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hi mahal ko, i just want to greet you lang ulit na happy second monthsary satinn :p mahal na mahal kita. thank you for staying here by my side even though sometimes you feel like i’m pushing you away. thank you for loving me loud enough to make me feel how much you love me. thank you for always telling and making me feel that i’m worth loving. im glad kasi it’s you mahal, it’s you the one who’s loving and making me completely. wala na akong iba pang gusto :( kasi sa totoo lang babi sobra sobra pa yung meron akong ikaw eh. im lucky because i have a girlfriend like shaine. everyone deserves shaine in their life and im happy because i have mine. (sana soon talaga makita ko na ikaw so that i can kiss you /hj) this year or maybe next year right after i graduate, diba sabi ko sayo po na gusto kitang puntahan? i meant that kasi i want to hug you so tight and i never want to let go :(. sana rin na palagi akong may babi, and if dumating man yung time na she got tired, sana sakin niya pa rin hanapin yung pahingang minsan niyang naramdaman sakin at hindi mawala kung ano man yung nakita niya sakin para mahalin ako. : ( here lang ako palagi mahal, hindi na ako aalis. hindi na kita iiwan.

I wouldn't mind listening to you yap about stucky for hours on end, if it meant I got to spend time with you. I wouldn't mind getting my teeth intertwined in yours because of your braces, if it meant I got to look in your eyes a little longer. I love you.

To my dearest Bacek, I hope you never get this letter (of me weeping over you lmao) since i love lurking around websites like this. I think this is the best and safest way to let out what i held in my heart without ruining anyone's relationship. I was listening to Honeybee by Olivia Rodrigo, and i guess you can see why AHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA i actually very much hate it when i saw this title in OR's songs lineup. but it caught my heart right away. I pray that you are in the pink of health, landed on some high-paid job somewhere (i hope it's singapore lmao), and i hope you no longer suffer as you did with me (pretty sure you're happy with her, engagement when ? or more like, marriage when? AHHAHA). I don't really hope and i dont ever dare to think I could go back to you, but nah, not when you're living a content life with her already. let's just say if you ever need me, one day, just hit me up. i think you already saved my new number, or did you already delete it? :') anyways, i hope i can talk to you for one last time during our convocation day. see you in october! love you still but gonna bury it deep. :p

beh ba't ka naman nag sabing mag amin na ako na crush taka na pa suba??? T-T likeeee is dis tagaleegggggg???? Pag ako talaga nag confess baad dae kana sako kayan makasuba huhu. stopppppp itttttt i kennttttttt, sayang kang friendship natin. kung maray sana papanindigan, magiging loyal and magiging friend padin if ever mag break, huyyyy, over sa advance. assumerang maray si Regina hay, tanga yarn? Dae mo 'ko pa confess-on kung dae mo din naman ako papanindigan beh, bwiset kaba?

hi besprend, hope you know how hard for me not to ruin the friendship, but fuckkkk!! I really like you and i cant stop myself, kev:( I want to talk to you. always. Pero hindi pwede eh, feel ko kase ayaw mo. I understand naman kase you still love your ex. Mahal na mahal mo siya eh. I yearn for you while you yearn for someone else, and it hurts me alot. I hate it how i love you. I like you since 2024, i regret how i reject and chose someone else than you. I should've chose you and not that asshole. I'll regret it my whole life.

I am so so sorry. I love you so much and i think about you always.

