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I want you to come back. I miss you. I miss our late nights, our long talks about nothing, our moments that no one understands but us. I want to hug you again, to kiss you hello again, to see you climb through my window again. I wish you’d just say something. You know I’d let you back in. We’re just scared

Idk if you will receive this message one day or not. I just want to say that I wish I had never met you , though I still miss everything we had. I still miss us i miss everything kiss , every laugh , and I still remember how you used to kiss my forehead . I have one question . Why ? Why her not me ? If she was your first love and couldn't move on , Why did you choose me ? And when you couldn't move on you went back to her . I mean it's your choice , but what the hurting for? Why saying that I'm the bad person for texting her and telling her that we are dating? Like tf ! And why telling every friend you have about our sexual life ? Be for real tho YOU ARE THE WORST PERSON TO EVER EXIST IN MY LIFE EVEN WORST THEN MY DAD . I hate you , but I still love the person you used to be , I miss my baby 7moudy , but I hate Mohamed . funny cuz they're all the same person , but different personalities At the end I truly loved you and I don't think that I'll ever trust anyone the way i trusted you cuz look at how it ended . I still listen to every song you gave me , but yk what I'll be over you one day and that will be the most painful thing to ever happen to me cuz I had to get over the only person I loved the most . Bye my sweet angel and btw I'll never forget your beautiful brown eyes . I prayed so much to have a child that has your eyes but that's fine not everything we want we get .

🤍 DAY 1 — THE NIGHT BEFORE YOUR DAY To the boy who deserves to know how special he is… 1 DAY LEFT. ONE MORE SLEEP. AND THEN IT'S YOUR DAY. 🎂 Bhaiyaa… Kal tera birthday hai. Pata hai? 😭🤍 Itna simple sa sentence hai na—kal tera birthday hai. But pata nahi kyun, is baar ye sentence likhte hue bhi alag si feeling aa rahi hai. Maybe because I've been waiting for this day. Maybe because I've spent these last few days trying to find the right words for you. Or maybe because no matter how much I write, there's still going to be so much left unsaid. Tomorrow, everyone will wish you. You'll get messages, calls, wishes, maybe surprises too. You'll smile, laugh, enjoy your day, and hopefully make some beautiful memories. And I genuinely hope you do. But tonight, before your birthday actually begins, I want you to forget about everything else for a moment and think about YOURSELF. Not the person everyone expects you to be. Not the son who has responsibilities, not the friend who has to show up for everyone, not the person who has to act strong or pretend everything is fine. Just you. The boy who's growing up, figuring life out, making mistakes, learning new things, and slowly becoming the person he's meant to be. Bhaiyaa, I hope life is kind to you. I hope the dreams you keep quietly in your heart find their way to you. I hope you get opportunities that make you proud of yourself. I hope you meet people who appreciate your heart, friendships that bring you peace, and moments that remind you how beautiful life can be. And on the days when things don't go according to your plans, I hope you never start believing that you're not doing enough. You're allowed to take your time. You're allowed to make mistakes. You're allowed to have bad days without feeling like you've failed. You're growing, Bhaiyaa. You don't have to have everything figured out already. And I hope you never put so much pressure on yourself to become someone great that you forget to appreciate the person you already are. Because before I wish for you to become somebody in life, I wish for you to be happy being yourself. 🥹 And there's something else I wish for you. I wish that years from now, when you look back at your life, you have more reasons to smile than to regret. I hope you get to do the things you've always wanted to do. I hope you make your parents proud. I hope you achieve things that make the younger version of you feel proud. And I hope that even when life gets serious, you never lose that side of you that laughs at stupid jokes, acts silly over absolutely nothing, and makes ordinary moments memorable. Please don't grow up so much that you forget to enjoy being young, okay? 😭😂🤍 And now comes the part where your little sister gets a little selfish. Bhaiyaa, can I ask you for one thing? When life gets bigger, when your world gets busier, when you have a hundred responsibilities and a thousand new things happening around you… I hope we still find reasons to annoy each other. I hope I can still come to you with the most random stories. I hope I can still tell you about the little things that happened in my day. I hope your achievements will still be something I'll get excited about, even when they're ordinary things to you. And I hope that someday, when we're older and life looks completely different, we'll sit together and laugh about all this nonsense. You'll probably make fun of me for being so emotional about your birthday. And I'll probably remind you that you should be grateful because not everyone gets a sister who puts this much effort into irritating them. 😭😂 But secretly, I hope we'll both know how much these years meant. Because birthdays come every year, but the people who become part of our growing-up years are the ones whose memories we carry into all the years that follow. And I'm really happy that you're part of mine. 🤍 Bhaiyaa, I don't know what this next year has planned for you. I don't know what you'll achieve, what you'll learn, which dreams will come true, or what unexpected turns life will take. But if there's one thing I could wish for you tonight, it would be this: May the coming year give you reasons to be proud of yourself that you haven't even imagined yet. May you find happiness in places you never expected. May you have the courage to chase the things that scare you. May you never feel alone in the difficult moments. And may you always have people around you who celebrate your happiness as genuinely as they stand beside you through your struggles. You deserve a beautiful year, Bhaiyaa. Not just a beautiful birthday. A beautiful year. ❤️ And before I end this little letter, I want you to imagine something. Imagine yourself a few years from now. You're older. You've grown. You've achieved some things, perhaps changed your mind about others, and collected so many stories that today's problems might seem tiny. And somewhere in that future, I hope you'll remember this birthday. Maybe you'll remember the wishes. Maybe you'll remember the gifts. Maybe you'll remember the people who celebrated with you. But I hope you remember this too— That when your birthday was still a day away, someone was sitting there, trying to find words big enough to tell you how much she wished the world would be good to you. Someone was hoping that your next year would be gentler, happier, and full of beautiful surprises. Someone was wishing for your happiness before the celebrations had even begun. And that someone was your little sister. 🥹🤍 Happy almost-birthday, Bhaiyaa. Enjoy your last few hours of being 18. Take a deep breath. Be proud of how far you've come. And walk into 19 knowing that you don't have to be perfect to be loved, and you don't have to achieve everything at once to make your life meaningful. Tomorrow, the world gets another year of you. And I hope this new year of your life gives you a thousand beautiful reasons to love the life you're building. Happy Birthday in advance, mere Bhaiyaa. 🫂❤️ Kal tumhara din hai. Kal saari wishes tumhare naam hongi. But tonight, I just wanted to remind you that your life is worth celebrating—not only because it's your birthday tomorrow, but because you are here, growing, learning, and becoming. And if I could give you one wish that would last longer than any birthday gift, it would be this: May you always find your way back to happiness, no matter how far life takes you from it. 1 DAY LEFT. 🎂🤍 See you at midnight, birthday boy. This is only the beginning.

