Goodbye

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Cherry, I love you so much. Its like sharing everything with a sister who actually gets it. Yes, I stalk you reposts. Yes, I wonder what you are up to all the time and Yes, I think about you whenever I have s*icidal thoughts. So, as my final act of love, I will not say when I am going to commit. Because...I want you to think that I am alive and living well even if it only lasts a week, a day or even an hour. Im sorry for leaving you.

i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you please come back i will do anything for you i will worship you i will treat you like a fucking god come back my love please please please come back i beg you i will never find anyone like you i will never see anyone the same way as you i'd do anything please come back please please please you're my first thought in the morning and the last thought as i go to bed you're everything to me and it hurts it hurts nothing feels good without you i want you so bad anything for you

Goodbye… I know I had promised to never contact you again, trust me, I tried my best but my heart couldn’t leave without saying goodbye As I’m writing this, my eyes are full of tears, I’m still hurt and full of pain. The decision I took of cutting you off my life wasn’t because i didn’t love you anymore, but it’s because I loved you so much that I wanted you to be happy. I knew that I wasn’t where your happiness lied, so I wanted to give you a chance to do whatever it is that you wanted, without me interrupting all the time. I also needed to choose myself because I finally realised that you were you were never gonna choose me and that’s okay because people are allowed to love whoever they want to love. I know you never apologised but I want you to know that forgive you for all the pain that you’ve caused me, I feel like I have to let everything go before I go.. I didn’t want to carry this onto my new chapter, By the time you read this, I will probably be on a flight going back home or I have probably arrived, I just wanted to make sure that I send this before I leave the grounds of the city because I knew I wouldn’t have the heart to see you again, it would’ve probably hurt me more. Anyways, it’s alright, I guess the last thing I want to say is that I always wonder what happened, maybe one day you will explain it to me, and maybe on that day I’ll fully understand… until then I hope you live your best life and really do all the things you said you would.. As for me? I’ll be in my hometown pursuing my dreams, if you ever find yourself that side one day, give me a call… But for now, goodbye Lots of love, MM

the Nana to my Hachi was a Trans guy from another continent I guess you could say we ended up like them, huh? Would you rather forget those times, R? I won’t. I snatched this song from you back when I was working on that project too large for me to do alone. I’ve stopped listening to it since. There’s a lot to be grateful for and a lot to keep me faithful. It simply lives in the back of my mind.

AOA maam, i hope ur doing well and i hope uve made ur dinner when uve read this(u mentioned about it). (Sorry about the slang here btw u said this wont be graded :p) First of all, thanku for being an amazing teacher who knows and understands how to communicate with their students. Not many teachers are aware of it. And thanku for caring about ur students too. Thanku for everything uve done for us this semester. It HAS been a lovely 16 weeks with u and i really wished they weren't online too. It really ended too soon for my liking. If i had a wish, id wish for 16 more labs with u as a teacher, irrespective of the course. Initially we were scared we wouldn't get a teacher as nice as Sir Umer(for Functional English Lab), but u were the perfect sequel to him as a lab instructor. I wish one day u complete ur Masters in English so u can teach theory too(i guess thats how it works? idk im sorry for projecting, but sir Umer mentioned something related to it). We have a course later in our degrees related to writing and i guess thats the closest we'll ever get to having u as our teacher again, and i really hope that happens. U were my fav teacher this semester, no regrets in that Thanku for being cool, awesome and a Gen-Z overall. Hope to see u in the hallways in Autumn. And thanku for the perks! I hope u liked our little note and perk too(i wish we had the bigger version of the perk)😭 Its rare to cross paths with a teacher like u Keep being u, however u are rn Sir umer might have told u i like music so i wanted to ask about a blend but i was scared(and shy) so here's a link to that: Pspspspsps has invited you to join a Blend on Spotify. Join on the Spotify mobile app. https://open.spotify.com/blend/taste-match/b69285a2f76eb6fd?si=VEVKkBfNQz-uuesxZuBfVw&fallback=getapp&blendDecoration=5f9c38d2 I wanted to add this in the spotify link but i wanted to recommend u an album or song there. Idk what to choose so im gonna add the link to my favourite song of all time. Thanku for reading this, and i wish the best for u in ur life may Allah make it easy for u! And sorry for all the inconveniences ive caused in classes WE'LL MISS U. Idk about the others but I DEFINITELY WILL TAKE CARE BYEEEEEEEEE

