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To the man whom I love though I don’t know your name or your face or your identity, I am such a fool to love you like this. Yes, you didn’t read it wrong, I love you, not “like” or “crush”. At first it was not you, it was Slay. Then there were more TikTok clips about you and I heard your name from your few but loyal fans. And I became one. I thought and watched about you day and night, day and night. My heart started beating so fast when I saw your little kicks as you read the love letter of a Laotian soldier to a girl from our beloved country, the way you walked, and when you called Môi Xinh to move back. It was such a cute voice; you sounded very young, younger than the age that was supposed to be for a Junior Lieutenant. I should remind you one more time: that I love you. Now I'm seeing pictures of you smiling on my laptop screen. So many times I poked and touched your puffy cheeks through the screen, through your mask. Every night I watched your clips before going to bed–it was a form of meditation. When your body moved close to the screen, in my mind there were rolls after rolls of scenes of me hugging you, being embraced in your arms, and smelling the scent of your sweat after a hard day of training. I sounded like a harassing jerk, I know, but my love had been so full my heart could not contain it anymore; so it flowed out and covered the whole of my body, my very body being, that I love you. I wanted to share all of the moments with you–oh, how happy and fulfilled it will be, to talk and share with you, and I will call you “bò sữa BV đáng iu nhất thế giới”, for you’re not only handsome but look like a sweet teddy bear. It would be very cozy to be shielded in your arms, feeling your rigid chest in the icy, stormy winter. Recently, I have been accepted to work part-time at a coffee shop. I am trained to bake, and I have never done such things before. I was born with a clumsy hand and a slow brain. So I made an ugly-shaped donut, and I broke a bánh mì into bits when I cut it. And of course, I was yelled at by Mrs. Boss. How would she and Mr. Boss talk about me tonight when they’re at home? I don’t know. Would they laugh at me? Would they be so angry that they plan to fire me the next morning? I don’t know. But my heart’s so bitter. I do not deserve you. I am nothing. You’re the essence of our humankind. No, I do not deserve you at all. But my mind doesn't listen, my heart doesn't listen. Oh, my dear, please tell me, what should I do with you? I am mourning over my broken pieces of heart.

you probably won't see this letter for a while... maybe days? weeks? months? maybe even years from when this is being made. i know that we are having a rough patch right now, and i'm hoping that we'll be okay and stronger than ever after this. i love you so much and i can't bear to lose you. i want to keep giving you my all, i want to be someone who you'll be proud of and not disappointed at, like always.. i want to love you even if i don't know how to do that to myself. i know that this'll sound selfish or it might even look like an excuse.. but, it hurts and i'm tired of everything that's happening or that has happened this year. i lost my spark, i'm always tired, i space out, i know that sounds stupid but, that's the truth. i'm depressed and i know it, but i can't ask for help.. maybe this is my "cry for help". i'm sorry if whatever is happening to me is affecting our relationship, i want to be of help to you, i want to open up to you, i want to tell you all these things, but.. i just can't. i'm sorry.

