To my ex

Hey, I don’t think this is something I really want to talk about, but for the first time, I’m scared that I’m slowly forgetting you. From the way your face really looks, to the way your eyes crinkle when you smile, even down to the little line on your chin. You’ve turned 21, Nihar, and I don’t know how it’s just another normal day for me. It only hit me when I saw someone post about you. I’m so perplexed by the fact that I was terrified of facing this day, and somehow, I did. Im happy nihar , thanks for building me this way.

Sometimes I think about what we had, then I think about you. I barely know you. I knew your birthday, but I didn’t know what your favorite color was, nor know what animal you like, or how your life is at home. I wish I knew about those things. You told me I was the one that messed everything up, but I didn’t feel loved. You didn’t text me, you didn’t call, didn’t reach out. I always did. Until one day, I stopped. I don’t miss you. I don’t carry guilt anymore. Just because I stopped talking to you at the end, doesn’t mean I hated you. Or that I wanted you to die. I didn’t text you because you didn’t either, I didn’t text you because I was feeling bad. I wanted to be gone at this moment, and you didn’t know, didn’t even care to ask why my reposts were depressing. Sometimes I wonder how you really felt. I hope you carry the guilt I had to carry. But I also don’t. I can’t be that mean to someone I once loved. Goodnight

It's been almost ten months since we parted ways, and somehow, the world kept moving even when mine felt like it had stopped. For a long time, I thought I would spend the rest of my life grieving what we could have been. I wasn't expecting the loss of you to unravel me the way it did. I loved you more deeply than I ever realized, and when you left, I carried that pain in ways I'm not proud of—physically, emotionally, and mentally. Looking back, I was simply trying to survive a heartbreak I didn't know how to endure. Time has softened some of the hurt, and while the ache still lingers, I've slowly begun accepting that life moves forward whether we're ready for it or not. If you were to ask me whether I still love you, my answer would still be yes. Not because I refuse to move on, but because I don't know how to unlove someone I once would have risked everything for. It may sound foolish, obsessive, or painfully cliché, but what I felt for you remains one of the most genuine things I've ever known. I know your heart belongs to someone else now, and I've come to accept that, even if the truth hurt more than I can describe. What stung wasn't simply that you found someone new—it was realizing that the person you chose had always been there, quietly occupying a space in your heart while ours was falling apart. Maybe I have no right to question who you love, but the feeling of betrayal is something I've never fully learned to forget. There are still questions I carry with me. We both said things we shouldn't have, and I won't pretend I was blameless. I made mistakes, and I took responsibility for them because you deserved that much. But sometimes I wonder if you've ever truly reflected on the ways you hurt me too. There was a point where losing you pushed me into such darkness that I genuinely thought about ending my life. That's not something I say to make you feel guilty; it's simply the truth. Yet despite all of it, despite the anger, the disappointment, and the scars you left behind, I no longer carry hatred for you. Holding onto resentment became heavier than carrying the heartbreak itself. So now, all I can do is wish you well. I hope you and your partner find the happiness we couldn't give each other. I hope life is gentle with you, and I hope every dream you've ever held close finds its way into your hands. I also want to apologize for the ways I hurt you. We're both human, both imperfect, and both deserving of another chance at becoming better than who we once were. There are still countless things I could say, but some words are better left unsaid, and some feelings are meant to be carried quietly. Before I end this letter, there's one last thing I want you to know: I'm keeping my promise. I know it's irrational, and I know you've probably forgotten it entirely, but a part of me still holds onto it. I've turned away people who were willing to stay because my heart never truly let go of what it wanted. Maybe that makes me a fool, but I've accepted that some forms of love aren't meant to be understood. I'll continue moving forward, pursuing law school and becoming the attorney I've always wanted to be. In some way, the dream of one day helping bring you the justice you deserve became one of the reasons I kept going. So wherever life takes you, I hope it gives you everything you've ever wished for and more. And if our paths ever cross again, I hope we'll meet as two people who survived what once broke them. Until then, take care, my solace. I'll be here, quietly carrying the memory of you. Till next time. FROM THE ONE STILL HOPING THE STARS LEAD YOU BACK.

