Thank you

I’m sorry for how things ended, I still love you I always will, I hope you find the right person for you and wish nothing but good things for you. With much Love ~ A

I am sorry. I never meant for this to happen. I am so sorry. I hated myself for doing what we did to us, I couldn't look myself in the eyes for what I was to tell you -what i told you that day- I am sorry. I still feel home with you. It cut me to write you didn't feel home. I have my own reasons. I am sorry I did it at such a crucial time in your life, no amount of 'sorry' will ever ease the guilt I feel. I miss you, god i miss you so much. I hated doing it. I am helpless, my hand being forced into someone elses. It would have hurt you more to like me and think I had to go to someone else when I told you I would be yours. I think it would hurt you less and enrage you more to think I did not understand your point of view. Love tears you apart but rage keeps you breathing. Rage makes you feel alive and I want you to be alive. I want you to go around and experience everything. The sunsets and the sunrise and everything in between. I hope you go long way. Hope your find a family of your own in someone, and when you do, I hope it works in your favour for you deserve all the happiness in the world. Had it been in my hands, I would have fought tooth and nail to be with you, but it's not. I miss you with each breathing gulp of air and I... I think this is how love feels. -rawr

I'm so sorry for being such a bad "friend". We could've been more. I'm sorry that I didn't try enough. I miss you, but it's too late to go back to what we used to be. I hope you have a good life.

I don't know where to start but i just want you to know how grateful i am to meet you for such a brief of time. We're not close neither we are friends but in spite of our distances i could still feel the kindness and respect you've shown me. To be honest life's been rough for me lately and crying accompanied me a lot these days well, i have a lot of friends to rely on and burst my heart out to them but i prefer to be alone instead. When you wrote "Panagdait" in your notes after i reacted sad emoji at my notes i didn't realize it immediately because i was to busy singing while cryingHAHA! Anyways, i later on realized that maybe..just maybe it is for me to cheer me up? i don't know, i might be just be being delusional but even if it doesn't really mean anything for you or it is for someone else it did still made my day.Though i am still sad because of everything that has happened to my family but you unknowingly did somehow cheered me up . Maybe, i may sound a bit weird but only if you knew how grateful i am for you even if we never talked before for like atleast once or even just smile for each other. Knowing you are happy and in the great place and environment is enough for me especially as to what we are right now even from the very beginning. I thought at first you were like anybody out there who'll just take their admirers for granted or even ignore them otherwise, you are completely different from them. You are more than worthy of admiring. And perhaps that's what makes you different in my eyes. You don't have to do something extraordinary or go out of your way just to make someone feel seen. Sometimes, even the smallest gestures can mean so much to someone who has been going through a difficult time. I don't know if you realize the impact of your kindness, and I don't expect you to, but I hope you never lose that part of yourself. I hope the world remains gentle with you, just as you have been gentle with the people who admire you. Maybe someday, when I look back on this part of my life, I'll remember you with a smile and laugh at how a simple note, a song, or even the smallest possibility of being noticed could make my dayHAHA! Perhaps you'll never know how much that little moment meant to me, and that's okay. Not every meaningful moment needs an explanation, and not every feeling needs to be returned to be worth having. I'm still figuring things out in my own life, and there are days when everything feels heavier than I know how to explain. But I'm grateful for the little things that remind me that there is still kindness around me, even when life gets difficult. Your kindness became one of those little things, whether you intended it or not. So, thank you. Thank you for being someone I can admire, someone whose kindness has left a good impression on me, and someone who reminded me that admiration doesn't always have to be about wanting to be loved back. Sometimes, it can simply be about appreciating a person for who they are and hoping that life continues to be good to them. I hope you continue to grow into the person you want to become. I hope you achieve the dreams you've been working toward, find peace in the difficult days, and always have people around you who appreciate you beyond what they see on the surface. And if life ever gets difficult for you, I hope you receive the same kindness and consideration that you've shown to others. I don't know how long this admiration will stay with me, and I don't think I need to know. For now, I'm just grateful that our paths crossed, even if only briefly and from a distance. You may be just another person going about your life, unaware of the little things you do that leave an impression on someone else. But to me, you're someone worth remembering fondly. Please take care of yourself, and continue being the person you are. I wish you nothing but happiness, success, and peace in everything that lies ahead of you. And also I'll continue cheering and praying for you quietly from my little corner of the world. "I wish you nothing but the best" Thank you! And always keep safe!