Mọi thứ cứ ngày ngày trôi qua như thể có 1 lực hút vô hình kéo mình lại với mọi sự trên đời, như thể mình là mặt trăng nhỏ bé xíu đang vừa gồng mình chống lại lực hút to lớn của trái đất vừa phải quay mòng mòng mòng không ngừng nghỉ ấy, xin chào và tôi là Julieta - nơi tôi sẽ viết và lắng nghe những nỗi lòng cũng để giãy bày suy nghĩ của chính tôi và bạn. Bạn có cảm thấy không? Tôi luôn mông lung luôn sợ hãi về tương lai, tôi cứ nghĩ tôi là 1 người hướng ngoại tôi rất hay cười nhưng mọi người, cả bố cả mẹ bạn bè thân thích cũng không biết tới mặt tối của tôi, lúc tôi phỏng vấn thử với thầy cô giáo, tôi thấy mình tra lời khá mượt mà về mặt phát âm và ngữ pháp tiếng Anh, có lẽ tôi giỏi nhất ở việc phân tích ảnh vì tôi rất thích viết văn tự sự và miêu tả lại rất thích vẽ đối với tôi mọi thứ diễn ra suôn sẻ cho tới lúc cô nước ngoài của tôi cô tên i cô nhăn mặt và cất giọng tiếng anh vừa phức tạp lại vừa cảm thán “Cô không biết nói sao nhưng mọi thứ ở bài phỏng vấn đều chỉ ra em rất tiêu cực.” Đúng, tôi rất tiêu cực nhìn tôi thế thôi nhưng tôi vô cùng sợ giao tiếp với người lạ, nếu có giao du chắc chỉ muốn đến 1 mình hoặc kéo nhiều nhất là 2 người bạn phải cực kì thân đi chơi cùng cho đỡ cô đơn, tôi không thích tụ tập. Tôi trưởng thành trong 1 căn nhà mà bố mẹ tôi là những người già dặn tôi cũng học hỏi họ không ít nên còn trẻ tôi đã biết suy nghĩ thấu hiểu phải nói thì chắc hơi ngạo mạn là biết nhiều những điều mà bạn đồng trang lứa không thấu khi bằng tuổi tôi. Việc này làm tôi luôn trầm lặng thu mình ít giao tiếp nhưng khi đã thân quen thì việc cởi mở với tôi không quá khó khăn đâu nhé. Vào việc chính, tôi luôn lo ngại về tương lại có câu nói này tôi thấy dù nhảm nhí nhưng ở một phần nào đó khá đúng “Nếu cuộc đời không rực rỡ thì sao? Thì thôi vậy.” tôi lo về tương lai, sắp tới tôi lại chuyển trường bố mẹ tôi rất kì vọng vào tôi, cho tôi những gì tốt đẹp nhất, tôi biết ơn họ nhưng không thể ngừng lo sợ về việc nếu tôi không đỗ vào trường ấy thì sao? Trường đó không hề là hạng xoàng đâu nó khó lắm, tôi muốn chơi lại rất muốn vẽ nhưng càng không muốn thấy sự thất vọng và sự buồn bã trong mắt họ, có thể đó là tình yêu thương nhưng đối với tôi sự “kì vọng” ấy nặng nề biết bao ước gì tôi có thể buông tất cả gieo mình vào biển xanh, làm 1 con cá, 1 con chim để ngắm nhìn mọi thứ mà không bị ràng buộc không cần giao tiếp nhỉ? Tôi sợ lắm tôi rất sợ, tôi cảm thấy mình vô dụng cảm thấy lo sợ về tương lại sợ bị khinh bỉ càng sợ sự thất vọng, họ cho đi quá nhiều khiến tôi áp lwujc và lo sợ biết bao… Tôi nghĩ mình cần phải cố gắng nhưng…nó mông lung lắm như thể lạc giữa biển ấy càng đi sẽ càng xa bờ…tới mức tôi chẳng còn biết làm gì cả… tôi không biết cách đáp ứng kỳ vọng của họ, vì mỗi lần tôi đạt 1 cột mốc họ sẽ chép miệng và bảo nếu có lần sau hãy cố thêm nhưu hôm tôi được 4,5 trên 5 vì mắc 1 lỗi sai nhỏ mẹ tôi hỏi “Sao điểm thấp thế on như vậy vẫn chưa đủ hay sao? Nhà mình không còn tiền cho m học thêm đâu” nhiều lúc họ muốn tôi cái này muốn tôi cái kia…tôi chỉ biết..im lặng..tôi đâu biết làm gì? Muốn phản kháng ư? tôi lại sợ họ thất vọng tôi chưa từng dám nói ra suy nghĩ thật lòng của mình… Tôi chuyển cấp, điểm thấp vì bỡ ngỡ trình độ mới và kiến thức quá nhiều, nhà trường không hề cho tôi đề cương, sự vồ vập ấy tôi choáng ngợp thành tích lung lay, không mình bố mẹ tôi đâu tôi cũng vậy… tôi lúc đó lại im lặng..nhốt mình lại…rồi lại lo sợ tương lai. Dường như tôi không muốn sống nữa càng lớn tôi càng sợ mình phải sống phải trưởng thành ấy..

