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i’ve always typed things on these website hoping one day you’d find them. i think about you and your smile. i look for you everywhere. i sometimes see you in my mind all around. i look for you in people i meet. i miss you truly. i know you won’t see this and i know you don’t care anymore but there’s always part of me that hopes you come back & we do it right this time. we are more mature now than we were. please call me or text me. you know my number hasn’t changed..

Dear Jessica, I've dreamt about you the other night. We were friends, laughing together like we used to do. I thought by now I would've forgotten your face, your downward smile and the way your eyes formed a crescent moon when you looked at me. But I guess you left a soft path in my mind that leeds me to you. I remember how long your hair was when we met. I remember every version of you that I’ve ever known, except one : when I started to feel our friendship was falling apart. I don't know if that's because I didn't know you anymore or if that's because you were so depressed you couldn't look at me in the eyes. In that dream, we lived in the exact same reality as we do now. We still fighted, we still didn't talk for months,... Yet we ran into each other again. I didn't have any regrets until I failed as a friend. I've heard that you got better, and I hope that you will. I'm sorry. You deserved better. You were the best best-friend I could've dreamt of, so thank you for all these years of happiness.

hey zoya, you dont know how glad I am to know that my stupid ranting has given u some peace.I hope u do all want , all you dream of and have all you deserve , ill always be here for you , you arent js a friend now, youre a part of my life now . AND ILL NEVER LET YA GO xoxo Maheen.

آخر رساله قصدي أنه أنا بعد احس بشي يعورني المهم استانسي ف حياتج enjoy your life❤️

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I remember, and thank God I searched and checked, haha. I was really happy with you too, and I am truly sorry if I ever made you upset. It was not your fault, so please don’t feel guilty. I will never forget all the good times we had, the laughs, and all the fun we shared. I will also never forget the days when we looked at each other and smiled at school. Those were the best days of my life. I miss you so much right now, and I feel like something is missing in my life. The most important thing is that you keep living your life and be happy. If you ever want to talk to me, you can message me anytime. If you see this message, please write anything on the same website so I know you saw it. I still have the Valentine’s gift, and I will always keep it because every time I see it, I remember the beautiful days we had together. Even though we are apart now, it is still something very special to me. I miss you so much. 85811110

Well, I guess I don't have to tell you everything; you know it all. But I cherish you a lot, and your existence means a lot to me. I couldn't be mad at you if I even tried to. Maybe you are the only person to have that effect on me. All I want for you is your happiness. I adore you, and be happy; never let this world tell you otherwise. Love you. Always!

to the person I cherish the most, simply to let you know that I will always remember you as someone who is incredibly kind and considerate. Even though we don't have many memorable times together, but..keep in mind that I will always be your friend and supporter, I will always be here. Even though we may not be in love right now, I will always be here to wait for you.Just take your time, follow your dreams, and know that you will always be my favorite among a billion others. Laila yang comel

You hurt me by playing favorites with other capeabilities clients when you and i had things in common and you hurt me about working at the rec with you

hello baby :( i know dami ka na tampo sakin these past few days po and im really sorry for everything. im sorry if i barely give you attention, for not calling you na the way i usually do before. it’s just, hay, im really really sorry po :( i’lltry to make bawi yhis week, hal :( please let me pa rin :( im really sorry din po for not maintaining doing what i always do po :( huwag mo sana isipin po na baka nagffade na yung love ko sayo kaya hindu ko na ginagawa po ah? kasi hindi oo :( hindi ko na lang din talaga alam po paano pa makakabawi kasi last few weeks we always had tampuhan at away and i don’t know how to make it up to you na kaua im really sorry, hal :( please bear with me. thank you for telling me those po : ( ayaw ko maipon nang maipon yung mga tampo mo sakin po and im really sorry : ( mahal na mahal na mahal kita :( walang nababawas o mababago dun po, okay ;(

Hellowwwwww Maheen,I wanted to let u know that you have been helping me a lot more than you would ever be capable of thinking, i never in my life have felt so loved by anyone. You make me feal like i am loved and you give me a purpose to live and i am really greatful to have u. Your a spark in the dark,and i love you smmmmmmm<33333 Yoursss Zoye