I love you. Mother Mary led us together for a reason. I pray for us every day

i need closure asap, text me on november 29

🤍 DAY 1 — THE NIGHT BEFORE YOUR DAY To the boy who deserves to know how special he is… 1 DAY LEFT. ONE MORE SLEEP. AND THEN IT'S YOUR DAY. 🎂 Bhaiyaa… Kal tera birthday hai. Pata hai? 😭🤍 Itna simple sa sentence hai na—kal tera birthday hai. But pata nahi kyun, is baar ye sentence likhte hue bhi alag si feeling aa rahi hai. Maybe because I've been waiting for this day. Maybe because I've spent these last few days trying to find the right words for you. Or maybe because no matter how much I write, there's still going to be so much left unsaid. Tomorrow, everyone will wish you. You'll get messages, calls, wishes, maybe surprises too. You'll smile, laugh, enjoy your day, and hopefully make some beautiful memories. And I genuinely hope you do. But tonight, before your birthday actually begins, I want you to forget about everything else for a moment and think about YOURSELF. Not the person everyone expects you to be. Not the son who has responsibilities, not the friend who has to show up for everyone, not the person who has to act strong or pretend everything is fine. Just you. The boy who's growing up, figuring life out, making mistakes, learning new things, and slowly becoming the person he's meant to be. Bhaiyaa, I hope life is kind to you. I hope the dreams you keep quietly in your heart find their way to you. I hope you get opportunities that make you proud of yourself. I hope you meet people who appreciate your heart, friendships that bring you peace, and moments that remind you how beautiful life can be. And on the days when things don't go according to your plans, I hope you never start believing that you're not doing enough. You're allowed to take your time. You're allowed to make mistakes. You're allowed to have bad days without feeling like you've failed. You're growing, Bhaiyaa. You don't have to have everything figured out already. And I hope you never put so much pressure on yourself to become someone great that you forget to appreciate the person you already are. Because before I wish for you to become somebody in life, I wish for you to be happy being yourself. 🥹 And there's something else I wish for you. I wish that years from now, when you look back at your life, you have more reasons to smile than to regret. I hope you get to do the things you've always wanted to do. I hope you make your parents proud. I hope you achieve things that make the younger version of you feel proud. And I hope that even when life gets serious, you never lose that side of you that laughs at stupid jokes, acts silly over absolutely nothing, and makes ordinary moments memorable. Please don't grow up so much that you forget to enjoy being young, okay? 😭😂🤍 And now comes the part where your little sister gets a little selfish. Bhaiyaa, can I ask you for one thing? When life gets bigger, when your world gets busier, when you have a hundred responsibilities and a thousand new things happening around you… I hope we still find reasons to annoy each other. I hope I can still come to you with the most random stories. I hope I can still tell you about the little things that happened in my day. I hope your achievements will still be something I'll get excited about, even when they're ordinary things to you. And I hope that someday, when we're older and life looks completely different, we'll sit together and laugh about all this nonsense. You'll probably make fun of me for being so emotional about your birthday. And I'll probably remind you that you should be grateful because not everyone gets a sister who puts this much effort into irritating them. 😭😂 But secretly, I hope we'll both know how much these years meant. Because birthdays come every year, but the people who become part of our growing-up years are the ones whose memories we carry into all the years that follow. And I'm really happy that you're part of mine. 🤍 Bhaiyaa, I don't know what this next year has planned for you. I don't know what you'll achieve, what you'll learn, which dreams will come true, or what unexpected turns life will take. But if there's one thing I could wish for you tonight, it would be this: May the coming year give you reasons to be proud of yourself that you haven't even imagined yet. May you find happiness in places you never expected. May you have the courage to chase the things that scare you. May you never feel alone in the difficult moments. And may you always have people around you who celebrate your happiness as genuinely as they stand beside you through your struggles. You deserve a beautiful year, Bhaiyaa. Not just a beautiful birthday. A beautiful year. ❤️ And before I end this little letter, I want you to imagine something. Imagine yourself a few years from now. You're older. You've grown. You've achieved some things, perhaps changed your mind about others, and collected so many stories that today's problems might seem tiny. And somewhere in that future, I hope you'll remember this birthday. Maybe you'll remember the wishes. Maybe you'll remember the gifts. Maybe you'll remember the people who celebrated with you. But I hope you remember this too— That when your birthday was still a day away, someone was sitting there, trying to find words big enough to tell you how much she wished the world would be good to you. Someone was hoping that your next year would be gentler, happier, and full of beautiful surprises. Someone was wishing for your happiness before the celebrations had even begun. And that someone was your little sister. 🥹🤍 Happy almost-birthday, Bhaiyaa. Enjoy your last few hours of being 18. Take a deep breath. Be proud of how far you've come. And walk into 19 knowing that you don't have to be perfect to be loved, and you don't have to achieve everything at once to make your life meaningful. Tomorrow, the world gets another year of you. And I hope this new year of your life gives you a thousand beautiful reasons to love the life you're building. Happy Birthday in advance, mere Bhaiyaa. 🫂❤️ Kal tumhara din hai. Kal saari wishes tumhare naam hongi. But tonight, I just wanted to remind you that your life is worth celebrating—not only because it's your birthday tomorrow, but because you are here, growing, learning, and becoming. And if I could give you one wish that would last longer than any birthday gift, it would be this: May you always find your way back to happiness, no matter how far life takes you from it. 1 DAY LEFT. 🎂🤍 See you at midnight, birthday boy. This is only the beginning.