I just want to say that we had a great class and we enjoyed a lot during our whole semester but we can't enjoy a little bit during online sessions. I do apologize on behalf of all the class if we ever made a mistake and a huge apology about the little inconvenience in our physical class during our initial weeks, we bothered the class and did not pay attention during our lab of debate between students, in which you got angry and left the class without taking left over the presentations. Please accept my apology and we are really sorry about that inconvenience. And one thing I want to say is that it was not your fault at all. The meaning of my apology is just so that you forgive us. It is not for you to feel embarrassed or guilty about how you treated us. You treated us so well and we deserve that because it was not your fault. It was totally on us, so don't take it on yourself, please. You are a very good teacher. You are a great teacher. It was a great class. You explained everything very clearly and made us a little bit harder worker and more disciplined. Thank you for this attention and this whole time.

And for everyone reading this, please be careful with everyones feelings. And keep loving, with all your heart. It’s hurtful many times, but it’s also really worth it. ahoj martinku, To be honest, I don’t even know if I still have the privilege to call you that. You see... I never wanted to hurt you. I always wanted only the best for you, even if it doesn’t look like that right now. I tried to end this so many times... but I just couldn’t. I couldn't let go. You were willing to do everything for me. You wanted to move to the other side of the world for me, and I know you would have done anything I asked. I know you love me, maybe too much. I don’t even know where to start, how to tell you everything, even though I know you’ll probably never read this. But that’s okay, maybe it’s better this way, though I wish something in this letter would help you understand everything and move on. Recently, I came across the song beautiful by joji, and it describes our entire situation perfectly. I really can’t say anything in my defense, I have no excuses. Everything is my fault and I can’t take it back. If I could, I would do anything to not hurt you like this. Because you were my precious boy. muj martinek. God, I wish I could tell you one more time that I love you and how much I love you. You mean absolutely everything to me. I don’t know how to move on, but I know we both have to. And we will both make it. I always used to say it’s stupid to be sad after a breakup, that we’ll always meet another person who will fulfill us just as much or more. But now I understand. I can’t imagine it. I gave you everything of myself. Even if some parts were a lie, the real me is what I gave you. I gave you my heart, and I don’t think anyone will ever give it back to me. I love you, so much, I dream about you every night. It was never fair to drag you into my chaos, but you always stayed, and I loved you even more for it. Just so you know, I’m sorry. I wish we could both just put a white flag on our walls and sweep up all the shards I caused. But I know that’s not right. But damn baby, you were supposed to be my savior, but I ended up being the one you needed saving from. And for my final act of love, I will let you forget me. I’ll let you place me in the farthest corner of your mind, making sure that nothing I ever did will bother you again. I’ll close my eyes, drift through space, only our memories keeping me afloat. Not because I hate you, not because I want to, but because I care for you. I don’t want to make my regrets your own, or have my problems create yours. I want you to smile, laugh and cry. Feel all the emotions a human should feel, even if not with me. Because I know I cannot give you that gift. My love for you won’t fade, nor will it ever die. But your love for me will. You will become a mere speck in the huge universe lying before you. Yes, it will hurt, and of course it will sting. But in the end, to me, it’s all worth it. I would do anything for you. So for my final act of love, I will fade from your world, putting you first, just so you can be healthy. Even if it hurts. I’m such a full of shit, I speak of god but I sin, I speak about kindness but I’ve hurt people, I speak about growth but I fall back into old habits, I speak of loyalty but I’ve betrayed people, I speak about having a positive mind but sometimes I’m sad, I speak about healing but I’m still broken in places. You are my biggest “what if,” you are my biggest weakness, enemy and fear, and still, I wish I could run into your arms. It is really hard for me to accept that until I leave this earth I’m gonna be always so tangled. I know I have to get myself out of the hole I’m in, because there’s no one else to dig me out. But somehow, not a single day has gone by where you didn’t cross my mind. I miss you in ways I can’t even explain. I miss your laugh, your voice, the way you made everything feel lighter. Even the smallest things about you stayed with me. And no matter how much I try to move forward, there are always moments, quiet, unexpected ones, that bring me right back to you… to us… to what we almost had. I know I hurt you, and that’s something I carry with me every day. It’s a kind of regret that doesn’t fade. You didn’t deserve any of it. But even with that pain, I want you to know how proud I am of you. Watching you become the person you once dreamed of being… it means more to me than you’ll ever know. You deserve every good thing that’s happening in your life right now. And even if I’m no longer part of your world, I’ll always be here, quietly, in the background, rooting for you, praying for you, wishing you happiness in ways I couldn’t give before. I love you… in the quiet, distant, unspoken way that stays even when everything else is gone. And no matter where life takes us, you will always have a place in my heart. I’m not writing this to get back to you, i know i can’t undo things that i’ve done. But i still love you, and that’s the thing that won’t change. I don’t have the courage to send to you. But maybe some of the audience here will, and if. I want you to know that, I’m so sorry for everything. You’ll always deserve the best, i hope one day you find someone amazing, who will be there for you. You’re never too much or too less. You’re always enough and the right person will see that. Please remember that and don’t let anyone hurt you like i did. Ty ses muj martinek proste.. hrozne si preju abych ti mohla rict jeste jednou ‘pocem ke mne’ nebo ze te miluju. pa kocicko moje. Vzdycky budu s tebou.

