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Hope you know what I feel for you is genuine

I want to get to know you so badly, but I'm scared my heart will give up on me when I do. But even so, I'll still try, 'cause I'll never know if I don't. I just get tense whenever you're near, and I can't bring myself to look away, but you just look so damn gorgeous in those glasses. All my four eyes can't even conceive the look on your face because I'm too busy admiring how you move. I promise one day I'll write a song about how pretty you are. Please forgive me if I take too long to send you a message, I'm too busy thinking about when the right time is.

i was about to sleep na sana pero super heavy la gihap ha pakiramdan an nangyari kagab-e, that was the first time i cried that much bc of something between us. aram koma bb na i made mistakes, and kaya ko it panindigan tak mga sala ngan dire ak mag d-deny hit mga sugad hit nga bagay kay gusto ko mag kaintindihay la kita, i still want to learn from every mistake i made and i really want to prove to you nga kaya ko mag bag-o and i can do much better pa. gusto ko patunayan haim nga kaya ko bumawi not just by saying "im sorry jolnu, dire na mauulit" but by actually showing na im willing to change everything para hit ikaka-upay haat. gusto ko pa ig reassure ikaw through chat pero at the same time, gusto ko daman ig ikaw reassure in person, i want you to see for yourself nga nag-sisi talaga ak for everything i put you through and how genuinely sorry i am, parang kasi dire pa enough it mga yakan through chat, so gusto ko personally it yakan haim pero everytime kasi nga nag uupod kita, permi la kita nag titinawa tas parang waray nangyari haat hahaha sugad la hin nag p-pretend kita nga okay kita bisan dire, asya it nga na dire nala ak mag sumat kay na dire ak masira it at moment ngan gi kakaruyagi kola kitaon ka nga happy whenever you are with me. tas bb, i didn’t even realize na you were already bothered by those things, hooo haha gagalingi kasi ikaw mag tago tim naf-feel, and sometimes i don't even notice that something is bothering you dahil hit ngaim gi gagalingi nala hin ura-ura nga nag titinago la permi hit nararamdaman but just like what i told you before, bisan sugad ka hit, i will never get tired of trying to understand you pero ayaw gad daman pag abusoha it ak pag iinintindi haim. i don’t want us to reach a point where i get tired of always trying to figure out what’s bothering you or kun okay la ba ikaw, na dire ak mangyari it haak bb ha, i really don't want to reach a point where we are both tired na tas dire na kita maaram kun ano it at bubuhaton para ma fix it at problems. gusto ko patunayan haim nga im the kind of girl who can love you through your mistakes, tim mga flaws, tim insecurities, tim bad days, and even the parts of yourself that you think nga makuri ka mahalon or intindihon. gusto ko maging comfortable and safe enough ka to tell me everything, even the things you are scared i might not understand. i saw your reposts daman, tas nasiring ikaw nga nai-insecure ka dahil tak mga guy friends (dire koma talaga it hira sangkay talaga nga sangkay, mga demonyo ma it) pero yk what bb? you really don’t have to be insecure about yourself kun nakikita la nim it mga bagay nga nakikita ko haim, ma i-inlove nga ngani. i love the way you smile, i love the way you make me laugh, tas tim mata nga nawawara ngin na smileeee ikawwww, and the way you laugh, especially ngin ako it reason kun kay-ano ka nag titinawa tas happy, those things might seem normal la haim, pero haak dire it bb, i promiseeeeee. i noticed more about you than u probably realize. taaas kun aram la nim nga you are the man i always dreamed of having, dire ko in gin yayakan just to make yoh feel better, naawod laak hin danay pag susumat haim kay bangin ka ma cringe HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, pero seryoso ak bb ha. i really wish you could see yourself the way i see you para ma realize nim kun gaano ikaw ka special haak, then you'd probably understand why i love you this much. nah-hurt daman ak bb han na realized ko nga nai-insecure na ikaw bc that's already showing nga nagiging bad gf naak haim and it made me question myself daman, tas iniisip ko nga im not doing enough to make you feel comfortable around me, gi souli gad bb kay na dire ak ma feel nim nga dire ikaw enough para haak. pero aram nim it nakakasoul haak hin sobra? this is actually the first time im telling you this bc i've never experienced this kind of feeling before tas dire dama ak maaram kun paano ko in ig sisiring in a proper way, nahadlok daman ak mag sumat haim kay aram ko iisipon nanaman nim nag nakiki-sabay ak tim mood or im saying this para ka malouy haak, pero intindiha ak bb ha? please la hahahaha tas maiha kona gad in udog gusto ig sumat haim, dire laak nakaka timing tas pag mag uupod na kita kunta in person then mag susumat na kunta ak nagiging masaya nala kita bigla tas nag titinawa kita, so gin k-keep ko nala in kay na dire ak masira it at moment and like what i said in the second paragraph nga gi karuyagi kola permi ikaw nakikita nga happy pag upod ak nim. so here it is na, i really get insecure daman bb. naalala pa nim an nag walking kita tas nag tambay kita ha rawis? and out of nowhere, nag yakan ka nga "yadi ngani hatag in nga shoes han ak ex" hahahaha ambot kun naalala panim, i just smileed at you that time and stayed quiet. i even acted it was nothing, uhm i did feel insecure and jealous, yes dire ko ig d-deny. i just didn’t know how to tell you without you thinking nga gin c-control ko ikaw kay bb, that came from someone mga minahal nim hin sobra sobraaaaa han im past, and im not saying this bc i want you to stop using or wearing the things your ex gave to you tas dire ma it basta-basta ma e-erase an mga nangyari before me. gusto kola maintindihan nim kun ano it nakakasoul haak. tas dire ko daman mapigilang mag hinunahuna nga "what if naalala niya an ira mga memories whenever he sees those things?" or "what if those things still remind him of her?” and sometimes, i even ask myself if you see her in me, if there’s something about me that reminds you of her, if i’m actually the kind of person you wanted, or if i’m just someone who came after her and somehow became the replacement of what you lost, aram ko tanga isipon it mga bagay nga sugad hit, pero di ko kasi maiwasan it mag hinuna-huna hit sugad hit. tas usa pa, i also get insecure pag nagiging part ta nala bigla hit at conversation tim past, sugad hat nga kan kobi & divina, omfg hwhahaha an siniring ka nga "bulag nama it hira" haha wara koma ngani hit pake haira so why do have you to tell me those things? ngan how did you even know nga wara na hira? but nvm, respeto nala daman bb haha. na dire ak bb nga ma guilty ka for having a past, na dire laak nga gin t-topic it nim, pero okay mala at haak han first nim nga pag storya haira kay naiintindihan koma lugod at an iyo situation that time, pero gi iibahi na yana. and i’m really trying, bb. i am. i’m trying to be more patient and understanding kay na dire talaga ak maging insecure ngan selosa hit sugad hit nga mga bagay tas na dire ak nga ig c-carry it nim nga problema, i know you have your own feelings and your own things you’re trying to deal with, asya nga gin t-try ko permi tak best para maging less heavy it imo gin c-carry nga mga problema. gusto kola nga maintindihan ak nim ngan ma gets ak nim, kay habang gin t-try kona tanan ngan tak best para maintindihan tim feelings, i realized that i was always carrying my own insecurities tas it masoul pa kay we both have things that we are scared to say to each other, i don't want us to keep hurting each other dara la kay parehas kita nahadlok maging honest, i want us to be comfortable enough to tell everything that's bothering us instead nga ig sisinarali la, edi mas mas-sul an la kita and i hope you know that behind all my mistakes and for everything nga at pinagdadaan, aadi la gihap ak nag mamahal haim and still trying my best to learn how to love you better. but don't worry bb ha, okay na po ak hiheuhehehe, kay nasiring kona gihap an ak gusto ig yakan bisan kun through notes la in, i hope we can become better for each other. i love youuuu so much, jolnu. thank you for everything bb.