halowww sayanggg, heheheeh bobo yang nyenyaaakk yaaa kalo sampeee kabarin akuu i lovee youuu sayangg

I wanted to thank you for being so brave and for still being here. I know it wasn’t easy, but you fought with everything you had. Thank you for being vulnerable with me—it means you trust me. I’m so proud of you. You know it, and I’ll never get tired of reminding you. When times get rough, you know I’m here. I’m more than happy that you run to me whenever you need me. I can be your No. 1 fan, classmate, and friend. The first time I saw you, you were so bubbly and full of talent. I saw all your efforts and how much heart you put into the things you love. You make others laugh with the simplest things, and that makes it so much easier for us to get through the day. I like you, Gideon. I’m sure you already know it—I just wanted to make it clear. Sometimes I’m afraid to show you how much because I don’t want to lose what we have. But there are times I just want to risk it all and ruin the friendship.

Happy Birthday yang ke-19 wak !! dah besar dah kamuu hihi. wak, org doakan semoga semua cita-cita kamu tercapai. org akan sentiasa ada menemani setiap proses kamu. i can see that you are such a good man. kamu rajin, baik and kamu berusaha untuk capai apa yang kamu nak, org nampak effort kamu and org bangga sangat ngn kamu wak. org sayangggg kamuuuu.. i love you so muchhh

Amma… En life la naan strong ah iruken na, athuku reason neenga dhan. Naan sirichaalum, azhuthaallum, kovapattalum… ella nerathulayum en kooda irundhadhu neenga dhan. Sometimes naan ungalukku thanks kooda sollama poirupen… but honestly amma, every single day naan unga love ah feel panren. Enakku safest place na adhu unga kitta dhan. Enakku biggest support na adhuvum neenga dhan. Oru naalaiku naan ungala “Amma” nu oru 1000 times koopdama iruka mudiyadhu. Ippo neenga evlo kashtapattu ennaya valathingalo… adha vida adhigama naan ungala nalla paathupen ini vara pora life full ah. Naina irundhaalum illadha maari irukura en life la … enakku oru Amma va mattum illa, oru Appa vaavum irundhadhuku romba thanks amma. Thank you for the love… Thank you for the care… Thank you for being my home. And finally… Ungalukkaaga oru line dedicate panna aasapadren… “Ini oru jenmam Yeduthu vanthalum Un magalagum varam tharuvai…” Happy Mother’s Day Amma ❤️ Love you forever. ❤️

Thank you for making me the happiest soul on earth. I cant imagine my life with out you from now on, you completely have my heart, and i'm the luckiest guy ever. You fulfill me in ways even i myself can't explain, with your everything, your smile, your laugh, and everything that makes you the beautiful person you are. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you, to wake up next to you, to be the person you come home to, and to be a person you're comfortable with. I can't help but miss you all the time, because i know it will all be worth it at the end, you make me like waiting, because i know you're the prize at the end. Thank you for being mine sweetie. You're the one I've been waiting for, the person I've grown to care for My insatiable hunger for you lives on, I'm glad i found you on the road God led me upon... my lily

