I miss you

My Dearest Lyra, my wondrous muse in sky, Can I be honest with you for a bit? I've been keeping this to myself for quite some time now. Dili man ni something super serious or dramatic, but it's something real something I've been quietly feeling every time we talk, every time I see you smile, and every time I remember small things about you. At first, I really thought it was just a simple but big love for you and ringo, kanang uy mobalik kapa ron. Pero as time passed, I realized nga it's more than that. Every time mag-chat ta, it feels light. Every time nga makatawa ka, I find myself smiling too even if wala ka sa akong atubangan. I started to look forward to your messages, to your replies, even to the most random things you say. Wala man ko nag-expect nga mo-like ka ug mo-gugma ka utro balik. Honestly, I'm fine if you don't. What matters to me is that I finally said it. Because for the longest time, I tried to act normal to pretend nga okay ra, nga wala koy gibati. Pero tinuod, naa gyud. Kanang feeling nga gusto lang nimo siya mahibaw-an, bisan dili mo mag-end up together. There were days nga l told myself to stop. Nga ayaw na, kay basin ma-fall ra ko ug ako ra'y masakitan. Pero every time nga muabot ka, every time nga makita nako imong name pop up sa screen, murag makalimot ko sa tanan reason nga gusto ko maglayo. You make things feel calm and happy at the same time. And maybe that's why I decided to write this. Not to make things awkward, not to force anything but just to be honest. Because you deserve to know. You deserve to know that someone out here genuinely admires you, pray and loves you from far. the way you talk, the way you laugh, the way you make others feel comfortable. You're one of those rare people nga bisan gamay lang imong effort, dako kaayo og effect. You have this simple charm that makes people want to stay. And I guess that's what happened to me, l stayed, quietly, admiring you from a distance, but always hoping you're doing fine and happy. I'm not expecting a reply, nor am l asking for anything. l just want to finally breathe. To let these words out nga dugay na kaayo nakatago sa akong heart. Kay bisan unsaon, lisod magpaka-okay kung naa kay gi-feel nga dili nimo masulti. So yeah, I love you and maybe I miss you so much didiw ko, you're more than I planned to. But it's okay. What's important is, you made me feel something real and for that, I'll always be grateful. DIDIWON KO KAM SOBRA. 🍎⭐🐙 unsaon ko man ug ruyag ko molingi ka diri sakon again, i planned this long time ago na ngano man motabo saton. ikaw gud ra karuyagon pakaslan. Love, Didiw asta🐙

I miss you so much Ren. you are on my mind constantly, I dream about you every night and I see your face in everyone I come across. you have the prettiest hazel brown eyes, I want to stare into them until I forget how to breathe, until I lose track of time and don't realize there is a world around me. I want to be able to feel your lips against mine just once, I want to forget everything but you. everything we had together and everything that came after has impacted me mentally a lot more than I think I fully realized. I find myself replaying things over and over in my head and getting stuck in thoughts I don’t know how to turn off. I often catch myself wishing I had been better, or different, or more like willow. It’s hard not to compare myself to her, especially when you once told me you could fall in love with someone who is just like you, and now that’s what you have. It messes with my head more than I want to admit. prepare, consume, proceed.

I love you, that is all I can say. But I feel it so strongly that I cannot even say it. forever mine, first love.

