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Te amo mi amor con toda el alma. You’re the best thing that ever happened to me, I love you so much and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I love you so so much my princess

Hey Kishor, Ippo ethukaga itha ready panni irukana naama ippa la seriya pesikirathu illa and we dont have enough time to communicate. So enaku enna la unta sollanum and share pannanum nu thonutho atha ellam ithula iruku pah 💬💔 Ippo la namakkula neraiya sanda varuthu 😞 and na tha unta neraiya kova paduran kathuran 😣, ithu ellam ipo konja naala nadakuthu. Ithukana oru main reason enna na namma munna maari seriya time spend pannathathu tha ⏳💭. Because naama seriya time spend pannathathu naala na neraiya yosikiran 🤯 and automatic enaku chinna chinna bayam varuthu enakulla 😔💭. Intha bayam ethanaala varuthunu na solran. Naama pesa start panna period of time you gave me all those importance and priority 💖. Aana ippa naal aaga aaga athu ellamey koranjitu varuthu da 📉😞, athu enaku suthama pudikala and bayama iruku 😢, enga ini ipdi tha irukamo nu 😟. Ne nenaicha enkooda munna maari nalla time spend pannalam ana ne atha panna maatangura athu tha yen nu thrla 🤷‍♀️💔. Ne enna yosikira yen ipdi iruka nu thrla but ana konjam hurt aaguthu 😞. Enaku therila ne atha mathika try panriya illa ya nu ana sometimes athu romba lonely ah feel panna vakkithu pah 🥺💔. Enakuu ethanala ipdi bayam varuthu and yen ipdi la yosikran nu ne nenaikalam ana athu ellathukum oru reason iruku 💭. Chinna vayasula irunthu yaaru perusa enaku attention thanthathu illa 😞, yaarum prioratize pannathu illa 💔. Eppavumey ellarukum oru backup being ah tha irunthu irukan 😔, I mean oru backup friend, backup sister, and love pathi sollavey vendam 💔… ipdi tha iruku yennoda life. Even ennoda family kooda perusa support pannathu illa 😞🏠. Unaku theriyum enaku sports , kavithai and stage la pesurathu la romba pudikum nu. Oru period of time la enaku pudicha intha chinna chinna vishiyatha panna kooda na romba kasta pattu irukan 😔. First time na kavithai eluthurathu enga veetula therinjappo avunga yaarumey enaku support pannala , athuku pathil ennaiya semmaya adichanga 😢💔 ethuku itha la eluthura unaku enna vayasu itha la eluthalama nu ennaiya adichanga da 😞. Ennaiya suthi iruntha ellarum ennaku support pannaga ❤️ ennoda frnds aprm teachers nu ellrum ennoda family ah thavira 😔. Ana athaiyum meeri na avunga yaaruku theriyama eluthitu irunthan ✍️💭. Appo athu mela enaku verupu varala ana eppo ennoda kavithai book la publish aacho 📖✨ appothula irunthu enaku support panna start panitanga 👏, ennaiya encourage pannanga , appo kavithai mela enaku oru verupu vanthuchu 😞💔, athula irunthu na eluthuratha kammi pannitan and ipo la elurathey illa 🥀. And next na sports pona starting la laam neriaya aluthu irukan 😢 because oru oru oru time uhm na practice porathuku munnadi neraiya sanda varum veetula 😞. Even enooda cycle key ya la vaangi vachikittanga na poga koodathu nu . Na sports porathu avungaluku suthama pudikathu 😔. Na track la odurathuku munndai yosipan cha appa vantha nalla irukum 🥺, ippo na oduratha appa paatha nalla iruku nu la yosichi irukan 💔. Oru naal kooda na oduratha enga appa pathathu illa 😞, athu oru yekkamavey irukum enakulla 💭💔. Later na indivudal championship cup vangi 🏆 prove pannan enaku sports na evlo mukkiyam odurathu evlo pudikum nu ❤️🏃‍♀️. Athuku aprm tha ennaiya thittama enta sanda podama ennaiya sports ku anupunanga 😐. Itha ellam kekurappo sirippa irukalam 😅 may be chinna vishiyama kooda nenaikalam ana ithu ellam ennaiya neraiya traumatize panni iruku 💔😞. Oru kattathula enkau pudichathu ellamey intha maari vihiyathaala enkau pudikalamaley poiduchu 😔. Ippo nenaicha kooda ennala kavithai elutha mudiyum thirumba sports poga mudiyum ana itha ethayum na pana matan yaa na ithu ethumey enaku pudikala pah 🥀. Ennoda 12th result kammi