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though my soul may set in darkness, it will rise in perfect light; i have loved the stars too truly to be fearful of the night.

A ver... ¿Por dónde empezar? He de aclarar que haré un gran esfuerzo por tener la ortografía más rimbombante y quisquillosa, así cuando lo leas todo estará bien escroto. Te amo. Suena corto, suena a lo de diario, pero ¿qué otras palabras puedo usar? — además de sus variantes —, fuera de ahí, creo que todo lo que las personas usamos hoy en día para querer comunicar nuestro amor es un poco aguado y simple, sin chiste. Claro que, conociendo a la persona, puedes saber que tan en serio lo dice. Cuando yo te lo digo a ti, es bastante en serio, por ejemplo. Pero de tanto que se usa, no se suele escucharse lo suficientemente competente para quedar a la altura de mis sentimientos. Y no solo eso, la palabra «novia» y «novio»; ¿no te parecen muy cortas? A mí sí. Digo, eres más que mi novio, más que un esposo, más que cualquier adjetivo similar a ese. Porque no he encontrado todavía qué palabra me pueda ayudar a describir lo que eres para mí. Eres como... ¡No sé! Eres a quien más amo, a quien más deseo y no de forma pecaminosa, necesariamente. Cada parte de ti es como una tela cuyos hilos quiero jalar para llegar al final de ellos. No eres solo «mi novio» y auqnue es complicado describirlo con palabras nuevas, espero que lo entiendas, porque sé que a primera vista podemos parecer como otra pareja más, más bien somos del monte y no del montón. 🥺 Tal vez un abrazo hable más que estas palabras que van y vienen entre lo lógico y lo romántico. Sigue siendo todo porque tú lo provocas. — Te ama, Khaleesi

Creo que ya entendí un poco de cómo funciona. Oh my gawwwwd.

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Hey lovey, I just wanted to say thank you for letting me experience what it really feels like to be loved and treated right. You’ve shown me a kind of care and effort that I didn’t know I deserved until you came into my life. I appreciate everything you do for me, even the smallest things that don’t go unnoticed. I know being in a long-distance relationship isn’t easy—it tests our patience, our trust, and our strength—but despite all that, you continue to choose me every single day. That means more than words can explain. No matter the distance, you still find ways to make me feel close to you, safe, and valued. Thank you for staying, for understanding me, and for loving me the way you do. I’m really grateful for you, and I cherish what we have more than anything. I hope you know that I’m here for you just the same, through everything, and I’ll keep choosing you too.

It's been 10 days since we completely cut off contact, but it's already been 7 months since we separated. Instead of lessening, the pain only grows, and I feel such a void, such great anguish that I don't know how to put it into words. I miss you all the time; the pain of longing is so intense that I can even see you during the day, with my eyes open. I wonder how you are, if you're well and happy, if you're smiling with someone or doing what you love most, which is singing. I think I've never taken so long to write a letter because with each word written, the urge to cry hits me so hard, but not enough to make this pain go away. I will always be here, waiting for your return.

(извини что инглиш) to be honest, i didn’t fully even know what i was apologizing for today, i only knew that my silence was a wrong thing to do and then only halfway our conversation i realized that you were really offended but only when i got home i understood that you were hurt. and now i know what i’m sorry for. dear my Alikhan (my one and only), i’m really sorry for hurting you. it was never my intention, i was not even realizing it, i was not manipulating you, i’m so sorry that you felt that way, i was just straight up mean to you. i could never hurt you intentionally. i also realized why i was mean to you. you are my first boyfriend, which you are my first guy. i was cautious of you. i was taking every mistake by you as a threat, and was not trusting you. it’s my first relationship too, i’m sorry that i was cautious of you for too long i really hope you will feel my sincerity through this letter, i wish i could just transfer “my soul” to you, so you could feel it, just to prove you that i’m really sorry. i wish we were quantum entanglement, just to show you how much i love you. “i love you” for me used to be just a cliché phrase, that i heard from the movies but now looking at you, i can feel it and i’m really sad that i hurt someone whom i care, cherish, love. i’m not forcing you or pressuring you to forgive me right away [ or even forgive me at all( ] take your time, whenever you are ready, i won’t bother you till i will be waiting just text me, and when it will happen, i will be the happiest person on that day as the song says, Always Love💗

Alex, I like you. You're one of the most important people in my life and you've made me into the person I am today. Yet to you, I don't exist. I can spend all day just admiring your warm smile, your inviting personality, and your ability to understand the deeper meaning behind a person's feelings. But you? You'll never look me in the eye, comfort me, or just notice me. All I can only hope is that one day, you'll find your way to me and see how much I truly feel about you. All I can do is reminisce about the dreams I come up with when thinking of you. All I can do is hold on to the fact that you're happy because in the end, all I can do is wish you were mine.