To my jaan, my love, my shammas ❤💕 happy 4th month anniversary <3 my blacka. it’s our 5th anniversary we are able to celebrate and the 4th month of being together. i don’t even know where to start, because somehow a simple “happy anniversary” feels way too small for everything i feel for you. i’ve been staring at this for so long because nothing feels enough for you. no words ever feel like they can hold everything i feel, everything we are, everything we’ve built together. but i’ll try, because you deserve to hear it. <3 so enjoy your read. sometimes i sit there and think about how strange and crayzyyy it is that you’re not physically here, how can someone who started as just a person on a screen have become my person. like somehow, out of everything and everyone, it was you. and it still is you. every single day. not just someone i love, not just someone i talk to every day. you feel like something that exists in me. like i know where to find you, because in you’re in my world and you’ll probably never realize how much you’ve become part of me. you’re just everywhere in my life. in my thoughts, in the way i smile at nothing, in the way my mood shifts just from hearing you, the way i feel, the way my days are shaped around you being there. you’re the first person i want to tell things to, the one i look for without even thinking, ‘did blacka text?’ and even then the surface wasn’t just enough for you.. was it? you don’t even leave me alone in the quiet parts of me. the parts i don’t want show anyone. the late night thoughts, the overthinking, the rude side i try to hide... and somehow you never made it feel like too much. you just understood it, or at least you tried to, and that means more to me than anything. it’s like you found a place in me that no one else ever reached, and you stayed there without trying. and yeah, we’ve had our moments, like the drama i create, the silence sometimes, the misunderstandings, the small fights, moments where things felt fragile, the times where words didn’t come out right, where emotions got heavy. but even then, there was something underneath those negative things that NEVER broke. . even with everything we’ve been through in these months, something kept pulling me back to you and you back to me every SINGLE time. and bro it’s not even forced, it’s just the heart wanting to be with you again. like no matter what happens, in those moments, we never stop choosing eachother. because everytime we stay & we always work through it. we don’t let go. nd i’m sorry for this sudden break shit, i rlly don’t know whats possessing me saying all that crap to you. even now, i’m still thinking about you. and i really love you, like really, really. i hate that i make it complicated, not me crying rn 💀💀💀pathetic, because i chose it for myself, i still am at loss ☹ i dont even want it anymore ... but guess what there hasn’t been 1 day we didn’t speak to eachother and of course i wouldn’t break that record so yeah here i am writing my heart to you even when you don’t read. i guess it all just happens naturally, because it’s you. overcomplicating everything because i feel everything 50x stringer when you’re involved >:( like even this letter, but i hope you enjoy love <3 but still i love you not just for the good moments, but for all of it. the chaos, the comfort, the silence, the laughs. i love the way you are, the way you talk to me, the way you exist in my life without even trying to be anything other than yourself. i think about all the time we’ve spent together, all those hours that never felt like too much. talking about everything and nothing, staying up way too late, laughing at things no one else would understand. it never felt forced, never felt empty. it was always us, just being us, and somehow that became my favorite place to be. sometimes i wish i could explain to you exactly how much you mean to me, but it’s deeper than words. what we have isn’t loud in the way people expect love to be. it’s not about grand things or perfect moments. it’s in the hours we lose together without noticing. it’s in the way time bends when it’s just us. it’s in the small things that would mean nothing to anyone else but feel like everything to me. it’s in every little habit we have, every inside joke, every moment that’s just ours. no one else would get it, and that’s what makes it so special. you’re not just someone i love. you’re my place, my home, my comfort. my person in a world that feels too big sometimes. like standing under a sky that feels too big but still somehow feels like home. like something i feel in my chest before i can even put it into words. and even with all the distance, even with everything that makes this harder than it should be, though it’s sad i can’t be there with you for this anniversary, but it doesn’t change what this means to me. if anything, it makes me feel it even deeper. because what we have isn’t about being in the same place, it’s about how close you are to me in every way that matters. i still feel you in my days, in my thoughts, in everything i do. distance doesn’t take that away 😊!! even if i can’t stand next to you right now, my heart is still with you, like it always is, like it always will be. so i don’t care about the distance or how things look to anyone else for example some noob friend, nobody can change my mind on how i feel about you and i’ll let anyone know who wants to hear it. what we have is real to me. you are real to me. i’ve never once felt like you weren’t real to me. if anything, you feel more real than things i can touch. this 4th month isn’t just time passing or just a number. it’s a collection of moments that turned into something meaningful. it’s proof. it’s the proof that what we have didn’t just stay a passing feeling, it grew. quietly, deeply, in its own way. and i love that it grew with you. and we didn’t even notice that it’s alrdy 119 DAYS long. i wouldn’t want to miss any anniversary, NEVEREVER. and if i could, and i would choose US & YOU again and again and FOREVER. in every version of ALL the possible WORLDS <3 nd ofc i don’t know exactly what the future looks like for us, but i do know that i want you in it. i want more memories, more conversations, more moments where it’s just us being us. No matter how far apart we are, you still feel one of the closest to my heart. so yeah, happy anniversary my love <3, my blacka, my jaan, my shammas. thank you for being mine, and letting me be yours. you’re the just my forever i didn’t know i could find. thank you for being you. thank you for staying, for caring, for making me feel the way i do, in good and fragile. i’m really, really grateful for you. let’s aim for 690 anniversaries atleast <3