aanathu kooda intha maari oru reason naala tha 😞. Enaku padikirathu kooda romba pudikum ❤️. Athukaga first rank matum tha vaanganum nu yosichathu ila ana oru maari pudikum . Eppo 10th result vanthucho appo la irunthu padikirathum pudikama poiduchu 😞. Appo konjam tha verupu vanthuchu padippu mela then 11th result vanthathuku aprm padippey pudikama poiduchu 😔💔. Athuvum intha 12th result appo la yaa inu vaalrom nu la thonuchu 😞… neraiya naal saagalam nu la yosichi irukan 💔🥀. Aprm konja naal ku aprm nalla tha pesunanga veetula ana enaku tha padikirathu pudikamaley poiduchu 😔. Innaiku varaiku na nalla irukana ellam seriya iruka nu yaarum ketathu illa 😞. Eppovumey enna suthi irukavunga nalla irukanga la nu tha pathu irukan ❤️… enakaga na yosichathey illa 😔. Mukkiyamanathu enna na yen life la ennoda appa voda presence romba kammi 💔..yen apdi solran na matha appa maari ennoda appa enta close la illa, enaku enna venumo atha elamey pannuvaru ana proper ah pesi kittathu illa. enaku enna venumo athu yellamey yen kaila irukum athula la entha koraiyum vachathu illa yen appa.may be na kooda soli irukalam avaru ta ana sonnathu tha lla. na stage la pesuratha track la oduratha aprm na eluthuratha la ennoda appa paakanum nu neraiya aasa pattu irukan ana ithu ethukumey yen appa vanthathu illa. epdi appa voda presence yen life la illamaley iruku athey maari unnoda presence uhm illama poidumo nu tha bayama iruku.atha na la na unta kova padurathu, enta pesu yenkooda seriya time spend pannu nu solrathu.sola pona ennaiya love panra paiyanavathu ipdi irukama irukanum tha na yosichi irukan. ana ipa na bayantha maari tha aaguthu, ne seriya enta pesurathey illa,day full ah pesa solli kekala atleast antha phone time 1hr la yaavathu ennaiya prioritize panni enta pesu nu tha kekuran unta. intha reels ku react panrathu aprm notes ku reply panrathu text panrathu la china vishayam tha ana atha kooda ne ippo la panrathu illa, sometimes thonum na ipdi irukurathunaala enga ne ennaiya alachiya pabaduthuriyo nu. unta na expensive gifts surprises la na kekala and atha na kekavum maatan I am just asking your time care and love. and thonum inga na ipdi irukaruthana ne veruthuduviyo nu. yen appovoda time spend panna pesala na yengi irukan ipavum yengitu tha irukan, pls unnoda pesence kaagavum ennaiya apdi yenga vaikatha, athu romba kastam pah. neraiya naal unta itha pesalam share pannalam nu antha 1hr time call pannuvan ana ne ethachu oru reason sollitu poiduva illa na line tha irupa ana anga pakkathula pesitu.antha maari time la romba kastama iruku enga life epdiyeh poidumo nu. ennaiya thaniya vitratha pah. Epdi appa voda presence yen life la illamaley iruku athey maari unnoda presence uhm illama poidumo nu tha bayama iruku 😢💔. Atha naala na unta kova padurathu 😞, enta pesu yenkooda seriya time spend pannu nu solrathu 💬❤️. Atleast antha phone time 1hr la yaavathu ennaiya prioritize panni enta pesu nu tha kekuran 📱🥺. I am just asking your time care and love 💖… Pls unnoda presence kaagavum ennaiya apdi yenga vaikatha 😞💔, athu romba kastam pah 🥺. **and na sonnala na enna feel panra na ok va yaaru ketathu illa nu nee kooda apdi tha iruka pah 😞, na yen apdi solran na antha vino irukaru la avaru vishiyathula ne apdi tha iruntha 💔. na epdi irukan ok va enna feel panran nu ne oru vartha kooda kekala 😔 ana na sonnan unta enaku ipdi la feel aaguthu nu 💬 ana ne atha oru maari solli kaamicha athu enaku suthama pudikala pah 😞💔, ithu ellam iru matter ah ipo iruka generation la ithu ellam simple easy ah eduthukanum nu sonna 😕. ne aruthal sollala na kooda paravala ana ipdi oru maari pesi hurt pannatha 😢. yaara irunthalum oru comfort kedaikatha u yosipanga 💭, antha comfort unta kedaikum nu vanthan ana illa 💔. yen veetula sona ennaiya purinjika maatanga nu tha aunga kitta sollama unta sonan 😔 ana neeyum ennaiya purinjikaama tha pesuna 💔, pls apdi irukatha pah 🙏💔**

