Apology

i hate the fact that i dont hate you. i hate that ur the only one that understands me. i hate this. i hate me. i hate how i couldnt save us. you thought i could save us and im so fucking sorry. its all my fault. i wanted to, i was trying. but i couldnt. so fucking caught up in my feelings its all my fault. come back to me sweet girl. please. i miss saying i love you to you. you were the most important person in my life. i genuinely wanna end my shit i feel so horrible. everytime i think of you i want to throw up, not from disgust, from how much i miss you. its so fucking insane. what do you mean i still love you. i should hate you, really. you should hate me. maybe itd be better off that way..or not. i never want to lose something so precious. i hate this so fucking much. i hate remembering every single memory we have made together. i miss everything. maybe i should try and push those thoughts down. i try actually. but it doesnt work? they always come up. ur the first thing on my mind, its horrible. im horrible. i love you even tho i shouldnt. i wish i loved you less. i wish you cared…you do. im sorry baby. my sweet baby. i miss you so much. i miss saying these things. maybe i should let stuff like this out more often. its not really helping tho. i feel so shitty. kill me omfg. i really hate the fact ur the only one i have. i hate it. i wish we could go back. i want to go back. take me back baby. please. id do anything. id fix myself up for you. id be normal. id video call u like u have always wanted. i shouldve done it. omg its all my fault, sweet girl im so sorry. idk why i still text you (lie). tf no ones gonna see this. i wish we were back together. it was too much pressure on you to love me i know. sorry. its all my fault.

Although I was never entirely demonstrative about my affection for you, I want you to know that you've always been there, that I always appreciated you for all you did, I want you to know that i'm really sorry for making you feel so bad, for leaving like nothing ever happened, I was afraid of messing things up and felt like I've never deserved your love. Yet tonight I'm here to finally tell you that I really love you, I love your hair, I love those shiny eyes, I love your voice, I love your humour, I love how kind you are to everyone, I love the way you sing, I love just the woman you are. I wish you could read this, I hope you do.

i need closure asap, text me on november 29

Hi matt, it's been one month since our last conversation. andami kong mga hindi nasabi sayo, di ko din kase alam kung saan ko uumpisahan, siguro mag umpisa muna tayo dun sa part na naging sobrang saya ko kase nakilala kita. God know how I want you to be my last, kase habang kinekwento mo yung mga ginawa sayo ng ex mo dun pumasok sa isip ko na mas mahalin ka pa lalo, naaalala mo yung gabi kila jules? that night. i promised to love you even better, i promised to hold you like a fragile glass. gusto kong patunayan sayo na hindi ako katulad nila. pero ayon pala yung magiging pinaka maling ginawa ko sa buhay ko, kase hindi mo pala nararamdaman yon. hindi mo pala ramdam kung gaano kita gustong ingatan, the first time that i found out that you cheated. my world came crashing down. pero i didnt give up. inisip ko nalang na baka may pagkukulang ako, so i still forgive you.but then you destroyed my trust again and again. naubos lang yung pasensya ko nung nakipagkita ka sa babae na yon. at oo aaminin ko naimplwesyahan ako ng mga friends ko. hindi ko naman dapat gagawin yon e at alam kong hindi ko dapat ginawa yon. but then naisip ko na baka pag nagcheat ako makita mo na yung mga mali mo, and i wasn't wrong kase dun mo lang din nakita yung halaga ko... nagsorry ako sayo non and thankyou for forgiving me that time. pero hindi ko alam na dun din pala ako masisira. kase oo nga pinatawad moko but I suffered from all your hurtful words, accusations, and manipulation i guess? that time iniisip ko na dapat ko lang tanggapin yon kase may kasalanan ako sayo at nasaktan kita. dahil don nakalimutan ko na kaya lang din pala kita nasaktan kase sinira mo yung tiwala ko. tbh you ruined my perspective of love, and thats the saddest thing kase sayo ko naranasan yung mga happy memories ko... all that night rides, tambay, meet up after class and meeting your mom. hahahhahaha nonsense din siguro toh kase di mo din naman mababasa taena tama na nga fuck this.

