Hi mommy, its your daughter. I resent you so much, I love you nonetheless. I dont think there's enough words to explain how much i dislike you now. It wouldve never been this way if you never got with him, i hate your husband. As much as i laugh and play with him, i hate him more than fabiola who talked me into having intercourse with her. After you two got together, i have only been doing such heinous things, you used to never have screaming matches with me, you would never take away things i hold so dear to me for such extended periods of time, i never had a drink, i would have never cut myself, i wouldve never almost killed myself. I would have never done any of this, if it weren't for him. He changed you for the worse. I can't even come to you if i've had a bad day. Now you use anything i tell you against me. I hate when you use my grief as ammunition. I wanted to be a kid, i cant anymore. Now i have to talk through my aunt just so you can understand me, my aunt was more of a mother than you have ever been. I dont think i can even form a solid opinion about you. I have wanted you to understand me ever since you got with Darian. now you just think everything i do is unreasonable or im doing it for attention, or im just being a rebellious almost-teenager. Im doing all of this so i can get away from you, everyday i get home i have a headache knowing i have to at least talk to guys once. I dont know if its menopause but that is no excuse for the way you have been treating me at all. You have been treating me like absolute shit, you say "you said you feel like a guest in your own home, but you stay in your room all day" but i try to come out nd fucking talk to you guys im just met with indifference, ignorance, and if im not you just ignore me. I have tried to talk to you guys about my feelings exactly once, you BOTH stopped listening. That was and will be the last time i ever try to explain my self to guys. I have no way to contact anyne unless its through you guys, and i havent because i dont even like asking for anything. All you do is bring it up later so you can say no. Deep down, i hate you more than anyone. My own mother who is supposed to love, care and protect me cant even protect me from herself.