Winter greeted us first. January twenty-fifth. A day like any other— cold skies, quiet streets, the sort of day that slips unnoticed into yesterday. Until your request appeared, and somehow an ordinary afternoon became the beginning of everything. I remember wondering how someone with such bright eyes, an infectious laugh, and seeing monkeys frame her radiant smile could ever be interested in me. Then, almost before I understood what was happening, you joked that if you ever came to Spain, "I'd have to teach you how to cook". I don't think you'll ever know how quickly you made me blush. Spring arrived before the seasons ever changed. Late-night conversations became our sunsets, goodnight messages became our stars, and every notification carried the hope that it might be you. I'd count the hours through school, through training and dance lessons, through ordinary days and naps, just to hear your voice again. I'd never known excitement could feel so much like home. Then came summer. Love grew deeper, but so did the storms. We both carried battles the other couldn't always see. We wanted to heal each other, yet sometimes we only knew how to hold on tighter, accidentally pushing each other further away. Back then, I thought loving someone meant never letting go. Now I know sometimes love also means learning, growing, and finding a gentler way back. When we drifted apart, I tried convincing myself that we'd simply been a first love, a beautiful story that wasn't meant to last. It was easier to believe that than admit how much I missed you. Until I heard your voice again. In a single moment, every feeling I thought I'd buried returned like spring after the longest winter. Slowly, naturally, we found each other again. No rushing. No pretending. Just two people choosing to learn one another once more. Autumn has always been my favourite season. Not because the leaves fall, but because they remind me that change doesn't have to mean endings. Some things become more beautiful because they survive them. I'd replay your voice messages on the days the world felt heavy. You became warmth after rain, the first sunrise breaking through a storm, the quiet comfort of the moon when everything else had fallen silent. You inspire me to become someone better than I was yesterday. You remind me to keep moving forward when standing still feels easier. You make ordinary days extraordinary without ever trying. You're strong You're kind I know it's not always been easy, but I'm so proud of you Mi hogar siempre ha sido donde estás tú. The future is still uncertain. None of us can promise what tomorrow holds. But if these seasons have taught me anything, it's that love isn't measured by perfect days or cloudless skies. It's measured by choosing each other, again and again, through every season we are given. Some people spend a lifetime searching for a love that feels like home. Others never quite find it. I only know one thing for certain. Feliz cumpleaños, mi amor. You'll always be my forever fall.

U love you

Hi and hello —I know this is awkward but I have something to tell you. June 29, 2026, at that day I slowly notices that I gained feelings for you —not basically a "crush" , it's a "happy crush". I don't even know why .. I'm writing this letter to express the feelings buried inside me. You become my motivation and hope sa school lalo na kapag madaming gawain, So in-short motivation kita. I don't need you to like me back, and I'm not forcing you. Hindi na 'ko na nag hintay sa ending of the S.Y para mag confess, gusto ko lang mawala 'to kasi it feels wrong eh. And I know at the end of the story, who's gonna be hurt? Ako diba? So makes no sense at all. And I'm sorry kung maingay o madaldal ako sa chat, Kasi wala makausap sa bahay, wala din makausap online — I'm really sorry. Don't worry hindi naman ako katulad nila Amiel at Allyson na sobra sa pagiging obssesed sa crush / happy crush nila, tapos sasabihin "hulaan mo crush ko" I'm not like that don't worry. I just admire you, and no other further feelings Also I'm not a delulu person, to expect you to like me back, and writing your name to the side of my hand, back of the notebook, I hate that kind of person eihh — it creeps me out:)) And sorry again kung tanong ng tanong ako sa'yo ng assignments and activities, Just tell me kung I'm getting annoying I will stop:) And if may mga actions or words akong nasasabi o nagagawa na hindi mo gusto — just let me know haa. Can you promise me den na sa'tin lang 'tong dalawa? Kasi kapag kumalat gagawan nanaman nila ng issue. And I'm sorry kung na send ko na 'to ng 12 ng gabi:)) Sinadya ko naman talaga para pag ka send ko tulog ka, MWHEHEEHEHHE. Again, thank you for reading my letter and I hope you repect it, And if you're getting uncomfortable I'll make sure na these feelings will vanish.

Hello. it's been 5months since we broke up, and i can't help but to think that napalitan mo kaagad ako ang masakit pa roon yung pinagseselosan ko pa before. after almost 3 years na relation natin asaan ako ron? kapag nag aaway tayo tungkol sakanya asaan ako non? kapal ng mukha mo no ang kapal rin ng mukha ng babae mo. sana maging masaya kayong dalawa at sa babae sana di mo maramdaman kung anong naramdaman ko sana di mo maranasan lahat yun. fuck you kayo.. di nyo deserve ng peace. FUCK YOU!