AOA maam, i hope ur doing well and i hope uve made ur dinner when uve read this(u mentioned about it). (Sorry about the slang here btw u said this wont be graded :p) First of all, thanku for being an amazing teacher who knows and understands how to communicate with their students. Not many teachers are aware of it. And thanku for caring about ur students too. Thanku for everything uve done for us this semester. It HAS been a lovely 16 weeks with u and i really wished they weren't online too. It really ended too soon for my liking. If i had a wish, id wish for 16 more labs with u as a teacher, irrespective of the course. Initially we were scared we wouldn't get a teacher as nice as Sir Umer(for Functional English Lab), but u were the perfect sequel to him as a lab instructor. I wish one day u complete ur Masters in English so u can teach theory too(i guess thats how it works? idk im sorry for projecting, but sir Umer mentioned something related to it). We have a course later in our degrees related to writing and i guess thats the closest we'll ever get to having u as our teacher again, and i really hope that happens. U were my fav teacher this semester, no regrets in that Thanku for being cool, awesome and a Gen-Z overall. Hope to see u in the hallways in Autumn. And thanku for the perks! I hope u liked our little note and perk too(i wish we had the bigger version of the perk)😭 Its rare to cross paths with a teacher like u Keep being u, however u are rn Sir umer might have told u i like music so i wanted to ask about a blend but i was scared(and shy) so here's a link to that: Pspspspsps has invited you to join a Blend on Spotify. Join on the Spotify mobile app. https://open.spotify.com/blend/taste-match/b69285a2f76eb6fd?si=VEVKkBfNQz-uuesxZuBfVw&fallback=getapp&blendDecoration=5f9c38d2 I wanted to add this in the spotify link but i wanted to recommend u an album or song there. Idk what to choose so im gonna add the link to my favourite song of all time. Thanku for reading this, and i wish the best for u in ur life may Allah make it easy for u! And sorry for all the inconveniences ive caused in classes WE'LL MISS U. Idk about the others but I DEFINITELY WILL TAKE CARE BYEEEEEEEEE

May 2026 Looking back at May 2024, how much have changed. You used to be the light, energy everywhere you went, you used to be the energy, such a confident, brave girl, you had so many friends no matter what they did to you, you were unstoppable, the kind of aura you carried was unbelievable. Look at you now, no one around, alone and lonely, always looking for reassurance, insecure, gets hurt easily, low grades. THIS IS NOT YOU! Idk what happened, why... He came when I was that version of myself, he changed me into this, and now even he doesn't care, idk... He have time for everyone else's plans, but not mine? idk how to exactly describe this feeling but i feel unseen. useless, like i lost my friends for you? to be with you, and in your eyes im no one? you weren't like this two years ago, you were a boy obsessed with me... thats the whole reason why i fell for you, i saw someone trying for me for the first time. Idk i messed up somewhere. Am i that unworthy of being loved? what did i do? what happened to me? why am i being the annoying one now? idk.. Hope happiness finds me soon, may i meet a person who values every inch of me, may i be overloaded with love, then i'll not feel like a burden to anyone. May 2027 will be better hopefully...

I had a mixed experience in your B1 Lab. The strictness at the start really had a bad image built inside my head regarding you, like, "How will the 16 weeks pass with her?" The strictness was definitely felt more because the previous instructor of FE was really lenient in everything, but you had some specific rules that you expected us to follow. And as time went on, your image that I had in my head started improving. I understood that, "Ok, don't talk during presentations or tasks, and she doesn't mind anything else that much." On the academic side of things, I really learned a lot of good writing techniques. I was able to understand what differentiates mediocre writings from professional-grade literature. And being 100% honest, amongst all my courses this semester (including the technical ones), your class was the one that I benefitted from the most, even more than from my technical courses, because they were online and failed to teach me much. However, your tasks and teaching style really helped me. (You might notice that the writing above is a bit all over the place and lacking proper flow, but this is cuz it's intent is to deliver a message and not focused on the structure, coherence or anything)

I just want to say that we had a great class and we enjoyed a lot during our whole semester but we can't enjoy a little bit during online sessions. I do apologize on behalf of all the class if we ever made a mistake and a huge apology about the little inconvenience in our physical class during our initial weeks, we bothered the class and did not pay attention during our lab of debate between students, in which you got angry and left the class without taking left over the presentations. Please accept my apology and we are really sorry about that inconvenience. And one thing I want to say is that it was not your fault at all. The meaning of my apology is just so that you forgive us. It is not for you to feel embarrassed or guilty about how you treated us. You treated us so well and we deserve that because it was not your fault. It was totally on us, so don't take it on yourself, please. You are a very good teacher. You are a great teacher. It was a great class. You explained everything very clearly and made us a little bit harder worker and more disciplined. Thank you for this attention and this whole time.