Hi Mishika, Happy belated birthday to you! 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗 I’m so sorry I couldn’t get this to you sooner. I had my exams in January and everything just got so hectic, and honestly, I completely passed out after them. I hope you had an absolute blast. I really wish I could’ve been there, but it’s fine. It’s fine now. 😭 But yeah… it still feels so weird. I genuinely cannot digest the fact that we’re not together anymore. It’s all a little crazy-ex coded, but I guess it’s fine. 😂 I really, really hope that someday we get to meet again. And congratulations on becoming the House Vice-C! I’m SO proud of you. I knew it. I literally knew it in my bones that you were going to become the House Vice-C. You deserve it so much, and seeing you achieve it makes me genuinely happy. I love you so much, and I wish you nothing but prosperity, success, happiness, and so many good things in the future. I hope life gives you everything you’ve ever wished for and that you continue to do amazing things. Once again, happy belated birthday and congratulations, Mishika. Bye-bye, take care and stay amazing. <3

i’ll miss you as well, take care

it’s 5am in the morning and my thoughts are running.. i remember every picture of you smiling and laughing. im not sure how stupid i can get to fall for you. though, i am grateful, you have saved me from the depths of depression during that time we were together. short, but those were real. my feeling and care for you are genuine.. i wished we could have extend those days. i did what i can for you to stay. however, i have foreseen that you will walk on a different path someday. it just did not pop into my head that it will be sooner.. i am still cheering for your happiness and good fortune. i miss you so much amo!

