I miss you

Yestoo ramroo smile huda huda runu hunna ni malkin , stay smile in and im sorry malking you sadd . I didn't meant it sachii mei ❤️...... maafi pam , wont repeat it from nowwww

I am sorry. I never meant for this to happen. I am so sorry. I hated myself for doing what we did to us, I couldn't look myself in the eyes for what I was to tell you -what i told you that day- I am sorry. I still feel home with you. It cut me to write you didn't feel home. I have my own reasons. I am sorry I did it at such a crucial time in your life, no amount of 'sorry' will ever ease the guilt I feel. I miss you, god i miss you so much. I hated doing it. I am helpless, my hand being forced into someone elses. It would have hurt you more to like me and think I had to go to someone else when I told you I would be yours. I think it would hurt you less and enrage you more to think I did not understand your point of view. Love tears you apart but rage keeps you breathing. Rage makes you feel alive and I want you to be alive. I want you to go around and experience everything. The sunsets and the sunrise and everything in between. I hope you go long way. Hope your find a family of your own in someone, and when you do, I hope it works in your favour for you deserve all the happiness in the world. Had it been in my hands, I would have fought tooth and nail to be with you, but it's not. I miss you with each breathing gulp of air and I... I think this is how love feels. -rawr

antes eu não tinha certeza do que eu sentia por você, sei que o nosso passado é meio vergonhoso e que você não gostava de mim no passado, mas mais umavez nós nos encontramos, mais maduros e bem mais diferentes. Sei que foi coisa de Deus nós nos encontrarmos, pois frequentamos a mesma escola denovo, na mesma academia e por pouco quase moramos do lado um do outro. Sei que começo desse ano eu te magoei e também me lembro de quando você me rejeitou mas agora isso é passado, quando tô com você, eu posso falar de qualquer coisa, posso ser quem eu sou, eu dou risada, conversamos sobre tudo mas ainda sim ainda tenho vergonha de olhar nos seus olhos, de olhar pra você, abraçar você, porque sinceramente é muito difícil de acreditar que nós nos encontramos e nos amamos, eu quero que isso dure, quero ficar perto de você todos os dias. Gosto de como você é atencioso, de como cuida de mim, gosto do seu cabelo e dos seus olhos e de como me protege, gosto de como você sabe tudo sobre mim, gosto de como você é compreensivo e de como e um ótimo filho, um ótimo amigo e um ótimo pretendente pra mim. Gosto de estar com você e trocar cada palavra com você, gosto de como é fiel e de como eu posso confiar em você, gosto de como você me faz querer melhorar todos os dias e por fim mas não menos importante eu gosto de você. Você me completa, nossas personalidades são meio opostas mas somos tão parecidos em tudo. Eu não quero que isso acabe, eu nunca pensei que falaria isso mas eu te amo mesmo, eu não queria me apegar. Eu sei que você já teve um relacionamento passado mas porfavor não se lembre mais dela e nem se apaixone por outra pessoa, porfavor olha pra mim e investe em mim, se você não sabe, eu sempre gostei de você mesmo quando fui rejeitada, você foi meu PRIMEIRO AMOR, então porfavor, deixe eu ser pelo menos o seu primeiro AMOR. Eu nunca vou desistir de você, porfavor não muda de opinião e que continue gostando de mim, por que arthur, eu te amo muito e espero que fiquemos juntos até o final de nossas vidas. Que nossos pais aprovem o nosso namoro e depois o casamento, que façamos tudo certo, que nos casemos em uma igreja evangelica bem bonita e que tenhamos 4 filhos, 2 meninos e 2 meninas e um cachorro. E que você possa ser advogado e eu uma médica, que moremos numa casa grande bem bonita e moderna, que nós façamos várias viagens e que nossos pais sejam amigos e os melhores sogros e sogras possíveis. Que nós vivamos uma vida com Deus constante r que sejamos muito felizes e fiéis um ao outro e à Deus, e que nós possamos viver ao lado um do outro até o final das nossas vidas, eu te amo muito mesmo.