hi. how are you? i hope you’re doing okay. i can’t help it anymore. i miss you. i miss you so bad. every part of my day keeps reminding me of you, and no matter how much i try to distract myself, ikaw gihapon akong mahuna-hunaan. i am so sorry for how things turned out between the two of us. i am so, so sorry for hurting you. i am sorry for hurting you with my words, especially knowing how fragile and sensitive you are. kabalo ko ana, but i still did it anyway. and that’s something i deeply regret. how i see you never changed. even after everything, i still see you as someone gentle, sweet, soft, and loving towards me. i still see you as the same person who messaged me 5 months ago, the same person who made me poems, sang songs for me, stayed up talking to me, and showered me with words of affirmation even when kabalo ka dili na akong love language. you still did it because you loved me in the best way you knew how. you made me believe that i was still capable of loving someone again. before you, i was so guarded. daghan kaayo kog walls nga gitukod because of everything i went through before, but ikaw ray naka paubos ato tanan without even forcing it. you made me soft again. you made me feel safe enough to be vulnerable. and that means so much to me more than you probably realize. i miss you every time i wake up and open my phone. i miss you whenever i watch reels and see something that reminds me of you. i miss you when i listen to the songs you introduced to me. i miss you when something funny happens and ikaw dayon akong first thought nga gusto sendan. i miss your updates, your voice, your presence, your pagka baby. this is probably the longest time nga wala ta nagstorya, and it honestly hurts more than i can explain. i know i hurt you, and maybe this longing is something i deserve for everything i did. maybe this is my consequence. and honestly, it tortures me. but even then, i know i caused you pain too, and that hurts me the most. i am deeply sorry for my words, for shutting you out, for making you feel ignored and unloved when all you ever did was love me genuinely. i couldn’t stop thinking about you. ikaw ra gyud akong gihuna-huna the whole day. bisag unsaon nako ug busy sa akong self, mubalik ra gihapon akong thoughts nimo. it’s probably too late now, i know. but please let me express these feelings because they’ve been so heavy since last night. wala ko’y mahimo kay i also don’t want to keep hurting you anymore. i should have known how much you hated being ignored, but i still kept doing it whenever ma overwhelm ko. i always let my cloudy thoughts and sapot control me. instead of reassuring you or communicating properly, i pushed you away. and you never deserved that. not even once. and i am so sorry for comparing you to that bangtam. you are nothing like him. dili gyud ka parehas ato niya. you are far more gentle, patient, caring, expressive, and genuine. he could never compare to you. not even close. you always told me that i changed something in you, but you changed something in me too. you made me more open, vulnerable, soft, clingy, and expressive. you made me feel loved in ways i forgot i deserved. you always treated me like your baby, but honestly, nothing is more baby than you. you’re just a baby trapped inside a big human body. and i swear, i still want to baby you forever. i miss your random messages. i miss hearing about your day. i miss your lambing. i miss how you would comfort me even when ikaw mismo kapoy na. i miss how patient you were with me despite everything. and i hate that i made you feel like your love wasn’t enough when in reality, it was more than enough for me. i hope one day you can still find it in your heart to give me another chance to make it up to you. but if dili na, i will understand. i’ll respect it even if it hurts. i just need you to know that i loved you so genuinely and deeply. nothing could ever compare to you. and honestly, i’m scared i may never find someone as gentle, expressive, sweet, caring, soft, understanding, and loving as you are. i still replay our moments together inside my head over and over again. sometimes i catch myself smiling looking at sa imohang sweet messages sa akoa, then suddenly ma realize nako nga dili na diay ta okay and it hurts all over again. i miss the little things the most, the way you talked to me, the way you would reassure me even when i was difficult, the way you stayed patient with me even during my worst moments. nobody has ever loved me as gently as you did. there are so many things i wish i could take back. if i could redo everything, i would choose softer words. i would choose understanding over anger. i would choose to communicate instead of shutting down and pushing you away. because losing you made me realize how precious you really are to me. i know sorry alone cannot undo the pain i caused you. kabalo ko nga dili lalim imong gi feel because of me. and i hate myself for becoming someone who hurt the person i loved the most. you only wanted reassurance, love, and consistency from me, and instead i let my own fears, overthinking, and past traumas affect the way i treated you. i hope you know none of this was because you were lacking. you were never lacking. dili ikaw ang problema. you loved me so purely and sincerely, and i was lucky enough to experience that kind of love from you. i just wish i handled your heart more carefully because you never deserved the pain i gave you. there are still so many things i wanted to experience with you. so many moments i imagined us having together in the future. and maybe that’s one of the reasons why this hurts so much for me too. because i didn’t just lose a person i loved—i also lost the comfort, softness, and future i secretly wanted with you. and despite everything that happened between us, a part of me will always be thankful that i met you. because for a while, you made me feel loved in the purest way possible.