hi, my almost. you know i'm a man hater, but somehow, you made me soft in a way i never expected. you became the exception to everything, but only you. i don't feel hatred toward you; instead, i feel loved and cared for. and please, don't overthink things. just live your life peacefully. if i'm the reason you've been bothered, i'm sorry. i know there are probably still a lot of “what ifs” left in you from that day when we stopped talking. and i know that whatever happened between us was real, and i don't want to pretend that it wasn't. so please, take care of yourself always. and stay away from smokers, baby 😭 if you can, please avoid smoking too. i genuinely want you to take care of yourself.

hi, my almost. you know i'm a man hater, but somehow, you made me soft in a way i never expected. you became the exception to everything, but only you. i don't feel hatred toward you; instead, i feel loved and cared for. and please, don't overthink things. just live your life peacefully. if i'm the reason you've been bothered, i'm sorry. i know there are probably still a lot of “what ifs” left in you from that day when we stopped talking. and i know that whatever happened between us was real, and i don't want to pretend that it wasn't. so please, take care of yourself always. and stay away from smokers, babyy 😭 if you can, please avoid smoking too. i genuinely want you to take care of yourself.

I feel lost , I just get part of a lot if things , not excellent in one , I just wanna one way I can keep in , it's so confusing , I'm tired and have no trust , overthinking . I don't know when my real chance or way will come.

hi jinan, i hope you’re doing well in life right now and i understand how stressful things can be especially when you just turned 20. i’m sorry i didn’t get to celebrate your birthday but i hope you know that i love your energy and company. i pray 21 will be a better year for you. love, 🔐

hey you, by this time im sure you already achieved. but if not, then continue

Hi, moshie. You probably won't know who this is. But I miss you so much. Ever since our break up I never stopped thinking about you. How Ironic. I was the one who gave up on us but I'm also the one who can't seem to move forward. I accidentally saw you. You looked so happy. While me, I'm barely holding on. I didn't want to end us there. But the situation was just not right. I never wanted us to separate, believe me. Now, I just wish you all the happiness, Moshie. Back then, when we first met on Roblox. I never thought we'd be more than friends. I thought we'd just play, talk and that's it. And back when we also played MLBB, gosh that was so embarrassing. I was pretty new that time. You could probably tell on the way I play. I was never trully honest with you, Vien. And maybe that's what pushed me to make that decision. You're too good for me. You told me everything about you. And me? I just told you what I wanted you to know. I still love you even after the day we broke up, 2022 I think? And you reached out to me back in 2023. But yeah, I said something stupid, which is not true. I miss you so much, Vienne. I'm confident you won't see this, hehe. – FINN

I do like u, i hope na napaparating ko ng malinaw at seryoso na gusto kita. I've seen some na u missed someone and it hurts me yk. Hindi ko naman pwede idikta ang mga bagay bagay but im hoping na mapunta ka man sa alinman, sana ay maging masaya ka, always take care of yourself ganda, lovelots!

I do like u, i hope na napaparating ko ng malinaw at seryoso na gusto kita. I've seen some na u missed someone and it hurts me yk. Hindi ko naman pwede idikta ang mga bagay bagay but im hoping na mapunta ka man sa alinman, sana ay maging masaya ka, always take care of yourself ganda, lovelots!

I do like u, i hope na napaparating ko ng malinaw at seryoso na gusto kita. I've seen something na u missed someone and it hurts me yk. Hindi ko naman pwede idikta ang mga bagay bagay but im hoping na mapunta ka man sa alinman, sana ay maging masaya ka, always take care of yourself ganda, lovelots!

hope you'll find your way back to me<3

i am crying over you on my fav song... i think i need help

Chère univers merci de m'avoir envoyé beaucoup d'argent dans un portefeuille qui a été laissé sur le trottoir dans la rue que j'ai trouvé durant une de mes marches. merci aussi de m'avoir envoyé un amoureux qui cherchait la même chose que moi celle d'une relation sérieuse pour l'éternité et menant au mariage et aux enfants. je te remercie univers de m'avoir envoyé ces deux choses là dans ma vie. merci encore univers

I’m sorry, Roojin. I fell in love with you. I never meant for it to make things complicated, and I never wanted to hurt you or make you feel responsible for my feelings. I just did. And I wish I could turn it off sometimes, but I can’t.

the part of me that still loves you misses the part of you that loved me. my heart aches when you cross my mind, remembering all you meant to me. it’s healthy that we stay strangers. i don’t recognize you anymore