It’s always been you in the moment. I think about you when I’m in class, when I’m trying to get ready in the mornings, when I fall asleep. You’re in my mind, all our memories. I remember in the summer when we were together all the time, I miss that so so much. I haven’t worn my locket in a long time. The one with your face in it. You and your baseball championship medal. The night I watched your game and I was alone the whole time. I think I should tell you now that I didn’t feel alone during the game. You apologized that I had to watch it alone, but I was never angry. I loved watching you so much. Maybe this summer I could watch again, but who knows. If you think it’s okay, come back. Please sweet Ryler, I miss you so much. I miss sneaking out to go to your house. I miss our 4am Pepsi runs. I miss going on runs at 6am. I know you hate running. I’m so sorry baby. I just miss you so much. If you come back, I’ll never make you go running with me again. We can walk if you want. We almost had a year, maybe we could try again and get a year. I love you and miss you so much sweet Ryler

Dear Adan/Arman, This is a letter to you. Although you are dead, I hope this reaches you, wherever you are. Hey, you are an awesome guy. For me, you are still alive. You can't be dead. You shouldn't have died. Why did you die Adan? Come back please. I don't know why I am crying over you. But if we met someday, when you were alive, I would've ... I don't know.. I kinda like you.. I love you. You are so sweet. I found out that you used to sing. We could have done collabs with piano and guitar and vocals. I have never seen you in person but I miss you. I don't even know you well but I can't focus on anything. I am lost in your thoughts. I miss you Armando. Dare if you die in the Cleaning Lady, I am still halfway in the series, I am gonna re-write the story if you die in it. I know you had a pretty wife and 2 beautiful kids. But still I wish I were a part of your life. Why did God give you appendix cancer, He shouldn't have. You deserved to live. Why did you die...

haii beii, gimingaw nako nimo, i missed the days were still happy, di jud ko kalimut adtu nga adlaw kay didto ko nakafeel nga loved ko, u always comfort me when no one was there too, grabe. Gipafeel jud nimo nga imuha kong love, you always save me from my wrong decisions, i will always love you, my bei. Even if maglayo nata, di taka kalimtan, my bei. Iloveyousomuch, mybei. amping permi

