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I don’t really know why I’m writing this. Maybe because there are still so many things I never got to say, or maybe because sometimes I just wish I could go back to a time when talking to you was the easiest thing in the world. It also because I hope you would see this and want me back. I think i’m feeling super emotional right now because our what would have been 1 year anniversary is coming up. There was a time when you were my normal. You were the person I could text about the smallest things. If something happened with my mom, if something made me laugh, if I was upset, if I just had a random thought, you were someone I wanted to tell. I didn’t have to think about whether I should reach out. I just did. And now it’s strange knowing that I can’t do that anymore. Sometimes I’ll see an old picture or video of you on my phone and think, “There really was a time when this was my life.”Tiktok’s on this day is really killing me. There was a time when your name was at the top of my phone. There was a time when I thought we’d have so many more memories together. I don’t think I’ll ever forget what you meant to me. You were my first serious love, and you were there for so many of my first experiences with loving somebody and letting somebody love me. Whatever happens in both of our lives, that will always be a part of my story. I know I wasn’t perfect. I know there were things I could have handled differently, things I wish I had understood sooner, and moments where I wish I had been a better version of myself. I’ve grown since then, and sometimes I wish you could see the person I’m becoming. I wish I could know what the breakup was like for you. Did you miss me? Did you ever think about me afterward? Did you ever hear me laughing or see me in class and remember what we used to be? I wish I could read your mind just once. Maybe you don’t feel those things anymore. Maybe you processed everything differently than I did. I don’t know. What I do know is that I loved you. I loved having you in my life. I loved knowing that I had somebody who knew me in a way that other people didn’t. And even though things didn’t work out, I don’t want to pretend that what we had wasn’t important just because it ended. A part of me still wishes you would come back. I wish we could start over not necessarily go back to exactly what we were, but meet each other again as the people we’ve become and see if we could do things differently. But I also know that wanting that doesn’t mean I can make it happen. You mattered to me. I wish things had turned out differently. And I genuinely hope life is good to you, wherever it takes you because you are a great person who deserves great things. I can’t believe you never say what I say in you. You are genuinely one of the sweetest people I have ever meet you are so talented and an amazing signer. I hope you do everything you want in life, and find someone who you love (I guess 😒). I want to move on from you but it’s only because I know I have to. I’m almost there but I have my moments like now, but I hoped i’m released from this yearning soon. Thank you for being such an important part of my life. I hope someday, when you look back on us, you remember the good things too, I think I will always love you and I hope you feel the same about me -Angel

I really thought I'd forget about you, but that's not how it is. It's been months and I still miss and think about you. Deep down I really wish you still have the picture and that you're still thinking about me as well, but at the same time I hope that's not the case. I hope you're not as despaired as me and that you've already moved on. Everyday, I still can't help but wonder what you're up to. How are your cats? How is school going for you? Is it different now that I'm gone? I miss telling you about my day and watching you play your games. I miss sending stupid reels and I KNOW its childish but it's true; in my mind there are still traces of you. Please forgive me if I ever made you uncomfortable. Please forgive me if I was boring to talk to. Please forgive me if it ever felt like I was too busy to talk to you. Please forgive me if I ever confused you because of my indecisiveness. Please forgive me because I still love you. When I see you again, will you have a different hairstyle? Will you be a bit taller? Will you be dressing differently? My heart aches just thinking about it. Will it be awkward when our eyes meet once more? Or will it be sad? Whatever it may be, I'll give you a smile, and hopefully in return I'll be able to see that charming grin that I fell in love with. I wish this is what I could've said that night. I'm sorry I'm really sorry Remember to take care of yourself and focus on school, okay? Lol I have so much to tell you about mine

Hi, baby. I miss you so much. I wish I could turn back time to fix my mistakes—to fix everything. I love you. I love you so much, lablab ko. I hope you're okay. I'm silently rooting for you, and I will always be your number one fan! Agi, I miss you so much. I still can't move on. I know two years have passed, but two years is nothing if waiting and yearning means you're coming back. I'm more than happy to spend my whole lifetime waiting for you. If an alternate universe is real, I hope there's a place for me and Shana there. I hope there's a train that arrives on time so Shana and I can have the best time of our lives. I love you—Shanalaire. I will live in Switzerland, for us. I will live in Switzerland, for us.

