Archive

But I love you.85811110

Alam mo, kahit anong pilit kong paliwanag, kahit ilang beses kong sabihin, my love for you will always be greater than words could ever express. Paano ba ipapaliwanag ang pagmamahal na hindi nasusukat ng salita? How do I even begin to describe something so deep, so real? Hindi kaya gawan ng paraan ng mga letra na ilarawan kung gaano kalalim ang pagmamahal ng puso ko para sa 'yo. Nalulungkot ako na nasaktan kita—not once, but twice, or even more than that—pero ngayon, sigurado na ako sa 'yo. Alam kong mahirap paniwalaan, pero sana subukan mo pa ring bigyan ako ng pagkakataon. And if I could spend a lifetime proving it, I would. Because the truth is, even if I say "I love you" a million times, it will never be enough to capture how much I truly do. Makakaasa ka na nagbalik na 'yung dating ako na minahal ka ng higit pa sa lahat-lahat. I don't know what my future holds, pero umaasa ako na ikaw ang kasama ko doon. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang naghihintay sa akin sa bukas, pero sigurado ako sa isang bagay: I'm praying you're in it. Sa bawat pagpikit ko, iniisip ko kung anong klaseng mundo ang bubuksan ng tadhana para sa akin. Will it be kind? Will it be cruel? Pero kahit ano pa 'yan, ikaw ang tadhanang hinihiling kong makamtan. I know life is a series of questions without answers, parang pelikulang walang script, but if there's one thing I'd bet my heart on, it's you. Sa lahat ng hindi sigurado, ikaw ang bagay na gusto kong panghawakan. I don't want just a future; I want our future, and I'm praying, hoping, and fighting for you to be in it. From the quiet parts of my heart, I just want you to know how much you mean to me every single day. I may not be the best woman you've ever met, but I want you to know that I have always been sincere in my feelings for you. I've never pretended to love you—my emotions have been genuine from the start. Rest assured that I will never leave your life unless you want me to. And if you ever find someone better than me, don't hesitate to let me go. Everyone deserves the best, especially you. Kung dumating man 'yung araw na sarado na ang puso mo para sa 'kin, tandaan mo na kahit anong mangyari, palagi kang may puwang sa puso ko, palagi akong susuporta sa 'yo, at palagi kang may taong tatakbuhan sa mga araw at oras na pinanghihinaan ka ng loob. In case I don't say it enough: I'm proud of you, I'm rooting for you, and I love you. Don't push yourself too hard; may panahon para lumaban at may panahon din para magpahinga. Kung dumating man ang araw na manghina ang loob mo, sana isipin mo na may ako na pwede mong takbuhan anytime and anywhere. Mapagod man ang mundo sa 'yo, asahan mong may isang taong hindi mapapagod na saluhin at mahalin ka—at ako 'yon. I’ll always be your greatest silent angel. I’ll never get tired of believing in you, cheering you on, and celebrating every step you take toward your dreams. Gusto kong maging saksi sa lahat ng tagumpay mo—in every achievement, every breakthrough, and every little moment that makes you proud of yourself. Kahit gaano pa katagal o kahirap ang proseso, hindi ako mapapagod na suportahan ka. I hope you think of me every single time you see the moon, the stars, and the fireworks lighting up the night sky. Let the moon remind you of my quiet love that stays with you even in the silence, let the stars remind you that I’m your ally fighting alongside you in the dark, and let the fireworks remind you of how much joy you bring into my life. No matter where we are or what season of life we find ourselves in, I will always be your constant light, your safest space, and your number one supporter in everything you do. GI, PINIPILI KITA DAHIL MAHAL KITA. And to the world, he may look strong, but to me, he'll always be my little mumu quietly fighting battles he never talks about. I see the weight he carries behind his quiet smiles, and I wish I could take away every burden on his shoulders and replace it with pure peace. Until I can shield him from the noise of the world, all I can do is pray. God, please watch over him. Keep him safe, protect his heart, give him strength when he feels weak, and remind him that he is deeply loved, even on the days he forgets it. Wrap him in Your comfort whenever his thoughts get too heavy, and let him feel that he never has to carry the world all by himself. Guide his steps, ease his tired mind, and please bring him home safe to me. That's all I ask.

