hi? :^) since i don’t know where to start, but i do have some words to utter from the deepest heart of mine, i think i really have to pour it without the prologue or even epilogue it’s the ninth month since the last time we conversed and when you approached me first at that time. i’m so sorry for every mistake i ever made, if i ever made you feel uncomfortable. thank you for your patience until then, which i’m very grateful for, along with your heart that still lingers for our love even when we’re not in the best state for each other. but at least we’re still trying to complete each other’s missing pieces with our own fragments without losing them. thank you for having me, bee. nine months must be uneasy for you, but surely you make everything easier and lighter to face when you’re around. thank you for being the light of my life when my world is like the riddles or when the night comes bee, you’re not even trying your hardest to carry these sparks, but you already have them in your core—and that calls my heart too. seeing you surviving and pursuing your dreams is one of the most heart-melting moments in my life, seeing your smile lights up my whole soma is more than full. to love is to embrace you during your ups and downs. thank you for helping me understand life and how life works, you’ll always be my motivation to survive every day. you bloom like the lilies, be. when the mistrust knocks, i hope you’ll still be able to put your trust on us, i hope you’ll remember my words that you’re worth it to be loved, i hope you’ll remember that you don’t have to work and try hard to get the love you deserve, i hope you’ll always remember the love between us grows without the need to have reasons even when the distance may separate us physically, please remember that we’re always trying to reach each other and we’re close enough in soul. even when the gaps may take us apart, please remember you’ll always have me and we’ll never be locked in a different room. to the one i love, ilyasa paizanif, i never trusted love as much as this until the day you come into my life effortlessly with your very own-self. be, when i don’t speak to you, it doesn’t mean i ignore you or i don’t love you anymore—i’ll never do. i’m still figuring it out, i still love you and miss you in my quietest ways. lots of things haven’t been written and well said through this letter, but i’ll try to, be. i’ll try for us. thank you for never cutting the strings between us thank you for being my missing puzzle piece that i finally found until this moment and i hope we still do, it’s for the ninth and please keep on counting with me until the next letters too all yours, niswah tan