Hey Kishor, Ippo ethukaga itha ready panni irukana naama ippa la seriya pesikirathu illa and we dont have enough time to communicate. So enaku enna la unta sollanum and share pannanum nu thonutho atha ellam ithula iruku pah. Ippo la namakkula neraiya sanda varuthu and na tha unta neraiya kova paduran kathuran, ithu ellam ipo konja naala nadakuthu. Ithukana oru main reason enna na namma munna maari seriya time spend pannathathu tha. Because naama seriya time spend pannathathu naala na neraiya yosikiran and automatic enaku chinna chinna bayam varuthu enakulla.Intha bayam ethanaala varuthunu na solran. Naama pesa start panna period of time you gave me all those importance and priority. Aana ippa naal aaga aaga athu ellamey koranjitu varuthu da,athu enaku suthama pudikala and bayama iruku ,inga ini ipdi tha irukamo nu. ne nenaicha enkooda munna maari nalla time spend pannalam ana ne atha panna maatangura athu tha yen nu thrla .Ne enna yosikira yen ipdi iruka nu thrla but ana konjam hurt aaguthu . Enaku therila ne atha mathika try panriya illa ya nu ana sometimes athu romba lonely ah feel panna vakkithu pah. Enakuu ethanala ipdi bayam varuthu and yen ipdi la yosikran nu ne nenaikalam ana athu ellathukum oru reason iruku . Chinna vayasula irunthu yaaru perusa enaku attention thanthathu illa yaarum prioratize pannathu illa.Eppavumey ellarukum oru backup being ah tha irunthu irukan ,I mean oru backup friend, backup sister, and love pathi sollavey vendam ,ipdi tha iruku yennoda life.Even ennoda family kooda perusa support pannathu illa. Unaku theriyum enaku sports kavithai and stage la pesurathu la romba pudikum nu . Oru period of time la enaku pudicha intha chinna chinna vishiyatha panna kooda na romba kasta pattu irukan. First time na kavithai eluthurathu enga veetula therinjappo avunga yaarumey enaku support pannala , athuku pathil ennaiya semmaya adichanga ethuku itha la eluthura unaku enna vayasu itha la eluthalama nu ennaiya adichanga da.ennaiya suthi iruntha ellarum ennaku support pannaga ennoda frnds aprm teachers nu ellrum ennoda family ah thavira. Ana athaiyum meeri na avunga yaaruku theriyama eluthitu irunthan.Appo athu mela enaku verupu varala ana eppo ennoda kavithai book la publish aacho appothula irunthu enaku support panna start panitanga .Ennaiya encourage pannanga , appo kavithai mela enaku oru verupu vanthuchu ,athula irunthu na eluthuratha kammi pannitan and ipo la elurathey illa. And next na sports pona starting la laam neriaya aluthu irukan.because oru oru time uhm na practice porathuku munnadi neraiya sanda varum veetula. even enooda cycle key ya la vaangi vachikittanga na poga koodathu nu. Na sports porathu avungaluku suthama pudikathu. Na track la odurathuku munndai yosipan cha appa vantha nalla irukum , ippo na oduratha appa paatha nalla iruku nu la yosichi irukan . Oru naal kooda na oduratha enga appa pathathu illa ,athu oru yekkamavey irukum enakulla. Later na indivudal championship cup vangi prove pannan enaku sports na evlo mukkiyam odurathu evlo pudikum nu .Athuku aprm tha ennaiya thittama enta sanda podama ennaiya sports ku anupunanga. Itha ellam kekurappo sirippa irukalam may be chinna vishiyama kooda nenaikalam ana ithu ellam ennaiya neraiya traumatize panni iruku .oru kattathula enkau pudichathu ellamey intha maari vihiyathaala enkau pudikalamaley poiduchu.Ippo nenaicha kooda ennala kavithai elutha mudiyum thirumba sports poga mudiyum ana itha ethayum na pana matan yaa na ithu ethumey enaku pudikala pah. Ennoda 12th result kammi aanathu kooda intha maari oru reason naala tha. enaku padikirathu kooda romba pudikum. athukaga first rank matum tha vaanganum nu yosichathu ila . oru maari pudikum ana. 10th la eppovum padichitu tha irupan solla pona bore kooda adikathu . early mrg padipan day time ka padipan konja neram n8 oru 10 vara la padipan . eppo 10th result vanthucho appo la irunthu padikirathum pudikama poiduchu. appo konjam tha verupu vanthuchu padippu mela then 11th result vanthathuku aprm padippey pudikama poiduchu. Yaa nu ne yosikalam yen na na avlo hurt aanan, na romba bad ah treat panna pattan enga veetula. athuvum intha 12th result appo la yaa inu vaalrom nu la thonuchu, neraiya naal saagalam nu la yosichi irukan.enooda appa enta oru 20 days kitta pesama iruntharu aprm oru naal n8 enna la pesa koodatho enna vartha la solla kodatho atha ellam solli thittunaru enta kathunaru ella traumas nu nadanthuchu. Aprm konja naal ku aprm nalla tha pesunanga veetula ana enaku tha padikirathu pudikamaley poiduchu. because they didnt accept me as how i am being, instead they asked me to live how they where said end expected.ippo kooda etho kadamaiku tha padichitu irukan,padicha tha work ku poga mudiyum apo tha veedu katta mudiyum nu. innaiku varaiku na nala irukana ellam seriya iruka nu yaarum ketathu illa enga veetula. avungala porutha varaikum ellam vaangi tharanga selavuku kaasu tharanga so na happy ah irukan, avlo tha. na ok va nu oru naal kooda keta illa, ethachu hurt aagutha nu kooda ketathu illa. Eppovum soluvanga ne epdi irukiyo apdi tha unaku aprm iruka rendu perum irupanga nu . atha naalaiye ethu pannanum naalu yosichi tha pannuvan. and athu bayam ah maariduchu yen na na panrathu nala thambii thangachi ya affect pannita poiduthunu. eppiyumey oru parenting side la irunthu irukan. eppovumey enna suthi irukavunga nalla irukanga la nu tha pathu irukan.enakaga na yosichathey illa .neraiya naal aluthu irukan , ennoda kastatha keka kooda yaarum irunthathu illa.neraiya naal thaniya ninnu la polambi irkan aluthu irukan. ipo varaiku giving side la irukan , apo apo thonu oru vaati kooda receiving side la irka maatoma nu. ana apdi irunthathu illa .still ipo varaiku yaarukavathu ethaavathu venum na no sollama senji thanthutu tha irukan entha oru expectation illama. ana enkau nu oru help illa yartayaavathu ippa pesuna nalla irukum nu yosichi thirumbi paatha yaarumey iruka maatanga,ithu oru bitter truth ennoda life la. Mukkiyamanathu enna na yen life la ennoda appa voda presence romba kammi.yen apdi solran na matha appa maari ennoda appa enta close la illa, enaku enna venumo atha elamey pannuvaru ana proper ah pesi kittathu illa. enaku enna venumo athu yellamey yen kaila irukum athula la entha koraiyum vachathu illa yen appa.may be na kooda soli irukalam avaru ta ana sonnathu tha lla. na stage la pesuratha track la oduratha aprm na eluthuratha la ennoda appa paakanum nu neraiya aasa pattu irukan ana ithu ethukumey yen appa vanthathu illa. epdi appa voda presence yen life la illamaley iruku athey maari unnoda presence uhm illama poidumo nu tha bayama iruku.atha na la na unta kova padurathu, enta pesu yenkooda seriya time spend pannu nu solrathu.sola pona ennaiya love panra paiyanavathu ipdi irukama irukanum tha na yosichi irukan. ana ipa na bayantha maari tha aaguthu, ne seriya enta pesurathey illa,day full ah pesa solli kekala atleast antha phone time 1hr la yaavathu ennaiya prioritize panni enta pesu nu tha kekuran unta. intha reels ku react panrathu aprm notes ku reply panrathu text panrathu la china vishayam tha ana atha kooda ne ippo la panrathu illa, sometimes thonum na ipdi irukurathunaala enga ne ennaiya alachiya pabaduthuriyo nu. unta na expensive gifts surprises la na kekala and atha na kekavum maatan I am just asking your time care and love. and thonum inga na ipdi irukaruthana ne veruthuduviyo nu. yen appovoda time spend panna pesala na yengi irukan ipavum yengitu tha irukan, pls unnoda pesence kaagavum ennaiya apdi yenga vaikatha, athu romba kastam pah. neraiya naal unta itha pesalam share pannalam nu antha 1hr time call pannuvan ana ne ethachu oru reason sollitu poiduva illa na line tha irupa ana anga pakkathula pesitu.antha maari time la romba kastama iruku enga life epdiyeh poidumo nu. ennaiya thaniya vitratha pah.