I miss you. So much. But I don't miss the person you can be. I don't miss the SA. I don't miss you forcing me to get drunk. I don't miss the abuse. But the good times make me miss you. When we were baking together at midnight. When we would lay on the couch and watch movies or blast the tv so loud playing something stupid that made us laugh that your parents would yell at us. The time we painted matching jeans even though I hated wearing jeans your smile was worth it. But everytime I miss those times I remember you grabbing my chest while I tried to sleep. The fear of what you did when you got me to overdose into sleep. The countless times you convinced me I was unlovable. The times you stole my phone and blocked the only people who could convince me to leave you. The pictures you forced me to take. I can never forget the feeling of your hands around my throat while you held a pillow over my face. It keeps me up at night. But I wonder if there is a version of you that some people only get to see the good side. Was I the only one who saw the bad side? I know no one will believe me if I tell them about the abuse. Maybe it doesn't matter if they believe me. I hate you. But I miss you. You made me so dependent on you I don't know what to do now that I left you.

I hope you find my letter when you already feel warm and it warms you more. I want you to know that i love you so much you would never understand and when we met about a decade ago i befriended you first cuz i liked your personality alot. ill always be your twin :3 #twinssincedayone #myunc #iloveyou #neverevergettingridofme #loveumorethantheworld

Happy father's day dad, I am deeply sorry I can't seem to call or even have the courage to talk to you. part of me can't seem to allow me to approach you. Maybe is because of everything you had done to me, I don't mean any disrespect but I am truly hurt and every time I try to tell you, part of me says its pointless trying to tell you because you will never listen, therefore you will never understand you never did and never will. I swear I am trying to call you I am trying my best to reach out but I don't know why I can't. I am not sure if it is fear or hatred all I can say is that I am not ready to talk. But i do love you dad, I always did and always did and always will. I hope your proud of me.

My dearest, I long for your comfort, especially on the days when I need it most. Sometimes I wonder whether, if I had tried a little harder to hold on to you, we might still be together now. But I also realized that I couldn’t uphold a promise on my own—especially when you no longer felt the same way about me. I love you, but I could see that you were unhappy. My heart couldn’t bear to keep you in a place where you no longer wanted to be. I gave you my word that I would grow with you in every way, just as I wanted to grow myself. However, I came to understand that we could no longer grow in the same place. Your journey was taking you somewhere I couldn’t go. You knew that. The difference between us is that I would have still chosen you, while you chose not to choose me. Maybe you were uncertain, or maybe you didn’t want to feel guilty. Whatever the reason, I want you to know that I genuinely wanted the best for you—even if it meant I would no longer be part of it. Still, this foolish heart of mine carries so much love for you—perhaps too much. Sometimes I wonder whether I will ever truly move on. But I hope that, with time, I will learn to remember what we shared without wishing I could change the ending. I will always care for you, but I am slowly learning that loving you also means accepting that you are no longer mine to hold.

I wonder if you will ever find this letter again it is currently 8/9/25 and 4:46 in the morning. If you found this again then I guess you feel lost as I do right now or just remembered that you wrote yourself a letter all those years ago. I know how eager you are to find you own name on this websites and see if that message came form someone you know, well here's one that you know for sure is made specifically for you. I just want you to know that you are doing better than where you should've been in your life I know that you always wanted more and be the same as everyone else I know that you want something that sets you apart. You want a whole 'nother world that only you know. Somewhere you excel and somewhere you feel connected to. You've always been most jealous of that one girl not because she's smart nor athletic but because she has that one thing you truly want "love" not for someone but for what she cares about. The ability to make and have that inner talent all sources of her confidence. The way she learned japanese, sings, and have a creative mind you wished all of those things for yourself haven't you? but life got in the way and so is money you blamed everything but yourself. Maybe it was life and money but hey if you wanted it so bad why haven't you done it yet?

i miss you, daf. if one day you decide to come back and start over with me, please find me. call me. don't hesitate to reach out. because one thing i can promise is i'd still choose us, as long as you/re choosing us too.

Hi baby. I know you're no longer here, but I still want to say Happy Birthday. Kinda sad na di tayo nakapagcelebrate even when we were still together. But anyway. Wherever you are, big bun, I really hope you're happy. Potpot and I are still and will always be your home. Meant that then, still mean it now. I love you and I'm forever grateful for the time we spent together. Thank you for making Margeaux whole and happy. You were my whole existence and I couldn't have asked for more. I'll greet you one last time on our supposed anniversary and I promise I'll stop bothering you na. I love, big bun. And I loved loving you more than anything.

Like you said, I dodged a bullet

Dear jeremy i am very hurt and upset with the fact that you told me that i could help out at the rec and find out that you backstabbed me! i really wanted to work there!