gusto ko lang sabihin na sobrang na-aappreciate kita and yung presence mo sa buhay ko kahit may mga time na nagaaway tayo, gusto kong malaman mo na mahalaga ka sakin bilang kaibigan ko na-aappreciate ko kung paano ka mag-alala sakin, mag-care, at kung paano mo pinapaalam sakin na nandiyan ka palagiii, thankful pa rin ako sa lahat ng effort at oras na binibigay mo sakin sana maging maayos lagi ang araw mo at mag-focus ka rin sa mga ginagawa mo salamat sa lahat at mag-iingat ka lagi, malay mo makita mo to :)))

How do I tell you you're my first love? You've been my best friend since childhood, so how could I possibly tell you that our friendship has most definitely always been one sided? I've always known im gay, it's not something I've always been in terms with, I always hid it, kind of ashamed of what it could mean for my family. We went to school together but we never spoke, so when i saw you at my cousin's wedding, you came up to me and my cousin and spoke to us, i was nervous for no absolute reason, but we became close and we ran around, we had fun, but that was it. I moved away, miles away and I thought of you all the time, but eventually I got back to the real world and buried you deep in my heart. and just like that fate brought us back to each other. i met you again in my dugsi (quran school), i recognized you in an instant but we didn't talk, we made eye contant a lot of times, you always kept staring, but then again you looked at everyone, i wasn't special. We met again, but in school this time. We were in different classes, but same year. I was new to town and to the school, everyone already knew each other and I felt so out of place, I cried every day in the bathroom, I missed my old place, where I knew everyone for years and was well loved, i missed it. my loneliness didnt last long, thankfully. i sat alone, in the corridors, everyone was at lunch and i was an*rexic at the time, being new and no friends made it even worse. but you approached me, i tried pretending i didnt see you, i looked down at my phone, my heart was at my throat and i felt nauseous because of how nervous i was, but you came up to me, smiling so brightly i felt the world stopping, everything i always saw in my silly kdramas. you said "aren't you the girl in my dugsi?" I didn't stutter, if there's one thing I'm good at, it's pretending. i smiled and said "yeah, i have seen you", we smiled and chuckled and she asked if i wanted to take a walk, we walked and then sat down and talked the whole lunch break. I was screaming inside, I couldn't believe you were talking to me. we became friends instantly after that, there was no way i was letting you go after the universe gave you back to me. you introduced me to your other friends, and through you I reunited with my childhood best friends (still my best friend till today). she was the first person I came out to, using another girl's name, like I always did back then. I used different kids in our school to try and get over you, boys and girls, anyone, but nothing worked. I could never fall in love with anyone else (even till today). I love you so incredibly much, I am willing to wait till you can see me as a potential, I believe we are the right choice for each other, I truly do. I know your type, I know I'm not it, but I believe I could be, I’m gonna do everything I can, I will do everything I can to be the one for you. The universe would not give you to me time and time again just for us to not be each other’s soulmates. And if we are not, if you find someone who you love and loves you, I will always be your best friend, I will support you full heartedly, I mean it. i know im your number one, im your best friend after all but when you look at me, hug me or simply touch me, I don't see you as a friend, I never did. I try hard to meet new people, I go out on dates, I go from talking stage to talking stage, but none feels real. I pull away the moment someone shows any real interest in me, I always thought I was avoidant, or just scared of intimacy, until I realised that I’ve just always wanted you. Knowing you is and will forever be the greatest thing to have happened to me. I don't even want to imagine a life without you, I don't ever want to lose you, just the thought of it brings me to tears. Every part of my life is touched by you, this city, my heart, my future and thoughts, mind, everything I am is because of you. I was so ready to give up and give in and you held my hand through it all, you didn’t question, you were you, your kind, thoughtful, mindful, and beautiful self, I am forever thankful and grateful to you. I am so thankful to have grown up beside you. 13 years of us. Fifi and Safi. two peas in a pod. Whether it is us as an end game or us as bridesmaids for each other, I still do, and will always want you in my life. i love you.

