To my ex

i hate the fact that i dont hate you. i hate that ur the only one that understands me. i hate this. i hate me. i hate how i couldnt save us. you thought i could save us and im so fucking sorry. its all my fault. i wanted to, i was trying. but i couldnt. so fucking caught up in my feelings its all my fault. come back to me sweet girl. please. i miss saying i love you to you. you were the most important person in my life. i genuinely wanna end my shit i feel so horrible. everytime i think of you i want to throw up, not from disgust, from how much i miss you. its so fucking insane. what do you mean i still love you. i should hate you, really. you should hate me. maybe itd be better off that way..or not. i never want to lose something so precious. i hate this so fucking much. i hate remembering every single memory we have made together. i miss everything. maybe i should try and push those thoughts down. i try actually. but it doesnt work? they always come up. ur the first thing on my mind, its horrible. im horrible. i love you even tho i shouldnt. i wish i loved you less. i wish you cared…you do. im sorry baby. my sweet baby. i miss you so much. i miss saying these things. maybe i should let stuff like this out more often. its not really helping tho. i feel so shitty. kill me omfg. i really hate the fact ur the only one i have. i hate it. i wish we could go back. i want to go back. take me back baby. please. id do anything. id fix myself up for you. id be normal. id video call u like u have always wanted. i shouldve done it. omg its all my fault, sweet girl im so sorry. idk why i still text you (lie). tf no ones gonna see this. i wish we were back together. it was too much pressure on you to love me i know. sorry. its all my fault.

i miss you so much and you did me so dirty but i still want you and it hurts that i look like a bird i don't even know if you even liked me or wanted me in the slightest way but it was your desition that wasn't the same as mine.

i need closure asap, text me on november 29

Idk if you will receive this message one day or not. I just want to say that I wish I had never met you , though I still miss everything we had. I still miss us i miss everything kiss , every laugh , and I still remember how you used to kiss my forehead . I have one question . Why ? Why her not me ? If she was your first love and couldn't move on , Why did you choose me ? And when you couldn't move on you went back to her . I mean it's your choice , but what the hurting for? Why saying that I'm the bad person for texting her and telling her that we are dating? Like tf ! And why telling every friend you have about our sexual life ? Be for real tho YOU ARE THE WORST PERSON TO EVER EXIST IN MY LIFE EVEN WORST THEN MY DAD . I hate you , but I still love the person you used to be , I miss my baby 7moudy , but I hate Mohamed . funny cuz they're all the same person , but different personalities At the end I truly loved you and I don't think that I'll ever trust anyone the way i trusted you cuz look at how it ended . I still listen to every song you gave me , but yk what I'll be over you one day and that will be the most painful thing to ever happen to me cuz I had to get over the only person I loved the most . Bye my sweet angel and btw I'll never forget your beautiful brown eyes . I prayed so much to have a child that has your eyes but that's fine not everything we want we get .

Hi matt, it's been one month since our last conversation. andami kong mga hindi nasabi sayo, di ko din kase alam kung saan ko uumpisahan, siguro mag umpisa muna tayo dun sa part na naging sobrang saya ko kase nakilala kita. God know how I want you to be my last, kase habang kinekwento mo yung mga ginawa sayo ng ex mo dun pumasok sa isip ko na mas mahalin ka pa lalo, naaalala mo yung gabi kila jules? that night. i promised to love you even better, i promised to hold you like a fragile glass. gusto kong patunayan sayo na hindi ako katulad nila. pero ayon pala yung magiging pinaka maling ginawa ko sa buhay ko, kase hindi mo pala nararamdaman yon. hindi mo pala ramdam kung gaano kita gustong ingatan, the first time that i found out that you cheated. my world came crashing down. pero i didnt give up. inisip ko nalang na baka may pagkukulang ako, so i still forgive you.but then you destroyed my trust again and again. naubos lang yung pasensya ko nung nakipagkita ka sa babae na yon. at oo aaminin ko naimplwesyahan ako ng mga friends ko. hindi ko naman dapat gagawin yon e at alam kong hindi ko dapat ginawa yon. but then naisip ko na baka pag nagcheat ako makita mo na yung mga mali mo, and i wasn't wrong kase dun mo lang din nakita yung halaga ko... nagsorry ako sayo non and thankyou for forgiving me that time. pero hindi ko alam na dun din pala ako masisira. kase oo nga pinatawad moko but I suffered from all your hurtful words, accusations, and manipulation i guess? that time iniisip ko na dapat ko lang tanggapin yon kase may kasalanan ako sayo at nasaktan kita. dahil don nakalimutan ko na kaya lang din pala kita nasaktan kase sinira mo yung tiwala ko. tbh you ruined my perspective of love, and thats the saddest thing kase sayo ko naranasan yung mga happy memories ko... all that night rides, tambay, meet up after class and meeting your mom. hahahhahaha nonsense din siguro toh kase di mo din naman mababasa taena tama na nga fuck this.