Dear, Paul. I still miss you sometimes. Especially when the room is cold, and our bed is empty. I know you wanted it to work out. I found the letters, the ones you stored away in the attic. I still love you. I still have dreams of us getting married, settling down and moving to the countryside. Having children, our children having grandchildren. I want you back beside me. And yet I don't think we'll be able to be together. You are my soulmate, Paul. Forever. Even if the stars forbid it, I will always love you. Always and forever. You and Me. You know where to find me don't you? I love you, forever - J

I still miss you after all these years. B

I'm so sorry for being such a bad "friend". We could've been more. I'm sorry that I didn't try enough. I miss you, but it's too late to go back to what we used to be. I hope you have a good life.

i hate the fact that i dont hate you. i hate that ur the only one that understands me. i hate this. i hate me. i hate how i couldnt save us. you thought i could save us and im so fucking sorry. its all my fault. i wanted to, i was trying. but i couldnt. so fucking caught up in my feelings its all my fault. come back to me sweet girl. please. i miss saying i love you to you. you were the most important person in my life. i genuinely wanna end my shit i feel so horrible. everytime i think of you i want to throw up, not from disgust, from how much i miss you. its so fucking insane. what do you mean i still love you. i should hate you, really. you should hate me. maybe itd be better off that way..or not. i never want to lose something so precious. i hate this so fucking much. i hate remembering every single memory we have made together. i miss everything. maybe i should try and push those thoughts down. i try actually. but it doesnt work? they always come up. ur the first thing on my mind, its horrible. im horrible. i love you even tho i shouldnt. i wish i loved you less. i wish you cared…you do. im sorry baby. my sweet baby. i miss you so much. i miss saying these things. maybe i should let stuff like this out more often. its not really helping tho. i feel so shitty. kill me omfg. i really hate the fact ur the only one i have. i hate it. i wish we could go back. i want to go back. take me back baby. please. id do anything. id fix myself up for you. id be normal. id video call u like u have always wanted. i shouldve done it. omg its all my fault, sweet girl im so sorry. idk why i still text you (lie). tf no ones gonna see this. i wish we were back together. it was too much pressure on you to love me i know. sorry. its all my fault.

i miss you so much and you did me so dirty but i still want you and it hurts that i look like a bird i don't even know if you even liked me or wanted me in the slightest way but it was your desition that wasn't the same as mine.

To My Huckleberry Friend, It's middle of the night, I'm debating on whether I should make myself a cup of black coffee or just let the insomnia speak for itself. Frank Sinatra playing on my laptop. "I'm A Fool To Want You" and exactly what I feel like right now. Foolish because I'm uncertain if you even exist. I'm not sure which is scarier, the thought of you existing yet never getting to meet you or you not existing at all. Perhaps both. God, I sound like a lovesick teenager. Which is quite ironic being an aromantic. I finished reading The Brothers Karamazov the other day, I was wondering if you have read it too. Perhaps you even carry a better cover than mine. It is getting quite weird to watch Roman Holiday all alone every other weekend. I wonder if you like vintage films as well. I'm quite fond of Gary Cooper. My favorite is "Now and Forever", I know no one asked. I'm also very fond of an ridiculously foolish early 2000s movie pair, Jenna Rink & Matt Flamhaff. Furthermore, I was recently reading a book on cellular & molecular neuroscience, it's a fascinating read. I hope to read with you somebody over coffee. It is foolish to want something that I'm uncertain of, I yearn, pray for someone who I'm not sure or aware of. Someone who I can share the quiet with. Who's patient enough to deal with my ridiculous ramblings. Maybe I'm indeed insane. Yet despite all these thoughts of not seeing you, a tiny part still wishes that you exist and to meet you. To fume over you for making me suffer. I feel stupid enough to publish this because I want to yell out my feelings, I'm unable to. Yours, Rosie