DEAR CHESTER I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT BUT YOU'RE HURTING ME AND IT'S TIME TOO LET GO I'M SORRY - YOURE ELS💕

I miss u so bad, aku gatau kenapa ending dari cerita kita bisa kaya gini. tapi yang perlu kamu tau, I love u so so so so much

E' giugno 2026, è la 4 estate in cui ci conosciamo, ma neanche lo sai te. Io invece ci sto pensando, in realtà penso a te più di quanto dovrei. Sono quasi due anni che tu mi hai lasciato, nel modo più terribile di sempre, per motivi che neanche mi aspettavo. Ciò che mi faceva più rabbia in quel periodo è che io non potevo arrabbiarmi con te, perchè ci siamo lasciati amandoci, solo che eri troppo debole per pensare che saremmo durati se ti fossi impegnato un pò di più. Ma forse dovevo anche aspettarmelo, io avevo 16 anni e tu ne avevi 19, ero così piccola che non avevo piani, ti parlavo sempre delle mie incertezze sul futuro, ma tu non eri mai incluso nei miei dubbi. Ricordo ancora quando ti scrissi la lettera, ti dissi che non mi fidavo di niente e di nessuno, ma di te c'avrei provato, e che ti promettevo tante cose, tra cui quella di restarti accanto. Ricordo anche che su quella panchina tu stavi quasi per avere gli occhi lucidi, e ho sentito la voglia di consumarti di baci. Purtroppo ho tanti bei ricordi, e ciò mi procura tanto dolore. Ricordo anche però come mi hai lasciato quel martedì per messaggio, stavo in vacanza e tu mi hai abbandonata, perchè io ero perfetta ma tu dovevi pensare al tuo futuro. Come se io fossi stupida e non ci pensavo anch'io, al futuro. Ero una bambina per te. Ricordo anche che ebbi il mio primo attacco di panico, davvero brutto. Perciò sì io ti penso ancora, sempre, in ogni luogo... A Sapri, a luglio con Alessia, le mostrai diversi luoghi. Non ricordavo di avere tutta quella forza per ripercorrere quelle stradine, mi ricordavo di tutto quel dolore provato, di quando ti salutai l'ultima volta credendo che mi amassi, di quando avevi vomitato ed io volevo darti comunque un bacio, ma tu me lo negasti. Effettivamente faceva schifo ma non so forse dentro di me sapevo che poteva essere l'ultimo. Ecco io l'ultimo bacio nostro non lo ricordo. Questa cosa mi manda fuori di testa. Ricordo però l'ultima volta in cui io ti ho detto di amarti. Io non penso tu mi abbia mai amata allo stesso modo. Sai a dicembre io un pò mi sono sentita bene, perchè tu eri pentito e si vedeva: dopo un anno e mezzo mi scrivevi, mi chiedevi come stessi, se ero tornata a casa. E io un pò ti ho perdonato, forse risentendo ciò che provavo per te, ricordo che mi dicesti di parlare di una cosa a te cara su degli scogli, o che i miei occhi sono come paesaggi, o roba simile hahahah. Ed io non sai quanto ci penso, so che ti penserò per sempre. Una sera ad agosto stavo con dei miei amici e anche il mio ex, già all'ora ex, ricordo di essermi messa su un divanetto al mare, era in realtà molto tardi tipo 3 di notte, faceva un freddo cane, e pensavo tantissimo. Il mare mi fa questo effetto, un pò come facevano i tuoi occhi. E io pensavo, davvero molto, ahhaha sul serio sono ripetitiva ma stavo lì ferma (come sempre anche col telefono morto) però è stato confortevole. Fissavo le onde, si appoggiavano delicatamente alla riva, mi sono sentita di poterle salpare con la mente; in quel momento ho pensato ad una persona a me vicina che è venuta a mancare, le ho chiesto di aiutarmi; e poi ho pensato a te, "chissà cosa starà facendo", "con chi sarà", soprattutto mi chiedevo se tu mai pensavi a noi, a me. Non saprò mai se tu mi apprezzi quanto io ho fatto con te, non saprò se realmente noi siamo stati solo uno sbaglio, una piccola svista, ma se un giorno, lontano, vorrai ritornare nella nostra casa le mie braccia riconosceranno ancora le tue. Se non lo farai figurati me ne farò una ragione, come ho fatto per questi anni, ma sappi che nella mia mente ci sarai sempre, in un piccolo cassetto. Ti voglio bene, con dolore, sofferenza, stanca di tutto, cercherò di volertene sempre, anche quando sarò arrabbiata con te per avermi distrutto un pò la concezione dell'amore. Ma se pensi che ti odio beh sbagli di grosso, aspetterei una tua chiamata fino a quando ne ho coscienza. Nel frattempo vedrò di imparare a suonare un pò l'ukulele. Ciao ciao