“A Girl Made for the Sky” You dreamed of skies so vast and blue, While I dreamed of a life with you. You wished for wings to take you high, I wished you’d never say goodbye. Someday, you’ll fly where stars reside, With distant worlds on either side. And I’ll be here, beneath the same sky, Loving the girl who learned to fly. I hope the clouds will treat you kind, And bring you peace you couldn’t find. Though I was never your final view, I’ll always wish the skies for you. You were born to fly, my dear, I just wished you’d stayed a little here. With love, from the girl you left beneath the same sky. .- .-.. . -..- . ..

If you came back, I’d take you. I still don’t know what was real or if we had the real thing. I wish I could have gotten the chance to know.

I’m sorry I broke things off bunny. I miss you so much it hurts. I feel like I can’t breathe without you RJ. I miss you every second babi. I feel nauseous just thinking about you not wanting to talk to me anymore. I can’t forget the memories we made together. I will wait and I hope you still love me and I hope we can see each other again . I love you my sweet Babi, you pinky promised you’d marry me. Please come back

i love you

yar bhout miss kar rah hu tumhe birthday bhi chala gya tera fhir bhi tera call nh aya tera number bhi he sb kuch he bs call hi nh kar skta bhout yaad ati he teri jab se tu gyi he acha nh lagta he kuch bas kosish karta hu khush rhe ne ki or tujhe bhulane ki but bhul hi nh para hu i miss you soooo much pragati i cant process abhi tak ke hum ab sath nhi he i hope u are doing so well in your life you know what 25 sep ko mein bhout roya i thought tera call aye ga coz us din hume mile hue pure 2 sal ho gye the but us din bhi nh aya its hard to forget u why u leave me like this aaa jao na pragati bhout hua ab aa jao na nhi ho rah muj se im writing this mess i know tu kabhi nhi padh paye gi yeh but i loveuuuuu sooo much prag tum jha bhi ho jesi bhi ho khush rhao i just want tum khush ho that enough for me i dont know why iam waiting for your call daily why i checked my phone syd uska call aya ho par ata hi nh he

This girl likes me, but you gave me another chance in my dreams, it was so real, I wish it was. I'm ready to give it all up for you, let us try this again, I see you everywhere I go and I wish you were still mine. Please don't make fun of this with anyone, I never truly loved anyone as much as I loved you and it will never fade away, as much as I tried to forget our story, it persists.

I will never stop loving you, my one and only.

it’s 5am in the morning and my thoughts are running.. i remember every picture of you smiling and laughing. im not sure how stupid i can get to fall for you. though, i am grateful, you have saved me from the depths of depression during that time we were together. short, but those were real. my feeling and care for you are genuine.. i wished we could have extend those days. i did what i can for you to stay. however, i have foreseen that you will walk on a different path someday. it just did not pop into my head that it will be sooner.. i am still cheering for your happiness and good fortune. i miss you so much amo!