Writing this letter on the date of April, 2026. Probably the last time I'll ever write something about you. I'm writing this, as if hoping you'll ever see this letter at all but...hoping won't hurt at all for the time being. I've said this a lot to the letters I gave you on how much I am grateful I met you. Yes at first I may not seem to be interested with you, still recovering from a heartbreak and searching for something, too blind that time to see that it's there all along. Eventually, we got closer, like an ocean to a shore we've met. You're there, wild, uncertain flow, uncertain tide and me? I'm there, steady and unmoving like the sand where I always burry myself. We've met, out of curiosity perhaps, curious who are we or who are you to me. I though you'd be another one of those once in a lifetime crush I'd have in my life but then it's just the fact that I kept refusing to acknowledge was that slowly... I'm having feelings for you. For the long time, I was unaware of the reason why I'd get shy around you, why I suddenly have the feeling of wanting to see you, of being close to you. At first maybe it's because we're strangers and friend of a friend at best. Then we started to talk, didn't know you were that sweet like a candy in a very expensive store around the city. In all honesty all I saw in you was the wrapper, how people described your look but never your taste. It was addicting when I finally had a turn to do so. Still, I kept denying it, saying it's just a friendly feeling, a feeling of admiration but who would've thought that eventually I'd be honest enough to admit I fell for you. Hard. It was not part of the plan, you never were part of my plan yet somehow you barged in and left your shoes on the door and now...I can't seem to move it out. I confessed, It's still hard to accept it even to this day, the fact that I could've called you mine... my girlfriend...or.... in a perspective...I'd call you the flowers who blooms specifically for the moon and the moon itself to bask in it's cold yet bright light. Then again, we can't, but ever since I don't know how I'll move on from you like... why and how? maybe because I had a chance and we're both too afraid to see it? that we could've worked? Everyday since then, I always question myself... "why does an idiot like you stay in rundown place where you don't have anything". I don't know too. But I gotta let go, eventually, I can't keep holding on the rope while drowning underneath. It'll be the biggest joke ever. Perhaps... I'll move on, yeah, I will now. I will as the last day of April do so. You were the best, if not the best but the humblest girl I've ever loved. You taught me the effort, you taught me the patience, the courage, the strength...the hope and fear. I love you still...But I made a promise, I gotta let you go in exchange for my dreams. It hurts to love you... yet comforting too. Thank you... . Without you... I wouldn't be me. Farewell...I love you. I'll see you around.