You will always be my north star

Everything seems to be going wrong. Its like you leaving me was the kickstarter to a series of events i wouldnt even think could happen. Am i going to miss you forever?

Dear Rachel, I know things are getting more difficult now. But please always remember that my FA is truly FA. Think of the days when you were my ‘Dr.’ and I, your test subject. The day when we said we’re “officially stuck with each other”. The day when you said “we’re in deep sh*t”, and I responded with “yep, Mariana Trench deep”. The day I promised to take good care of your broken heart and to always keep it healed. Remember that animation you sent me? I hope you do, because it always plays in my head. And then the stories & statuses, the shared playlists, and our promises. No matter how difficult things might get in the future, the risks, the conflicts, we will get through them together, love. You are my heart and soul. You are my life. IMYSM, ILYSM, Rachel. FA, M

dearest Lord ive prayed the prayer to remove him from my life if he's not from You and ive received the signs. i like him. a lot. and i think this is going to end well. please. bless me with him. kidus, i think about you. all the time. youre so cuteeee i squeal looking at pictures of that smile ughhhhhh. im head over heels. i thought i got over you when you were (maybe?) dating that girl but apparently not. i cant stop checking your accounts :,) please God work your will in this!!! -h

Hey. We have been talking for a while and i just cant get you off my mind. day and night. I need you to need me back or stop giving me mixed signals. i understand ur busy but i am too. and i think you know how you feel so just show it.

Have you ever liked me,even just once?I've always hoped you did.