seven months may not seem that long for otherpeople, pero for me, every single day we've spent together online has been one of the happiest part of my life. marami man tayong pinagdaanan, maliliitman o malalaki, and I'm so thankful because hanggang ngayon, tayo pa rin. thank you for staying, for loving me, and for choosing us every single day. I'm so lucky and grateful to call you mine. I just want you to know how much I truly love you. no matter what happens to us, no matter how hard life gets or how many misunderstandings we face, I will still choose you because you're someone I'll always treasure. I know I'm not a perfect girlfriend, and I know I still have a lot to improve. I'm sorry for the times I've made disappointed you, or hurt you without meaning to. but I’m trying every day to become a better partner for you and for our relationship. thank you for being patient with me, for understanding me, and for giving me the chance to grow beside you. wiwii, you're kind, genuine, caring, and loving in so many ways. you have such a beautiful soul, and that's what makes you even more special to me. I admire you more than you probably realize. I hope you never doubt your worth because you deserve all the love this world can give. deserve mong mahalin nang sobra-sobra, with kindness, honesty, patience, and consistency. napaka worthy mong tao, and I hope I can always remind you how loved, appreciated, and important you are. I want to be someone who makes you feel safe, valued, and genuinely loved every single day. thank you for every memory we've created together. thank you for every laugh, every late-night call, every random update, every "I miss you," every "I love you," and every moment we shared. even the simplest days become my favorite because I'm spending them with you. I pray that our love continues to grow stronger with every passing month. I know no relationship is perfect, but I believe that as long as we continue to understand each other, communicate honestly, and keep choosing one another, we’llget through everything together. Happy 7 monthsary again, my wiwii. thank you for being one of the biggest blessings in mylife. thank you for loving me even on the days when I feel difficult to love. thank you for making me feel appreciated, care, and accepted. always remember this, you are loved. you are enough. you are beautiful inside and out. you deserve all the happiness, all the peace, and all the genuine love in the world. and if you'll continue to let me, I'll spend every day reminding you of that. I love you so, so much, my wiwiii. thank you for these amazing seven months. here's to moremonths, more memories, more laughter, more manyaks and more love together. no matter what happens, my heart will always choose you. Happy 7 monthsary, my forever favorite Dragon. I love you endlessly.

I miss the past. Those times we laughed for hours, talking until midnight. It’s stupid of me, but I want it back. We were never a thing. Never had some fantastical love story, and I’m not even sure you were into me. But you were my light. You listened to my dumb stories, what I ate for lunch, the people who pissed me off that day. I loved that, that time where I could talk to you forever, and you would tell me what was wrong. It shouldn’t have changed. I can’t love you that way anymore. And you can’t know. I was never a choice, was I? I was the one you would talk to about girls and I would hype you up, because I loved seeing you happy. Your smile made my day. I don’t see you smile a lot anymore. At least, not really. I know the difference. I know when you didn’t sleep well, or you had a rough day with your family. I know when those girls got to you and when something good happened. I knew more than you told me, and I never let you catch on. I know what your favorite candy is, your siblings middle names and your closest friends. I know your favorite movie characters and your hobbies. And yet it doesn’t matter. My best friend. My love. It feels so strange to say that. I never intended it to go this way. But it did. And yet you’re not mine. And you don’t need to be. I know that. It still hurts.

hey zoye , Ik things are so hard. I know it all hurts but do remember zoya , youre a person with the heart that wont even feel hatred at full force ,youre so pure that u always give a person the doubt in their wrong doings even if u dont express it .You were born with the softness of a gentle breeze yet the strength of graphene .YOU HAVE NEVER LOST IT .YOU ARE NOT LOSING IT AND YOU WILL NOT LOSE IT I believe in you ,and even though it sounds an understatement when it comes to you.I LOVE YOU .I love u with all the depths of my heart ,with all the ways my heart is able to love with, so i want you to know my dearest buddy , that: 'If you have a million lovers ,am one of them.If you have one lover , am the one, and if you have no lover , then am dead'. ill love you enough that no ones absence of love makes u feel empty , this heart of mine can carry the weight -actually warmth- of loving u equal to all loves combined. . your craziest friend -MAHEEN