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Hi. we wont be able to see each other again like ever, but im glad that you had become my friend before things fall apart. I wanna say youre such a mess and red flag but i guess we all have our own flaws and chaos. youre still a dick btw.

Why won't you reply? (I can see that you were online 28 minutes ago.) I know we're back to our old lives now and those 5 perfect days are over, but I thought we were close. Playing card games late into the hours of early morning? Sleeping over at their hotel room together and ordering McDonald's (Macca's in honor of Aussie) at 4am? Telling me to climb up into your bed on the high-speed train at 5 in the morning? All of that was barely over a week ago. I suppose it didn't matter to you nearly as much. I suppose you don't miss that trip nearly as much. But I thought you wouldn't completely forget the way we talked like we'd known each other for years. I won't hold it against you. And don't worry, I won't reach out again. Miss you, love you, thank you! This might be a real goodbye now!

I still am waiting for your answer, it’s so pathetic you’d probably never see this confessions right? I still like you. Sincerely so and it pains me on a daily basis to think you’d give no shits about me haha funny right? Cause who am I to be talking.

I loved you ever since we first met in fourth grade. You were so sweet to me and you understood me in a way no one ever has. I am autistic and you knew that before I knew myself and you helped me understand that about me, helped me accent that I wasn't broken, just different. We shared an interest in anime and video games and we liked talking trash about our teachers behind their backs all the time. We both loved the colour purple and we thought we were soulmates because we were each other's ideal preference for our partner's height and our birthdays were two days apart within the same year. I remember we used to do those dumb kinnie bingos and we always matched up as the characters that were known as the dynamic duos of their franchises. It was always so much fun. I didn't really realise it when we were young but I know now my love for you wasn't romantic, it was familial. But we still had a bond either way. We never forgot about each other and we approached each other again in 10th grade where I accidentally confessed to you and you told me you felt the same so we tried it out. But I kind of regret it.... Is what I used to say. I wanted to try for you because you were my close companion. I love you so much. Yet you didn't love me the way I loved you. We were only trying things out but you were so cruel to me. You had changed over the last ten years and it really hurt. I managed to tell you I wanted us to go back to being friends and you said it was okay but you still hated me, resented me for it. And I don't understand it. I never once got to tell you how you made me cry and made me miserable all the time. Then when me and my friend got into a stupid argument about the definition of the word "indirect" you told me you hated me because I got upset that you just stood there watching when they degraded me unwarratned. Even when i apologised to you, you hated me. And it used to hurt but it doesn't anymore. I got over it. I will never be able to tell you to your face these things because we'll never see each other again but I am better now. Stronger. You can never hurt me again and no one like you will be able to. I don't regret our relationship. I thank you for all the hurt you gave me because you made me stronger against people like you. And you made me aware of your type of people, I know how to protect myself now. I know what my worth is and it's much higher than what you deserved. I deserve more than to be treated like garbage. I want you to know that, hypothetically. You'll never know this but whatever. I heard you got a new girlfriend and I hope you either learn to treat women better or she leaves you to find a better girlfriend because you don't seem keen on changing. You're not the victim, you never were. Just grow up already and stop being an attention-seeker. I'm going to find someone who can truly love me one day and I'm gonna be so happy and you're gonna miss out on all of it. You're gonna miss when we dated. You're gonna miss when I still wanted to be yoour friend afterward. I told all my friends about what you did and I know what you did to them too. I know the pain you gave them. You're not a good person, you never were. It just took me 10 years to realise this. And now I'm grown-up and I know better now. So despite all of this... Thank you for helping me become stronger. Thank you for helping me stop being timid. Thank you for helping me love myself more. Thank you for helping me realise I am worthy of real love. Thank you for helping me respect myself. And thank you for teaching me what kind of people I should avoid. And thank you for all the happy memories that I do have with you. I'll still cherish them.

