Goodbye

Çok istiyorum özür dileyelim birbirimizden, oturup anlaşalım, konuşup anlaşılamayacak sorun değildi bizimki. Ama istemedin, ben de geri çekildim. Arada özlüyorsun, storylerime bakıyorsun biliyorum, belki sen de yazmak istiyorsun ama -iyi biliyorum ki- benim sert duvarlarımı, senin tekrardan reddedilme korkusu geri çekiyor seni. Bir cesaret bulsan, geri dönsek, unutsak her şeyi. Belki de kafada kuruyorum ve özlediğin kişi ben değilim, ya eski sevgilin -fotoğrafları bile duruyor- ya da başka bir kız var. Herkes bana “senin gibi bir kız, böyle erkeklere bakmaz” diyor, kusura bakma ama haklılar da, belki de bu korkutuyor seni, ama inan ki gerçekten gece 3’te sarhoş halinle yazdığın bir “özledim” mesajı yeterdi yeniden başlamamıza. Benim ilk defa bu kadar açıldığım, ilk defa yakınlaştığım erkeksin. Sadece 1 haftalık, senin gözünde hiçbir şey bunu biliyorum, belki de varlığımı bile unuttun , çünkü ben insan içinde görünmezim. Ama benim gibi zor seven birisi için çok önemli. O mesaj gelmeyecek, her şey bitti. Bir gün başkalarını seveceğiz, onlar için güleceğiz, ağlayacağız. Bir gün gerçek aşkı bulacağız. Böylesi daha iyi olacak. Benim için her zaman “ilk öpüşme hikayem” olarak canlı kalacaksın. Ama sen bir gün beni unutacaksın. Kendine iyi bak olur mu? Bir de son ricam, eğer mümkünse, beni güzel anar mısın? Hoşça kal benim tatlı ilk öpücüğüm :)

hi my love. you showed up in my life when everything felt empty and somehow you make it feel like i matter again which is impossible for people to do but you make it possible. being with you feels safe in a way i didn't even know i was missing. i felt like i was missing so much in my life until you spawned in it and everything got better. i’ll love you for eternity. i’ve never felt so connected with someone. you actually understand me without me having to say everything. when i wasn’t ok, you were there. and i’ll adore you for that and if it’s possible i’ll find you in every lifetime that i live in. i love you my love🪽

I wonder how you are to be honest i really do regret our relationship i hope you're happy tho but tbh i want nothing to do with you idk if it's to harsh but dude like i really really really regret na pinatulan kita kasi to think i gave my first kiss and etc to you and in he end you were just a phase lesson learned ka lng so sadd anyways I'm sorry for the hurt i caused you ad I'm sorry because i started this but im glad i was the one to end it - someone who wishes they never knew u 🥰-C.Y

Dear Fayez, I think one of the biggest regrets I carry is leaving without saying goodbye. And sometimes I wonder if you hated me for that. Or maybe you waited for me to come back while I kept pretending I was okay walking away from someone I loved so deeply. The truth is, I was not okay at all. There were so many things I wanted to say, but I was afraid of my own feelings. Afraid that if I spoke to you one more time, I would stay. So I disappeared instead, and I know that must have hurt you. You were never just a phase to me. You were my first love, the person who knew my heart from miles away. Even now, after all these years, a part of me still feels guilty for ending our story. I told myself to move on. I tried. I remember you told me that I should find someone better than you and is worth my time. I really did. I found someone who treats me good, someone who stays, someone who tries. But a part of me is still looking for you in everything he does. And I feel so guilty for that because I don't have a choice. It's like choosing reality or I'll keep fantasizing that we will meet one day.. that your family will like me.. that we will have our dream family. He is good to me… but sometimes I still wish it was you. I wish it was you loving me. I wish it was you choosing me everyday.. staying with me. I wish you fought for me the way I always hoped you would. And you knew that. I'm sorry.. I'm really sorry but I think we're better off this way. I wanted you to fight for me, Fayez. I wanted to feel like losing me would matter enough for you to hold on tighter. I got tired of carrying the relationship alone while pretending I was still happy. Leaving you was not easy for me. It felt like tearing my own heart apart and forcing myself to live without it. But staying was hurting me too. And I did not know which pain was worse anymore. I need you here with me because I only love you and it hurts seeing someone new who is not you.. but It doesn't matter now right? You'll move on right? I know you'll find a great woman whom your family will love. If I could go back, I would thank you for everything.. for every moment you made me feel loved. I would tell you that leaving you was one of the hardest things I ever did. And God knows I don't want to do that. I want you to know that I never stopped thinking of you. I never stopped caring. Maybe in another life, we met at the right time. Maybe in another world, we were less broken, we were less complicated. Maybe there, we finally got the ending we used to dream about. But in this life, all I can do is carry the memory of you with me. Not as something I regret loving, but as someone who once became my whole world. I hope this letter will reach you, and I hope that someday when you read it, you will have already become the person you always wanted to be. Fayez, I want to say this for one last time. I love you, infinity. — Angela

