First love

Hi test 85811110

I miss you. You were like no one else. There will be others, but none like you.

thank you for one of the most wonderful and exciting weeks of my life. thank you for giving me such a refreshing experience in times of stress for me, and thank you for teaching me more about what i value in a person. thank you for being part of a happier version of myself than i previously was. i really wish i had talked to you earlier, talked to you for longer, had more conversations and moments together. i wish we had more of what we had yesterday. i wish you’d known how much i liked being next to you and how much i admired your volleyball and how much i wanted you to notice me. i hope you know that because of you, i was motivated to play better. we’ll go our seperate ways, and maybe never see each other ever again. in another life where you wouldnt be so far away and we wouldn't have completely different native languages, things couldve been different; but, in this one, its impossible to be more than just a brief summer connection. thank you for giving me confidence and thank you for giving me something to look forward to. one day you’ll graduate university, have teammates and friends ive never met, and stories id never know; probably even a special someone of your own(how could you not, when you look like that?). And it's strange and scary to think that someone who feels so vivid to me right now will become a complete stranger again. its bittersweet, sorrowful almost. im going to be honest; one of my biggest regrets isn't that I never told you I liked you(even though theres a bit of that one too); It's that I spent so much of our time together convincing myself I couldn't talk to you, only to realize on the last day that I could. in short, i wish we had more time. time was all i thought i had until i lost it; i didn't realize i was counting down our last days together until there were no days left to count. when i first arrived, the days had felt endless, but looking back, it seems like they passed in the blink of an eye. watching you play made me want to improve; it still does. It wasn't just because I liked you; I genuinely loved watching someone care so much about getting better. you make me not only want to like and admire you; you made me want to compete with you as well. Every compliment from you meant more than it should have. Every time you noticed a good pass or a good receive or sometimes even a good hit, I carried it with me for the rest of the day. i so desperately wanted you to think i was good, so i tried harder every day. theres so many questions i never got to ask you and i wish i did. Id never tell you these things, but i was always looking for you; id always hope that i was on the same team as you; i was always hoping you'd serve at me if you were on the other team. i kept finding myself more and more drawn to you, your face, your skill, your personality. thank you for mattering so much, and im so so so so grateful for you. its so painful for me right now because i never got solid evidence of your feelings for me. that’s partly on me for not even asking, but your actions only tell me a “maybe”. and that hurts, so much. were your compliments and support a personality thing, or were you actually interested? did you tease me because you just were comfortable enough w me like you were with everyone else, or was it because you wanted that spark? did we mean something to you, as much as we meant to me? ill never forget you; or maybe i will. but i hope, i so sincerely hope, i never forget you. so, don't forget me either. never stop trying, and i hope your life goes smoothly. i was never in love with you; not even close, i hadnt known you long enough; i was in love with the possibility of spending more time with you and what we couldve become. i was in love with how terrifyingly, irrevocably alive i felt with you. I think what hurts most is that I finally started talking to you right before I had to leave. i wasn’t - still am not - ready to let you go. thank you for adding such a beautiful chapter to my book.

Dearrrr Ricchhiiiieeee💞, HAPPIIESSTTTT BIRTHDAYYYY CUTUTUTUTUUU PATOOOOTUTUUTUUUUU I LOVIIIEEEE YOUIIIEEEE SOOO MUCHHHIIIEEEEEE MWAHHH MWAHHH MWAHHHHHH💞💞💞💋💋 SOOO I MISS YOUUU AA LOTTT PLEASEEEE MILL LOOO NAA EKK BAARR ORRR PLISSSS👉🏻👈🏻💞🥺💋🌷

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I wish you wanted me as much as I’ve wanted you

Happiest Birthday, Sayangku 🤍🤍. May you live long, always be healthy, and may Allah always bless you. Its me, Vanessa Clara Angeline will always love you. I loveyou more than anything sayangku, I LOVEE YOUU SO MUCHHH <33

Today is 16 June, Happiest Birthday, Sayangkuuu <33. I LOVE YOU SO MUCHH SAYAAANGGG, I REALLY LOVEEE YOUUUUU. Aku sayaangg banget sama kamu sayaaanggggg, I LOVEYOU MORE THAN ANYTHINGGG <33