My eyes wander When you’re around Can’t help but look for you From the life I gave up To having no life at all Is this my punishment? For being avoidant Please love tell me Roses and lilies are For people who die I hate that I’m fine Until I see you again My mind has only ever known To play a perfectly well victim Can’t face this idea of life alone Am I yearning for the love Or for the friend I had? Locked up in this game of makeovers Can’t seem to move on From this endless loop of reinventions Someone save me from endless struggle Hate that I have to sit with people Who speak badly about you I know this is nothing new but My heart still aches from the poison I’ve let thinking it was honey

I've received the anonymous letter you submitted here.. thank you for thinking about me, I'll be alright and I hope you'll be alright too, I'll love you always too but loving someone doesn't always mean staying with them, I'll always be by your side even after years apart.. thank you for making my life so special.. I hope you'll soon find the girl who will be patient for you and love you more than I ever did, all the best for everything in your life dear, I'll always be grateful for this part of my life.. Yours truly ~your Nilu

To Rikki, I can’t believe I’m standing here without you. Thirteen years old, and you already carried a heart bigger than most people ever will. You dreamed of traveling the world, helping people in danger, being brave - more courage than most adults. And yet… this time, no one could save you. Not me. Not anyone. You laughed like the world was yours to discover. You had energy and kindness that made people feel seen, safe, and alive. Even in your struggles, you made room for others. It’s not fair. You were too bright, too alive, too full of dreams. And I was here. I would’ve stayed up all night. I would’ve carried your weight if you’d let me. Even though you’re gone, I carry you. Every laugh, every glance, every memory we shared - it’s with me. Always. You mattered. You still matter. You will never, ever be forgotten. - your favourite cousin, Nethy

To my best girl, You really left me with the impossible task of making a speech at your funeral, didn’t you? Classic you. Even now, you’re bossing me from wherever you are. We were close in a way that words almost can’t capture. The kind of friendship where one look meant everything. The kind where silence wasn’t awkward - it was safe. You knew me. Really knew me. And somehow still chose to stick around. I’ll miss the little things: our inside jokes no one else would get, the way we laughed at things too ridiculous to explain, the comfort of just sitting together and knowing we weren’t alone. You were kind, funny, brave, and soft in ways people don’t always notice right away. You cared so fiercely for your friends, even when life wasn’t easy. We were supposed to have more time. That hurts. But even in the time we had, you made me stronger, happier, and more aware of how important it is to cherish every laugh, every hug, every ridiculous moment. And just so you know - you succeeded. Everyone here is emotional. Not just because we’re hurting. Because we loved you. Because you mattered. And because you’ll always matter. I’ll carry you with me. In every quiet moment. In every laugh that reminds me of you. In every part of my life that’s better because you were in it. My best girl. Always.

Chechi, I usually can write a lot. But for once words have failed me. I tried to write you a letter many times. But I couldn’t complete it. There’s a lot I want to say, but I don’t know where to start. I was thinking about what you will do, how you will manage, all of those. But maybe for once, I think I will tell you about me. No amount of ideas and advice can help right now. So I will sit with you in the darkness. I will sit with you in the pain. I will sit with you through the tears, I will be there until we figure it out. I will stay. I will see you. And I will let myself be seen. Magdeburg will never be the same ever again. Because I know what this place looks like with you in it. I will miss you a lot. I will miss making the bath for you, I will miss taking the tram to come see you. I will miss putting on the tea and waiting for you to reach. I will miss colouring your hair. I will miss going to shops with you. I will miss teasing you about that “accidental” kiss. I will miss the way you laugh when I say evil things. Going to Kaufland or DM or Rossmann will never be the same. I think I will look for your beanie over the shelves. I will think of a joke and turn around to tell you. But you are in India. I will miss you because, I will. Not because we are related by blood, not because you are useful, not because of any reasons. But just because. I see how brave you are being. Thank you. I am not as brave I think. When I think of you walking into the airport, into a place where I can't see you every other day - it scares me. But you are so brave. We will fix this together I have no doubt. But I won’t like it when you aren’t here. And I will try to be brave like you. I am stopping here because the more I write the more I realise the little girl who watched her parents leave at the airport still lives inside me. I mustn't wake her up.

You don’t know me and I don’t know you