exist, and because you're you. I wish it were easy. But I can't look at anyone else the way I look at you. I can't even bring myself to truly get to know someone else because, somehow, knowing you has always felt like enough. I'd honestly rather love you painfully from a distance than force myself to love someone else, because I know the moment I look back at you, every feeling will come rushing back. I don't think I'll ever truly get over you. No matter how much time passes, I think a part of me will always belong to the person who unknowingly changed my life just by being himself. I wish I could tell you all of this. I wish I could hand you this letter and let you know exactly what has been in my heart all this time. I wish you knew how deeply you've been loved without ever asking for it. But actions have consequences, and I can't do that. This isn't some fairytale love story. Maybe it never will be. Maybe one day these feelings will fade, and maybe they won't. I honestly don't know. What I do know is that loving you changed me. You showed me the kind of person I hope to find someday, even if that person can never be you. A part of me will always be grateful that I met you, even if another part of me will always wonder what could have been. So even if you never feel the same way, I hope that one day you'll know just how deeply I loved you.