Hi, Lucia Just wanted you to know that at first, I picked sunflowers to be my favorite because they reminded me of you. I loved you back then. Even if you told me how you thought I was stupid and useless I would have still loved you. Even when I dated other people. To me you were blinding. But you didnt like girls. And I think you struggled to like me, even as a friend. I hope you find a handsome, strong man that plays volleyball. And I hope you read this. Its relieving in a way. I hope you listen to rises the moon and remember me. You hummed that song once. It was pretty.

Hi jagiyaa I hope your doing well :) I know you don't wanna speak to me anymore but I keep seeing somewhere and I wanna Tell you I'm soo proud of you, I'm sorry I called you my best friend too fast when you just thought of me as a person, but thank you for teaching me the best things in life don't last, I know I'm not you yvaine anymore, I wish I still was but I know you can't keep pushing for us, I thank you for trying and telling me sooner other than just disappearing :) I love you! -yvaine

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Cherry, I love you so much. Its like sharing everything with a sister who actually gets it. Yes, I stalk you reposts. Yes, I wonder what you are up to all the time and Yes, I think about you whenever I have s*icidal thoughts. So, as my final act of love, I will not say when I am going to commit. Because...I want you to think that I am alive and living well even if it only lasts a week, a day or even an hour. Im sorry for leaving you.

i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you please come back i will do anything for you i will worship you i will treat you like a fucking god come back my love please please please come back i beg you i will never find anyone like you i will never see anyone the same way as you i'd do anything please come back please please please you're my first thought in the morning and the last thought as i go to bed you're everything to me and it hurts it hurts nothing feels good without you i want you so bad anything for you

Goodbye… I know I had promised to never contact you again, trust me, I tried my best but my heart couldn’t leave without saying goodbye As I’m writing this, my eyes are full of tears, I’m still hurt and full of pain. The decision I took of cutting you off my life wasn’t because i didn’t love you anymore, but it’s because I loved you so much that I wanted you to be happy. I knew that I wasn’t where your happiness lied, so I wanted to give you a chance to do whatever it is that you wanted, without me interrupting all the time. I also needed to choose myself because I finally realised that you were you were never gonna choose me and that’s okay because people are allowed to love whoever they want to love. I know you never apologised but I want you to know that forgive you for all the pain that you’ve caused me, I feel like I have to let everything go before I go.. I didn’t want to carry this onto my new chapter, By the time you read this, I will probably be on a flight going back home or I have probably arrived, I just wanted to make sure that I send this before I leave the grounds of the city because I knew I wouldn’t have the heart to see you again, it would’ve probably hurt me more. Anyways, it’s alright, I guess the last thing I want to say is that I always wonder what happened, maybe one day you will explain it to me, and maybe on that day I’ll fully understand… until then I hope you live your best life and really do all the things you said you would.. As for me? I’ll be in my hometown pursuing my dreams, if you ever find yourself that side one day, give me a call… But for now, goodbye Lots of love, MM

the Nana to my Hachi was a Trans guy from another continent I guess you could say we ended up like them, huh? Would you rather forget those times, R? I won’t. I snatched this song from you back when I was working on that project too large for me to do alone. I’ve stopped listening to it since. There’s a lot to be grateful for and a lot to keep me faithful. It simply lives in the back of my mind.