I still am waiting for your answer, it’s so pathetic you’d probably never see this confessions right? I still like you. Sincerely so and it pains me on a daily basis to think you’d give no shits about me haha funny right? Cause who am I to be talking.

You're my moon There's no doubt about that... Kau adalah rembulan yang berada di dalam kegelapan malam di dalam kepalaku, cahaya yang hangat dan tidak menyilaukan. Cahaya yang membuatku merasa tidak sendirian lagi. Cahaya yang akan selalu kudekap di dalam hati yang sering terbenam ini. Tapi kau juga seorang bintang, setiap katamu menghiasi seluruh otakku. Mengisi halaman yang sudah terlanjur tinta dan coretan yang berusaha menutupi kesalahan. Tapi bintang-bintang itu menenangkan. Dan kaulah kata-kata itu, seperti bintang-bintang kecil yang tak hanya indah tapi juga menunjukkan kemana aku bisa berlayar. Dan akhirnya... Kau juga seorang Matahari. Kalau aku bunga kau jelas adalah mentari yang membantuku untuk mekar dengan sempurna dan selalu ada menatapku. Menyorotiku. Membuatku sekali lagi percaya diri untuk berdiri dan menghadap ke depan. Dan di hadapanku, adalah matahariku. Karena bunga tidak pernah melepaskan pandangan dari mentarinya. Halaman demi halaman, seperti hari yang tak kusangka akan kurasakan. Semuanya ada karena ada kau yang memegang tanganku dan mengatakan semuanya baik-baik saja, dan itu bukan salah siapapun. Aku pun ingin membalas genggaman tangan itu dan tak pernah melepaskannya. Karena kau adalah yang berusaha mengerti dan kau adalah yang kucintai, apapun yang terjadi hal yang kutulis disini adalah perasaanku yang sebenarnya. Tertanda... Via Sakura

I loved you ever since we first met in fourth grade. You were so sweet to me and you understood me in a way no one ever has. I am autistic and you knew that before I knew myself and you helped me understand that about me, helped me accent that I wasn't broken, just different. We shared an interest in anime and video games and we liked talking trash about our teachers behind their backs all the time. We both loved the colour purple and we thought we were soulmates because we were each other's ideal preference for our partner's height and our birthdays were two days apart within the same year. I remember we used to do those dumb kinnie bingos and we always matched up as the characters that were known as the dynamic duos of their franchises. It was always so much fun. I didn't really realise it when we were young but I know now my love for you wasn't romantic, it was familial. But we still had a bond either way. We never forgot about each other and we approached each other again in 10th grade where I accidentally confessed to you and you told me you felt the same so we tried it out. But I kind of regret it.... Is what I used to say. I wanted to try for you because you were my close companion. I love you so much. Yet you didn't love me the way I loved you. We were only trying things out but you were so cruel to me. You had changed over the last ten years and it really hurt. I managed to tell you I wanted us to go back to being friends and you said it was okay but you still hated me, resented me for it. And I don't understand it. I never once got to tell you how you made me cry and made me miserable all the time. Then when me and my friend got into a stupid argument about the definition of the word "indirect" you told me you hated me because I got upset that you just stood there watching when they degraded me unwarratned. Even when i apologised to you, you hated me. And it used to hurt but it doesn't anymore. I got over it. I will never be able to tell you to your face these things because we'll never see each other again but I am better now. Stronger. You can never hurt me again and no one like you will be able to. I don't regret our relationship. I thank you for all the hurt you gave me because you made me stronger against people like you. And you made me aware of your type of people, I know how to protect myself now. I know what my worth is and it's much higher than what you deserved. I deserve more than to be treated like garbage. I want you to know that, hypothetically. You'll never know this but whatever. I heard you got a new girlfriend and I hope you either learn to treat women better or she leaves you to find a better girlfriend because you don't seem keen on changing. You're not the victim, you never were. Just grow up already and stop being an attention-seeker. I'm going to find someone who can truly love me one day and I'm gonna be so happy and you're gonna miss out on all of it. You're gonna miss when we dated. You're gonna miss when I still wanted to be yoour friend afterward. I told all my friends about what you did and I know what you did to them too. I know the pain you gave them. You're not a good person, you never were. It just took me 10 years to realise this. And now I'm grown-up and I know better now. So despite all of this... Thank you for helping me become stronger. Thank you for helping me stop being timid. Thank you for helping me love myself more. Thank you for helping me realise I am worthy of real love. Thank you for helping me respect myself. And thank you for teaching me what kind of people I should avoid. And thank you for all the happy memories that I do have with you. I'll still cherish them.