Ananda, Antes de tudo, eu quero que você saiba que cada palavra dessa carta vem de mim. Não é uma tentativa de falar uma frase bonita para tentar consertar tudo. É só eu, sendo sincero, colocando para fora coisas que talvez eu devesse ter dito há muito tempo. Eu tenho que dizer que sinto muito a sua falta, sinto falta das nossas conversas. A minha vida era mais feliz com você nela, a sua presença deixava meus dias mais leves. Era bom ter você para contar sobre o meu dia, ouvir sobre o seu, dividir planos, rir de coisas sem sentido e simplesmente saber que você estava ali. E uma das coisas que mais dói é perceber que, enquanto eu tinha tudo isso, muitas vezes eu não demonstrei o quanto valorizava isso. Eu sei que errei com você. Tenho meus defeitos, minhas falhas e muita coisa que ainda preciso melhorar. Hoje eu entendo que o meu maior erro foi a ausência. Não a ausência de sentimento, porque eu sempre te amei, mas a ausência de atitudes. Eu me fechei no meu próprio mundo, tentei resolver meus problemas sozinho e, sem perceber, acabei te deixando de lado. Eu deveria ter me feito mais presente na sua vida e também deveria ter aberto mais espaço para você entrar na minha. Poderia ter me esforçado pra te acompanhar em coisas que você gosta, ter te chamado pra fazer coisas que eu gosto, criado memórias simples que hoje eu vejo o quanto teriam significado. Hoje eu entendo que amar alguém não é só sentir. É demonstrar. É incluir a pessoa na sua vida. É fazer ela se sentir escolhida todos os dias. E foi nisso que eu falhei. Eu também sei que não ter te assumido publicamente da maneira que você esperava foi um erro. Se em algum momento você se sentiu escondida, eu sinto muito por isso. Porque a verdade é que você nunca foi alguém que eu quis esconder. Minha família e meus amigos mais próximos sabiam de você, porque eu nunca te enxerguei como algo passageiro. Desde o começo, a minha intenção era ter algo sério, verdadeiro e duradouro com você. Eu sei que você chegou a pensar que eu queria manter uma vida de solteiro em paralelo, principalmente quando eu estava na minha cidade. Mas isso nunca aconteceu. Nunca houve outra pessoa, nunca houve outra intenção. O meu erro nunca foi não escolher você. Foi não fazer você se sentir escolhida. E eu acho importante que você lembre de uma coisa: se eu quisesse apenas te enrolar ou brincar com os seus sentimentos, eu não teria ido até a sua casa, levado flores, conversado com sua mãe feito planos ou sequer ainda continuaria aqui tentando, mesmo depois de tudo. Se eu quisesse somente dar uns pegas aqui e ali, eu teria deixado você ir embora agora e iria atrás de outras, mas não, eu continuo aqui porque eu sou apaixonado por você e porque acho que podemos construir algo juntos. Nada apaga os meus erros. Eu sei que te magoei, e não quero diminuir a sua dor. Mas eu também quero que você saiba que nenhuma das minhas falhas veio de falta de amor ou de vontade de te machucar. Foi imaturidade, dificuldade de demonstrar e de entender o que você esperava de mim. Eu já demonstrei outras vezes que eu to sempre disposto a te ouvir, reconhecer que tô errado e mudar por você. Por isso, eu ainda quero lutar por nós, porque eu acredito que algumas pessoas são valiosas demais para desistirmos sem tentar de verdade. Eu não quero desistir da garota que eu me apaixonei. E sendo completamente sincero, Ananda, hoje não existe algo que eu queira mais do que ter você de volta. Mas eu também sei que não posso exigir o seu perdão, nem esperar que tudo volte a ser como antes. Se algum dia você me permitir reconstruir a sua confiança, eu sei que isso vai precisar de tempo, paciência e, principalmente, atitudes. Eu ainda acredito que existe algo bonito no que nós tivemos. Acredito que podemos reconstruir aquilo que foi quebrado e ter uma relação mais saudável, mais madura e mais feliz. Eu não sou perfeito e nunca vou ser, mas eu quero continuar melhorando todos os dias. Não só por mim, mas para ser alguém melhor para você: alguém mais presente, mais carinhoso, mais participativo e que demonstre o quanto você é importante. Eu não posso voltar no tempo e fazer as coisas diferentes naquele momento, mas eu posso escolher ser alguém melhor daqui para frente. Se você decidir me dar essa oportunidade, eu quero que as minhas atitudes sejam a continuação de tudo o que eu escrevi aqui. Quem sabe nós possamos nos sentar, conversar sem mágoas, lembrar de tudo o que foi bom e descobrir se ainda existe um caminho para construirmos algo novo juntos. Com todo o meu amor, Ivaldo.