You know i didnt told you in our entire relationship that you was my first love I miss you so much everyday not a single day passes by without thinking of you I love you forever and will always love you even though you are not mine right now I still remember all our dates all your cakes all our meetings at Uncles I miss you Gucchu from your pucchu

too many what if's got into my mind,even before anything started between us,farewell came before anything could even made its opening.Here i am saying one sidedly closing a chapter that doesnt have any page inside it for the thousand's time. love is something so beautiful,too good to be true. if it cant be you,can i be selfish and hope that i'll receive that love from someone else like how i love you? You got me wondering,do i cross someones mind like how you crossed mine? a cliche way to say you'd never look at me,but this ain't romantic book,so sadly,that words are true. Here i am giving you the biggest hint while being your biggest nobody as an anonym. New years keep passing by,im still here and will be here even when i feel like i cant stay anymore. I apologize for not giving a happy birthday to you this year,i finally can hold myself to not to.

Hello Idkr y I'm sending u something "anonymously" again, and I doubt you'll see this. Tbf this is wrong in so many levels lol. I just also want to have that breakthrough, to not care and just focus on what matters now, on what's in my life currently, not the what ifs and the things that alr happened in the past. Yk, recently, I've encountered a tiktok post tapos part nung conversation is this "I don't care about her anymore and tell her to stop watching my life because I'm not interested to whatever's going on to hers", and that hit hard. I want to stop being curious of ur life because I'm not part of it anymore. Most of the time I do hope that you'll say that to me too, to end this toxic attachment of mine to the past. Because I know u don't care whatever the fuck is happening in my life anymore. Minsan din iniisip ko na what if we talked again, and eventually end up being friends, but that doesn't really sit well with me, and maybe it wont to u also—given of how much I've hurt u in the past. I want to say sorry for being a self centred bitch and a pathetic loser. I know it's my responsibility and choice to fully let go, so i guess I'll deal with this. belated happy anniv pala lovebirds. I am happy that ure happy /*genuinely. Goodbye, Aki. Thank you for everything. Goodbye to all the nicknames we had for each other HAHAHA. Goodbye sa handshake natin na i cant remember anymore lol. Goodbye to all the emails/letters. Goodbye to the guy i started loving 4 years ago. Goodbye to the love u had for me. Goodbye to the love i had for u. Goodbye to all the good memories and experiences we shared together. Goodbye to the silent resentment i/we had for each other. Goodbye to the shortcomings that we had for each other. Goodbye to the what ifs and what couldve been. Goodbye to our promise. Goodbye to the future we onced hoped for. Goodbye to everything that reminds me of u. Goodbye to the person who was once my sure thing. Goodbye, mon soleil. No more to the moon and back. sana last na to.

Hey.. How are you doing?.. YEP... no matter what,, just keep fighting. in the end, its worth fighting for...... - Laya..

sometimes you can feel inexplicably incomplete. yet there is nothing you can do about it. nothing you can explain, understand, develop, you just co-exist. the "brighter days ahead" never travel to you. but its okay. you need to reconcile with that younger version of yourself and heal them, play with them, sing to them, tell them its going to be okay. It will.

i miss u babey. ill never get over what we had, my heart is aching. to more calls and hypothetical questions w u (in the future i hope plspls amen)

hiii how are you

I miss her some days, especially today as I am watching the last episode of Girls, as I watch Hannah and Jessa fix something that seemed so irrevocably broken. I think to myself, if Jessa were you and I were Hannah, would I have forgiven you? Am I even hannah? Pure of heart? I think I would have; even if I held resentment towards you for what you did, I would forget it and bury it. All in exchange for you being my friend again. that I would walk into your hostel room and you would be sleeping through your alarm that I could hear from my room; you would be hunched over, with your spine poking out, and be focused on something. The way you fought, the way you enabled me. I miss it. I miss you. I don’t even know if I'm brave enough to admit to people. Me holding onto this pride has made me into the biggest coward. I'm ashamed; I'm scared. I miss you.

The eyes can be set for distraction but the heart speaks louder than the ego and pride blaring and clouding my heart. i will forever long for the warm and tight hugs, the feeling of your plumpy, pink lips pressing against mine. the feeling of lying in bed next to you. the intimate moments, sexual and non sexual. i will always love you yan, in the sincerest form. in the depth of my caring heart. The memories of us are engraved in my heart, cannot, and will never be erased. I will always care for you, maskin ug makakita kag bag o because I know that I love you for sentimental and never ending reasons. Kung kapoyan ka saimong life I will always be here to listen, even as a friend. like a bird, spread ur wings and expand ur horizons, see where the wind takes you, i wish u the best in life. i want to be the person you run to, the person na maninaw sa tnan nmo kakapoy og kalipay in life... But that is for you to figure out and decide on. I love you so much yanixmodee, and I hope this letter brings you clarity in both your head and heart.