Goodbye

You deserve the world. I'm sorry I can't be the one to give it to you.

It hurts me a lot too.8581110

Hi, Clyde. I know it's over between us, but I still wanted to send you this message. These are all the things I never got to say, and I don't think I can keep them to myself anymore. First of all, I want you to know that I'm genuinely grateful you became part of my life. At first, I didn't even like you. You knew that. I rejected you so many times, yet you never gave up. You were the only guy who stayed consistent in pursuing me, and that's something I'll never forget. I never imagined we end up together because, before you, I never let anyone get past the talking stage. But you made me feel loved, and little by little, I found myself falling in love with you not because I got attached, but because I truly loved you. last time I saw na naa kay gi like about avoidant? if that was really meant for me, I just want you to know that you changed an avoidant person. Kung kabalo lang ka, gi-stop nako akong pagiging avoidant para sa imo. Not because I liked you at first, but because you showed me consistency while you were courting me. You made me feel enough to let my guard down and trust someone again. You don't even realize how big that was for me. I changed a part of myself because I believed you. I believed in your consistency, your effort, and the love you showed me. That's why I took the risk. Sadly, the person who made me stop being avoidant was also the person who reminded me why I became avoidant in the first place. But yah...I honestly thought we would last. I know you had a lot of problems, but most of the time, you never shared them with me. Instead, you'd leave me on delivered for hours or even days. You probably don't realize how much that hurt. Then there was the first time you broke up with me. I didn't even know the reason because you stopped replying to my messages and even blocked me. Later, you came back, explained yourself, and asked for another chance. I forgave you because I loved you. I always tried my best to understand you. But sometimes I couldn't help but ask myself... did you ever try to understand me and my feelings too? After we got back together, I thought everything would finally be okay. But then it happened again. You'd apologize, tell me you'd make it up to me, promise you'd change but your actions never matched your words. You know you've already been hurt by someone before, so you know exactly how painful it feels. Then we broke up again. We had no contact for more than a month, and I honestly didn't expect you to come back again. Then nag chat ka usab nako because the reason I unfriended you? was because of the things you were posting on your notes. After that, we made up again. Okay na pud ta. Then there was a time when everything felt okay again. You were caring, you showed concern, and I thought we were finally getting better. Then, out of nowhere, you told me not to wait for you and that being with me felt like an obligation. Why are you always like that, huh? Why were you so different from the man who pursued me? When you were courting me, you were so consistent. You made me feel chosen every single day. But after we got together, it slowly started to feel like I became an obligation instead of someone you genuinely wanted. If you really felt that way, then maybe you shouldn't have pursued me in the first place. Maybe you shouldn't have come back every time we broke up. Sometimes I couldn't stop myself from wondering... did you only come back because you wanted sex? Because after that happened, it felt like everything changed. It felt like you slowly drifted away again. I don't know if that's true, but that's how it made me feel. I wanted a serious relationship. I never wanted something that was only beautiful in the beginning. I wanted consistency. I wanted someone whose love wouldn't change after getting what they wanted. I truly believed that person was you. Tangina! what hurts the most is that you left without even giving me anything no explanation, no apology, no real conversation about why everything had to end this way. I want you to know that I loved you with everything I had. I took the risk of loving you despite everything. Sometimes I still wonder... was I ever worth the risk to you? I always chose to understand you because I loved you so much. I don't know if you really loved me the way I loved you. Even after everything, I still wish you nothing but the best. I hope you succeed in life and achieve every dream you've ever told me about. I always told you I'd be proud of you clyde, and I meant every word. I'm gonna miss your hugs, your kisses, your presence, and your love. I really enjoyed every moment we spent together. You know what I mean. I will never forget you baby, because you gave me so many memories, and I hope you won't forget me too. Maybe this just isn't the right time for us. And if our paths to cross again someday, I hope we're both happy, healed, and successful. I'm sorry if I'm not the girl you wanted or the type of girl you like. I'm sorry if I couldn't be the kind of person you were looking for or give you the kind of love you truly wanted. I don't know if you still have anything to say after reading this message. If naa man, I hope you tell me. But if you don't, I understand. I just wanted you to know everything I never got the chance to say. Take care of yourself baby, always. I'll always be thankful that I met you. I loved you so much, Clyde. Goodbye, baby.