yrr im sorry idk whats wrong with me i lost my senses i just argue with u on small thingg iloveyouuu so muchh yrr plss dont get gussa im so so sorry im pgl

i know you won't read this and even if you do it will probably be too late. i know youre done with me but i really did love you and i dont understand why it had to be this way. i was willing to wait but you just broke up with me instead. i told my mom the day i read your text. i felt so stupid knowing i was texting you after you deleted your account. i didnt know u did. i cried all day. even at work i tried to tell everyone i was okay but i couldnt stop. i had to block you and im sorry. i do love you but you broke my trust. it felt like i was never enough for you. even after 3 years i just couldnt understand why i wasnt enough for you. every year almost like i was someone else but it wasnt enough. it hurt knowing you would never love me as much as i do. it hurt even more hearing you say it to me. it hurts the most whenever i remember you saying it to me. how dumb i felt trusting you. how i thought i could. i thought i could hold on to you. you were the reason i wanted to get better. in reality you made it worse. so much worse... i constantly compare myself with every girl i see. even more so the ones u said were ur type. i cant get it out of my head. i still remember asking what you liked and how it broke my heart knowing u would never like me just the way i am. im sorry im not enough and im sorry for loving you. you hurt me after promising me we would see each other. it hurt me more when i started thinking about everything i had said to you before. mohannad i would have given up everything for you. i told you i would stop my studies for you. seriously i would have. i was willing to move my parents just to be able to take care of them and be with you. i was willing. i wanted to. i love you. i wanted us to work because you are everything i have ever wanted. youre so precious to me amor. i'll adore you until the day i die. if u ever miss me read my notes but you'll have to wait a bit longer for me. i probably wont unblock you until my birthday or yours im not sure yet idk what i would even get out of that. i wish u would reach out but i know its over. sometimes i guess its true that to love is to let go but i dont want to. you told me this song reminded you of me. i love you amor i hope you love me back for me one day

I’ve done the worst you could ever imagine of I know. I don’t know what led me to do that I’ve ruined so much Our friendships Our future Our mental health I’m so so sorry for what I’ve done to you two

I don’t know why I keep snooping. It’s wrong. All I find is stuff that makes me sad, but you’re not doing anything wrong. You love me honestly and I love you crookedly. I’m sorry I won’t be brave enough to tell the truth.

Tu handle kar le gi ha tu strong hai tu bolti hai na main kar lungi akele par sach yeh hai tu thak gayi hai andar se being a strong one again and again ab tu naraz hoti hai khud mann jati hai ha roti bhi hai akele main Weak nahi dikhna na tujhe baat baat pe duniya ko explanation nahi deni apni. Baar baar pe bolti hai ki theek hai. Because tujhe asa lagta hai tari baaton ko samajhne ke liye na kisi ke paas waqt hi nahi hai. Aur na hi tare paas wo vishwas ha , apni baaton ko samjhaane ka, Log tare strong hone ki tareef karte hai na yehi hai lekin tari andar ki thakaan ka na koi mention nai karta Baar baar strong banna na shayad ek majboori si ban gayi hai tare liye abhi. And I think ki har strong ladki ki na ek aisi side hai jo shayad hi kabhi duniya wale samajh paayenge ya shayad hi kabhi duniya wale dekh paayenge. Par main hun tare sath yeh sab akele karne ki koi zarurat nai hai tanvi bhot kuch fucked up ho jata hai ladai main iska yeh matlab nai hai ki voh permanent kharb hua hai nai do no side se hurted hote hai isliye ho jata hai iski wajha se tum Ase karo ye cheeze chupa do ge 3 months se tune mujh se sab chupa liya ha kyu ko ki 3 months se kisi na kisi cheez par kuch ho rha nai maat kar plss yrr

I’m sorry I broke things off bunny. I miss you so much it hurts. I feel like I can’t breathe without you RJ. I miss you every second babi. I feel nauseous just thinking about you not wanting to talk to me anymore. I can’t forget the memories we made together. I will wait and I hope you still love me and I hope we can see each other again . I love you my sweet Babi, you pinky promised you’d marry me. Please come back

hai manja cinta, cinta nak cakap yang cinta nak sangat tengok baby berjaya. cinta faham baby sekarang dah bosan dengan cinta and cinta tak dapat nak buat apaa apaa dengan benda tu. cinta harap jalan yang baby pilih ni sesuai dengan apa yang baby harapkan. cinta tak kisah whoever you're with right now. cinta harap baby happy dengan apa yang baby dapat. cinta mintak maaf 2 tahun kita ni cinta takdapat nak bagi baby macam macam. mungkin sebabtu baby bosan dengan cinta baby lose interest dengan cinta kan? cinta terima keputusan baby. cinta support semua yang baby buat. don't push yourself to the limit, sayang. oftenly take a break to relief your mind n body. jaga diri Nur Raisha Humaira. i love you so much not even numbers could scale it. 27/7/24 till forever <3