Happyyy Boyfriend’s Dayyyy MyyyKunjjuuuuu🥺🥺🥺🥺💋💋💋💋 Illoovveeyoouuhhhssoossooommuucchhh🥺🥺no matterr how muchh wee fight orr arguee, I could nevrr stopp lovvinng youu😭 i just want us to bee enough for each other and I don’t want anyone else to come btw uss😔🫂🫂 I want it to always be you and me🥺👉🏻👈🏻togetherrr no mattr whatt happens ill neverr leavee uu and ill always bee here for you😌🫀 andd uu bitchhh pleasee send mee your vdeos and photos😭 i realyy miss getting random snaps frm yuu😔💔 ig u hatee mee😔💔💔💔💔 yuu havee noo ideaa how happyy itt makess mee🥺😔 just spamm mee bitchh gotit?😔 soo byyee guyyss mmwuuahhh illovveyouhhsoososmuuchh heheeh🥺🫀💋

i will miss you dearly and all your brightness and laughter you bring into the room. i wish i could've logged more of those moments so i could look back even with my bad memory. you always manage to make everything a bit more bearable these past 2 years and i always look forward to seeing you everyday. i really wish i didnt have to go, and i know you probably won't remember me, but i wanted you to know that everything you've said, done or just leisurely added onto your conversations will stick with me through life, and know that i will always remember you. i wish i didn't have to go and leave everything behind, i just wish i could stay a couple more years, i don't want this to end. as much as i dont want you to forget me, i know you eventually will, but know that you've changed my life so much in such a small timespan and that i will always carry your catchphrases, funny memories and everything reminiscient of you when i leave. i'm so sorry if you dislike me because you're disappointed, or that im annoying, or you just don't like me overall. sorry if i talk to you and you really want to get away. im sorry, but thank you so much.

hello sayang, i’ve got something for you. i guess this is my best way to saying sorry, thank you, hehe. i’ve been thinking about what i wanted to say, and there are some things i wish i could say to you perfectly, but i don’t think words will ever be enough for everything. still, i want to try, because you deserve to know how much your presence has come to mean to me. you’ve become such a comforting part of my days, and i feel genuinely lucky that i get to know and love someone like you. you’re one of the kindest and loveliest people i’ve ever met, and there’s so much about you that makes me grateful it’s you. i know i’m not always the easiest person to understand. sometimes my thoughts get tangled and i can be a little all over the place. but you never make me feel ashamed of any of it. instead, you meet me with patience, understanding, and a softness that i honestly didn’t know i needed. you somehow make space for all the parts of me without ever making me feel like they make me less worthy of being loved. i love the way you always know how to reassure me, even when i don’t know how to ask for it. the way you listen, the way you care, the way you communicate with me, and the way you handle my feelings with so much understanding. i notice all of those little things, even when i don’t always say it. being loved by you has made my days feel a little softer. you’ve given me a kind of comfort i didn’t know i needed, and a kind of love that feels safe, warm, and sincere. there’s something really special about knowing i have you to come home to, someone i can be completely myself with and still feel loved. i could probably write a million thank yous and still feel like none of them would be enough for everything you’ve given me. so maybe i’ll just keep showing you instead, in the way i love you, the way i care for you, and in all the little ways i hope you’ll always feel how much you mean to me. so, thank you, my love. thank you for finding me, for staying with me, and for loving me as i am. out of all the people i could have met, i’m incredibly grateful that somehow, it was you. and thank you for being you, kez. i’m so, so happy that it’s you. i love you so much, sayang. more than these words can hold.