dear siti, thank you for being the best person that you are.you’ve been with me since forever.even when we were separated we always started talking again.you comforted me when no one’s around and it makes feel safe and heard.maybe i’m not special to you but you’re definitely special to me! i hope when i’m not around anymore you’d remember me forever.thank you for listening to my soul.all my gifts were from my heart just for u.if anything bad happens just remember that i’m always here for you.don’t ever think you’re not enough because you’re perfect,those who said bad things about you are just a bunch of losers.thank you for coming into my life,stayed and made it better in every way.i’ll always love you no matter in what way.if anything bad happens to us just read this message again because no matter what happen i’ll never change my perspective about you.i love you so much,siti

honestly .. I know you’re not happy. I know that you’ve trapped yourself… with someone you’re not attracted to, someone who is not affectionate, who doesn’t like or value reassurance like you do .. Their hobbies bore you… There’s no spark or connection… You’re just going with the motions. You’ll say yes to the pet when you don’t even like that animal. You changed your food preferences and diet, just for them. Their big, chubby body repulses you…but, you chose this, didn’t you? Trapped. They came after me, because you couldn’t have me… Gosh…I’d say I hope it’s worth it in a performative effort to move on but damn…we both know it isn’t. hmm… Take care💋

I really love,↓ Your smile,🌷 Your eye, 👁️ Your glaze, 🫶 Your laugh, 💐 Your way of talking, 🎀 The way you move, 🌝 The way you look at me, 👀 I really love---- 🌸 You 🌸

My love ❤️ I know today feels heavy, but I need you to remember something… you are not alone. I’m with you, beside you, supporting you through every feeling and every moment. You don’t have to be strong all the time. You can rest, breathe, and lean on me whenever you need. Your smile means everything to me, and I’ll do whatever I can to bring it back. No matter how sad this day feels, I’m not going anywhere. I’m here for you, today and always. I love you ❤️ Your Jayn Jaan Choryn !