I want you to come back. I miss you. I miss our late nights, our long talks about nothing, our moments that no one understands but us. I want to hug you again, to kiss you hello again, to see you climb through my window again. I wish you’d just say something. You know I’d let you back in. We’re just scared

Idk if you will receive this message one day or not. I just want to say that I wish I had never met you , though I still miss everything we had. I still miss us i miss everything kiss , every laugh , and I still remember how you used to kiss my forehead . I have one question . Why ? Why her not me ? If she was your first love and couldn't move on , Why did you choose me ? And when you couldn't move on you went back to her . I mean it's your choice , but what the hurting for? Why saying that I'm the bad person for texting her and telling her that we are dating? Like tf ! And why telling every friend you have about our sexual life ? Be for real tho YOU ARE THE WORST PERSON TO EVER EXIST IN MY LIFE EVEN WORST THEN MY DAD . I hate you , but I still love the person you used to be , I miss my baby 7moudy , but I hate Mohamed . funny cuz they're all the same person , but different personalities At the end I truly loved you and I don't think that I'll ever trust anyone the way i trusted you cuz look at how it ended . I still listen to every song you gave me , but yk what I'll be over you one day and that will be the most painful thing to ever happen to me cuz I had to get over the only person I loved the most . Bye my sweet angel and btw I'll never forget your beautiful brown eyes . I prayed so much to have a child that has your eyes but that's fine not everything we want we get .

Dear Rachel, I know things are getting more difficult now. But please always remember that my FA is truly FA. Think of the days when you were my ‘Dr.’ and I, your test subject. The day when we said we’re “officially stuck with each other”. The day when you said “we’re in deep sh*t”, and I responded with “yep, Mariana Trench deep”. The day I promised to take good care of your broken heart and to always keep it healed. Remember that animation you sent me? I hope you do, because it always plays in my head. And then the stories & statuses, the shared playlists, and our promises. No matter how difficult things might get in the future, the risks, the conflicts, we will get through them together, love. You are my heart and soul. You are my life. IMYSM, ILYSM, Rachel. FA, M

Hi matt, it's been one month since our last conversation. andami kong mga hindi nasabi sayo, di ko din kase alam kung saan ko uumpisahan, siguro mag umpisa muna tayo dun sa part na naging sobrang saya ko kase nakilala kita. God know how I want you to be my last, kase habang kinekwento mo yung mga ginawa sayo ng ex mo dun pumasok sa isip ko na mas mahalin ka pa lalo, naaalala mo yung gabi kila jules? that night. i promised to love you even better, i promised to hold you like a fragile glass. gusto kong patunayan sayo na hindi ako katulad nila. pero ayon pala yung magiging pinaka maling ginawa ko sa buhay ko, kase hindi mo pala nararamdaman yon. hindi mo pala ramdam kung gaano kita gustong ingatan, the first time that i found out that you cheated. my world came crashing down. pero i didnt give up. inisip ko nalang na baka may pagkukulang ako, so i still forgive you.but then you destroyed my trust again and again. naubos lang yung pasensya ko nung nakipagkita ka sa babae na yon. at oo aaminin ko naimplwesyahan ako ng mga friends ko. hindi ko naman dapat gagawin yon e at alam kong hindi ko dapat ginawa yon. but then naisip ko na baka pag nagcheat ako makita mo na yung mga mali mo, and i wasn't wrong kase dun mo lang din nakita yung halaga ko... nagsorry ako sayo non and thankyou for forgiving me that time. pero hindi ko alam na dun din pala ako masisira. kase oo nga pinatawad moko but I suffered from all your hurtful words, accusations, and manipulation i guess? that time iniisip ko na dapat ko lang tanggapin yon kase may kasalanan ako sayo at nasaktan kita. dahil don nakalimutan ko na kaya lang din pala kita nasaktan kase sinira mo yung tiwala ko. tbh you ruined my perspective of love, and thats the saddest thing kase sayo ko naranasan yung mga happy memories ko... all that night rides, tambay, meet up after class and meeting your mom. hahahhahaha nonsense din siguro toh kase di mo din naman mababasa taena tama na nga fuck this.