I am sorry for letting this happen. Who knew all these years we had, just to end up becoming a lazy person who...now slowly giving up on life. You were given so many chances to change, yet we did nothing but be stuck in our little bubble where we think everything is doing alright for us..in reality, we're failing college so badly. Why did I even take Nursing as a person with Social anxiety? Why did I just nod like the good child I am to my parents who said I should take Nursing because of my white skin? Just that? I can't believe I was too dumb to even realize. With how many times I've failed those classes because of my anxiety, I became known at school for failing so much. And I failed my classmates as well, who slowly hated me, and now I'm even scared to go to college because of it. I'm failing everything mama I'm sorry I failed you and I really don't know what to do with my future anymore, my heart says to stop and just get a job but my brain said to finish this college. It's hard to choose whether I should keep up the charades that I've been attending classes so you can "finally have a private nurse in the home"...that sentence is what made me hate nursing. I hate it I just wanna kill myself...but I'm shackled to continue living because of my lover and my friends. Not my family, I do not deserve them anymore. I already made myself useless around them and made sure to stay quiet and use less food/water/electricity so I'm mostly just laying in my bed, slowly rotting. May I burn in hell for being lazy pero atleast alam ko sa ginastos sakin para mag-aral, mga damit na binili, pagkain, bahay, tubig, kuryente wala akong kwenta sa huli. If you know me and you read this, please, if I ever did end it all. Have them sell my whole body (organs and bones, literal everything) so I can atleast return money wasted on this low-life to them as my last good deed Love, C

There's so much I want to say but I just don't know how to say it, I dont want to just make this me saying I'm sorry over and over again but I feel like that what it's gonna end up being.. the biggest regret I have is not ever making clear enough how I truly felt and not staying for when it got too hard, I should've done so much more to prove I loved you, I should've done more to fight for the relationship and just tell you regardless of how much I was going through that I never wanted to shut you out, I just got scared and didn't want to hurt you anymore than I thought I did, only that inevitably just ended up having the complete opposite affect.. I left everytime because I couldn't handle being your friend loving you the way I did.. I tried so hard to suppress and essentially kill the emotions I had for you to be there for you, but when you wanted me to help you with your current relationship.. it destroyed me, I never wanted to ever be in the position where I was anything other than yours, it hurt so badly to know I couldn't love you the way I truly wanted to and I felt selfish knowing my own love for you was in the way of being there for you, I never truly felt like I was able to be there for you the way I was before and now I'm left so lost knowing I can't love you or help you, but the feelings have always stayed, they never faded, I still wake up wanting to text you good morning and that I love you, I still want to spend my life with you regardless of everything, but I know things are far too gone to ever expect any kind of future together, and I'm sorry. I don't know what to do to move on, I don't feel attraction to women like I do with you, I don't feel the love or the spark we had, when I saw you for the first time, something in me felt like you were the one for me, and now I'm stuck trying to reassemble the pieces to a puzzle that simply can't be completed. I'm so scared Vanessa..I'm so alone and terrified I'm losing myself in the grief.. I used to be a sweet person..I just don't care anymore..this love is killing my soul..I don't know how to live without loving you..I don't want to live in a reality where I have to "love" someone else. I tried and it just doesn't work, I gave it so much time and it just never feels right. It just feels like I've been in the wrong timeline since we broke up..I need help so badly..I beg the universe everyday to just make it make sense. Regardless of anything I will always love you, you have always be my first and only love, I may be a goldfish but our love will stick with me forever regardless if I want it or not, and I refuse to "love" someone else when I don't, even if that means being single until death, I can at least know I at one point felt true love, and that almost makes it okay..It just kills me to know I can't love you the way I truly want to. I want to say I love you so badly and for you to know I really mean it, I want to hug and kiss you and never let go, I wish I wasn't just so young and stupid and maybe I could've seen it all more clearly.. I went on a trip and took some acid and it's reopened everything Ive been suppressing for years..a part of it's made me remember how much I miss human contact..a big part of it made me remember how much i loved yours.. I tried dating after you.. it just didn't work..I never felt even a slight amount of love towards them..and that only made me feel worse..so I'm just gonna stick to myself until hopefully maybe one day I'll be ready to love again..you told me I was your first love.. you will always be my first and only love, I love you so much Vanessa, I really truly do..