I don't know how to write this, my love. Words are concise, but they do not convey the ache of my heart for you. I can write pretty phrases, heart emojis and whatnot, but will they really tell you the sound of my heartbeat when I hear your name, will they justify the blush on my cheeks and the smile upon my lips, my bright eyes and my heart in bliss when you finally said "I love you"? No, they will not. Enough beating around the bush. I love you. Not "I loved you" or shit like that. "I love you." No amount of "moving on" will change the fact that my heart has only belonged to one boy and it always will, and that boy has always been you. I don't think it will ever be anyone else. You own the key to my heart. How sad that you threw it away. I set your nickname as "Babyy (づ￣ 3￣)づ💗✨🎀". Did it arise feelings in your chest? Did they make your heart flutter the way mine did? You set my name as "Darlingg 🎀💗" Ohh, how cruel you are. How you have taken my heart out of my ribcage and instead of taking care of it like I hoped you would, you have played with it like an object and ditched it into the river called heartbreak. And it has sailed there ever since, and it will continue to sail there until you pick it up, which I know you have no intention of doing. You could have stabbed me in the chest with a blade laced with poison, and it would have hurt several times less, baby. Ohh what have I not done? Made playlists for you, sung songs, wrote love letters, I am such a fool. Now I listen to those playlists, sing those songs once more, read those letters, but instead of red rising through my cheeks, why do tears stain my cheeks? Nothing should have changed. I should have felt the same pang of love as I did back then, and I do. The only thing that changed is that your nickname has gone from "Babyy (づ￣ 3￣)づ💗🎀✨" to "Instagram User" and that when you hear my name, you walk away quickly. I want to drown in you. Your fluffy cloudlike hair, your cute glasses framing eyes so lovely a thousand poets would be put to shame failing to describe such beauty. Because like I said, words are always insufficient when you are the topic. Most people wish they forgot their "ex". Wish they "never met their ex". But the thing is, I don't. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I will never forget you. I would write several paragraphs more, but the thing is, I cry very easily. Even right now, I'm crying. I don't want you to love me back, because that would be wanting the impossible. I only want you. And I know I will have you in my heart until the end of time, until I cease to live. Until then, Yours truly, A <3

If you’re reaching this part, it means you’ve already read the chapter entitled "Bughaw." Just so you know, I’m not pressuring you or forcing you to say anything; I simply want to ask a favor of you. We can discuss that favor in a moment. First, I want to say that this might feel a bit different from the intention of my first letter. You may find this inconsistent, but when I wrote that first letter, I was already trying to move on from you, even though a part of me still held onto a glimmer of hope that there might be a chance for us. Now, I am writing to you again, but with a different kind of courage. This time, I am truly ready to accept things as they are and move forward. Actually, liking you has been quite surprising. I have met different versions of myself and realized that I am capable of feeling these things. I used to be so good at keeping things to myself that I thought moving on would be easy. However, I underestimated the situation; maybe I’ve just been fooling myself into thinking I could move on from these feelings, but I haven't. I don’t know what’s holding me back or why I can’t fully push myself to let go. That’s why I am writing this to you. I’m holding onto the hope that if I finally tell you all of this, I will have the courage to move forward. I know you aren't obligated to feel anything for me, but I need to give this closure to myself. Here is the favor: please reject me if you don’t feel the same way. I am not pressuring you to like me, and of course, if you’re entertaining someone else right now, I will accept defeat. I promise I won’t bother you; just please reject me if that’s what your heart wants.

My Dearest Lyra, my wondrous muse in sky, Can I be honest with you for a bit? I've been keeping this to myself for quite some time now. Dili man ni something super serious or dramatic, but it's something real something I've been quietly feeling every time we talk, every time I see you smile, and every time I remember small things about you. At first, I really thought it was just a simple but big love for you and ringo, kanang uy mobalik kapa ron. Pero as time passed, I realized nga it's more than that. Every time mag-chat ta, it feels light. Every time nga makatawa ka, I find myself smiling too even if wala ka sa akong atubangan. I started to look forward to your messages, to your replies, even to the most random things you say. Wala man ko nag-expect nga mo-like ka ug mo-gugma ka utro balik. Honestly, I'm fine if you don't. What matters to me is that I finally said it. Because for the longest time, I tried to act normal to pretend nga okay ra, nga wala koy gibati. Pero tinuod, naa gyud. Kanang feeling nga gusto lang nimo siya mahibaw-an, bisan dili mo mag-end up together. There were days nga l told myself to stop. Nga ayaw na, kay basin ma-fall ra ko ug ako ra'y masakitan. Pero every time nga muabot ka, every time nga makita nako imong name pop up sa screen, murag makalimot ko sa tanan reason nga gusto ko maglayo. You make things feel calm and happy at the same time. And maybe that's why I decided to write this. Not to make things awkward, not to force anything but just to be honest. Because you deserve to know. You deserve to know that someone out here genuinely admires you, pray and loves you from far. the way you talk, the way you laugh, the way you make others feel comfortable. You're one of those rare people nga bisan gamay lang imong effort, dako kaayo og effect. You have this simple charm that makes people want to stay. And I guess that's what happened to me, l stayed, quietly, admiring you from a distance, but always hoping you're doing fine and happy. I'm not expecting a reply, nor am l asking for anything. l just want to finally breathe. To let these words out nga dugay na kaayo nakatago sa akong heart. Kay bisan unsaon, lisod magpaka-okay kung naa kay gi-feel nga dili nimo masulti. So yeah, I love you and maybe I miss you so much didiw ko, you're more than I planned to. But it's okay. What's important is, you made me feel something real and for that, I'll always be grateful. DIDIWON KO KAM SOBRA. 🍎⭐🐙 unsaon ko man ug ruyag ko molingi ka diri sakon again, i planned this long time ago na ngano man motabo saton. ikaw gud ra karuyagon pakaslan. Love, Didiw asta🐙