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Dear Dines, I don’t really know how to begin this, because there are so many things I have felt for so long and never said out loud. I have loved you for five years. Quietly, patiently, and in a way that never asked for anything in return. I don’t think I ever expected you to feel the same, but I still found myself hoping — always hoping — that maybe, one day, our paths would finally meet in the same way our hearts did. There is something I have carried with me for a long time. I don’t know if you ever noticed, or if it ever meant anything to you, but for me, every moment around you has stayed with me longer than I can explain. One evening outside the café, when you were hurt and not yourself, all I wanted was to make you feel safe again. I remember gently touching your hair and your face, trying to calm you, telling you that things would get better in the morning and that whatever you were carrying would pass. In that moment, you tried to kiss me. And I won’t lie — part of me wanted to stay there forever in that second, because it was you. But I also knew I couldn’t let something so important to me happen while you weren’t fully yourself. I wanted something real, something clear, something we could both remember without confusion. So I stepped back. Since that night, I keep wondering about one thing. Not because I regret caring for you, but because I care too much not to wonder: What would have happened if that moment had been different? I don’t know if you ever saw me the way I saw you. Maybe you didn’t. Maybe you couldn’t. But I needed to say this at least once, even if it never changes anything between us. I loved you. I still do, in a way that is quiet but never really leaves. Take care of yourself, Dines. Azra

I miss you. I miss you so much my body aches. I miss saying good morning and goodnight to you. I can’t sleep because I dream we are still friends and have to wake up and face reality that you are gone. That you are no longer part of my life. That all those memories we made were for nothing. All those promises broken. Our bucket list left forever half done. How did we end up like this? Did you really want to end it over one silly argument. I thought we were best friends forever? We promised never to leave each other. That we would always be there for each other no matter what. That we loved each other most out of everybody. If you loved me how could you let me go after one argument. It wasn’t even an argument. Our friendship meant more to me than that. I would do anything to have you back in my life. Anything. You are my best friend. I can’t do life without you. Honestly this is hell. Do you hurt? Are you missing me too? How can you go from everything to nothing and not feel a thing? I wish you never gave up on me. I took my walls down for you. You knew everything about me. You know what I’ve been through. You know how much I prayed for you in my life. And now you’ve gone. I lost you. My best friend, my favourite person, my always. I wish you could of stayed. P.s. I’ve attached a song that you once sent me to listen to and I told you that I’d sing this to you but you have no flaws you’re perfect to me.

