Ashtyn, if only you truly knew just how much I love you. It’s bigger than I can ever put into words and it hasn’t faded even a little bit. I miss you every single day and every moment, more than you will ever fully understand. I’m so deeply sorry I hurt you when I was still broken and unhealed inside. I know that pain made me act wrong and I didn’t treat you with the kindness, care and love you deserved every single day. I will always regret that more than anything. I miss your laugh that could light up every room, your beautiful smile that meant everything to me, your terrible silly jokes that I’d pretend to hate but actually loved so much. I miss every little thing about you and every part of who you are. I want to reach out and I want to be close to you again more than anything. But I need to know you still want me there too and that there’s still a place for me in your heart. Because no matter what happened, I still love you fully, truly and completely and I always will.