hello sayang, i’ve got something for you. i guess this is my best way to saying sorry, thank you, hehe. i’ve been thinking about what i wanted to say, and there are some things i wish i could say to you perfectly, but i don’t think words will ever be enough for everything. still, i want to try, because you deserve to know how much your presence has come to mean to me. you’ve become such a comforting part of my days, and i feel genuinely lucky that i get to know and love someone like you. you’re one of the kindest and loveliest people i’ve ever met, and there’s so much about you that makes me grateful it’s you. i know i’m not always the easiest person to understand. sometimes my thoughts get tangled and i can be a little all over the place. but you never make me feel ashamed of any of it. instead, you meet me with patience, understanding, and a softness that i honestly didn’t know i needed. you somehow make space for all the parts of me without ever making me feel like they make me less worthy of being loved. i love the way you always know how to reassure me, even when i don’t know how to ask for it. the way you listen, the way you care, the way you communicate with me, and the way you handle my feelings with so much understanding. i notice all of those little things, even when i don’t always say it. being loved by you has made my days feel a little softer. you’ve given me a kind of comfort i didn’t know i needed, and a kind of love that feels safe, warm, and sincere. there’s something really special about knowing i have you to come home to, someone i can be completely myself with and still feel loved. i could probably write a million thank yous and still feel like none of them would be enough for everything you’ve given me. so maybe i’ll just keep showing you instead, in the way i love you, the way i care for you, and in all the little ways i hope you’ll always feel how much you mean to me. so, thank you, my love. thank you for finding me, for staying with me, and for loving me as i am. out of all the people i could have met, i’m incredibly grateful that somehow, it was you. and thank you for being you, kez. i’m so, so happy that it’s you. i love you so much, sayang. more than these words can hold.