I know we dated for a short amount of time, but this relationship was special to me. I never cared about the distance. Every day and night I got to talk to you was lovely. Watching movies and shows together was my favorite thing. It sucks that I had to ruin it so fast. I know it's been two years, and you've probably moved on for the better. I'm sorry for being selfish, immature, for self sabotaging, and for saying those horrible things to you. In the beginning of our relationship, I had already caused trust issues and confusion between us. I did things I shouldn't have done, and I caused unnecessary drama. There really isn't much I can say or do to fix what already happened. I am deeply and genuinely sorry, though. I wish things could've turned out differently. I wanted to reach out many times, but we both needed time. I don't know what you're up to, if you're dating someone now, if you're still writing, or if you still work on dirt bikes. Although none of that is my business, I hope that whatever you're up to, you're doing well. The mistakes I made in our relationship helped me reflect on the kind of person I was. Months later, it all hit me a lot harder than I expected. I felt really bad and embarrassed because I know I could've done better. I hope there's no bad blood between us after all.

Heeeeeyyaa, I hope you never find this but I’m feeling ROMANTIC today !! I hope and wish you the best in life, Trish. I really thought that it would always be you in the end but I guess I was wrong. You are really all that I’ve ever wanted even if you never believed me, but don’t think and I wasn’t so hopelessly in love with you because you were too much of a coward to trust me, ok?? Take care of yourself and your family that I’ve always dreamt of being a part of, make some other lady your entire world and treat her right. Call me to your wedding, don’t forget. I’ll always love you forever and ever. You truly are a part of me, thank you for everything, my—well, not my but.. my beautiful boy. Stay safe !! - kg (if you know you know 🥹✌️)

i hate you for what you did to me. idc if this never finds you i just want to let it all out - we really could’ve been an amazing couple with an extraordinary future but YOU gave up on us bc u keep holding onto the past… i was so ready to fall in love with you and give you all my love :/ all the love and care that my heart still holds for you will come back to me and i will use it for myself to get better. im afraid some part of me will always miss u, even tho i fucking hate you - s

I don't know how to tell u this cause u are far away from me now i tried to reach u but i think it's not only the location what's separating us and i know that I never looked at me like that . I'm thankful for ur presence in my life but it has become a curse for me now. But if it was not for you my life would've been completely boring and blank page . I tried to reach u despite my mind resisting and i know u don't want to be reached anymore, it has been difficult for me to accept. I still feel nostalgic whenever I pass by ur old house cause it holds memories. I was childish and I'm childish even right now . Maybe it's my inability that i couldn't find or impress another girl. I was never good at that. I wish u message me somehow, someday, randomly ask me how I'm ? How I've been?. I love when people call me uv like u used to do once