How do I tell you you're my first love? You've been my best friend since childhood, so how could I possibly tell you that our friendship has most definitely always been one sided? I've always known im gay, it's not something I've always been in terms with, I always hid it, kind of ashamed of what it could mean for my family. We went to school together but we never spoke, so when i saw you at my cousin's wedding, you came up to me and my cousin and spoke to us, i was nervous for no absolute reason, but we became close and we ran around, we had fun, but that was it. I moved away, miles away and I thought of you all the time, but eventually I got back to the real world and buried you deep in my heart. and just like that fate brought us back to each other. i met you again in my dugsi (quran school), i recognized you in an instant but we didn't talk, we made eye contant a lot of times, you always kept staring, but then again you looked at everyone, i wasn't special. We met again, but in school this time. We were in different classes, but same year. I was new to town and to the school, everyone already knew each other and I felt so out of place, I cried every day in the bathroom, I missed my old place, where I knew everyone for years and was well loved, i missed it. my loneliness didnt last long, thankfully. i sat alone, in the corridors, everyone was at lunch and i was an*rexic at the time, being new and no friends made it even worse. but you approached me, i tried pretending i didnt see you, i looked down at my phone, my heart was at my throat and i felt nauseous because of how nervous i was, but you came up to me, smiling so brightly i felt the world stopping, everything i always saw in my silly kdramas. you said "aren't you the girl in my dugsi?" I didn't stutter, if there's one thing I'm good at, it's pretending. i smiled and said "yeah, i have seen you", we smiled and chuckled and she asked if i wanted to take a walk, we walked and then sat down and talked the whole lunch break. I was screaming inside, I couldn't believe you were talking to me. we became friends instantly after that, there was no way i was letting you go after the universe gave you back to me. you introduced me to your other friends, and through you I reunited with my childhood best friends (still my best friend till today). she was the first person I came out to, using another girl's name, like I always did back then. I used different kids in our school to try and get over you, boys and girls, anyone, but nothing worked. I could never fall in love with anyone else (even till today). I love you so incredibly much, I am willing to wait till you can see me as a potential, I believe we are the right choice for each other, I truly do. I know your type, I know I'm not it, but I believe I could be, I’m gonna do everything I can, I will do everything I can to be the one for you. The universe would not give you to me time and time again just for us to not be each other’s soulmates. And if we are not, if you find someone who you love and loves you, I will always be your best friend, I will support you full heartedly, I mean it. i know im your number one, im your best friend after all but when you look at me, hug me or simply touch me, I don't see you as a friend, I never did. I try hard to meet new people, I go out on dates, I go from talking stage to talking stage, but none feels real. I pull away the moment someone shows any real interest in me, I always thought I was avoidant, or just scared of intimacy, until I realised that I’ve just always wanted you. Knowing you is and will forever be the greatest thing to have happened to me. I don't even want to imagine a life without you, I don't ever want to lose you, just the thought of it brings me to tears. Every part of my life is touched by you, this city, my heart, my future and thoughts, mind, everything I am is because of you. I was so ready to give up and give in and you held my hand through it all, you didn’t question, you were you, your kind, thoughtful, mindful, and beautiful self, I am forever thankful and grateful to you. I am so thankful to have grown up beside you. 13 years of us. Fifi and Safi. two peas in a pod. Whether it is us as an end game or us as bridesmaids for each other, I still do, and will always want you in my life. i love you.