I never told you this, but on your birthday I rented a car and had intended to surprise you… drive us around the city, hoping to get a bite at your favorite restaurant. I’d hoped we’d somehow end up at the beach where we’d talk about our biggest dreams and fears, as we comforted each other, wrapped in blankets. I wanted to be the one that made you feel better, especially with what you were going through at the time. I think that’s why it hurt when you texted a mutual for comfort that night, rather than me. You scared me because your reputation proceeded you, but I still gave it a chance. I didn’t want to break it off. I brought you books I thought you’d like when you were moving out of state. I checked in on you during tumultuous natural disasters to make sure you and your family were okay. I kissed you like I meant it when I saw you again. I told you that if I made you feel better, even for a second while you were going through hard times, I’m glad it was me. I meant that. I deserve someone that wants to do all of those things for me. I think I’ve run out of anything left to give you. I’m leaving room for a courageous love that takes a chance, even when things are hard. - El

The one who's the most funniest person I've ever met ( No I'm not saying you're a clown😂) You have a charming, lighthearted, easygoing personality... anyone would be happy to have you around. In fact they would be lucky like who wouldn't want free doses of laughter and your unlimited joke sessions to survive this busy hectic hospital life 😭 yrr bs bht mazy k bandy ho ap not just that, you were kind and respectful too (Aura++). you were the best part about my ER rotation. Although we just did 4 calls together and that too in separate wards but jo b time hum ne sath guzara it's worth remembering. I wonder ap kesa feel karty hongy i feel like you must be everyone's favourite ( a wanted person😂) jo b apky sath time spend karta hoga they would always want more of your company. celebrity feeling ati he?👀😂 Anyways Wish you best of luck for your future. I hope you become an amazing doctor and achieve everything you're working towards. I'm sure you'll do great wherever you go. Keep that charming personality of yours alive and never let anyone dim the light in you 💫 Best wishes, always 🌼

Hi Bebi, happy birthday! i know na hindi mo naman mababasa 'to but I do wish na you had a great day! I wish na makapag celebrate ka with your loved ones and friends. Take care of yourself always, and please drink water palagi. I miss you sometimes but I'll live with it. Hope na sana hindi na tayo magkita tho haha! Goodbye, I genuinely wish you happiness!

No matter how difficult things may get, please don’t lose faith. M.

to any rita out there, i just want to let you know, you'll get through it. trust me. just focused to make yourself grow. ignore anything that has no corellation for your growth for it may only waste your wise time. you're as strong as many rita out there.

Hi matt, it's been one month since our last conversation. andami kong mga hindi nasabi sayo, di ko din kase alam kung saan ko uumpisahan, siguro mag umpisa muna tayo dun sa part na naging sobrang saya ko kase nakilala kita. God know how I want you to be my last, kase habang kinekwento mo yung mga ginawa sayo ng ex mo dun pumasok sa isip ko na mas mahalin ka pa lalo, naaalala mo yung gabi kila jules? that night. i promised to love you even better, i promised to hold you like a fragile glass. gusto kong patunayan sayo na hindi ako katulad nila. pero ayon pala yung magiging pinaka maling ginawa ko sa buhay ko, kase hindi mo pala nararamdaman yon. hindi mo pala ramdam kung gaano kita gustong ingatan, the first time that i found out that you cheated. my world came crashing down. pero i didnt give up. inisip ko nalang na baka may pagkukulang ako, so i still forgive you.but then you destroyed my trust again and again. naubos lang yung pasensya ko nung nakipagkita ka sa babae na yon. at oo aaminin ko naimplwesyahan ako ng mga friends ko. hindi ko naman dapat gagawin yon e at alam kong hindi ko dapat ginawa yon. but then naisip ko na baka pag nagcheat ako makita mo na yung mga mali mo, and i wasn't wrong kase dun mo lang din nakita yung halaga ko... nagsorry ako sayo non and thankyou for forgiving me that time. pero hindi ko alam na dun din pala ako masisira. kase oo nga pinatawad moko but I suffered from all your hurtful words, accusations, and manipulation i guess? that time iniisip ko na dapat ko lang tanggapin yon kase may kasalanan ako sayo at nasaktan kita. dahil don nakalimutan ko na kaya lang din pala kita nasaktan kase sinira mo yung tiwala ko. tbh you ruined my perspective of love, and thats the saddest thing kase sayo ko naranasan yung mga happy memories ko... all that night rides, tambay, meet up after class and meeting your mom. hahahhahaha nonsense din siguro toh kase di mo din naman mababasa taena tama na nga fuck this.

i dont really know much about you nor do you even know much about me but i hope someday we'll become friends!! ^_^ ure rlly rlly cool but im just rlly shy to talk to you.. gulp