I hope you're happy now Mylo. I'm sorry for writing this letter to you, I think you've moved on already. But the pain that I'm feeling right now, I don't know how to soothe myself in a way that I don't message you. Tanggap ko na wala na tayo, pero ang sakit parin, and I miss you. I kept lying to myself when I say I don't love you anymore, pero at the same time I won't run back to you anymore. I felt so discarded after our breakup, I'm so noisy dun sa dump ko, lagi kitang pinapatamaan pero ang sakit kasi I don't know how to handle this type of pain. After our breakup you were silent, and I took that as a closure, i tried to block you, but I could only do unfollow hanggang sa binlock mo ko sa Ig kasi along the way I said that I'm always here for you. And it looked like a betrayal to my promise. In my mind, I kept replaying what went wrong and our last conversation. I really wish life was kind enough to let me keep you. Kaya ko sinabi na what comes after this na you were so worried when I repeat it ilang beses sa last call natin, I meant that I've built a future with you in my head and it crumbled nung iniwan mo ako. I still have a lot of love to give to you leon, now I don't even know where to put it. Napalitan lang ng grief and pain. I'll forever miss you in my life siguro a few years from now di na masakit pero maalala parin kita. First love kita eh. Malaki ang impact mo sa perspective ko sa love, now I'm so scared, I'm so scared to start over again. You raised my standards that I don't even know if I'll let someone in again. At the same time I don't want to spend a lifetime yearning for you, It's fucking painful. I want to heal as much as I can so I distanced myself, and you also, kahit na I desperately want to reach out. Kabisado kita, hindi ka sasagot, at the same time kabisado mo ko kasi sasagot ako. I remember pa yung sinabi mo sa letter mo na BDO ka na kahit gano ka pa kabusy you'll make time for me. Naiyak ako ron, kasi totoo nga tinupad mo siya, not until nung last few weeks ng rs natin. Nakakalimutan mo na mag goodmorning or goodnight minsan, hinahayaan mo ako matulog nang may galit sayo kasi di mo ko sinasagot tuwing nagkakaroon tayo ng misunderstanding. Dinala mo past fears mo sa Relationship natin, don't you want to grow with me? Bakit kailangan mo dalhin mga alaala niyo ni KC? Kaya di ko mapigilan magisip kung rebound lang ba ako or panakip butas eh, ilang beses mo siya nabring up kahig nung nakikipaghiwalay ka na sakin. Di mo ko mareassure. I grew anxious sa relationship natin, It started feeling heavy, but I stayed kasi mahal kita kahit na I felt unloved in some moments. I made it clear from the start what I expect of a guy. napakasimple. i wanted someone who would choose me everyday kahit gano pa kahirap. You knew my past pain, inulit mo siya. At some point you're my answered prayer, pero God took you away from me. Baka siguro alam niya na di na tayo makakabuti para sa isat isa. You still have a lot to work on yourself, discover about yourself, and built for yourself. You're in and out relationships so mas mabuti na siguro yon. And for me, ang dami ko rin dapat matutunan, I stayed kahit na malabo na, i begged kahit you were begging me to understand, and to let you go. I thought maabutan pa kita maging registered radtech, akala ko makikilala ko pa family mo personally, i thought we'd build a life together. But, turns out I expected too much. I thought in a relationship both should be the beloved, pero sa huli ako nalang yung sobrang nagmamahal. Ako nalang yung bigay ng bigay, binuhos lo energy ko dito na walang wala na ko ngayon. I waited for you to call everyday, kahit na minsan sobrang pagod ko na, inintindi ko pagkasilent treatment mo sakin tuwing hindi tayo okay or hindi ka okay kahit I'm anxious kasi di ko alam kung ano na nangyayare, especially pag nagaaway tayo at di mo ko nirereplayan nagooverthink ako. Alam mong ayaw ko niyan, pero still hindi ka magadjust, pati pagrereply mo or paguupdate mo. Alam mo kung anong problema diyan. At parang ako yung nagfleflex sa relationship natin, di kita nakitaan much of it. Pero leon sa galit at lungkot na nararamdaman ko, nandon parin ung pagmamahal, nandon parin ung mga alaala natin. Sabi nga nila love transcends time and space, I loved you until the day I died, and for me that's enough.