I miss you so much Ren. you are on my mind constantly, I dream about you every night and I see your face in everyone I come across. you have the prettiest hazel brown eyes, I want to stare into them until I forget how to breathe, until I lose track of time and don't realize there is a world around me. I want to be able to feel your lips against mine just once, I want to forget everything but you. everything we had together and everything that came after has impacted me mentally a lot more than I think I fully realized. I find myself replaying things over and over in my head and getting stuck in thoughts I don’t know how to turn off. I often catch myself wishing I had been better, or different, or more like willow. It’s hard not to compare myself to her, especially when you once told me you could fall in love with someone who is just like you, and now that’s what you have. It messes with my head more than I want to admit. prepare, consume, proceed.

My Lord, I don’t come to You clean. I don’t come with anything worthy in my hands. If anything, I come with the opposite— with things I’ve done, things I’ve said, things I’ve thought when no one was watching. I’ve known what was right and still chosen otherwise. Not once. Not by accident. But enough times to know it wasn’t ignorance—it was me. And still… I find myself here. Not because I deserve You, but because something in me cannot stay away from You. I don’t even know if what I feel is worthy to be called love. It’s not pure. It’s not steady. It falters, disappears, returns when I need You most. But it’s real. It’s there in the quiet moments when I realize I’ve gone too far again. In the weight that doesn’t leave until I look in Your direction. In the strange, undeserved peace that meets me even when I expect judgment. I don’t understand it. If I were You, I would have turned away from me long ago. But You didn’t. And that is what breaks me. Not fear. Not punishment. But mercy I cannot explain. So I won’t promise You perfection— I’ve already failed at that more times than I can count. But I can give You this: I will keep coming back. Even when I’m ashamed. Even when I feel unworthy. Even when I don’t have the right words. Because somewhere in all this failure, there is something in me that loves You— not as I should, but as I am. And maybe… maybe that’s where You meet me. Still Yours, even like this.CMM.

Trish, I write to you with no expectation of forgiveness, nor any hope that these words will alter your opinion of me. I am aware that I have already lost that privilege. Yet I cannot remain silent. You accused me of arrogance—and you were not wrong. I have long mistaken restraint for dignity, and pride for strength. In doing so, I failed not only you, but myself. What I feel for you remains unchanged, though I now understand how poorly I expressed it. I spoke of love as though it were something to defend, rather than something to offer. I will not trouble you further after this. But I needed, at least once, to be known honestly— not as I appeared to you, but as I am when I no longer hide behind myself. Yours, though undeserving, K.

Hey chuu , I don’t know where this finds you now— or who you’ve become in the years that carried us apart. But I know this, you never really left. Not in the dramatic way people imagine,,, no constant ache, no daily longing.... just something quieter, more permanent. Like a song I no longer play but still remember perfectly. Life moved, as it does. I learned new places, new people, new versions of myself. And still. every now and then, something small folds time in half. A laugh that isn’t yours but almost is. A silence that feels familiar. A moment that should belong to the present but somehow carries your shadow. I don’t write this to reopen anything. There’s no expectation in these words. Just honesty, long overdue: You were not a phase. Not a lesson. Not something I “got over.” You became a part of how I understand love— and that doesn’t leave when people do. I hope life has been kind to you. I hope you’ve been loved in ways that feel easy and true. And if, by chance, you ever wonder whether you were forgotten— you weren’t.

I love you, that is all I can say. But I feel it so strongly that I cannot even say it. forever mine, first love.

My love, I have tried—unsuccessfully—to reduce you to language. To something I could hold still long enough to understand. But you refuse that kind of containment. You are not a thought I arrive at— you are what interrupts thought. There are moments—quiet, unremarkable ones— when I feel you most clearly. Not in grand gestures, but in the way the world shifts slightly as if making room for you even in your absence. I have known admiration, desire, attachment dressed convincingly as permanence— but this is something far less obedient. This does not ask for permission to exist. It does not wait for certainty. It does not negotiate. It simply is— with a kind of quiet authority that makes everything else feel provisional. You have altered the scale by which I measure things. Time, especially— it behaves differently now. An hour with you carries the weight of memory, while days without you pass like something unfinished. And still, I hesitate to call this love— not because it is lacking, but because the word feels insufficient, overused, careless in the mouths of those who have never had to mean it. What I feel for you resists ease. It sharpens me. It demands presence. It exposes every false version of myself I once thought convincing. And yet— if there is any certainty I trust, it is this: If there exists a place in this world where I am most undeniably myself, it is somewhere in relation to you. Not possessed. Not defined. But revealed. So I will not promise you forever— forever is a word too often spoken by those who do not understand time. But I will give you something more difficult: My attention, undivided. My truth, unsoftened. And whatever this is— this force that neither of us fully controls— I will not turn away from it. Not now. Not while it continues to choose us. Ever yours, in a way that does not end neatly.