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Hi, Carlee. I hope you read this, but it’s up to you if you want to. I just want to be really honest with you. This has been bothering me for a while, and I didn’t expect it either. I like you, crush kita, I have feelings for you, however you want to interpret it. I’m not even sure how to feel right now, but I know I needed to express this. Ang weird noh? I really never expected to fall for you or even catch feelings, but it was through our interactions, like when we go out coop, practice, SM, chikahan, and even the times we tease each other. Slowly, my feelings started to develop. Nagulat talaga ako sa sarili ko when they became real, because at first I was brushing it off and not thinking about it since you’re my best friend. Then suddenly boom. I really never expected it. I know to myself this might be hard again, because I didn’t think I’d fall for someone again, but then you came along. I also find myself wondering if you might like me back. Delusion is real, but assuming and mixed signals aren’t. Sometimes I feel like you might like me a little or maybe not and you’re just being friendly. Or maybe I’m just overthinking. Ang OA talaga. I mean, I think you already know this about me, but I tend to notice everything, so I end up overanalyzing. Like that one time after class when we went back to the room to get a ball for volleyball, and we didn’t find one, so we just watched Mamma Mia practice. I remember asking who could be a crush, and you suddenly said “ako,” then quickly said another name. I know I responded, but honestly, inside I was shook. There are more moments like that. I’ve also noticed that sometimes you get a bit cold towards me, especially when they mention “R,” like during KB’s birthday or in the classroom but maybe I’m just overthinking again or reading things wrong. I was trying na iwala tong feelings na to just for our friendship, but every time I try, it just doesn't. But then suddenly it happened, I was losing feelings for you, then suddenly it started to come back, and I don’t know what the reason was. If naalala mo pa yung mga sinesend ko sayo sa TikTok, mga notes ko sa IG, or parinig, that was all for you. It was all because I wanted you to know that I liked you or mahalata mo. I know that mabilis ka makahalata, as in, and right now, as I’m writing this, I think you know that I like you, or if not, I’m surprised. I did all that when I lost feelings for you in some way, hoping you could confront me about it or just simply ask kung sino yun, para matapos na. but yeah wala, I was dumb for doing that. But now it’s all coming back, and I don’t know the reason. I’m sharing all of this because I want to be truthful with you. I really don’t want to assume anything, because I know I could be wrong. I’m not asking for reassurance, but if ever you do want to clarify things, I would appreciate it so I could stop feeding my delusions That’s it. I just hope that after you read this, we can still continue as friends and that nothing changes between us. I’m really grateful for you, and I value our friendship a lot. I never thought I’d have a friend like you. Falling and confessing was definitely not on my list this year.

Aslm Aaliyah I know that u have experienced something that did hurt your feelings so bad, to the point where u cried, mourned and suffered because of it. And I pushed it by reminding you of who made you like that. I know I have done something so unforgivable. You have been telling me to stop mentioning him, to stop talking about him, and to stop even making you think abt him. He himself is the root that hurts you and I kept on. I am such an asshole, such a jerk, such a idiotic, rude, cruel, toxic, brainless, dumb, immature, fake, and coldest person to you and fully deserve what you did by blocking me. I just didnt realize how hurtful it would be to lose you as someone close to me. I am really really really really sorry. I ask maaf from the bottom of my heart and you are someone that I cherish. Your someone whos close to my heart. Someone I can call when I need them. Someone I can comfortably be around. Someone that isn't like anyone at all. Someone who is there for a person with a kind heart, beautiful personality, beauty that shines throughout the galaxy, someone with the looks that can pull anyone. This isn't about that tho. I know what im saying sounds stupid, self centered, but I dont want to lose you as a friend. I know that I haven't been there for you as much as you been there for me. I feel so horrible just reflecting on it. You did so much for me and ive been such a rude friend to you. From the bottom of my heart I ask for maaf. For the mistake I have done. For the cruelty I have showed u. In the moment I didn't think about it. When u said I shouldn't mention the one that u loved. I am truly sorry for doing that to you. I feel so angry at myself for doing that to you, that if I had fhe chance to not say what I said and remind you of it I'd do it without second thought because I now realize that it really hurt you. I promise I will never ever be such a person and always take what u say that u meant to heart and will remember what to say and what to not say. I promise I will not be the same person who reminds u of something u hate and smth that you dont like and smth that hurt you when u loved them. I am really sorry. If my apology does not work and that u hate me now for eternity. Just know that you are the closest girl to my heart and losing you will be the death of me. But you choosing whether to talk to me again is up to you. I will not force you. I just wanted to apologize and tell u that I will miss you. No matter if we are no longer friends. I will always cherish the moments you helped me and comfort me and listened to me when Noone else could. Im just now going to be angry and hate myself for not ever doing that for you and it will be my punishment for what I did to you. This feeling im feeling for you blocking me and removing me from your life is my punishment for being so to you and I fully deserve it. I will keep you in my duas so that you pass your exams and get into your studies that you want to study in. Shukran for everything From Ameer

i love you so much more than words ❤ SAYANG BANGET BANGET <3

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I miss you, im sorry for everything. I love you, and I don’t think that will ever change.

Ron, I've been burning the brightest since the day my heart beat for you. I am the most alive because I like you. My feelings are consuming me, but I'd rather have that than feel nothing at all.