AOA maam, i hope ur doing well and i hope uve made ur dinner when uve read this(u mentioned about it). (Sorry about the slang here btw u said this wont be graded :p) First of all, thanku for being an amazing teacher who knows and understands how to communicate with their students. Not many teachers are aware of it. And thanku for caring about ur students too. Thanku for everything uve done for us this semester. It HAS been a lovely 16 weeks with u and i really wished they weren't online too. It really ended too soon for my liking. If i had a wish, id wish for 16 more labs with u as a teacher, irrespective of the course. Initially we were scared we wouldn't get a teacher as nice as Sir Umer(for Functional English Lab), but u were the perfect sequel to him as a lab instructor. I wish one day u complete ur Masters in English so u can teach theory too(i guess thats how it works? idk im sorry for projecting, but sir Umer mentioned something related to it). We have a course later in our degrees related to writing and i guess thats the closest we'll ever get to having u as our teacher again, and i really hope that happens. U were my fav teacher this semester, no regrets in that Thanku for being cool, awesome and a Gen-Z overall. Hope to see u in the hallways in Autumn. And thanku for the perks! I hope u liked our little note and perk too(i wish we had the bigger version of the perk)😭 Its rare to cross paths with a teacher like u Keep being u, however u are rn Sir umer might have told u i like music so i wanted to ask about a blend but i was scared(and shy) so here's a link to that: Pspspspsps has invited you to join a Blend on Spotify. Join on the Spotify mobile app. https://open.spotify.com/blend/taste-match/b69285a2f76eb6fd?si=VEVKkBfNQz-uuesxZuBfVw&fallback=getapp&blendDecoration=5f9c38d2 I wanted to add this in the spotify link but i wanted to recommend u an album or song there. Idk what to choose so im gonna add the link to my favourite song of all time. Thanku for reading this, and i wish the best for u in ur life may Allah make it easy for u! And sorry for all the inconveniences ive caused in classes WE'LL MISS U. Idk about the others but I DEFINITELY WILL TAKE CARE BYEEEEEEEEE

I just want to say that we had a great class and we enjoyed a lot during our whole semester but we can't enjoy a little bit during online sessions. I do apologize on behalf of all the class if we ever made a mistake and a huge apology about the little inconvenience in our physical class during our initial weeks, we bothered the class and did not pay attention during our lab of debate between students, in which you got angry and left the class without taking left over the presentations. Please accept my apology and we are really sorry about that inconvenience. And one thing I want to say is that it was not your fault at all. The meaning of my apology is just so that you forgive us. It is not for you to feel embarrassed or guilty about how you treated us. You treated us so well and we deserve that because it was not your fault. It was totally on us, so don't take it on yourself, please. You are a very good teacher. You are a great teacher. It was a great class. You explained everything very clearly and made us a little bit harder worker and more disciplined. Thank you for this attention and this whole time.