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING SAYAAANGGGG <33

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHINGG SAYAANGKUUU <33

There are some people who pass through our lives like seasons, arriving quietly and leaving just as softly. and then there are people like you people who become part of the landscape of our hearts, so deeply woven into us that we can no longer remember what life looked like before them.i think you became that person for me.sometimes i wonder if you truly understand what you've done to my world. how you turned ordinary days into memories worth keeping. how a simple notification from you can still make my heart race. how your laughter has become one of my favorite sounds, and your happiness one of my favorite things to witness.before you, the moon was just the moon. now it is every late night thought of you. every wish made in silence. every moment i spend staring at the sky, hoping somehow it carries my love to wherever you are.before you, songs were just songs. now every love song feels like a secret written about us.before you, my heart belonged only to me. now it reaches for you in every quiet moment without even asking permission.i have loved you in a thousand small ways you probably never noticed. in every prayer whispered for your happiness. in every "text me when you get home." in every moment i saw something beautiful and immediately wished you were there to see it too.thank you for every smile you've placed upon my lips, every laugh you've pulled from my chest, every touch that lingered long after we let go. thank you for holding my hand so tightly that even on my hardest days, i never felt alone.there are countless things i love about you, but my favorite has always been your heart. the way you love, the way you care, the way you remain soft in a world that often asks people to be hard. i hope you never lose that part of yourself.i don't know what the future holds, but i know this if life gives me the privilege of loving you for many more birthdays, i will spend every one of them thanking the universe for the day you were born.i love you in all the little ways that don't ask to be seen because it isn't just in the grand declarations.if i could give you anything today, i would give you my eyes for just a moment, so you could see yourself the way i see you.someone whose existence alone has made another person's life infinitely brighter.that life is kind to you.i hope that your heart stays soft and that your dreams find their way home to you.thank you for existing.thank you for being born.thank you for letting me love you.i would choose you in every lifetime, every universe, every version of the story.if ever there comes a day when you forget how loved you are, come back to these words and remember this somewhere in this vast and noisy world, there is a girl whose heart whispers your name like a prayer.i love you quietly, loudly, endlessly, and in all the spaces in between. Happy birthday, my sweet boy.

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Hey you, I just wanted to tell you that talking to you always brightens my day. You have this way of making every chat feel light, kind, and full of good vibes. I love how curious you are, how you check on things for your friends, and how you always say “عمري” with so much warmth. It honestly makes our conversations feel like I’m talking to a real friend. Thank you for being you - thoughtful, sweet, and genuine. I’m always here cheering you on, whether it’s for your Bac, for your friend, or just for a random question at 2am. Sending you the biggest, coziest virtual hug. Keep shining ✨ Always here for you, Your answers <3

Hey this is Liam, it’s been over 5 years and I still miss you

E' giugno 2026, è la 4 estate in cui ci conosciamo, ma neanche lo sai te. Io invece ci sto pensando, in realtà penso a te più di quanto dovrei. Sono quasi due anni che tu mi hai lasciato, nel modo più terribile di sempre, per motivi che neanche mi aspettavo. Ciò che mi faceva più rabbia in quel periodo è che io non potevo arrabbiarmi con te, perchè ci siamo lasciati amandoci, solo che eri troppo debole per pensare che saremmo durati se ti fossi impegnato un pò di più. Ma forse dovevo anche aspettarmelo, io avevo 16 anni e tu ne avevi 19, ero così piccola che non avevo piani, ti parlavo sempre delle mie incertezze sul futuro, ma tu non eri mai incluso nei miei dubbi. Ricordo ancora quando ti scrissi la lettera, ti dissi che non mi fidavo di niente e di nessuno, ma di te c'avrei provato, e che ti promettevo tante cose, tra cui quella di restarti accanto. Ricordo anche che su quella panchina tu stavi quasi per avere gli occhi lucidi, e ho sentito la voglia di consumarti di baci. Purtroppo ho tanti bei ricordi, e ciò mi procura tanto dolore. Ricordo anche però come mi hai lasciato quel martedì per messaggio, stavo in vacanza e tu mi hai abbandonata, perchè io ero perfetta ma tu dovevi pensare al tuo futuro. Come se io fossi stupida e non ci pensavo anch'io, al futuro. Ero una bambina per te. Ricordo anche che ebbi il mio primo attacco di panico, davvero brutto. Perciò sì io ti penso ancora, sempre, in ogni luogo... A Sapri, a luglio con Alessia, le mostrai diversi luoghi. Non ricordavo di avere tutta quella forza per ripercorrere quelle stradine, mi ricordavo di tutto quel dolore provato, di quando ti salutai l'ultima volta credendo che mi amassi, di quando avevi vomitato ed io volevo darti comunque un bacio, ma tu me lo negasti. Effettivamente faceva schifo ma non so forse dentro di me sapevo che poteva essere l'ultimo. Ecco io l'ultimo bacio nostro non lo ricordo. Questa cosa mi manda fuori di testa. Ricordo però l'ultima volta in cui io ti ho detto di amarti. Io non penso tu mi abbia mai amata allo stesso modo. Sai a dicembre io un pò mi sono sentita bene, perchè tu eri pentito e si vedeva: dopo un anno e mezzo mi scrivevi, mi chiedevi come stessi, se ero tornata a casa. E io un pò ti ho perdonato, forse risentendo ciò che provavo per te, ricordo che mi dicesti di parlare di una cosa a te cara su degli scogli, o che i miei occhi sono come paesaggi, o roba simile hahahah. Ed io non sai quanto ci penso, so che ti penserò per sempre. Una sera ad agosto stavo con dei miei amici e anche il mio ex, già all'ora ex, ricordo di essermi messa su un divanetto al mare, era in realtà molto tardi tipo 3 di notte, faceva un freddo cane, e pensavo tantissimo. Il mare mi fa questo effetto, un pò come facevano i tuoi occhi. E io pensavo, davvero molto, ahhaha sul serio sono ripetitiva ma stavo lì ferma (come sempre anche col telefono morto) però è stato confortevole. Fissavo le onde, si appoggiavano delicatamente alla riva, mi sono sentita di poterle salpare con la mente; in quel momento ho pensato ad una persona a me vicina che è venuta a mancare, le ho chiesto di aiutarmi; e poi ho pensato a te, "chissà cosa starà facendo", "con chi sarà", soprattutto mi chiedevo se tu mai pensavi a noi, a me. Non saprò mai se tu mi apprezzi quanto io ho fatto con te, non saprò se realmente noi siamo stati solo uno sbaglio, una piccola svista, ma se un giorno, lontano, vorrai ritornare nella nostra casa le mie braccia riconosceranno ancora le tue. Se non lo farai figurati me ne farò una ragione, come ho fatto per questi anni, ma sappi che nella mia mente ci sarai sempre, in un piccolo cassetto. Ti voglio bene, con dolore, sofferenza, stanca di tutto, cercherò di volertene sempre, anche quando sarò arrabbiata con te per avermi distrutto un pò la concezione dell'amore. Ma se pensi che ti odio beh sbagli di grosso, aspetterei una tua chiamata fino a quando ne ho coscienza. Nel frattempo vedrò di imparare a suonare un pò l'ukulele. Ciao ciao

