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To: dej matthew•6th of Oct, 2026To my exApologyI miss youGoodbyeHeartbreak

Hi matt, it's been one month since our last conversation. andami kong mga hindi nasabi sayo, di ko din kase alam kung saan ko uumpisahan, siguro mag umpisa muna tayo dun sa part na naging sobrang saya ko kase nakilala kita. God know how I want you to be my last, kase habang kinekwento mo yung mga ginawa sayo ng ex mo dun pumasok sa isip ko na mas mahalin ka pa lalo, naaalala mo yung gabi kila jules? that night. i promised to love you even better, i promised to hold you like a fragile glass. gusto kong patunayan sayo na hindi ako katulad nila. pero ayon pala yung magiging pinaka maling ginawa ko sa buhay ko, kase hindi mo pala nararamdaman yon. hindi mo pala ramdam kung gaano kita gustong ingatan, the first time that i found out that you cheated. my world came crashing down. pero i didnt give up. inisip ko nalang na baka may pagkukulang ako, so i still forgive you.but then you destroyed my trust again and again. naubos lang yung pasensya ko nung nakipagkita ka sa babae na yon. at oo aaminin ko naimplwesyahan ako ng mga friends ko. hindi ko naman dapat gagawin yon e at alam kong hindi ko dapat ginawa yon. but then naisip ko na baka pag nagcheat ako makita mo na yung mga mali mo, and i wasn't wrong kase dun mo lang din nakita yung halaga ko... nagsorry ako sayo non and thankyou for forgiving me that time. pero hindi ko alam na dun din pala ako masisira. kase oo nga pinatawad moko but I suffered from all your hurtful words, accusations, and manipulation i guess? that time iniisip ko na dapat ko lang tanggapin yon kase may kasalanan ako sayo at nasaktan kita. dahil don nakalimutan ko na kaya lang din pala kita nasaktan kase sinira mo yung tiwala ko. tbh you ruined my perspective of love, and thats the saddest thing kase sayo ko naranasan yung mga happy memories ko... all that night rides, tambay, meet up after class and meeting your mom. hahahhahaha nonsense din siguro toh kase di mo din naman mababasa taena tama na nga fuck this.

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