And for everyone reading this, please be careful with everyones feelings. And keep loving, with all your heart. It’s hurtful many times, but it’s also really worth it. ahoj martinku, To be honest, I don’t even know if I still have the privilege to call you that. You see... I never wanted to hurt you. I always wanted only the best for you, even if it doesn’t look like that right now. I tried to end this so many times... but I just couldn’t. I couldn't let go. You were willing to do everything for me. You wanted to move to the other side of the world for me, and I know you would have done anything I asked. I know you love me, maybe too much. I don’t even know where to start, how to tell you everything, even though I know you’ll probably never read this. But that’s okay, maybe it’s better this way, though I wish something in this letter would help you understand everything and move on. Recently, I came across the song beautiful by joji, and it describes our entire situation perfectly. I really can’t say anything in my defense, I have no excuses. Everything is my fault and I can’t take it back. If I could, I would do anything to not hurt you like this. Because you were my precious boy. muj martinek. God, I wish I could tell you one more time that I love you and how much I love you. You mean absolutely everything to me. I don’t know how to move on, but I know we both have to. And we will both make it. I always used to say it’s stupid to be sad after a breakup, that we’ll always meet another person who will fulfill us just as much or more. But now I understand. I can’t imagine it. I gave you everything of myself. Even if some parts were a lie, the real me is what I gave you. I gave you my heart, and I don’t think anyone will ever give it back to me. I love you, so much, I dream about you every night. It was never fair to drag you into my chaos, but you always stayed, and I loved you even more for it. Just so you know, I’m sorry. I wish we could both just put a white flag on our walls and sweep up all the shards I caused. But I know that’s not right. But damn baby, you were supposed to be my savior, but I ended up being the one you needed saving from. And for my final act of love, I will let you forget me. I’ll let you place me in the farthest corner of your mind, making sure that nothing I ever did will bother you again. I’ll close my eyes, drift through space, only our memories keeping me afloat. Not because I hate you, not because I want to, but because I care for you. I don’t want to make my regrets your own, or have my problems create yours. I want you to smile, laugh and cry. Feel all the emotions a human should feel, even if not with me. Because I know I cannot give you that gift. My love for you won’t fade, nor will it ever die. But your love for me will. You will become a mere speck in the huge universe lying before you. Yes, it will hurt, and of course it will sting. But in the end, to me, it’s all worth it. I would do anything for you. So for my final act of love, I will fade from your world, putting you first, just so you can be healthy. Even if it hurts. I’m such a full of shit, I speak of god but I sin, I speak about kindness but I’ve hurt people, I speak about growth but I fall back into old habits, I speak of loyalty but I’ve betrayed people, I speak about having a positive mind but sometimes I’m sad, I speak about healing but I’m still broken in places. You are my biggest “what if,” you are my biggest weakness, enemy and fear, and still, I wish I could run into your arms. It is really hard for me to accept that until I leave this earth I’m gonna be always so tangled. I know I have to get myself out of the hole I’m in, because there’s no one else to dig me out. But somehow, not a single day has gone by where you didn’t cross my mind. I miss you in ways I can’t even explain. I miss your laugh, your voice, the way you made everything feel lighter. Even the smallest things about you stayed with me. And no matter how much I try to move forward, there are always moments, quiet, unexpected ones, that bring me right back to you… to us… to what we almost had. I know I hurt you, and that’s something I carry with me every day. It’s a kind of regret that doesn’t fade. You didn’t deserve any of it. But even with that pain, I want you to know how proud I am of you. Watching you become the person you once dreamed of being… it means more to me than you’ll ever know. You deserve every good thing that’s happening in your life right now. And even if I’m no longer part of your world, I’ll always be here, quietly, in the background, rooting for you, praying for you, wishing you happiness in ways I couldn’t give before. I love you… in the quiet, distant, unspoken way that stays even when everything else is gone. And no matter where life takes us, you will always have a place in my heart. I’m not writing this to get back to you, i know i can’t undo things that i’ve done. But i still love you, and that’s the thing that won’t change. I don’t have the courage to send to you. But maybe some of the audience here will, and if. I want you to know that, I’m so sorry for everything. You’ll always deserve the best, i hope one day you find someone amazing, who will be there for you. You’re never too much or too less. You’re always enough and the right person will see that. Please remember that and don’t let anyone hurt you like i did. Ty ses muj martinek proste.. hrozne si preju abych ti mohla rict jeste jednou ‘pocem ke mne’ nebo ze te miluju. pa kocicko moje. Vzdycky budu s tebou.

Writing this letter on the date of April, 2026. Probably the last time I'll ever write something about you. I'm writing this, as if hoping you'll ever see this letter at all but...hoping won't hurt at all for the time being. I've said this a lot to the letters I gave you on how much I am grateful I met you. Yes at first I may not seem to be interested with you, still recovering from a heartbreak and searching for something, too blind that time to see that it's there all along. Eventually, we got closer, like an ocean to a shore we've met. You're there, wild, uncertain flow, uncertain tide and me? I'm there, steady and unmoving like the sand where I always burry myself. We've met, out of curiosity perhaps, curious who are we or who are you to me. I though you'd be another one of those once in a lifetime crush I'd have in my life but then it's just the fact that I kept refusing to acknowledge was that slowly... I'm having feelings for you. For the long time, I was unaware of the reason why I'd get shy around you, why I suddenly have the feeling of wanting to see you, of being close to you. At first maybe it's because we're strangers and friend of a friend at best. Then we started to talk, didn't know you were that sweet like a candy in a very expensive store around the city. In all honesty all I saw in you was the wrapper, how people described your look but never your taste. It was addicting when I finally had a turn to do so. Still, I kept denying it, saying it's just a friendly feeling, a feeling of admiration but who would've thought that eventually I'd be honest enough to admit I fell for you. Hard. It was not part of the plan, you never were part of my plan yet somehow you barged in and left your shoes on the door and now...I can't seem to move it out. I confessed, It's still hard to accept it even to this day, the fact that I could've called you mine... my girlfriend...or.... in a perspective...I'd call you the flowers who blooms specifically for the moon and the moon itself to bask in it's cold yet bright light. Then again, we can't, but ever since I don't know how I'll move on from you like... why and how? maybe because I had a chance and we're both too afraid to see it? that we could've worked? Everyday since then, I always question myself... "why does an idiot like you stay in rundown place where you don't have anything". I don't know too. But I gotta let go, eventually, I can't keep holding on the rope while drowning underneath. It'll be the biggest joke ever. Perhaps... I'll move on, yeah, I will now. I will as the last day of April do so. You were the best, if not the best but the humblest girl I've ever loved. You taught me the effort, you taught me the patience, the courage, the strength...the hope and fear. I love you still...But I made a promise, I gotta let you go in exchange for my dreams. It hurts to love you... yet comforting too. Thank you... . Without you... I wouldn't be me. Farewell...I love you. I'll see you around.