Hi, moshie. You probably won't know who this is. But I miss you so much. Ever since our break up I never stopped thinking about you. How Ironic. I was the one who gave up on us but I'm also the one who can't seem to move forward. I accidentally saw you. You looked so happy. While me, I'm barely holding on. I didn't want to end us there. But the situation was just not right. I never wanted us to separate, believe me. Now, I just wish you all the happiness, Moshie. Back then, when we first met on Roblox. I never thought we'd be more than friends. I thought we'd just play, talk and that's it. And back when we also played MLBB, gosh that was so embarrassing. I was pretty new that time. You could probably tell on the way I play. I was never trully honest with you, Vien. And maybe that's what pushed me to make that decision. You're too good for me. You told me everything about you. And me? I just told you what I wanted you to know. I still love you even after the day we broke up, 2022 I think? And you reached out to me back in 2023. But yeah, I said something stupid, which is not true. I miss you so much, Vienne. I'm confident you won't see this, hehe. – FINN

I love you, so much. I hope you know how much you mean to me, No matter what happens when you're in New York. Ill be here waiting. Like I said I would. Ill always Wait for you darling. Wear your seatbelt. Much Love -Dance

I ruined us twice and I'm sorry, I miss you, As both a friend and partner, but I understand why you would want distance, So I'm being far away as possible, I'll just listen to the playlist you made me. Take care and I love you.

Im so sorry but i love you so

Ashtyn, if only you truly knew just how much I love you. It’s bigger than I can ever put into words and it hasn’t faded even a little bit. I miss you every single day and every moment, more than you will ever fully understand. I’m so deeply sorry I hurt you when I was still broken and unhealed inside. I know that pain made me act wrong and I didn’t treat you with the kindness, care and love you deserved every single day. I will always regret that more than anything. I miss your laugh that could light up every room, your beautiful smile that meant everything to me, your terrible silly jokes that I’d pretend to hate but actually loved so much. I miss every little thing about you and every part of who you are. I want to reach out and I want to be close to you again more than anything. But I need to know you still want me there too and that there’s still a place for me in your heart. Because no matter what happened, I still love you fully, truly and completely and I always will.

The more time that goes past, the more time I wonder. My life is everything I ever imagined, everything I dreamed of. So why does it feel you're missing? Two years it's been since i've seen you. The biggest heartbreak of my life having to let you go. Fly across the world to filful your dreams. I never thought that loving you would've made me lose myself in the process, who would've thought that loving you more than myself was only hurting me. Without you I have grown, I am the best version of myself emotionally and mentally. I thrive in my life, but why do I wish you were still in it? I want to know about yours and how you are doing. I want to reach out and tell you I miss you. Not our relationship, I miss you. I miss my best friend, who understood me when I didn't even get myself. On the same wavelength when it came to our opinions on stuff, but also on completely opposite ends too. I miss arguing with you. Isn't that crazy? I don't argue with anyone in my life now. Do I just miss someone fighting for me enough? I miss your laugh and the way you looked at me. I always wonder what you would do if you saw me today. I wonder how you feel and most of all I wonder how I would feel. Two years has passed, I thought about you every month, became every week to now everyday. Is this just my karma for how I left things? All the resentment and anger I held towards you and leaving me here alone, I was broken. You were the love of my life and still my boyfriend, but across the world for ten months. It was the hardest thing in my life I have ever had to deal with and I wonder if it was the same for you. One thing I know, if you came back for Christmas, we would have made it through. I wonder about that from time to time and maybe you do too. My mind wanders, it always wanders back to you, I do still love you, what I have come to realise in the last couple of months but dropping my whole life for you would never be an option again. I have built myself from the bottom, I have a stable job, friendships which I've never had before and a stable/ healthy relationship. I miss you and I love you, if I could go back in time to our relationship I would, but I wish we had the personalities and attitudes towards life that we do now. Maybe growing separately was the thing we needed. I hope you are happy in your current life and reaching all your goals. I hope your relationship is happy, hopefully she loves you even just a quarter of the amount I did. I've never loved anybody in my life like I did you, never will I again. One thing I know for sure, in every other life. You are my soulmate. But in this one, I had to choose myself.

To my dearest, happy birthday! Even in silence, I hope you can always feel the warmth of every prayer I send your way. Wishing you the gentlest, happiest, and most comforting year ahead. Seeing one of your biggest dreams finally come true... stepping into that new world and braving all the tough steps makes me so endlessly proud of you. I hope every other dream you carry will gradually unfold and come true, too. The days might be intense and tiring, but I know how strong you are. May God always protect your steps, wrap you in strength, and keep you safe. :) Even from 294 km away, and even with everything that has changed between us, please know that I will always keep wishing you godspeed from afar. Thank you for being such a meaningful part of my life. Happy birthday to my absolute favorite person, always.