To my jaan, my love, my shammas ❤💕 happy 4th month anniversary <3 my blacka. it’s our 5th anniversary we are able to celebrate and the 4th month of being together. i don’t even know where to start, because somehow a simple “happy anniversary” feels way too small for everything i feel for you. i’ve been staring at this for so long because nothing feels enough for you. no words ever feel like they can hold everything i feel, everything we are, everything we’ve built together. but i’ll try, because you deserve to hear it. <3 so enjoy your read. sometimes i sit there and think about how strange and crayzyyy it is that you’re not physically here, how can someone who started as just a person on a screen have become my person. like somehow, out of everything and everyone, it was you. and it still is you. every single day. not just someone i love, not just someone i talk to every day. you feel like something that exists in me. like i know where to find you, because in you’re in my world and you’ll probably never realize how much you’ve become part of me. you’re just everywhere in my life. in my thoughts, in the way i smile at nothing, in the way my mood shifts just from hearing you, the way i feel, the way my days are shaped around you being there. you’re the first person i want to tell things to, the one i look for without even thinking, ‘did blacka text?’ and even then the surface wasn’t just enough for you.. was it? you don’t even leave me alone in the quiet parts of me. the parts i don’t want show anyone. the late night thoughts, the overthinking, the rude side i try to hide... and somehow you never made it feel like too much. you just understood it, or at least you tried to, and that means more to me than anything. it’s like you found a place in me that no one else ever reached, and you stayed there without trying. and yeah, we’ve had our moments, like the drama i create, the silence sometimes, the misunderstandings, the small fights, moments where things felt fragile, the times where words didn’t come out right, where emotions got heavy. but even then, there was something underneath those negative things that NEVER broke. . even with everything we’ve been through in these months, something kept pulling me back to you and you back to me every SINGLE time. and bro it’s not even forced, it’s just the heart wanting to be with you again. like no matter what happens, in those moments, we never stop choosing eachother. because everytime we stay & we always work through it. we don’t let go. nd i’m sorry for this sudden break shit, i rlly don’t know whats possessing me saying all that crap to you. even now, i’m still thinking about you. and i really love you, like really, really. i hate that i make it complicated, not me crying rn 💀💀💀pathetic, because i chose it for myself, i still am at loss ☹ i dont even want it anymore ... but guess what there hasn’t been 1 day we didn’t speak to eachother and of course i wouldn’t break that record so yeah here i am writing my heart to you even when you don’t read. i guess it all just happens naturally, because it’s you. overcomplicating everything because i feel everything 50x stringer when you’re involved >:( like even this letter, but i hope you enjoy love <3 but still i love you not just for the good moments, but for all of it. the chaos, the comfort, the silence, the laughs. i love the way you are, the way you talk to me, the way you exist in my life without even trying to be anything other than yourself. i think about all the time we’ve spent together, all those hours that never felt like too much. talking about everything and nothing, staying up way too late, laughing at things no one else would understand. it never felt forced, never felt empty. it was always us, just being us, and somehow that became my favorite place to be. sometimes i wish i could explain to you exactly how much you mean to me, but it’s deeper than words. what we have isn’t loud in the way people expect love to be. it’s not about grand things or perfect moments. it’s in the hours we lose together without noticing. it’s in the way time bends when it’s just us. it’s in the small things that would mean nothing to anyone else but feel like everything to me. it’s in every little habit we have, every inside joke, every moment that’s just ours. no one else would get it, and that’s what makes it so special. you’re not just someone i love. you’re my place, my home, my comfort. my person in a world that feels too big sometimes. like standing under a sky that feels too big but still somehow feels like home. like something i feel in my chest before i can even put it into words. and even with all the distance, even with everything that makes this harder than it should be, though it’s sad i can’t be there with you for this anniversary, but it doesn’t change what this means to me. if anything, it makes me feel it even deeper. because what we have isn’t about being in the same place, it’s about how close you are to me in every way that matters. i still feel you in my days, in my thoughts, in everything i do. distance doesn’t take that away 😊!! even if i can’t stand next to you right now, my heart is still with you, like it always is, like it always will be. so i don’t care about the distance or how things look to anyone else for example some noob friend, nobody can change my mind on how i feel about you and i’ll let anyone know who wants to hear it. what we have is real to me. you are real to me. i’ve never once felt like you weren’t real to me. if anything, you feel more real than things i can touch. this 4th month isn’t just time passing or just a number. it’s a collection of moments that turned into something meaningful. it’s proof. it’s the proof that what we have didn’t just stay a passing feeling, it grew. quietly, deeply, in its own way. and i love that it grew with you. and we didn’t even notice that it’s alrdy 119 DAYS long. i wouldn’t want to miss any anniversary, NEVEREVER. and if i could, and i would choose US & YOU again and again and FOREVER. in every version of ALL the possible WORLDS <3 nd ofc i don’t know exactly what the future looks like for us, but i do know that i want you in it. i want more memories, more conversations, more moments where it’s just us being us. No matter how far apart we are, you still feel one of the closest to my heart. so yeah, happy anniversary my love <3, my blacka, my jaan, my shammas. thank you for being mine, and letting me be yours. you’re the just my forever i didn’t know i could find. thank you for being you. thank you for staying, for caring, for making me feel the way i do, in good and fragile. i’m really, really grateful for you. let’s aim for 690 anniversaries atleast <3