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Hi. we wont be able to see each other again like ever, but im glad that you had become my friend before things fall apart. I wanna say youre such a mess and red flag but i guess we all have our own flaws and chaos. youre still a dick btw.

Why won't you reply? (I can see that you were online 28 minutes ago.) I know we're back to our old lives now and those 5 perfect days are over, but I thought we were close. Playing card games late into the hours of early morning? Sleeping over at their hotel room together and ordering McDonald's (Macca's in honor of Aussie) at 4am? Telling me to climb up into your bed on the high-speed train at 5 in the morning? All of that was barely over a week ago. I suppose it didn't matter to you nearly as much. I suppose you don't miss that trip nearly as much. But I thought you wouldn't completely forget the way we talked like we'd known each other for years. I won't hold it against you. And don't worry, I won't reach out again. Miss you, love you, thank you! This might be a real goodbye now!

I still am waiting for your answer, it’s so pathetic you’d probably never see this confessions right? I still like you. Sincerely so and it pains me on a daily basis to think you’d give no shits about me haha funny right? Cause who am I to be talking.

I loved you ever since we first met in fourth grade. You were so sweet to me and you understood me in a way no one ever has. I am autistic and you knew that before I knew myself and you helped me understand that about me, helped me accent that I wasn't broken, just different. We shared an interest in anime and video games and we liked talking trash about our teachers behind their backs all the time. We both loved the colour purple and we thought we were soulmates because we were each other's ideal preference for our partner's height and our birthdays were two days apart within the same year. I remember we used to do those dumb kinnie bingos and we always matched up as the characters that were known as the dynamic duos of their franchises. It was always so much fun. I didn't really realise it when we were young but I know now my love for you wasn't romantic, it was familial. But we still had a bond either way. We never forgot about each other and we approached each other again in 10th grade where I accidentally confessed to you and you told me you felt the same so we tried it out. But I kind of regret it.... Is what I used to say. I wanted to try for you because you were my close companion. I love you so much. Yet you didn't love me the way I loved you. We were only trying things out but you were so cruel to me. You had changed over the last ten years and it really hurt. I managed to tell you I wanted us to go back to being friends and you said it was okay but you still hated me, resented me for it. And I don't understand it. I never once got to tell you how you made me cry and made me miserable all the time. Then when me and my friend got into a stupid argument about the definition of the word "indirect" you told me you hated me because I got upset that you just stood there watching when they degraded me unwarratned. Even when i apologised to you, you hated me. And it used to hurt but it doesn't anymore. I got over it. I will never be able to tell you to your face these things because we'll never see each other again but I am better now. Stronger. You can never hurt me again and no one like you will be able to. I don't regret our relationship. I thank you for all the hurt you gave me because you made me stronger against people like you. And you made me aware of your type of people, I know how to protect myself now. I know what my worth is and it's much higher than what you deserved. I deserve more than to be treated like garbage. I want you to know that, hypothetically. You'll never know this but whatever. I heard you got a new girlfriend and I hope you either learn to treat women better or she leaves you to find a better girlfriend because you don't seem keen on changing. You're not the victim, you never were. Just grow up already and stop being an attention-seeker. I'm going to find someone who can truly love me one day and I'm gonna be so happy and you're gonna miss out on all of it. You're gonna miss when we dated. You're gonna miss when I still wanted to be yoour friend afterward. I told all my friends about what you did and I know what you did to them too. I know the pain you gave them. You're not a good person, you never were. It just took me 10 years to realise this. And now I'm grown-up and I know better now. So despite all of this... Thank you for helping me become stronger. Thank you for helping me stop being timid. Thank you for helping me love myself more. Thank you for helping me realise I am worthy of real love. Thank you for helping me respect myself. And thank you for teaching me what kind of people I should avoid. And thank you for all the happy memories that I do have with you. I'll still cherish them.