Hi, Clyde. I know it's over between us, but I still wanted to send you this message. These are all the things I never got to say, and I don't think I can keep them to myself anymore. First of all, I want you to know that I'm genuinely grateful you became part of my life. At first, I didn't even like you. You knew that. I rejected you so many times, yet you never gave up. You were the only guy who stayed consistent in pursuing me, and that's something I'll never forget. I never imagined we end up together because, before you, I never let anyone get past the talking stage. But you made me feel loved, and little by little, I found myself falling in love with you not because I got attached, but because I truly loved you. last time I saw na naa kay gi like about avoidant? if that was really meant for me, I just want you to know that you changed an avoidant person. Kung kabalo lang ka, gi-stop nako akong pagiging avoidant para sa imo. Not because I liked you at first, but because you showed me consistency while you were courting me. You made me feel enough to let my guard down and trust someone again. You don't even realize how big that was for me. I changed a part of myself because I believed you. I believed in your consistency, your effort, and the love you showed me. That's why I took the risk. Sadly, the person who made me stop being avoidant was also the person who reminded me why I became avoidant in the first place. But yah...I honestly thought we would last. I know you had a lot of problems, but most of the time, you never shared them with me. Instead, you'd leave me on delivered for hours or even days. You probably don't realize how much that hurt. Then there was the first time you broke up with me. I didn't even know the reason because you stopped replying to my messages and even blocked me. Later, you came back, explained yourself, and asked for another chance. I forgave you because I loved you. I always tried my best to understand you. But sometimes I couldn't help but ask myself... did you ever try to understand me and my feelings too? After we got back together, I thought everything would finally be okay. But then it happened again. You'd apologize, tell me you'd make it up to me, promise you'd change but your actions never matched your words. You know you've already been hurt by someone before, so you know exactly how painful it feels. Then we broke up again. We had no contact for more than a month, and I honestly didn't expect you to come back again. Then nag chat ka usab nako because the reason I unfriended you? was because of the things you were posting on your notes. After that, we made up again. Okay na pud ta. Then there was a time when everything felt okay again. You were caring, you showed concern, and I thought we were finally getting better. Then, out of nowhere, you told me not to wait for you and that being with me felt like an obligation. Why are you always like that, huh? Why were you so different from the man who pursued me? When you were courting me, you were so consistent. You made me feel chosen every single day. But after we got together, it slowly started to feel like I became an obligation instead of someone you genuinely wanted. If you really felt that way, then maybe you shouldn't have pursued me in the first place. Maybe you shouldn't have come back every time we broke up. Sometimes I couldn't stop myself from wondering... did you only come back because you wanted sex? Because after that happened, it felt like everything changed. It felt like you slowly drifted away again. I don't know if that's true, but that's how it made me feel. I wanted a serious relationship. I never wanted something that was only beautiful in the beginning. I wanted consistency. I wanted someone whose love wouldn't change after getting what they wanted. I truly believed that person was you. Tangina! what hurts the most is that you left without even giving me anything no explanation, no apology, no real conversation about why everything had to end this way. I want you to know that I loved you with everything I had. I took the risk of loving you despite everything. Sometimes I still wonder... was I ever worth the risk to you? I always chose to understand you because I loved you so much. I don't know if you really loved me the way I loved you. Even after everything, I still wish you nothing but the best. I hope you succeed in life and achieve every dream you've ever told me about. I always told you I'd be proud of you clyde, and I meant every word. I'm gonna miss your hugs, your kisses, your presence, and your love. I really enjoyed every moment we spent together. You know what I mean. I will never forget you baby, because you gave me so many memories, and I hope you won't forget me too. Maybe this just isn't the right time for us. And if our paths to cross again someday, I hope we're both happy, healed, and successful. I'm sorry if I'm not the girl you wanted or the type of girl you like. I'm sorry if I couldn't be the kind of person you were looking for or give you the kind of love you truly wanted. I don't know if you still have anything to say after reading this message. If naa man, I hope you tell me. But if you don't, I understand. I just wanted you to know everything I never got the chance to say. Take care of yourself baby, always. I'll always be thankful that I met you. I loved you so much, Clyde. Goodbye, baby.