i was about to sleep na sana pero super heavy la gihap ha pakiramdan an nangyari kagab-e, that was the first time i cried that much bc of something between us. aram koma bb na i made mistakes, and kaya ko it panindigan tak mga sala ngan dire ak mag d-deny hit mga sugad hit nga bagay kay gusto ko mag kaintindihay la kita, i still want to learn from every mistake i made and i really want to prove to you nga kaya ko mag bag-o and i can do much better pa. gusto ko patunayan haim nga kaya ko bumawi not just by saying "im sorry jolnu, dire na mauulit" but by actually showing na im willing to change everything para hit ikaka-upay haat. gusto ko pa ig reassure ikaw through chat pero at the same time, gusto ko daman ig ikaw reassure in person, i want you to see for yourself nga nag-sisi talaga ak for everything i put you through and how genuinely sorry i am, parang kasi dire pa enough it mga yakan through chat, so gusto ko personally it yakan haim pero everytime kasi nga nag uupod kita, permi la kita nag titinawa tas parang waray nangyari haat hahaha sugad la hin nag p-pretend kita nga okay kita bisan dire, asya it nga na dire nala ak mag sumat kay na dire ak masira it at moment ngan gi kakaruyagi kola kitaon ka nga happy whenever you are with me. tas bb, i didn’t even realize na you were already bothered by those things, hooo haha gagalingi kasi ikaw mag tago tim naf-feel, and sometimes i don't even notice that something is bothering you dahil hit ngaim gi gagalingi nala hin ura-ura nga nag titinago la permi hit nararamdaman but just like what i told you before, bisan sugad ka hit, i will never get tired of trying to understand you pero ayaw gad daman pag abusoha it ak pag iinintindi haim. i don’t want us to reach a point where i get tired of always trying to figure out what’s bothering you or kun okay la ba ikaw, na dire ak mangyari it haak bb ha, i really don't want to reach a point where we are both tired na tas dire na kita maaram kun ano it at bubuhaton para ma fix it at problems. gusto ko patunayan haim nga im the kind of girl who can love you through your mistakes, tim mga flaws, tim insecurities, tim bad days, and even the parts of yourself that you think nga makuri ka mahalon or intindihon. gusto ko maging comfortable and safe enough ka to tell me everything, even the things you are scared i might not understand. i saw your reposts daman, tas nasiring ikaw nga nai-insecure ka dahil tak mga guy friends (dire koma talaga it hira sangkay talaga nga sangkay, mga demonyo ma it) pero yk what bb? you really don’t have to be insecure about yourself kun nakikita la nim it mga bagay nga nakikita ko haim, ma i-inlove nga ngani. i love the way you smile, i love the way you make me laugh, tas tim mata nga nawawara ngin na smileeee ikawwww, and the way you laugh, especially ngin ako it reason kun kay-ano ka nag titinawa tas happy, those things might seem normal la haim, pero haak dire it bb, i promiseeeeee. i noticed more about you than u probably realize. taaas kun aram la nim nga you are the man i always dreamed of having, dire ko in gin yayakan just to make yoh feel better, naawod laak hin danay pag susumat haim kay bangin ka ma cringe HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, pero seryoso ak bb ha. i really wish you could see yourself the way i see you para ma realize nim kun gaano ikaw ka special haak, then you'd probably understand why i love you this much. nah-hurt daman ak bb han na realized ko nga nai-insecure na ikaw bc that's already showing nga nagiging bad gf naak haim and it made me question myself daman, tas iniisip ko nga im not doing enough to make you feel comfortable around me, gi souli gad bb kay na dire ak ma feel nim nga dire ikaw enough para haak. pero aram nim it nakakasoul haak hin sobra? this is actually the first time im telling you this bc i've never experienced this kind of feeling before tas dire dama ak maaram kun paano ko in ig sisiring in a proper way, nahadlok daman ak mag sumat haim kay aram ko iisipon nanaman nim nag nakiki-sabay ak tim mood or im saying this para ka malouy haak, pero intindiha ak bb ha? please la hahahaha tas maiha kona gad in udog gusto ig sumat haim, dire laak nakaka timing tas pag mag uupod na kita kunta in person then mag susumat na kunta ak nagiging masaya nala kita bigla tas nag titinawa kita, so gin k-keep ko nala in kay na dire ak masira it at moment and like what i said in the second paragraph nga gi karuyagi kola permi ikaw nakikita nga happy pag upod ak nim. so here it is na, i really get insecure daman bb. naalala pa nim an nag walking kita tas nag tambay kita ha rawis? and out of nowhere, nag yakan ka nga "yadi ngani hatag in nga shoes han ak ex" hahahaha ambot kun naalala panim, i just smileed at you that time and stayed quiet. i even acted it was nothing, uhm i did feel insecure and jealous, yes dire ko ig d-deny. i just didn’t know how to tell you without you thinking nga gin c-control ko ikaw kay bb, that came from someone mga minahal nim hin sobra sobraaaaa han im past, and im not saying this bc i want you to stop using or wearing the things your ex gave to you tas dire ma it basta-basta ma e-erase an mga nangyari before me. gusto kola maintindihan nim kun ano it nakakasoul haak. tas dire ko daman mapigilang mag hinunahuna nga "what if naalala niya an ira mga memories whenever he sees those things?" or "what if those things still remind him of her?” and sometimes, i even ask myself if you see her in me, if there’s something about me that reminds you of her, if i’m actually the kind of person you wanted, or if i’m just someone who came after her and somehow became the replacement of what you lost, aram ko tanga isipon it mga bagay nga sugad hit, pero di ko kasi maiwasan it mag hinuna-huna hit sugad hit. tas usa pa, i also get insecure pag nagiging part ta nala bigla hit at conversation tim past, sugad hat nga kan kobi & divina, omfg hwhahaha an siniring ka nga "bulag nama it hira" haha wara koma ngani hit pake haira so why do have you to tell me those things? ngan how did you even know nga wara na hira? but nvm, respeto nala daman bb haha. na dire ak bb nga ma guilty ka for having a past, na dire laak nga gin t-topic it nim, pero okay mala at haak han first nim nga pag storya haira kay naiintindihan koma lugod at an iyo situation that time, pero gi iibahi na yana. and i’m really trying, bb. i am. i’m trying to be more patient and understanding kay na dire talaga ak maging insecure ngan selosa hit sugad hit nga mga bagay tas na dire ak nga ig c-carry it nim nga problema, i know you have your own feelings and your own things you’re trying to deal with, asya nga gin t-try ko permi tak best para maging less heavy it imo gin c-carry nga mga problema. gusto kola nga maintindihan ak nim ngan ma gets ak nim, kay habang gin t-try kona tanan ngan tak best para maintindihan tim feelings, i realized that i was always carrying my own insecurities tas it masoul pa kay we both have things that we are scared to say to each other, i don't want us to keep hurting each other dara la kay parehas kita nahadlok maging honest, i want us to be comfortable enough to tell everything that's bothering us instead nga ig sisinarali la, edi mas mas-sul an la kita and i hope you know that behind all my mistakes and for everything nga at pinagdadaan, aadi la gihap ak nag mamahal haim and still trying my best to learn how to love you better. but don't worry bb ha, okay na po ak hiheuhehehe, kay nasiring kona gihap an ak gusto ig yakan bisan kun through notes la in, i hope we can become better for each other. i love youuuu so much, jolnu. thank you for everything bb.

