i know you won't read this and even if you do it will probably be too late. i know youre done with me but i really did love you and i dont understand why it had to be this way. i was willing to wait but you just broke up with me instead. i told my mom the day i read your text. i felt so stupid knowing i was texting you after you deleted your account. i didnt know u did. i cried all day. even at work i tried to tell everyone i was okay but i couldnt stop. i had to block you and im sorry. i do love you but you broke my trust. it felt like i was never enough for you. even after 3 years i just couldnt understand why i wasnt enough for you. every year almost like i was someone else but it wasnt enough. it hurt knowing you would never love me as much as i do. it hurt even more hearing you say it to me. it hurts the most whenever i remember you saying it to me. how dumb i felt trusting you. how i thought i could. i thought i could hold on to you. you were the reason i wanted to get better. in reality you made it worse. so much worse... i constantly compare myself with every girl i see. even more so the ones u said were ur type. i cant get it out of my head. i still remember asking what you liked and how it broke my heart knowing u would never like me just the way i am. im sorry im not enough and im sorry for loving you. you hurt me after promising me we would see each other. it hurt me more when i started thinking about everything i had said to you before. mohannad i would have given up everything for you. i told you i would stop my studies for you. seriously i would have. i was willing to move my parents just to be able to take care of them and be with you. i was willing. i wanted to. i love you. i wanted us to work because you are everything i have ever wanted. youre so precious to me amor. i'll adore you until the day i die. if u ever miss me read my notes but you'll have to wait a bit longer for me. i probably wont unblock you until my birthday or yours im not sure yet idk what i would even get out of that. i wish u would reach out but i know its over. sometimes i guess its true that to love is to let go but i dont want to. you told me this song reminded you of me. i love you amor i hope you love me back for me one day