Im sorry. We have been with eachother since we I was 13 and you were 14, Now you are about to be 18 and me 17. When I first met you I never had a boyfriend before and you were going through a hard breakup from a toxic ex. I used to be innocent and so in love. I wanted to help you, and show you Im not like the girls that broke your heart, and I knew it would be hard with you. Your last relationship made things hard for you, bigger trust problems, and you just not beign fully there for me. We were young but I was so desperatley in love with you. As time went by you cheated on me a couple weeks in, I couldnt understand how you can cheat on me. All I did was show you my love and stick with you through the hardest times. I took you back. As time went by my feelings and emotions relied on you. Like i was obsessed with you. And I as. Youd always threaten to leave me on little things like if i fell asleep on you. Every time we fought or id think youd leave me i would freak out so bad. Until one day I had a full blown panic attack after you blocked me and told me mean such mean names and said youd never be with me again. That night my parents fund out what was really going on in our relationship. Instead of them listening to me, they took my phone and banned me from you. I grew desperate and snuk around to see you, we broke up pubicly in may and never got back together in fear of my parents finding out. But we were still dating eachother. I snuck out to see you, and got caught. That was the worst trouble ive ever gotten in. Finally I get my phone back after we havent had contact in a good while. I told you i coudlt be with you because I was afraid to be in that kinda of trouble again instead on listening to myself and my own feelings. I ended up adding you back and winning you over again which im happy you came back. But things ere hard for me, after so long i started to dee you change for the better just for me. You started treating me so good. I met this other guy. He did the same sport of me but i never notcued him before, he added me on snap and honestly my parents kinda introduced me to him. Before i could even see who this guy really was, hed buy me flowers, and i barely knew him. He bought me whatever i wanted and seemed intrest and care for me. I was still talking to my baby. I was cheating on him. I felt pressured from all the gifts hed buy and my parents on my shoulders, i lost privaleges after sneaking out, but when i met the new guy my parents gave me my trust back because they thought there waso way i could still love you. I treated the new guy like shit. I never hung out or texted him. Eventully you found out, and i never felt more regret and fear of losing you. I ruined us. My selfiness ruined us. As soon as you started to change i ruined us. And for that i will forever be sorry baby.

hi, how r u?

Hi beb, I was very thankful to god I met you, I know na hindi madaling piliin ka, kasi mahal ko pa talaga siya, sorry I lied to you, since day 1, mahal ko pa talaga siya, I wrote this letter for you para palaman mo na “ayokong mapunta ka sakin kasi una palang complicated na tayo”, when the time goes complicated sa family ko, sa family mo, sa friends ko, sa friends mo, sa’kin at sayo, naisip ko na lahat at napagplanuhan ko na, na I’ll confess all of my doubts about you, sorry kung nag sinungaling ako una palang, kasi based on your posts, stories, reposts and etc. alam ko na hindi ako sapat para sayo, sa family mo din kasi complicated na agad tayo, halos parang kilala lang ng magulang mo yung naunang babae sa buhay mo, We’re not adults para pag planuhan ang lahat that time, Number 1 lied ko to you is yung panahong mahal ko pa siya pero you came in my life and introduced yourself and I lied na gusto rin kita, I hope your doing well bebi, oo when the time goes natutunan kitang mahalin pero may masakit eh, na parang may kulang talaga kapag sinasabi mong mahal moko at mahal rin kita, when the time I told you na alam ko naman na lahat, kasi that time selos na selos nako sa mga bff’s mong babae, na sila nakakasama mo kasi walang nagiging issue, na sila na kakabonding mo tapos ako hindi, pero sabi ko okay lang kapag nag bonding kasi tayo bibigat lang ang loob ko kasi alam ko na may ginagawa akong mali ‘na mahalin ka habang mahal ko pa yung nauna’, yes hindi naging kami in the end, hindi ko rin napaliwanag sayo kung ano ba talaga tayo, we get deja vu as always, nagawa na namin yan uulitin lang natin, anyways ang cute ng picture niyo ng sister ko noh hahaha, I’m really sorry it was my fault. Sana mahanap mo yung babaeng para sayo, continue living with god, hanapin mo rin yung babaeng mas mahalaga ang ama kaysa sayo kasi alam kong mas mamahalin ka niya ng buong buo kaysa sa ibang tao, continue achieving your goals in life baby ko, maybe this is not a goodbye but a see you around with your woman and my man, free to ask me go on date but as your girl best friend not your girlfriend, siguro panahon na para sabihing MINAHAL RIN KITA KASO HULI NA, I’ll be your support system always, I’ll be the number one fan on your life, I love you so much!! ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