I often wonder where love goes after it is no longer welcome. Perhaps it lingers inside forgotten playlists, waiting for someone to press play one more time. Perhaps it hides between photographs that neither heart has found the courage to erase. Or perhaps it simply learns to live inside silence. Sometimes I catch myself believing that somewhere, without even realizing it, you're listening to the songs we once shared. That maybe, for the length of a single melody, my name still exists somewhere between the lyrics. It's a comforting lie. The kind the heart tells itself when the truth is too quiet to bear. Your photographs still rest where I left them. Not because I refuse to let go, but because they are the last proof that, for a brief moment in this lifetime, you were real. I searched for you once. Only once. Only to find that even the place where our story began had quietly forgotten your name. Perhaps that's what goodbye truly is. Not when someone walks away, but when every road that once led to them slowly disappears. Still, there are nights when I almost reach for our conversation, forgetting that the door between us was closed long ago. Some absences never ask to be remembered. They simply become part of the air you breathe, quietly follow you wherever you go. Maybe one day the songs will lose your voice. Maybe the photographs will become nothing more than ordinary pixels. Maybe your name will arrive in my mind without breaking anything inside me. But until that gentle day finds me, I'll keep these fragments where they are. Not as a promise to wait, but as a quiet thank you to a love that once existed, even if only for a little while. I hope life has been kind to you. And I hope, wherever you are, you've found the peace we couldn't find together. To the person who became my favorite memory ⁠♡.

I really did enjoy our times I learnt a lot. I knew it was gonna end I didn’t expect it this fast. Thank you for everything it’s been hard without you, and it hurt a lot I was really upset because I felt as if you didn’t care as much as I did. Im sorry if it looked like I never cared I did I really did and it hurt to badly before we broke up and during it. I realized that it was my fault because I made us like that. I wouldn’t answer for hours never looked like I was trying enough for you. I was just sad from a lot of stuff and I have been for a while and I don’t know how to be happy. I’m trying to be better cause I was really not doing well before and it’s taking time but I think it’s working. I didn’t want this but I know it’s the right thing to do. I hope you’re happy. I don’t know if you even remember this website haha. As much as I miss you I won’t text or call because I need this to focus on myself to get better. 85811110

I loved you too much, that I let you hurt me. Thank you for leaving on the 4th of July. I enjoy it a lot more now.

I still think about you. I don’t remember a lot of what happened, but I hope you’re doing okay. I hope you have a better life now. I remember you used to sing this song, I think? I linked it but idk if it worked. Thanks for the memories

‎yk lately I've been thinking a lot about our relationship where u just want us to be friend so not gonna lose me, im kinda happy to hear it but at the same time, it is still just a friend tho,...its been a while since we meet and know each other its been one of my happiest momen in life, and thnks to u i can learn a lot like i feel im becoming a better person after know u, and once again thanks for that...also i wish for all thing u want to come true, like getting ur licence and live a life u always wish for, becoming someone who is independent and rich sure lol....yea i didnt know what else to say, im still love u so much to the point maybe im becoming too attractive to u and cant help it...so yea maybe..just maybe, in another life our relationship might work, and we can do lot of stuff that we always talk about...see ya don't looking for me

SO this is closure . This is MY CLOSURE . not for you but for me bcz i need to end this . we've been friends since kindergarten but that dosen't mean i have to suffer with u forever. maybe its cz we've grown up but im done with u u can still think im pranking or whatever but i wont text u back this time . i won't tell u whom i miss or why i cant sleep at night. and its funny how u still think im pranking so keep on thinking it i won't text u cz i know there is no way ur gnna understand im tired of telling u what i wanted u never even tried and i hate how u always made urself the victim but even if i can't tell u this but i still can send it online as a way for my OWN PEACE i hope u the best for the rest of your life. i'm not going to japan with u. i'm not sorry. GOODBYE ULFAT,

Hey, I don't even know what to write about you here. I just thought about you today. It's been months now, but I could not move. I tried and tried and tried. Now, I don't think about you much. It is hard for me, but what else can I do? We don't talk now but back then you were the only one for me. You were the safest space for me, I can't go back, can I? You promised me that you would never leave me in the middle of nowhere but you always did that and this time too. But why? Because everyone said that you were ruining my life?Because that's what you told me when I asked you why you left me like that. You did not even try nor did I. Well, what's left of me. What can I say? I soemtimes wonder if everything we had was all just fake? because what do you mean your world revolved around me till yesterday but today I'm no more in your life. You said you wanted to live under the same roof as me, you promised me to make that happen but you left.. I hope you win in life no matter what. I'll always be proud of you. Goodbye.