I never told you how I really felt about you. I knew you would never understand with you growing up in a country it was banished. You spoke of it often enough for me to know I could never tell you how I really felt. I craved you so much. Every forbidden touch lingered in my skin. So soft and delicate. Those small moments, meaningless to you or so it seemed? Was that you too? Or was it just in my mind? Your smell wrapped around my whole body. Every time we locked eyes and I couldn’t pull away. So beautiful and brown. Could you feel the chemistry? Could you feel the pull? Did your heart skip beats like mine? Surely it couldn’t have been one sided? What were you doing to me? I’m not that way inclined. I’m married. But you, omg I would do anything for you. I would be that way for you. Only you. Your voice so calming to my ears it made me tired. You made me weak. You brought down all my walls. I hated when you spoke about other people you were talking to. I couldn’t handle it. The thought of someone taking you from me killed me. Knowing they could have you and I couldn’t made my heart ache so much. You are so beautiful, perfect, flawless. But I could never have you because it’s forbidden. But I would give everything for you. You must of known. You can’t of done everything you did to me and say all you did to me and have no feelings. No second thoughts about it. Everyone could see it they tell me. I tell them they got it all wrong we are just friends. Well not anymore. Not since you left me with no explanation. With a pain I can never heal. Tears that could fill an ocean. A heart forever shattered. A promise forever broken. A hope that never comes.

i’m so sorry for everything. truly. i understand that you never want to talk to me again, that you never want to see me again, that you never want to hear my name again. trust me, I think I hate myself more than you hate me for everything. i think that i see myself in you so much and that’s what scares me and why im so quick to call you out on every little thing you do wrong. I also think I do that because the version of you that was so innocent, so loving, so pure, is stuck in my head and i know that you’re able to be like that again. i think i called you a monster and said you were a shitty person not because you are one, just because I simply can’t accept that you just don’t love me and didn’t love me enough to not treat me like that. I’m so fucking scared that we will never talk again, that I will never see you laugh again, that I won’t ever be the reason for your smiles. I truly did love you, so much, with so much innocence and passion. A part of me will always love you and i’ve come to terms with that because when you loved me too, it was the best feeling I had ever felt and I would give anything to get it back I know i’m not the one you want and never will be again, but I won’t stop praying that one day, you’ll come back Maybe that day I will be able to tell you that I don’t want you anymore. Again, i’m so sorry not being selfish and for ruining your life.

