I know we dated for a short amount of time, but this relationship was special to me. I never cared about the distance. Every day and night I got to talk to you was lovely. Watching movies and shows together was my favorite thing. It sucks that I had to ruin it so fast. I know it's been two years, and you've probably moved on for the better. I'm sorry for being selfish, immature, for self sabotaging, and for saying those horrible things to you. In the beginning of our relationship, I had already caused trust issues and confusion between us. I did things I shouldn't have done, and I caused unnecessary drama. There really isn't much I can say or do to fix what already happened. I am deeply and genuinely sorry, though. I wish things could've turned out differently. I wanted to reach out many times, but we both needed time. I don't know what you're up to, if you're dating someone now, if you're still writing, or if you still work on dirt bikes. Although none of that is my business, I hope that whatever you're up to, you're doing well. The mistakes I made in our relationship helped me reflect on the kind of person I was. Months later, it all hit me a lot harder than I expected. I felt really bad and embarrassed because I know I could've done better. I hope there's no bad blood between us after all.