I wonder how you are to be honest i really do regret our relationship i hope you're happy tho but tbh i want nothing to do with you idk if it's to harsh but dude like i really really really regret na pinatulan kita kasi to think i gave my first kiss and etc to you and in he end you were just a phase lesson learned ka lng so sadd anyways I'm sorry for the hurt i caused you ad I'm sorry because i started this but im glad i was the one to end it - someone who wishes they never knew u 🥰-C.Y

I recently found this song kita kita by the 7th, it's been a while since we've talked and there's a chance you won't even really see this so... I've just been thinking about you a lot recently. And the song kinda reminded me of the first time i saw you, you already know how the story goes i told you twice. I know it's not your usual genre– but "Kita na kita" im thinking about how i should've said that to you when things were good between us. You don't know it and it's a little creepy but– i always see you, way before we even started talking kita kita. I saw the way you had a habit of being touchy with your friends– your silly antics, your cute laugh. Till know i feel like you're haunting me, yuri became a common name to me i see it everywhere. I'm insane– absolute mad in the head because, i kinda knew you were using me yet i still see you. Kita kita, always. It'll be our last year in the same school.. I'm not even sure if I'll ever see you often like how I'm used to. I'm here, and you don't know it i hope someway somehow you know that despite the amount of people that talk bad about you- nothing will change, kita kita. I see you, i see you trying your best, i see you doing what you think is best, i see you trying be happy, i see you being you and no matter what, kita kita. "Sana makita mo rin na kita na kita" 3:23 - timestamp.

a little over 2 years without you. i doubt you’ll ever see this, but i need to get it off my chest and the small chance of knowing you may see this helps. i’ve always wanted to talk to you; finish where i left off before you vanished. but i couldn’t. you were so selfish, but i wasn’t the best either. we weren’t right for each other; maybe we were, but we didn’t act like it. god you tore me apart. i know i went a little crazy after, but it’s surprising im still here. i talked to you about how i hated my life and you know i constantly wanted to die, but you left me still at my lowest. for my best friend. my bestest friend ever. you ruined everything good i had just for you. i wish you could see how selfish you are, but im over it. some days it still gets to me, but fuck it. i don’t care anymore. maybe i do i don’t know i can’t tell. i miss the person you pretended to be, i know that. i hate the person you really are.

please come back, i cannot breathe without inhaling your perfume. please love me like you did. i promise you its okay

It’s almost been a year. I miss you so much that it’s overwhelming. I really hope you’re doing okay. I hope you are happy. And I hope you fall in love with someone else that can give you that happiness. I’ll always regret that it couldn’t be me. I love you forever, like I always said. I told you dozens of times every day, but I still should’ve told you that even more. Now I won’t get to, ever again. I really miss you. I miss everything about you.

i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you please come back i will do anything for you i will worship you i will treat you like a fucking god come back my love please please please come back i beg you i will never find anyone like you i will never see anyone the same way as you i'd do anything please come back please please please you're my first thought in the morning and the last thought as i go to bed you're everything to me and it hurts it hurts nothing feels good without you i want you so bad anything for you

i’m so sorry for everything. truly. i understand that you never want to talk to me again, that you never want to see me again, that you never want to hear my name again. trust me, I think I hate myself more than you hate me for everything. i think that i see myself in you so much and that’s what scares me and why im so quick to call you out on every little thing you do wrong. I also think I do that because the version of you that was so innocent, so loving, so pure, is stuck in my head and i know that you’re able to be like that again. i think i called you a monster and said you were a shitty person not because you are one, just because I simply can’t accept that you just don’t love me and didn’t love me enough to not treat me like that. I’m so fucking scared that we will never talk again, that I will never see you laugh again, that I won’t ever be the reason for your smiles. I truly did love you, so much, with so much innocence and passion. A part of me will always love you and i’ve come to terms with that because when you loved me too, it was the best feeling I had ever felt and I would give anything to get it back I know i’m not the one you want and never will be again, but I won’t stop praying that one day, you’ll come back Maybe that day I will be able to tell you that I don’t want you anymore. Again, i’m so sorry not being selfish and for ruining your life.

I stumbled to your name again, new profile picture, new age, and new format. You seem happy, fresh, and open. I am at joy as you’ve let others see the real you. We no longer have contact, but I kept the memories I have with you. Sometimes, they still infringe my mind, but I let them be—as they were moments and realities from the past. I can never forget you, but there is a thing I can guarantee; we’re both happy and on our own now. Without comparing our state of life, lifestyle, and journey. I am proud of what you are becoming and it’s never a day to be disappointed. Please take care of yourself!