I imagine you being as gentle with someone else as you were with me, and it makes me sick to my stomach. I've never met someone so patient, so giving, so understanding, and I'm scared that I won't meet someone else with even half as beautiful a soul as yours ever again. It feels strange to grieve someone who is still alive. Someone I never really even had, but pretended I did. I'm sorry I've hurt you. I'm sorry it's religion that came between us before we could even give it a try, before I could let you love me the way you silently promised you would, before I could repay you threefold for all the ways you've built me up. You've been a lighthouse in every storm, constant and grounded, and I don't know what I've done to even deserve knowing you, but what I do know is that I've put you through more than you deserve by being in your life. I'm grateful you're in my life, but I apologise for intruding on yours. Sometimes I imagine an alternate universe, where our fates were kinder, and you spend every third day at my house hanging out with my younger siblings who love you, and my brother finally has an older brother figure to look up to. Or maybe, on other days, I take your dog on walks with you, fingers intertwined like they used to be. Your hands always ran warm. We walk home along the shore near your house, and I have comfortable chats with your sister and your parents, and I tell them how well you treat me, as I know you would. You always do. You always have. Whoever gets to hold you will be the luckiest girl in the world. You're so easy to talk to. So calming and careful and sincere. So honest, so smart in the way you saw through every part of me that I doubted. I selfishly thought no one would ever know you or love you the way that I do, but you're so perfect that I think it's impossible not to. I wish things were different. I wish this tightness in my chest was from a nightmare, not reality. I wish you would tell me I'm pretty without being worried that you'll make it worse, make us fall further apart than we already are. I wish I could hold your face in my hands and kiss your nose, or rest my cheek on your shoulder again, or hug you again. Just one more time. And I want to stay friends. I want you in my life. But right now, the thought of having to see you as someone other than the only man in the world who understands me makes me cry. I've cried every day for weeks. The headache doesn't go away. I've made so many mistakes in my life, but the biggest one is being someone you fell in love with. You told me nothing is my fault, that I've done nothing, that you could never hate me, that I'm not a bad person. But I can't bring myself to believe you. It was my religion, my beliefs that fell between us. And, despite knowing how it would play out, I let myself pretend that I was right for you and you were right for me. And I hurt you because of it. You've grown into every part of my life, and I don't know how to live without seeing you everywhere. I miss you so so so so much. Even though we still talk in spite of both our aching hearts. I love you, and I'll always love you in some small part in my chest, with the innocence of a child being carried to bed after falling asleep on the couch, and with the depth of two sort-of-adults who feel everything in its fullest. I started writing this hoping you'd never see it, but some part of me hopes you will, and see all the things I'm too scared to say out loud. You deserve the world. You deserve everything. And I'm sure you'll get all of that and more, but it won't be from me. I'm sorry it can't be from me. I'm always here for you. Stay strong. -D

Hi, Clyde. I know it's over between us, but I still wanted to send you this message. These are all the things I never got to say, and I don't think I can keep them to myself anymore. First of all, I want you to know that I'm genuinely grateful you became part of my life. At first, I didn't even like you. You knew that. I rejected you so many times, yet you never gave up. You were the only guy who stayed consistent in pursuing me, and that's something I'll never forget. I never imagined we end up together because, before you, I never let anyone get past the talking stage. But you made me feel loved, and little by little, I found myself falling in love with you not because I got attached, but because I truly loved you. last time I saw na naa kay gi like about avoidant? if that was really meant for me, I just want you to know that you changed an avoidant person. Kung kabalo lang ka, gi-stop nako akong pagiging avoidant para sa imo. Not because I liked you at first, but because you showed me consistency while you were courting me. You made me feel enough to let my guard down and trust someone again. You don't even realize how big that was for me. I changed a part of myself because I believed you. I believed in your consistency, your effort, and the love you showed me. That's why I took the risk. Sadly, the person who made me stop being avoidant was also the person who reminded me why I became avoidant in the first place. But yah...I honestly thought we would last. I know you had a lot of problems, but most of the time, you never shared them with me. Instead, you'd leave me on delivered for hours or even days. You probably don't realize how much that hurt. Then there was the first time you broke up with me. I didn't even know the reason because you stopped replying to my messages and even blocked me. Later, you came back, explained yourself, and asked for another chance. I forgave you because I loved you. I always tried my best to understand you. But sometimes I couldn't help but ask myself... did you ever try to understand me and my feelings too? After we got back together, I thought everything would finally be okay. But then it happened again. You'd apologize, tell me you'd make it up to me, promise you'd change but your actions never matched your words. You know you've already been hurt by someone before, so you know exactly how painful it feels. Then we broke up again. We had no contact for more than a month, and I honestly didn't expect you to come back again. Then nag chat ka usab nako because the reason I unfriended you? was because of the things you were posting on your notes. After that, we made up again. Okay na pud ta. Then there was a time when everything felt okay again. You were caring, you showed concern, and I thought we were finally getting better. Then, out of nowhere, you told me not to wait for you and that being with me felt like an obligation. Why are you always like that, huh? Why were you so different from the man who pursued me? When you were courting me, you were so consistent. You made me feel chosen every single day. But after we got together, it slowly started to feel like I became an obligation instead of someone you genuinely wanted. If you really felt that way, then maybe you shouldn't have pursued me in the first place. Maybe you shouldn't have come back every time we broke up. Sometimes I couldn't stop myself from wondering... did you only come back because you wanted sex? Because after that happened, it felt like everything changed. It felt like you slowly drifted away again. I don't know if that's true, but that's how it made me feel. I wanted a serious relationship. I never wanted something that was only beautiful in the beginning. I wanted consistency. I wanted someone whose love wouldn't change after getting what they wanted. I truly believed that person was you. Tangina! what hurts the most is that you left without even giving me anything no explanation, no apology, no real conversation about why everything had to end this way. I want you to know that I loved you with everything I had. I took the risk of loving you despite everything. Sometimes I still wonder... was I ever worth the risk to you? I always chose to understand you because I loved you so much. I don't know if you really loved me the way I loved you. Even after everything, I still wish you nothing but the best. I hope you succeed in life and achieve every dream you've ever told me about. I always told you I'd be proud of you clyde, and I meant every word. I'm gonna miss your hugs, your kisses, your presence, and your love. I really enjoyed every moment we spent together. You know what I mean. I will never forget you baby, because you gave me so many memories, and I hope you won't forget me too. Maybe this just isn't the right time for us. And if our paths to cross again someday, I hope we're both happy, healed, and successful. I'm sorry if I'm not the girl you wanted or the type of girl you like. I'm sorry if I couldn't be the kind of person you were looking for or give you the kind of love you truly wanted. I don't know if you still have anything to say after reading this message. If naa man, I hope you tell me. But if you don't, I understand. I just wanted you to know everything I never got the chance to say. Take care of yourself baby, always. I'll always be thankful that I met you. I loved you so much, Clyde. Goodbye, baby.