You passed away today. I love you. I'm so so sorry. My little boy, Bobby, Wilby boy 🤍 My heart is so broken You were so loved

You were my everything. I made gifts for you with my art, I bought gifts for you for when we would meet one day. I loved you in the way I knew how to express it best. By giving someone something I knew they loved. That calander, that necklace, that drawing was a piece of my heart I let you hold, that you tore apart so easily without a care in the world. Only to be told you never loved me. The truth is, I have always loved you, but I stayed back since you kept making it clear you were not interested. And I will make it stay that way because I don't want to do something if someone else doesn't want to do it. What was the point of telling me you thought of getting married? Was it just all a big game to you for nudes, or something to jerk off to? Was I just a replacement for something you needed but didn't get? I often wonder if you were cheating on me the entire time, with how much you talked about her, but never hung out with me. It drove me nuts, and I had enough. Just to hear you tell me it was never real in the first place for you. You never loved me, I think you loved the idea of me. And that's what hurts the most. I'm not something to constantly toss away, or ignore, or keep hidden. I'm an actual human being with my own feelings, life, etc. I can't bare to be around you again cause you made it very clear what you would do if it happened. You said you'd make a good teen father, but why should I trust that if you leave every few months? I would be a fool to trust that, ever in my life. I don't want to love you, but I probably will for a while, until I finally decide to put myself before you who barely ever showed up. Don't come back into my life, especially if you are just going to leave again. I tried to show you in everyway I could that I cherished our relationship so much, but clearly it never mattered to you. Have a good life. Sincerely, H, formerly, S.

I’d like to convince myself you’re just infatuated with me. We’ve been friends since three or four years ago, and honestly, i like how things went through. You were like a little brother to me. I watched how you love and how you left every time, while still holding on to me as your friends. And I wanted to keep it that way. Yes, I’ve noticed it. The patterns were not hard to recognise and by the way you keep on trying to reach out to me—one would think you’re too easy and loud to fall in love. Here’s the thing, I have no feelings for you, and there’s no chance I’ll ever use pity as an excuse to give you a try. You never even truly knew me, because I kept my image too pretty for you and for others. You don’t love me—you love the idea of dating me. You liked the way I treated you, how I keep my tone and how neutral I was towards you. You were so used to the way I treated you, you thought it was something special. But I always laid it out, right? The way I treated you, is exactly how I treated my friends—andI feel guilty for making you love me. I’m sorry, but I can’t give you the love you are searching on me. I see you as my younger brother. Please don’t send me flowers on my birthday—it’ll just make things more harder to process. sincerely yours, christina

DEAR CHESTER I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT BUT YOU'RE HURTING ME AND IT'S TIME TOO LET GO I'M SORRY - YOURE ELS💕

I love you, and I wish you were real, but I don’t have it in me anymore to keep trying to find you, and I know I am not ready to be in a relationship. Stay safe, my love. I need to focus on myself for now. Don't be mad, okay? Sorry to let you down, but I give up.

I didn't know what to feel. It was shocking to learn that she had to block me on Facebook and Instagram just to find her peace. It's disappointing because a part of me was still hoping that our trio could make things right and that one day we would reconcile. It's heartbreaking to realize that this is where it all ends. It's sad how one ordinary night, when insecurities, pride, and ego took over, ended up ruining a friendship that once meant so much. Maybe this is really where our story ends. But if you ever happen to read this, I hope you know how grateful I am that you became my safe place during the pandemic. During those times when I couldn't even recognize myself anymore, you stayed. During the days when I wanted to leave this world behind, you were one of the reasons I chose to stay because you stayed by my side. I believe that God sends people into our lives for different purposes. Some people are meant to stay, while others come to heal us, teach us lessons, and help us grow. And I am so, so thankful that God brought her into my life. Although she wasn't meant to be permanent, she is one of the reasons why I'm still here today. That's why I will never get tired of telling people that there were two girls who became part of the reason I didn't leave this world. But the saddest thing is that one stayed, and the other was never mine to hold on to.

I’m no longer giving my heart to anyone and I accepted the fact that I no longer can love anyone else you were the one I wanted you were the one that I imagined myself with I don’t imagine myself with anyone else I really did adore you and I’m sorry that I scared you away by expressing it and that’s my biggest regret. I should’ve gone to that party. I should’ve hung out with you when I got the chance, I should’ve replied to the message you sent me back in January but I was just so hurt how you just left. I just couldn’t bring myself to say anything but this morning I found out that you moved on and when I tell you, the pain was so unbearable that I felt like I was gonna die, but you still mean a lot to me regardless deep inside I do wish that you were mine, but the universe works in mysterious ways sometimes it hurts people.

Heeeeeyyaa, I hope you never find this but I’m feeling ROMANTIC today !! I hope and wish you the best in life, Trish. I really thought that it would always be you in the end but I guess I was wrong. You are really all that I’ve ever wanted even if you never believed me, but don’t think and I wasn’t so hopelessly in love with you because you were too much of a coward to trust me, ok?? Take care of yourself and your family that I’ve always dreamt of being a part of, make some other lady your entire world and treat her right. Call me to your wedding, don’t forget. I’ll always love you forever and ever. You truly are a part of me, thank you for everything, my—well, not my but.. my beautiful boy. Stay safe !! - kg (if you know you know 🥹✌️)