‎i never stopped loving you. I just stopped hoping that one day you'll change your mind and come back. i just stopped praying for you, instead i pray for you. mula nung nov 25, grabe talaga ang sakit na dinadaanan ko at hanggang ngayon dala dala ko pa rin. alam mo kung bakit di na'ko nagttext sayo nung nakaraan? sa sobrang bigat na nararamdaman ko, naisipan kong tumigil na para makausad na rin ako. pero wala eh, patungo parin sayo pa rin ang napupuntahan ko, at ang napala ko lang dun ay pagsisi. di ko nga rin alam bakit napapanaginipan pa rin kita, na para bang may silbi pa rin ako sayo. oo, titigilan ko na ang pagaasa na babalik ka pa dahil ngayon alam kong hindi na talaga mangyayari yon, ang hihilingin ko nalang ngayon ay sana mahalin ka rin ng ginugusto mo, saka nalang ako ngingiti ulit pag babalik ka, pero tandaan mo lang minahal kita ng totoo. pasensya ka na kung di kita masyadong pinapansin noong muling pagtagpo natin, sadyang wala lang ako masabi at hindi ko kayang tingnan ka dahil pinipigilan ako ng respeto ko para sayo. kung ang gusto mong lumayo, rerespetuhin ko iyon. ito rin ang dahilan kung bakit pinili kong layuan ka dati, kahit ayoko, kahit masakit. kaya rin minsan lang kitang kinakausap dahil pakiramdam kong napipilitan ka lang. sana dahil doon, hindi mo isipin na galit ako sayo. kahit kailan, di ako nagalit sayo. inakala mo lang yun dahil sa mga ginagawa ko. di man ako yung pinakamahusay na dati mong manliligaw at pinaka pogi, pero binigay ko talaga lahat sa'yo, at di ko binabalewala mga pangako ko sayo. everything i did was dedicated to you yung mga reposts, lahat ng notes, yung nag-iisa kong highlight reel, lagi rin ako nag iiwan ng mensahe sayo sa send the song, at kahit yung dump account ko, birthday mo yung lalabas pag viniew mo. siguro doon mo makikita kung gaano kalaki yung naging parte mo sa buhay ko, kasi halos lahat ng meron ako, may parte mo. and i hope you know that i met the happiest version of myself when i was with you. yk, i miss you, but you are not you anymore. i know that now. that version of you that i had, that i thought was real, no longer exists. i don't know who you are anymore, but i miss who you were. di ko man ito sinasabi palagi, pero proud ako sayo. proud ako sayo dahil nakayanan mong bumangon ngayon. proud ako sayo dahil andyan ka pa kahit alam kong may pinagdadaanan ka. proud ako sayo dahil kinakayanan mo yung sitwasyon mo ngayon. lagi akong proud sayo kahit di ko ito sinasabi, pero di lang dapat ako yung proud, dapat proud ka rin sa sarili mo dahil di alam ng iba ang pakiramdam maging ikaw araw araw. and you're doing great. at ang dahilan kung bakit gusto ko ipost tong video dahil ito ang araw na niligawan kita. at inaalay ko sayo yung kanta na yun mula nung nawala lahat. ito yung araw na nagsimula yung isang bagay na hindi ko akalain na magiging ganito kalaking parte ng buhay ko. nagpapasalamat rin ako dahil naging masaya ako ng isang buwan, kahit saglit lang. at kahit hindi tayo nagtagal, hindi ibig sabihin na maliit lang yung naging epekto mo sa akin. sigurado ako na hanggang ngayon, may parte pa rin sa akin na naghahanap sa taong nakilala ko noon. yung taong kausap ko hanggang gabi, yung taong hinihintay kong magmessage, yung taong kahit simpleng bagay lang, napapasaya ako. minsan naiisip ko kung ano kaya tayo ngayon kung hindi nangyari lahat ng nangyari. pero alam kong wala na akong mababago doon. marami akong gustong sabihin sayo pero siguro hindi ko na kailangan sabihin lahat. baka sapat na yung malaman mong minahal kita nang totoo at sobra pa sa sobra. hindi perpekto, maraming pagkakamali, maraming bagay na sana pwede ko pang ibahin, pero naging totoo lahat ng naramdaman ko para sayo. hindi ko pagsisisihan na minahal kita. kahit masakit yung naging kapalit, naging parte ka ng buhay ko na hindi ko basta mabubura at laging mananatili sa puso't isipan ko. ikaw yung taong napupuntahan ko dati sa t'wing wala na'kong mapupuntahan, ikaw yung taong naging tahanan ko, at kahit hindi na ako makakabalik doon, nagpapasalamat pa rin ako na minsan, nakauwi