Hi love. It has been really a long time since I wrote you a letter like this and I really miss you sobra. Di ako makatulog eh, pinapanood ko nalang mga videos natin and throwbacks. I wanna thank you love. Thank you kasi ikaw ka, nandiyan ka palagi, at thank you dahil ikaw ang girlfriend ko. Alam mo love I can’t thank the Lord enough for all the people around me na nagmamahal sakin at isa ka dun. Thank you dahil sa dami ng rason para sukuan ako, pero pinipili mo parin ako. Thank you dahil despite nang lahat ng mga mali kong choices in life ay hindi ka kasama don. Thank you dahil nagagawa mo akong mahalin even on my bad days. Thank you for every time you choose to stay when it gets hard for the both of us. Mahal na mahal kita love at seryosong seryoso ako na paninindigan ko na makasama kita habang buhay. Kahit humirap man ang sitwasyon at papiliin ako ng mundo at kahit magbaligtad pa yung mundo at makalimot at mawala na ko sa mundong to, palaging nandiyan yung pagmamahal ko sayo. Love thank you dahil mag 2 years na tayo at kahit nagkakaroon tayo ng mga bagay o alitan na pinaglalayo tayo eh nahahanap parin natin pabalik sa isa’t isa. Sorry kung minsan umaabot tayo sa samaan ng loob at nauubos ang pasensya ko sayo at sorry din kung masakit ako minsan mag salita at walang preno. Sorry din sa mga araw na kailangan mo ako sa tabi mo pero wala ako. Sorry sa lahat ng kasalanan ko sayo na hanggang ngayon dinidibdib mo pa. Lahat yun pinagsisisihan ko at ginagawa kong aral, okay? Sana maintindihan mo rin love na malaki naman tiwala ko sayo. Pasensya kung minsan feeling mo napaghihigpitan kita pero hindi love, it’s just that I care for u too much to the point na napapraning ako - lalo pag nalalasing ka. Love nakita mo ba akong naghigpit sayo with your friends? Diba hindi rin naman, it’s just that wala pa talaga akong idea kung sino at anong klaseng tao mga kasama mo, and I’m really concerned for you. Pano kung isa diyan kagaya ulit ng nakwento mo sakin yung kayo nila Ramell, diba? Ayokong hayaan na may mangyari sayong ganun lalo na ngayon na meron kang ako. Anyways, sana maintindihan mo na hindi pa talaga ako panatag love, please. Kung tingin mo hindi ako nagiging fair sayo. I’m sorry, but please do understand na never akong hindi nag open sayo before. Lahat naman ng nangyayari araw araw naririnig mo sakin, kung anong tao ba si ganto ganyan, meron ka pang Ate Kressa at Cielo na pwedeng mong malapitan o mapaghanapan kung sakaling mawala ako. Baligtarin mo ngayon, ako ba meron? Wala love diba. Anyway, May. Sana habang natagal tayo mas lalo pa tayong tumatag at mag grow, ikaw na nagsabi hindi na tayo bata. Ang dami kong pangarap para satin love, at isa na dun yung mamuhay tayong masaya kahit simple lang, bonus na kung at sana yumaman tayo ng sobra and wish ko na makuha mo lahat ng pangarap at gusto mo at pangako na susuportahan kita at lagi akong nasa likod mo. At sana malaman mo na habang tumatagal tayo, mas lumalalim yung pagmamahal ko sayo, yung pagmamahal na kahit nakakasakit minsan yung mga pinag dadaanan natin, hindi parin ako napapagod piliin ka. Kasi ikaw yung pahinga ko love. Ikaw yung taong gusto kong uwian pagkatapos ng nakakapagod na araw. Ikaw yung gusto kong makasama sa maliliit na bagay - kumain sa labas, mag grocery, manood, mag travel, o kahit humiga lang habang magkausap tayo tungkol sa buhay natin. Hindi ko alam anong mangyayari satin in the future pero ang alam ko lang, araw araw kitang pipiliin hangga’t kaya ko. Hindi man ako perfect na boyfriend at madalas nagkukulang, sana makita mo parin na totoo lahat ng intensyon ko sayo. Hindi kita niloloko sa mga pangarap ko para satin. Gusto kitang makasama habang buhay, sa maayos na buhay, sa tahimik na bahay, at sa future na pareho nating pinaghihirapan. At kung dumating man yung araw na pareho tayong pagod, sana wag natin kalimutan kung paano tayo nagsimula. Sana lagi nating piliing intindihin ang isa’t isa kaysa sukuan yung relasyon natin. Kasi love, bihira lang makahanap ng taong handang samahan ka habang binubuo mo pa yung sarili mo, at ikaw yun sakin. Mahal na mahal kita, May. At habang tumatagal, mas sigurado ako na ikaw yung gusto kong makasama sa lahat ng susunod pang chapters ng buhay ko. Good night love, matutulog na ako, thank you ulit. Mahal na mahal kita

i want to be more motivated this upcoming g12, and i hope okay lang sayo if i include you as one of my motivations if not, okay lang din, i’ll just keep it to myself silently HAHAHSHA. and don’t worry bro, this isn’t a confession or anything 😭 you can still do whatever you want, kahit makipag flirt ka pa kahit kanino, go lang i thought na it’s better if ikaw nalang maging inspiration ko this upcoming g12 kaysa maghanap pa ako sa school. kasi what if i get attached to someone tapos makita ko na may iba pala siyang gusto or nilalandi, syempre masasaktan lang ako at least ikaw, malayo ka, so there’s no pressure and wala akong makikitang ikakasakit ko hahaha, so ayun, i just wanted to ask if okay lang ba na maging isa ka sa motivations ko this g12. don’t worry, motivation lang talaga siya, nothing more :)) thank youuu