Happyyy Boyfriend’s Dayyyy MyyyKunjjuuuuu🥺🥺🥺🥺💋💋💋💋 Illoovveeyoouuhhhssoossooommuucchhh🥺🥺no matterr how muchh wee fight orr arguee, I could nevrr stopp lovvinng youu😭 i just want us to bee enough for each other and I don’t want anyone else to come btw uss😔🫂🫂 I want it to always be you and me🥺👉🏻👈🏻togetherrr no mattr whatt happens ill neverr leavee uu and ill always bee here for you😌🫀 andd uu bitchhh pleasee send mee your vdeos and photos😭 i realyy miss getting random snaps frm yuu😔💔 ig u hatee mee😔💔💔💔💔 yuu havee noo ideaa how happyy itt makess mee🥺😔 just spamm mee bitchh gotit?😔 soo byyee guyyss mmwuuahhh illovveyouhhsoososmuuchh heheeh🥺🫀💋

I’ve done the worst you could ever imagine of I know. I don’t know what led me to do that I’ve ruined so much Our friendships Our future Our mental health I’m so so sorry for what I’ve done to you two

i'm like totally sure that you'll never be able to find this website LMAO so i'll write to you here. i think about your wellbeing a lot, and i'm very curious about your current daily life and whether your habits have changed or not since the last time i was present in your life. i guess what i'm trying to say is that i miss you, and i hope you're happy, always. also, it's 3 days until your birthday so yay! i want to gift you stuff but i'm scared that you'll find it weird or awkward, so maybe an early text is fine. if i ever do send you a text, will you text back? maybe a thank you, or a confused msg questioning my remembering your birthday? because i would very much want to talk to you, i miss your voice, or in this case, your texts, i think. idk what i'm saying. anyways luv you so so much and check SendTheSong and the Unsent Project if you happen to stumble upon this one teehee. from nanh, obviously (*ˊᗜˋ*) baibaibaiabiababaibaiabaiabiabaiavaiabuabaiabauabaiabaiii (you used to do this)

“A Girl Made for the Sky” You dreamed of skies so vast and blue, While I dreamed of a life with you. You wished for wings to take you high, I wished you’d never say goodbye. Someday, you’ll fly where stars reside, With distant worlds on either side. And I’ll be here, beneath the same sky, Loving the girl who learned to fly. I hope the clouds will treat you kind, And bring you peace you couldn’t find. Though I was never your final view, I’ll always wish the skies for you. You were born to fly, my dear, I just wished you’d stayed a little here. With love, from the girl you left beneath the same sky. .- .-.. . -..- . ..

If you came back, I’d take you. I still don’t know what was real or if we had the real thing. I wish I could have gotten the chance to know.

Tu handle kar le gi ha tu strong hai tu bolti hai na main kar lungi akele par sach yeh hai tu thak gayi hai andar se being a strong one again and again ab tu naraz hoti hai khud mann jati hai ha roti bhi hai akele main Weak nahi dikhna na tujhe baat baat pe duniya ko explanation nahi deni apni. Baar baar pe bolti hai ki theek hai. Because tujhe asa lagta hai tari baaton ko samajhne ke liye na kisi ke paas waqt hi nahi hai. Aur na hi tare paas wo vishwas ha , apni baaton ko samjhaane ka, Log tare strong hone ki tareef karte hai na yehi hai lekin tari andar ki thakaan ka na koi mention nai karta Baar baar strong banna na shayad ek majboori si ban gayi hai tare liye abhi. And I think ki har strong ladki ki na ek aisi side hai jo shayad hi kabhi duniya wale samajh paayenge ya shayad hi kabhi duniya wale dekh paayenge. Par main hun tare sath yeh sab akele karne ki koi zarurat nai hai tanvi bhot kuch fucked up ho jata hai ladai main iska yeh matlab nai hai ki voh permanent kharb hua hai nai do no side se hurted hote hai isliye ho jata hai iski wajha se tum Ase karo ye cheeze chupa do ge 3 months se tune mujh se sab chupa liya ha kyu ko ki 3 months se kisi na kisi cheez par kuch ho rha nai maat kar plss yrr