Chère univers merci de m'avoir envoyé beaucoup d'argent dans un portefeuille qui a été laissé sur le trottoir dans la rue que j'ai trouvé durant une de mes marches. merci aussi de m'avoir envoyé un amoureux qui cherchait la même chose que moi celle d'une relation sérieuse pour l'éternité et menant au mariage et aux enfants. je te remercie univers de m'avoir envoyé ces deux choses là dans ma vie. merci encore univers

I miss you so much. It hurts so bad. But it is what it is, choosing to distance myself is an act of self-respect. Going back to you now, or even trying to start a conversation with you again, would be disrespectful, not just to me, but to the version of myself that suffered for about a year. You were so mean. Why did you do this to me? I was always there for you whenever you needed me. But I have no regrets about all the energy, mental strength, and physical effort I invested in our friendship. My only mistake was hoping I'd get back the same things I gave. I wish you all the best in life, and please don't do this to anyone else. It hurts so bad, for real.

I love you, so much. I hope you know how much you mean to me, No matter what happens when you're in New York. Ill be here waiting. Like I said I would. Ill always Wait for you darling. Wear your seatbelt. Much Love -Dance

Dear daniella I honestly didn't think I'd miss you this much. 🥹 Ever since you transferred to another school, things just feel a little different without you here. I miss hanging out with you, laughing about random things, talking about everything and nothing, and all those little moments we used to have together. Sometimes I catch myself wishing you were still here so we could just hang out like we used to. 😭💗 Even though we're in different schools now, I hope you know that distance won't erase our friendship or the memories we've made. I really hope we can still find time to see each other, catch up, and make more memories together. I miss you so much, bestie. 🥹🫶 Thank you for all the memories, the laughter, and for being someone I could always enjoy being around. I hope your new school treats you well, but don't forget about me, okay? 😭💗 With lots of love, Your kyuttt bespren 🫶🌷