i’m sorry i really just need to get this off my chest. i know you’ll probably never see this, but i have to send it nonetheless. i think it all comes down to the fact that i was scared. it wasn’t that i never loved you, i did. i know i did. but i was just scared. i wish that we would’ve said what we said later on. i wish that when we confessed, it would’ve been not then but now. now i’m much more mature, much more comfortable with what i can call myself and what i can be. but even knowing that, i know it would’ve been futile regardless. i was the one who started crushing on you first. you were the first girl i’d ever had a crush on, and it confused me. but you were always so open about yourself that it made me feel a little better, like i wasn’t doing anything wrong because you were doing it too. melody i know that you would’ve given me everything, and the fact is, you have. you’ve given me all of yourself the way that i never could for you. i was scared. i’m still scared now. i can entertain myself with guys as much as i want, but it’s always been you. i can see myself dating you and being happy. it’s such a clear vision in my mind. no boy would’ve remembered the things you remembered about me. no boy would’ve given me the gifts full of time, thought, and effort the way you did. i would’ve been so happy with you. you would’ve made me so happy and i know it. beyond a shadow of a doubt, i know you would’ve made me the happiest girl alive. i imagine myself dating you, getting to kiss you and hug you and go out on dates. but i’m afraid. i was and i still am. i’m just a little more comfortable with myself. but i know that i will never be truly comfortable with myself. because while i can very clearly see myself dating you and doing all these things with you, i can’t imagine the future. it’s so weird to me. i can imagine myself dating any girl and being happy while i have trouble imagining myself having a boyfriend. but when i think on the future, i can hardly see myself marrying and having a family with anyone at all, but when i do, it’s with a man. i don’t know what i’m afraid of, but i’m so, so afraid. everything i did to you was so unfair. i was our downfall. i was the cause of our death. it was all me. you weren’t just an experience, you were everything. you are everything. no one makes me laugh the way you do, no one does the things you do for me, no one is like you. i could talk to you, watch movies with you, share secrets, talk about my feelings, my fears, all with you. it’s nearly impossible for me to be able to have that with anyone else. there was never anybody else. you were always my person, my second half, my twin flame, my soul. i reminisce about you, about us, and think about how lucky i was to have met you. i never said it, but it hurt me too. losing you hurt like nothing had ever hurt before. i know that i never really lost you, but god did it feel like i did. it felt like a part of me was gone forever. my best friend, my girl. and i’m sorry, i’m so sorry because j know it’s my fault. every time you say it’s not i stay quiet because i know it’s not true. had i not led you on the way i did, maybe right now we’d still be calling every day from the moment we woke up or got home from school to the moment i had to leave first. we’d be watching movies together, we’d be talking, laughing, sitting in comfortable silences, still saying i love you. every day since things ended i’ve felt this regret, and it keeps getting stronger. if hurt to leave you but i couldn’t stay. no matter how much i wanted to, i couldn’t. i will never be fully comfortable with who i am. i know i love you, i know that i really do. j know that in the deepest part of heart, i love you and i will always love you. but we can’t be anything. sometimes i wish i could be selfish and date you. i wish i could feel your kisses and hear your voices telling me all the sweet nothings you used to say. i miss you every day. every day without fail i miss you more than the last. i think about you late at night, i think about you when i hear songs, i think about you when there’s nothing to keep me distracted, i think about you while i watch the water boil. i fantasize about you innocently. getting to kiss you, hug you, have you hold me, have us go on dates, smile at each other, sleep in each others arms. i think about that. i get jealous over you, i cry over you, i get nostalgic over you. all to this day. but as much as i wanted to be selfish, i wont. i can’t. all i’ll do is hurt you even