HAPPY SECOND MONTHSARYY SAYANGGG , thank youu for dealing w me and my bullshits and i know i can be tiring but i can promise you that ill give you the world full of love because you genuinely deserve it. i tahuu we had our bad moments but that does not remove our nyee best moments and for every moment i ade ngn you , i sumpah hargai banyak” that i can have someone like you in my life. Im sorey kalau i was a bad boyf in the past and trust me , i wld do anything to be the one that u really need in your life without feeling like you have competitions . thank you for being my number 1 supporter and the best love i cld have ever ask for, u made me feel like i mattered and there was times i was in denial and kept pushing you away and we had our breaks but you still chose me everytime and Wallahi , im really happy because now i got the most supportive , loving , caring , sweetest and funny girl in my life and i REALLY hope nothing will change that. no matter how bad our situation is ill always find you because now ur the only one i really longed for and i will take every next moments and years coming forward so i can enjoy my entire life with you. i wont leave you anymore and i promise that because even in the afterlife , i wld be finding you, the only that can separate me from you is death and time itself and i pray i have a long life with you . i know youre fighting youre battles too and i may not look like it but i pray for every dua that you win your battles so when people asked if ur fine so u will answer u genuinely fine and happy. I LOVE YOU SO MUCHH MYLOVEE , MY EVERYTHING , MY UNIVERSE , MY WORLD AND MY SEPARUH HATYKU. MWAMWAA MWAA ❤️❤️💕💕

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Ryan, whenever I think of you I think of just how lucky I am and truly think I have met the one and only love of my life. I never understood when people said “when you know you know” and when I met you I knew, I knew that i selfishly never want anyone to have you the way I do, and I can’t bare to see you in someone else’s arms but mine, and even if there’s struggle and sometimes might not feel like it’s meant to be I’m willing to get over that just to be with you and I pray that you let me make you the happiest person and I promise to never do anything less than that, because your smile is already something I’d risk my whole life fir just to catch a glimpse of it.

Se eu pudesse escolher um lugar no universo para estar, seria sempre do seu lado amor, Você me faz querer ser uma pessoa melhor, me faz sonhar mais alto e me dá forças para enfrentar qualquer desafio. Meu amor por você cresce a cada dia que passa, EU TE AMO MINHA PRINCESA!❤️

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I love you so so so much. Why why do you hate me? Please you were always my John doe and you were always so cool and mysterious so please please please dont leave me to the wolves. It hurts being alone i cant stand it please i need you to love me. You are all that I care about you are all I need so dont hate me. Dont you ever hate me.

they call u sol, because they know u by the way u brighten a room. but they’ve only ever met your light. to me, u’ve always been sola; the kind of quiet that teaches a wounded heart it doesn’t have to brace for leaving. the quiet syllable hidden inside solace; the place grief returns to when it grows too heavy to carry. because u looked beneath the rust in my bones,
past the smoke i called a soul,
into the rooms i kept bolted shut
for fear that knowing me would become a reason to leave. but u never mistook my wreckage
for a warning. u stayed. and i sometimes think thats holier than any sunrise. there is something sacred about a heart that chooses to remain after learning exactly what it’s remaining for. so if anyone ever asks why i’ll always call u sola instead of sol, it’s because the sun only knows how to rise. but u, u knew how to stay. happy birthday, to the soul that taught mine what staying looks like. i am always grateful to have u as my friend:)