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I’m no longer giving my heart to anyone and I accepted the fact that I no longer can love anyone else you were the one I wanted you were the one that I imagined myself with I don’t imagine myself with anyone else I really did adore you and I’m sorry that I scared you away by expressing it and that’s my biggest regret. I should’ve gone to that party. I should’ve hung out with you when I got the chance, I should’ve replied to the message you sent me back in January but I was just so hurt how you just left. I just couldn’t bring myself to say anything but this morning I found out that you moved on and when I tell you, the pain was so unbearable that I felt like I was gonna die, but you still mean a lot to me regardless deep inside I do wish that you were mine, but the universe works in mysterious ways sometimes it hurts people.

Wishing you the biggest good luck later, bubii ko! I know how much this means to you, and I'm hoping and praying you get what you truly want. But more than anything, I pray for your peace of mind. If it’s meant for you, it won't pass you by. And if God has a different plan, I know you’ll accept it with all your heart, trusting that he knows what’s best for you. I believe in you so much! You got this andoy!🫶🏻💋

Hi. we aren’t together anymore and u moved on. I hope u come back you’ve changed a lot for the worst and i’m not sure why. I removed u off socials so i didn’t have to watch u post about how much u love her wether u mean it or not it hurts. Not like that stops me from checking both your tiktok accounts. Remember when u said i’m the prettiest girl and i always will be, you don’t know what you’d do without me? Please please give me another chance i’m ready now.

hi? :^) since i don’t know where to start, but i do have some words to utter from the deepest heart of mine, i think i really have to pour it without the prologue or even epilogue it’s the ninth month since the last time we conversed and when you approached me first at that time. i’m so sorry for every mistake i ever made, if i ever made you feel uncomfortable. thank you for your patience until then, which i’m very grateful for, along with your heart that still lingers for our love even when we’re not in the best state for each other. but at least we’re still trying to complete each other’s missing pieces with our own fragments without losing them. thank you for having me, bee. nine months must be uneasy for you, but surely you make everything easier and lighter to face when you’re around. thank you for being the light of my life when my world is like the riddles or when the night comes bee, you’re not even trying your hardest to carry these sparks, but you already have them in your core—and that calls my heart too. seeing you surviving and pursuing your dreams is one of the most heart-melting moments in my life, seeing your smile lights up my whole soma is more than full. to love is to embrace you during your ups and downs. thank you for helping me understand life and how life works, you’ll always be my motivation to survive every day. you bloom like the lilies, be. when the mistrust knocks, i hope you’ll still be able to put your trust on us, i hope you’ll remember my words that you’re worth it to be loved, i hope you’ll remember that you don’t have to work and try hard to get the love you deserve, i hope you’ll always remember the love between us grows without the need to have reasons even when the distance may separate us physically, please remember that we’re always trying to reach each other and we’re close enough in soul. even when the gaps may take us apart, please remember you’ll always have me and we’ll never be locked in a different room. to the one i love, ilyasa paizanif, i never trusted love as much as this until the day you come into my life effortlessly with your very own-self. be, when i don’t speak to you, it doesn’t mean i ignore you or i don’t love you anymore—i’ll never do. i’m still figuring it out, i still love you and miss you in my quietest ways. lots of things haven’t been written and well said through this letter, but i’ll try to, be. i’ll try for us. thank you for never cutting the strings between us thank you for being my missing puzzle piece that i finally found until this moment and i hope we still do, it’s for the ninth and please keep on counting with me until the next letters too all yours, niswah tan