more. i’m so afraid and i don’t know what for. my parents would be supportive, i’d have you, i wouldn’t care about anyone else. but i’m still so afraid. i can’t see myself getting married with anyone but a blurry face of a man. i know that on the day j get married, i’ll think of you. when i get a home, i’ll think of you. when i get that pet cat, i’ll think of you. i could be with anyone and somehow, my thoughts will always lead back to you. i miss you as my best friend and my lover. i try not to show it, i try to keep it hidden, but i still check your accounts sometimes, stare at you when your videos come on my feed, look at every single thing you’ve ever given me, still look for our initials, our months, our signs, all of it. i don’t ever want you to go thinking that after everything that happened, that after everything we said, did, and went through, that i’m fine. that this doesn’t matter to me. because it does. it matters to me more than anything. i love you. i love you, i love you, i love you. you would’ve made me so happy. but i refuse to hurt you more than i already have by selfishly asking you for a chance knowing that it will lead no where. maybe if we date, maybe i’ll get over my fears. but what if i don’t? i’ll leave you heartbroken again. i’ve already lost you once, i don’t think i could live with myself if i lost you again. it was never your fault. it was never about what you were or who you were. it was me, solely me. it was my fault because i will never be able to be who i really am. like i said, i’m much more comfortable now than back then, but my fears are still there. and i’m sorry. i’m sorry we never had what we talked about. i’m sorry i couldn’t give you what we dreamed of. i’m sorry that i have to be so unaccepting of myself. if i wasn’t, we’d years into a relationship. i miss you. i love you. i sound like a broken record but it’s true. you may not have known it, but my world revolved around you too. and it still does. i search for you in everyone. i can’t find you again. and it breaks my heart that we can’t be together the way we both want to be. you would never have to be a boy for me to love you. i love you as you are now, a girl just like me. but things might’ve been easier that way, wouldn’t they? nonetheless, i’d never change a single thing about you. i fell in love with the incredible girl that you are and it will always stay that way. i hope that there’s someone out there who isn’t afraid of what they are and that they can give you what my subconscious has only hoped to. time will pass, but my feelings will never change. even if we don’t talk anymore, even if we’re not as close as we were before, even if i’m not your best friend anymore, i’ll always be here. you’ll always be my best friend no matter what. quite literally the girl of my dreams. i hate that this is the way things have to be. you loved so openly and all i could ever do was keep you at an arms length. you are both my biggest blessing and my biggest regret. my biggest blessing because without you, i don’t know who i would’ve been. you will always be my everything no matter how much time passes. but you are also my biggest regret, because i fell for something that i couldn’t have and i hurt you. i know i hurt you. i hurt you so much. i’m sorry. i know that you’d forgive me, i know that i am forgiven, but take my sorries anyway because you deserve them. i didn’t realize the good i had until i had to let you go. i always appreciated you and everything you did. i’m sorry that i’m this way. there are so many parallels between us and my heart aches. it aches knowing that i truly do love you, and that all my feelings are real and i felt you, i did, but i could never act on it because of my cowardice. i feel like it will never be over. i’ll never stop feeling this way and regretting why i could never be braver. i wish i could say “i do”. i want to reach out, but the thought of that scares me motionless. i want to ask you to never leave me, but that’s disgustingly selfish of me. maybe in a different world, in a different life, we could be together without the weight of anything holding us back. a life where i could be free and love you the way i want to and the way you deserve. i know this isn’t the most comforting closure i could’ve given you, and i know it’ll hurt, but it has to be said, and if i never do, how could i ever expect you to know? sweet girl, i love you. i just can’t keep living like this, with this guilt. tragic, isn’t it? the mystery of love. —K.