Hi, my name is Haris. My birthday is coming up on September 10, 2026, and I am turning 22. Will anyone remember to wish me? No one has ever wished me a happy birthday in my entire life. I'm writing this here simply because I've always wished for that feeling just once.

They hate me here, and I need you back. When I'm with you, you make me feel like the most special person in the world. I will always cherish the memories we built together, and I'm sorry for breaking your heart. I know I was wrong, and I'm willing to face the consequences. i miss you, baby. i hope you're happy in heaven, and dont worry i always visit your grave. at least we're equal now, but yours is much worse though, kidding ik i adapt your dark humor, i just missed you so much, baby

I still love you

Пожалуйста, перестань носить кепки 24/7, запишись уже на стрижку! Ты такой красивый, а эти дурацкие козырьки прячут твое лицо.

I'm confused. I'm not very crushable but I 𝘢𝘮 getting mixed signals. Do you like me? 𝘐 don't like you originally but I have wondered about this a lot and so have thought a lot about you. A one- or two-day crush sometime.

I wish I could really show you how much I love you, yet I am a nobody compared to her. I am so sorry that I don't have the talent to make it to you. You would never know anyways. But I hope you're happy with her.

Dear Amina, 1. Whenever my phone makes a sound, I hope it's you. I still remember...the times we talk how wanted I felt how good I thought things were... It's not your birthday. It's just a random ___, and I wake up thinking about how...Good times were when we first started talking the version of u that spoke up gave me attention and made me feel worthy I'm not going to list every reason I love you, because if I start, I won't stop, and this letter would turn into a book. Instead, I just wanted to...Say I ain't gonna propose until ur comfortable to share and I make sure I don't go to a heart break.... Since the first day I saw you, I knew that I...it was you or no one that's how much I really appreciate you I apologize for the things I said...I hope I could start over and at least be a friends my life leaves a huge gap when we don't talk... Love, Ur annoying schoolmate

this is wrong. what i feel for you is wrong. i cant stop myself from looking at your face, and i keep checking if you’re stealing glances of me too. sometimes i do catch you staring, but what does that mean? are you also having a hard time hiding? do you feel sick pag di ka nakakaharapit haak?masakit ba liwat ha dughan? or coincidence la adto? did you mean it han ginyakan mo nga maupay nak kaarot or han nagpakiana ak kun pogi ak tas nagyakan ka nga pogi na pogi after mo ak buligan pag belt? or were you just being friendly? gintry ko na tak best nga ig erase ka everywhere kay i know it’s wrong, pero i feel so sick and nauseous kay a lot of things remind me of you. singing reminds me of you, and its my favorite thing to do so ano man tak hihimuon? i don’t even know what this is for kay it’s useless. u love him and i think i love my gf too (at this point idk anymore), and i’m very much sure you don’t feel the same way if u happen to read this and if you’re sure kun hino ako, im really really sorry.