I often wonder where love goes after it is no longer welcome. Perhaps it lingers inside forgotten playlists, waiting for someone to press play one more time. Perhaps it hides between photographs that neither heart has found the courage to erase. Or perhaps it simply learns to live inside silence. Sometimes I catch myself believing that somewhere, without even realizing it, you're listening to the songs we once shared. That maybe, for the length of a single melody, my name still exists somewhere between the lyrics. It's a comforting lie. The kind the heart tells itself when the truth is too quiet to bear. Your photographs still rest where I left them. Not because I refuse to let go, but because they are the last proof that, for a brief moment in this lifetime, you were real. I searched for you once. Only once. Only to find that even the place where our story began had quietly forgotten your name. Perhaps that's what goodbye truly is. Not when someone walks away, but when every road that once led to them slowly disappears. Still, there are nights when I almost reach for our conversation, forgetting that the door between us was closed long ago. Some absences never ask to be remembered. They simply become part of the air you breathe, quietly follow you wherever you go. Maybe one day the songs will lose your voice. Maybe the photographs will become nothing more than ordinary pixels. Maybe your name will arrive in my mind without breaking anything inside me. But until that gentle day finds me, I'll keep these fragments where they are. Not as a promise to wait, but as a quiet thank you to a love that once existed, even if only for a little while. I hope life has been kind to you. And I hope, wherever you are, you've found the peace we couldn't find together. To the person who became my favorite memory ⁠♡.

I really miss you.. Lately I have been thinking about what happened between us and how I must have confused and offended you. I was confused and scared and just a mess of emotions. I am really sorry. Please, can we talk this out? When you feel like it, of course. You were one of my best friends for a while and I must be honest, losing you broke me in ways I never thought I could be broken.

I’m not mad at you anymore. I’m just confused. And for whatever reason, I still care about you too.

E, no final de tudo, pelo menos você conseguiu seguir em frente. Você conseguiu encontrar alguém, construir um novo relacionamento e continuar vivendo a sua vida, enquanto eu ainda estou aqui, tentando entender o que aconteceu comigo depois de nós. Eu ainda estou tentando preencher esse vazio que ficou, tentando entender por que algo que terminou há tanto tempo ainda consegue doer tanto em mim. Às vezes eu me sinto para trás, como se todo mundo tivesse conseguido seguir e eu tivesse ficado presa no lugar onde você me deixou. Mas eu sei que cada pessoa tem o seu próprio tempo. Talvez eu só tenha precisado de mais tempo para me reconstruir depois de tudo o que vivi. E, apesar de toda essa dor, eu sei que isso não vai durar para sempre. Eu vou melhorar. Vou aprender a lidar com tudo isso, vou me reconstruir aos poucos e, mesmo que hoje eu ainda não consiga enxergar, eu sei que um dia vou olhar para trás e perceber o quanto eu cresci. Eu vou superar tudo isso. Vou superar você, vou superar o nosso fim e, principalmente, vou superar a versão de mim que ficou destruída depois de tudo. Talvez eu ainda esteja no começo desse processo, mas eu sei que, pouco a pouco, vou conseguir me encontrar novamente. E quando esse dia chegar, eu espero olhar para mim e ter orgulho de saber que, mesmo quando eu achei que não conseguiria, eu consegui.