Hi my Raccoon!!! I just wanna say thank you for being there when I needed you the most, thank you for being my virtual shoulder when I need someone to lean on, thank you for loving me nonstop and assuring me, thank you for being you bbg. And I just wanted to apologize cause sometimes we're having a misunderstandings and you always handle me and fixing it on your own. I promise I will wait for you and make it up to you, andddd sorry for being jealous over someone that's because I don't wanna lose you. I love you okay? I will wait for you no matter what, we're both young for this so... Thank youuu, MWAAH!

Why won't you reply? (I can see that you were online 28 minutes ago.) I know we're back to our old lives now and those 5 perfect days are over, but I thought we were close. Playing card games late into the hours of early morning? Sleeping over at their hotel room together and ordering McDonald's (Macca's in honor of Aussie) at 4am? Telling me to climb up into your bed on the high-speed train at 5 in the morning? All of that was barely over a week ago. I suppose it didn't matter to you nearly as much. I suppose you don't miss that trip nearly as much. But I thought you wouldn't completely forget the way we talked like we'd known each other for years. I won't hold it against you. And don't worry, I won't reach out again. Miss you, love you, thank you! This might be a real goodbye now!

To the person who been through all my storms. From being a complete stranger to being my HOME and my GO TO PERSON. you are my SAFE PLACE. thank you for staying for understanding me in ways I never even had to explain You mean more to me than words could ever hold.......In a world that feels heavy sometimes you became the place I breathe easy.....I find myself deeply missing us............. the way we felt the way we held onto each other like nothing else mattered...I miss the way you used to feel like peace like safety like everything I needed without asking. I don’t miss you…I miss us...YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH U MEAN TO ME . YOU MEAN SO MUCH MORE THAN WORDS WOUL EVER EXPLAIN You once promised me little things that meant the world to me like making me parota...teaching me how to drive a car....clicking pictures when I finally get my dream bike…And I promised you things too.... a ride when I get my car... a Lego set...standing by you... supporting you through everything.... They were just small words…but they felt like a whole future to me. Now I sit here wondering.. are they just words to you? Or did they mean something once? Because I’m still here…still holding onto every little things we said to each other...I MISS YOUUU SOOO DAMN MUCH...CAN WE FIND OUR WAY BACK?...........🫶🏼🧿SARAH🫶🏻🩷🎀MJ

i will always be there for you i will always pray for you i will always love you how i do.

To my beloved, the love we left behind still lives quietly within me. Not a day passes that I do not miss you. Since we said goodbye, your love lingers in every second and every minute, gently finding its way back to me. There are days I catch myself hoping you would reach out, even if only for a moment but I know those are only wishes. My heart still aches for what we let go of something we once believed would last forever. I hope you are doing well my dear, know that A part of me is still here, holding on to the thought that maybe someday we will meet again as better versions of ourselves. If that day never comes, please know you will always have a place in my memories, and I will cherish them for as long as I live. I miss you in ways silence understands my dear.

perhaps it isn't love when i say you are what i love the most - you are the knife i turn inside myself, this is love. this, my dear, is love.

Hiehe jsksh jsjdhdk hdkdusg dhdjdbdu dhdidus hdidhhd djdjdo

It's been 10 days since we completely cut off contact, but it's already been 7 months since we separated. Instead of lessening, the pain only grows, and I feel such a void, such great anguish that I don't know how to put it into words. I miss you all the time; the pain of longing is so intense that I can even see you during the day, with my eyes open. I wonder how you are, if you're well and happy, if you're smiling with someone or doing what you love most, which is singing. I think I've never taken so long to write a letter because with each word written, the urge to cry hits me so hard, but not enough to make this pain go away. I will always be here, waiting for your return.

I still am waiting for your answer, it’s so pathetic you’d probably never see this confessions right? I still like you. Sincerely so and it pains me on a daily basis to think you’d give no shits about me haha funny right? Cause who am I to be talking.

I miss you, im sorry for everything. I love you, and I don’t think that will ever change.

You were a wonderful memory.

April 1, 2026 To my everdearest, Maxene. ^^ Hiii Maxene! It’s already been like a month since we haven’t seen each other:( spending time with you this march already feels like years! and that’s how baaadly I crave for your presence. Well maybe fate has that already planned for us to have this love story. To come and think of it—it’s already been a few times that we nearly would have seen each other. Don’t worry, magkikita rin tayo one day, if the timing right and just. If we did, I would spend every second just to be with you, like helping you cook ganon, staring at you just to appreciate your beauty hihi. Please don’t listen to the people that only brings negativity to you. People can be so cruel and I know how affecting that is. Instead, focus ka sa mga taong who loves you, stands by you and all of the kakampi you have in life. Including me, okay? And I also want to assure you that there’s absolutely nothing to worry about. Someday, we won’t have to greet each other good morning and good night through phone. But to whisper them and wake each other up with a kiss. Please be with me until it becomes a reality, my beautiful strawberry. :) Here’s to you, my first and foremost ever letter for you, for my one and only minamahal ko. There will be so much more to come in the future, and I hope to be there for you, and with you. Always yours, no matter the distance, Tyrone ❦