Hi. I know you won't see this, or at least I hope. I don't want to look like a fool in front of you after all of this time. We broke up in early August, and to say my feelings have been mixed is an understatement. You were there for me when I cried, but at times you were the reason why I shed those tears. I laughed with you, we called for hours on end, and we shared vulnerable moments. I'm sorry. I know I was an asshole at the end of our relationship, and you didn't deserve that. You aren't a bad person, despite you constantly telling yourself that. I tried to help you when you vented to me; I wanted to get you help, desperately. But you didn't take my advice, and it was starting to drain me too. I loved you, Sam. I really, really did. But I just couldn't deal with it anymore. You deserve someone better, someone who can handle your feelings, vocalize and set proper boundaries. I am not that person, though I wish I was. We were supposed to get married and have kids together. Do you remember how happy we were? Just thinking about it makes my throat close and my heart clench. It might not look too serious to others, but this is to me. We were supposed to stay together until we grew old. What happiness once spread in my chest when hearing that has now blossomed into a feeling of sorrow and slow acceptance: that despite how desperately we wanted to be, we aren't made for each other. One day, you'll find a pretty girl that your mom will love, a girl that can treat you as if your negative emotions aren't some extra baggage and a girl that can please you whenever you want. I hope you end up going into Nuclear Physics. You always loved talking about it with me, and even got a little embarrassed when you mentioned that no one had ever listened to you as I did. I could listen to you talk for hours. I mourn the first few months of our relationship. It was so, so healthy compared to the first time we started dating. I didn't feel annoyed when talking to you, and could sit in comfortable silence with you for as long as I needed. It hurts to think that I can never have that back. I don't know what happened near the end. You started to do things that upset me, like finding that image of an AI girl on your phone that looked nothing like me. You have no idea what I felt. I remember when you ended up crying, and it left off with me comforting you over something you did. I felt so terrible about myself that I ended up having a panic attack with you on a call because of how strong the emotions I felt were. I don't blame you for how you reacted. I remember the silence from your end while I cried quietly to myself. I didn't need you to say anything; your mere presence brought me comfort. I don't know what happened to you, but you got too possessive, too obsessed. I thought you were my person, Sam. I really thought that. You told me you changed for hell's sake. I feel like such an idiot crying over you. I tried so, so hard to be perfect for you, while you always made mistakes. I don't know how I'll look you in the eye when school starts, Sam. We're paired together in the Music Council. I now dread one of the things we were so excited for. I hate change so much; it's a leech, and an ugly, disgusting leech that always clings to me. I don't know why people keep on leaving. You told me I didn't deserve it, and we promised to always stay together. Look at us now. Cut contact and exes.

I've never told it, but I love you and I am glad to have you in my life

HI, JAP. I KNOW YOU'RE OKAY NOW, AKALA KO TALAGA MEANT TO BE TAYO - PERO HINDI. WE WERE BOTH IMMATURE BACK THEN. I JUST WISHED YOU COULD HAVE SAID SORRY, BUT YOU DIDN'T. SANA MASAYA KA NA NGAYON.

I sometimes wish you weren’t so easy for me to get to know, because maybe then I wouldn’t have gotten scared by how much I was starting to feel. I’m sorry if I suddenly got turned off or pulled away. I think I was just afraid of what being with you would be like, so I chose to protect myself and take good care of my heart. And yet, it’s already September, and somehow, I still find myself wondering about you—still thinking of you as one of my biggest “what ifs,” maybe even one of the greatest ones. So, I don’t know. If you’re okay with it, you can always message me anytime. Or maybe we can just leave it up to the universe and see where life takes us—whether we’re meant to rekindle something or whether things are simply better this way. Anyway, I’m genuinely proud of how much you’ve grown. I’ll always be rooting for you from wherever I am, and I’m praying that you find the success and happiness you deserve. - Z

agh you’re not gonna see this but i hope we can be good friends again!

Прошло почти год с половиной, как расстались и ты кинула меня в ЧС....ноч в самом деле, я скучаю по тебя. Иногда прям тоскую по тебя, у меня даже есть аккаунт твоей подруги, могла бы написать тебе через нее, но я не отпушусь настолько низко и беспокоить твою подругу. Я пытаюсь жить дальше, правда, пытаюсь, но что-то постоянно происходит какой-то абсурд. Я даже познакомилась с одной девушкой, но...стыдно признаться, я постоянно сравнивала ее с тобой, и я вела себя точно так, как ты со мной в последнее время, игнор, нежелание общаться. Но хорошо, что она поняла это, и перестали общаться, где-то месяц назад. Я скучаю по тебе, Машуля

Hi. How have you been?

Я люблю тебя особенно этим странным вечером, хоть ты никогда не будешь со мной. Я люблю тебя и восхищаюсь тобой. Я люблю тебя слишком сильно.