I don't really know how to start this without making things awkward, but I think I owe it to myself to finally say it. I really, really like you. Like… more than I probably should. And honestly, I don't even know if I can still call it just a crush. There are moments when I genuinely wonder if I've already fallen in love with you without even realizing it. Maybe somewhere along the way, what started as something fleeting became something far more profound than I ever intended it to be. And that's probably why I'm saying this now. I want this to be my last time liking you. Maybe even my last time allowing myself to fall for you. Not because I suddenly stopped caring, and definitely not because I regret ever liking you. It's actually the opposite. I like you so much that I've realized I have to stop myself before I become too deeply attached to something I'm still uncertain about. Because as much as I'd like to believe that feelings are enough, I know they're not always. I don't want to enter a relationship while I'm still questioning what I truly feel or what I actually want. I don't want something as meaningful as a relationship to begin from uncertainty, only for that uncertainty to eventually hurt either of us. Maybe this is simply my way of accepting what feels inevitable. I guess.. that's also why I chose to tell you this now. Before I finally let this feeling go, I want you to know that there was a time when I really, really, really liked you (yes, believe it or not binabaliw mo ako that time (╥⁠﹏⁠╥) ). More than I ever intended to. Maybe I even loved you—I honestly don't know. And perhaps I'll never know for certain. But I think that's okay. Not every feeling needs a name for it to have been real, gosh I'm so out of word right now. Bro I'm trying my best to make this message more long and I guess I'm trying my best to word out this jumbled feelings of mine. HAHAHA I'm prolly spouting nonsense rn 💔. And yeah… part of me still thinks you're way wayyy out of my league anyway 😭. Maybe I just see you as someone took far above me, and maybe that's another reason why I need to take a step back. Not because you're unreachable, but because I don't want to lose myself in the possibility of something that may never exist. But more than anything, I don't want this confession to ruin our friendship. Because if I'm being completely honest, what we have as friends means more to me than whatever could possibly happen between us. Our friendship has become something I genuinely cherish, and I don't think I could ever bring myself to trade something that precious for a possibility. So I'm not telling you this because I want an answer. I'm not confessing because I expect you to feel the same way. I just want you to know. I want to leave this feeling with honesty instead of carrying it with me in silence. After this, I'll try to relinquish this feeling little by little. Maybe it won't happen immediately, and siguro I'll still have moments where I miss you or wonder about the what ifs. But I'll let myself move forward. Because sometimes, caring about someone means knowing when to stop yourself from falling deeper. And when I finally do move on, I hope I'll be able to look back at all of this without regret. I hope I'll remember you not as someone I couldn't have, but as someone who made me feel something I never expected to feel. And despite everything, I'm genuinely grateful that I got to atleast admire you I've noticed that lately, I've been trying to become the best version of myself. I've been trying to grow, to be kinder, to do better, and to become someone I'm proud of. And honestly, I don't think I would've become this version of myself if it weren't for you. Maybe that's one of the things I'll always be grateful for—that even if these feelings eventually fade, they changed me in ways I never expected. Liking you made me want to become better, and for that, I'll always be thankful 🙂. Whatever happens after this, I hope we can still be us. I'll always cherish our friendship. I'll always be grateful for every conversation, every laugh, every little moment that somehow became important to me. Maybe this is closure for me. Maybe it's simply acceptance. But either way, this is probably the last time I'll tell you that I like you. So… before I let it all go— I really, really like you. - J (Let it go~ Let it go~HAHAHA Ps. naalala ko lang yan song na ”Let It Go”😭) Your initials just in case you find this lolll (KJBT). Ts is so freaking riskyy, I'm sending this here first before I send it to you, since I'm still not ready to tell you whatever ts is.

its been past a week since you decided to put a break in our relationship, and i figured i would be seeing you less and less often. we barely speak as much as we did too, and i know its all my fault. the way i was only doing the bare minimum. how i took you for granted. but i know you didn’t want to do this, that you hold some love for me (the same love you had to hold back to make what we currently have now ‘work’) and despite it all, i respect that you wanted to choose yourself first. still, i love you, and i can never stop loving you. i’ll wait for you until you’re ready, and when i’m mentally prepared to have our future together. and if you do stop loving me and move on, i pray that you find someone who can love and accept you as much as i did.

good morningg, semoga tidurnya cukup dan bangunnya enak yaa. semoga hari ini semuanya lancar dan nggak ada yang bikin kamu cape banget. jangan lupa sarapan sama jaga kesehatan, semangat buat hari ini 🤍

我曾经希望，至少我还能继续和你聊天。可是即使我离开了，我还是觉得我的存在对你来说好像也不会有什么不同。 看到我曾经那么想要在你心里拥有的位置，看着自己花了那么多时间、那么努力地想要得到它，却发现你生命里一个新出现的人，只用了很短的时间就做到了，这真的让我很难过。 我只是希望，至少你对我可以不要那么冷淡。到最后，我甚至连作为朋友留在你身边都做不到。我只觉得自己好像一直都是你的负担。 我总是在想，我好像从来都没真正有机会了解更多关于你的事情。我甚至不知道那是不是你的真名。我会忍不住想，也许她只用了很短的时间认识你，就已经知道了那些我一直以来都很想知道、却始终没能了解的关于你的事情。 这个月，刚好也是我们当初认识彼此的那个月。 对不起。我希望你依然能以一个好的方式记得我。我真的希望有一天，我还能找到回到你身边的路。 可是我又觉得，为了抓住你、为了不让你离开，我好像已经丢掉了太多自己的尊严。 对不起，真的对不起。 我真的很想你。