Thank you

I can’t even begin to explain my love for you. The way your voice calms my heart, the way just looking at you rests my eyes after a long tiring day, the way you tell me so excitedly about what you did. It’s just so important to me, more than anything. It’s almost been a year (9 months 20 days and 3 hours to be exact) but it feels like I’ve known you for much longer. I’ve never gotten this close to someone this fast. You’re my favourite person Hamnah. I love you THE MOSTEST.

I'm here again, I don't even know where to start this. That day when I heard that word… right there itself I felt like I had already lost something. After that I went through a lot of things… things you will probably never know, and honestly, things I don’t even want to share. Konni moments lo anipinchindi ivanni cheppakudadhu ani. But at the end… nv dhini kuda overthink cheyadam naku istam ledhu. You clearly said, “nen adagalsinavi adigesa… I don’t need any answers and I don’t care about your answers.” But ee particular point lo, nala nuvu kuda questions tho migilipokudadhu ani anipinchindi. Anduke… each and every question ans chesa Not because you asked for it, because you needed to know them ! "Nene vadhilinchukunna Ee matram blame chesukunte chaalu aah ??" Is this all I want from you? Do you think I'm here to blame you back? No, right. Aa roju kuda nenu adhi just a story ani endhuku cheppa? Because I never wanted you to blame yourself. "Nenu oka memory ga unnanu anukunna but oka nightmare antunte antha worst ga unnana anipistundi " Memory? Nightmare? It’s not about you. It’s not about the moments I had with you. It’s about the things I went through after that. The God knows the truth,” ante — “God kadhu, nene suffer ayya” anav. that’s a fact , i can't say no for it Maybe I’m not mentioning your name in my Insta stories anymore. Maybe I’m not talking about you with my friends anymore. But that God alone knows how many times I mentioned your name in front of Him. He knows how many times I went to Him… just so I wouldn’t keep overthinking things. (Nv parichayam chesina " Radha Krishna " ne macha) At the end of everything, naku okate ardham ayyindi macha. We kept arguing and fighting through these WhatsApp texts. But instead of all this, if we had just sat beside each other and talked, like we used to in our college days… looking into each other’s eyes and saying what we actually felt. Because that’s how we used to solve things back then. I strongly feel that if we had done that even once, this gap wouldn’t be here today. (Maybe one right conversation was all we needed to clear this.)

Hey babe - ik you didn't sleep at all last night because of my snoring and I feel so bad about it. I just wanted to say that I was awake when you pulled me closer to you when it got colder, and you held me there until the morning. I don't even have words to describe how caring you are. I'm so fucking grateful for you. And I know that I would risk my life to protect you. So don't act like you're fine all the time, I know you're not and I'm here for you - every single second of the day. It doesn't matter how far away I am, I would drop everything in a heartbeat for you. I love you, ちゅき. 내꺼 forever and always, - R

To my best girl, You really left me with the impossible task of making a speech at your funeral, didn’t you? Classic you. Even now, you’re bossing me from wherever you are. We were close in a way that words almost can’t capture. The kind of friendship where one look meant everything. The kind where silence wasn’t awkward - it was safe. You knew me. Really knew me. And somehow still chose to stick around. I’ll miss the little things: our inside jokes no one else would get, the way we laughed at things too ridiculous to explain, the comfort of just sitting together and knowing we weren’t alone. You were kind, funny, brave, and soft in ways people don’t always notice right away. You cared so fiercely for your friends, even when life wasn’t easy. We were supposed to have more time. That hurts. But even in the time we had, you made me stronger, happier, and more aware of how important it is to cherish every laugh, every hug, every ridiculous moment. And just so you know - you succeeded. Everyone here is emotional. Not just because we’re hurting. Because we loved you. Because you mattered. And because you’ll always matter. I’ll carry you with me. In every quiet moment. In every laugh that reminds me of you. In every part of my life that’s better because you were in it. My best girl. Always.