i’ll miss you as well, take care

hi jinan, i hope you’re doing well in life right now and i understand how stressful things can be especially when you just turned 20. i’m sorry i didn’t get to celebrate your birthday but i hope you know that i love your energy and company. i pray 21 will be a better year for you. love, 🔐

Hi, moshie. You probably won't know who this is. But I miss you so much. Ever since our break up I never stopped thinking about you. How Ironic. I was the one who gave up on us but I'm also the one who can't seem to move forward. I accidentally saw you. You looked so happy. While me, I'm barely holding on. I didn't want to end us there. But the situation was just not right. I never wanted us to separate, believe me. Now, I just wish you all the happiness, Moshie. Back then, when we first met on Roblox. I never thought we'd be more than friends. I thought we'd just play, talk and that's it. And back when we also played MLBB, gosh that was so embarrassing. I was pretty new that time. You could probably tell on the way I play. I was never trully honest with you, Vien. And maybe that's what pushed me to make that decision. You're too good for me. You told me everything about you. And me? I just told you what I wanted you to know. I still love you even after the day we broke up, 2022 I think? And you reached out to me back in 2023. But yeah, I said something stupid, which is not true. I miss you so much, Vienne. I'm confident you won't see this, hehe. – FINN

I’m sorry, baby, if I failed you again. I know I’ve said sorry so many times, but I still feel like those words will never be enough to make up for everything I’ve done. I didn’t even get the chance to properly say sorry because, honestly, hindi ko kinaya. Ang dami kong gustong sabihin, pero hindi ko alam kung paano ko sisimulan. I don’t know if you’ll ever see this, and I don’t even know if you still care enough to read it. I really wanted to do something for us last month pa but i am nahihirapan to adjust dahil sa nalaman ko. Ik nagsabi akong babawi ako nahirapan lang ako simulan. Pero please don’t fall for him. Tayo naman talaga eh. It is our love. Tayo talaga wala siya sa story baby. This is our story. I’m sorry for hurting you again and for making you feel like I never learned from my mistakes. I can’t change what already happened, but I wish I could go back and do things differently. If this is the only way I can say what I wasn’t able to say to you personally, maybe in the future. I really hope masabi ko toh. Mahal na mahal kita Erika Amacio.

i am sorry, i shouldn't have been such a dick and start blabbering things. ik it totally insignified you and I should've been more considerate of how you feel. i am sorry, i'll try to be better.

first of all,fuck you. secondly, im rlly sorry for acting like a btch yesterday, i know i shouldnt have done all the things i did yesterday. i know i shouldnt have walked away when i could have talked it out. i was the one who walked away yet im the one whos getting affected at peak bro. i feel a whole lotta things but idk how to say it to you bcus im afraid my feeling wont get validated. to be brutally honest, i like you like a fat kid loves cake so im def not well when we dont speak mi bruv and yes it is that serious. & love, looks alot like you so i'll murk a ho for u. cringeee but miss u, alot, like alot.

its been past a week since you decided to put a break in our relationship, and i figured i would be seeing you less and less often. we barely speak as much as we did too, and i know its all my fault. the way i was only doing the bare minimum. how i took you for granted. but i know you didn’t want to do this, that you hold some love for me (the same love you had to hold back to make what we currently have now ‘work’) and despite it all, i respect that you wanted to choose yourself first. still, i love you, and i can never stop loving you. i’ll wait for you until you’re ready, and when i’m mentally prepared to have our future together. and if you do stop loving me and move on, i pray that you find someone who can love and accept you as much as i did.