I don't know how to tell u this cause u are far away from me now i tried to reach u but i think it's not only the location what's separating us and i know that I never looked at me like that . I'm thankful for ur presence in my life but it has become a curse for me now. But if it was not for you my life would've been completely boring and blank page . I tried to reach u despite my mind resisting and i know u don't want to be reached anymore, it has been difficult for me to accept. I still feel nostalgic whenever I pass by ur old house cause it holds memories. I was childish and I'm childish even right now . Maybe it's my inability that i couldn't find or impress another girl. I was never good at that. I wish u message me somehow, someday, randomly ask me how I'm ? How I've been?. I love when people call me uv like u used to do once

I hope you're happy now Mylo. I'm sorry for writing this letter to you, I think you've moved on already. But the pain that I'm feeling right now, I don't know how to soothe myself in a way that I don't message you. Tanggap ko na wala na tayo, pero ang sakit parin, and I miss you. I kept lying to myself when I say I don't love you anymore, pero at the same time I won't run back to you anymore. I felt so discarded after our breakup, I'm so noisy dun sa dump ko, lagi kitang pinapatamaan pero ang sakit kasi I don't know how to handle this type of pain. After our breakup you were silent, and I took that as a closure, i tried to block you, but I could only do unfollow hanggang sa binlock mo ko sa Ig kasi along the way I said that I'm always here for you. And it looked like a betrayal to my promise. In my mind, I kept replaying what went wrong and our last conversation. I really wish life was kind enough to let me keep you. Kaya ko sinabi na what comes after this na you were so worried when I repeat it ilang beses sa last call natin, I meant that I've built a future with you in my head and it crumbled nung iniwan mo ako. I still have a lot of love to give to you leon, now I don't even know where to put it. Napalitan lang ng grief and pain. I'll forever miss you in my life siguro a few years from now di na masakit pero maalala parin kita. First love kita eh. Malaki ang impact mo sa perspective ko sa love, now I'm so scared, I'm so scared to start over again. You raised my standards that I don't even know if I'll let someone in again. At the same time I don't want to spend a lifetime yearning for you, It's fucking painful. I want to heal as much as I can so I distanced myself, and you also, kahit na I desperately want to reach out. Kabisado kita, hindi ka sasagot, at the same time kabisado mo ko kasi sasagot ako. I remember pa yung sinabi mo sa letter mo na BDO ka na kahit gano ka pa kabusy you'll make time for me. Naiyak ako ron, kasi totoo nga tinupad mo siya, not until nung last few weeks ng rs natin. Nakakalimutan mo na mag goodmorning or goodnight minsan, hinahayaan mo ako matulog nang may galit sayo kasi di mo ko sinasagot tuwing nagkakaroon tayo ng misunderstanding. Dinala mo past fears mo sa Relationship natin, don't you want to grow with me? Bakit kailangan mo dalhin mga alaala niyo ni KC? Kaya di ko mapigilan magisip kung rebound lang ba ako or panakip butas eh, ilang beses mo siya nabring up kahig nung nakikipaghiwalay ka na sakin. Di mo ko mareassure. I grew anxious sa relationship natin, It started feeling heavy, but I stayed kasi mahal kita kahit na I felt unloved in some moments. I made it clear from the start what I expect of a guy. napakasimple. i wanted someone who would choose me everyday kahit gano pa kahirap. You knew my past pain, inulit mo siya. At some point you're my answered prayer, pero God took you away from me. Baka siguro alam niya na di na tayo makakabuti para sa isat isa. You still have a lot to work on yourself, discover about yourself, and built for yourself. You're in and out relationships so mas mabuti na siguro yon. And for me, ang dami ko rin dapat matutunan, I stayed kahit na malabo na, i begged kahit you were begging me to understand, and to let you go. I thought maabutan pa kita maging registered radtech, akala ko makikilala ko pa family mo personally, i thought we'd build a life together. But, turns out I expected too much. I thought in a relationship both should be the beloved, pero sa huli ako nalang yung sobrang nagmamahal. Ako nalang yung bigay ng bigay, binuhos lo energy ko dito na walang wala na ko ngayon. I waited for you to call everyday, kahit na minsan sobrang pagod ko na, inintindi ko pagkasilent treatment mo sakin tuwing hindi tayo okay or hindi ka okay kahit I'm anxious kasi di ko alam kung ano na nangyayare, especially pag nagaaway tayo at di mo ko nirereplayan nagooverthink ako. Alam mong ayaw ko niyan, pero still hindi ka magadjust, pati pagrereply mo or paguupdate mo. Alam mo kung anong problema diyan. At parang ako yung nagfleflex sa relationship natin, di kita nakitaan much of it. Pero leon sa galit at lungkot na nararamdaman ko, nandon parin ung pagmamahal, nandon parin ung mga alaala natin. Sabi nga nila love transcends time and space, I loved you until the day I died, and for me that's enough.