ako sayo. at ngayon, kung saan ka masaya, dun nalang rin ako. kasi pagkatapos ng lahat ng nangyari satin, gusto ko pa rin na makita kang masaya. hindi ko man alam kung ano na yung mga bagay na nagpapasaya sayo ngayon, kung sino yung mga taong kasama mo, o kung saan ka na dinadala ng buhay mo, sana mahanap mo pa rin yung saya na minsan nating nahanap sa isa't isa. sana yung mga alaala natin, yung mga gabing naguusap tayo hanggang gabi, yung mga simpleng bagay na tayo lang ang nakakaintindi, at yung mga araw na pareho tayong masaya, manatili pa rin sayo kahit papaano. hindi ko hinihiling na bumalik yung mga araw na yun, gusto ko lang na kung saan ka man mapunta, may makapagbigay sayo ng saya na minsan nating binigay sa isa't isa. kasi kung may isang bagay man na gusto kong manatili pagkatapos ng lahat ng nangyari satin, yun ay yung sana maging masaya ka, kahit saan pa manggaling yung saya na yun. maybe someday, hindi na kita mamimiss the way i do now. maybe someday, hindi na masakit maalala itong araw nato. hindi mo alam kung gaano kadaming gabi kung san kinukumbinsi ko yung sarili ko na bitawan ka na, habang kumakapit parin ang puso ko sa pag-asang baka sakaling babalik kapa. pero ngayon, kailangan ko munang tanggapin na dehins kana babalik. hindi na ako maghihintay. hindi na ako aasa. hindi dahil alam kong hindi ka nang babalik, pero dahil natutunan ko na minsan, kahit mahal mo ng lubusan yung isang tao, kailangan mo pa ring tanggapin na hindi na talaga kayo para sa isa't isa. salamat sa lahat. salamat sa panahong naging masaya ako dahil sayo. salamat sa mga alaala, sa mga tawanan, sa mga simpleng moments na hanggang ngayon dala dala ko pa rin. salamat dahil kahit saglit lang, naging malaking parte ka ng buhay ko. and if this affects our friendship then this will probably be the last time I'll ever talk to you, but i just want you to know one last thing before it happens, i'll always wish the best for you. hindi na bilang taong naghihintay na bumalik ka, kundi bilang taong minahal ka nang totoo. you were my home, you meant everything to me, it's you, it's always been you and forever will be. this day will also mark the day i finally had the courage to tell you how i felt. this will serve as my final act of love, finally letting you go. now, i guess it's time to leave the restaurant. the restaurant that i stayed and waited for you to come back for one year. i loved you then, i love you now, "I just want you to know that i love you so much ah, and it'll stay that way forever." ‎Ggraduate na'po ako sayo:) ‎

Happiest birthday, My Baby! I am very, very proud and happy for my baby—for every big and small achievement you’ve made in your life. I’m also so proud of you for being so strong after everything that happened and for all the battles you’ve faced. I know there were times when things felt so hard, when you felt like you couldn’t do it anymore or that you wouldn’t be able to make it to the finish line. But despite all of that, you still chose to stand up, keep fighting, and continue moving forward. ‎ ‎You fought so hard to become the person you are today. Other people may not understand why you became the person you are now because they didn’t see the struggles you went through. They didn’t see how much you were hurting before, or how hard you had to fight just to become the strong person that you are today. But I did, and I want you to know that I will always be proud of you. ‎ ‎I’m always here for you, baby. I will never leave you, and I will never choose someone over you. No matter what happens, I’ll always be here to support you, listen to you, and remind you how loved you are. ‎ ‎Having you in my life feels like looking at the perfect view of the ocean—peaceful, beautiful, and something I could never get tired of seeing. I’m so happy, grateful, and contented that I get to have you in my life. ‎ ‎You deserve all the love, happiness, and beautiful things this world has to offer. I hope you never forget how special you are to me. ‎ ‎Happy birthday again, my baby lovelove. I love you so, so, so much.