I miss you

milin, i dont really know how to start this, but i wanted to explain myself a little, i never wanted you to think i was cold or that i didnt care about you so after being alone for so long, i lowk forgot how to act in a rls and im so sorry for taht ,,when you said you wanted a clingy boyfriend, i tried really hard to be that person u want but i took ir way too far i hate that ims orry ive been making you uncomfortable without knowing myself if i know i could've stopped but sighh i didnt :( , and i kept saying i was obsessed with you when i really just meant i cared about you a lot i used wrong word and i'm really sorry for that .i never wanted to make you cry or feel sick in the head i was js scared of losing you or making you lose feeling for me, i know saying sorry wont magically fix everything, but i still want u to know that you've meant a lot to me i really appreciate that, and no matter what happen, i am genuinely proud of you. i really hope we can still be close like before even if it's just as friends istg i wont acting weird or trying too hard now 🙏 i dont want thing to end with us hating each other or feeling awkward i know that'll depend on how you feel, and ofc i'lll respect ur decisoon but i hope u already think it carefully i am really sorry, again (listen to eve by shy the eternal i know it might sound pop or unserious but its really how i feel because im alright🙃 il love you with care muah i dont want to hurt ur feelings❤️‍🩹) -baiyok

Dear Deejay I’m sorry for the confession. If I knew how much it would hurt I would’ve ran away much quicker. I hate how you’re still the one I think of when the word love comes to mind. I hate how much it hurts to see you having fun with other people. I hate how much I really cared and still do. No matter what happens or what day it is, june 5th will forever be a memory I’ll think of when you cross my mind over and over again. I don’t know If you even want to know this but I cried over you again. I cried for our memories, our dreams, and my wishes on what we could been. I still think of you when I see guitars, or when I see hats, or when I watch anime, but it stings throughout my body when I see your want for a relationship, when i’m right here and probably always be. I really liked you and I hate to say that I still do. I know, I know it’s corny but I can’t keep my promise on finding someone better, because there is no one better. When I first met you it’s like I met my match when everyone else couldn’t keep up. I still love you so much and it really hurts to still keep it within me with all these feelings I can’t handle. I miss you and my heart will always beat your name. Love, 🎼unie to the moonie

Dear Dominic, I don’t really know if you’ll ever read this, and maybe that’s okay. I think I’ve spent so much time replaying everything in my head that I just needed somewhere to put the words instead of carrying them around. I know you knew I liked you, and I know things probably looked strange from your perspective. Maybe I came across as too much. Maybe I made you uncomfortable. Maybe you thought I was crazy. If that’s how it seemed, I’m genuinely sorry. That was never what I wanted. The truth is much simpler than it probably looked. I had a crush on you, and because I barely knew you, my mind filled in all the blanks with hope. Sometimes hope makes people do things they normally wouldn’t. It makes them overthink every interaction, wonder if a glance meant something, or read too deeply into small moments. Looking back, I know I probably built up an idea of you more than I ever got the chance to know the real you. I think what’s been hardest isn’t that you didn’t like me back, it’s the embarrassment that came afterward. Knowing you probably saw me differently than I saw myself has been difficult to carry. I keep wondering what you thought when my name came up, whether you laughed about it, whether you rolled your eyes, or whether you just wanted me to disappear. Those thoughts have been louder than I’d like to admit. I’ve questioned myself over and over, asking if I really was as weird as I feel now. I replay everything, searching for the exact moment I crossed a line or became someone you’d never want to talk to. Maybe there wasn’t one moment at all. Maybe things just weren’t meant to be anything more than two people who briefly crossed paths. Still, it’s hard not to wish I could go back and handle everything differently. The age difference was something I thought about constantly. It was one of the reasons I never really tried to talk to you much in the first place, because I knew it could make things awkward. I never expected you to feel the same way, and I never wanted to put you in an uncomfortable position. I just couldn’t help how I felt. Feelings don’t usually ask for permission before they show up. They don’t care whether the timing is right or whether the situation makes sense. They just happen. I wish mine had been quieter. I wish they hadn’t made me overthink so much or made me feel so exposed. For a while, I let this whole situation convince me there was something wrong with me, that caring too much somehow made me broken. I’m trying to believe that isn’t true anymore. I’m writing this because I don’t want this to be a story I keep carrying forever. Whether you thought I was weird, immature, or simply someone you didn’t know, I accept that I can’t change your opinion. What I can change is how I see myself. I don’t want to keep calling myself crazy for having feelings. I don’t want one crush to become the thing that defines my confidence. I hope, if you ever think about me, you don’t remember someone “crazy.” I hope you remember someone who was awkward, outgoing, kind, thoughtful, maybe a little too hopeful, but ultimately just a person who liked you and didn’t know what to do with those feelings. I truly wish you the best, and I’m ready to let this become a chapter that is left unfinished, instead of the whole story. Thank you for reminding me that sometimes growing up means learning to let go with kindness, even when your heart doesn’t want to. I truly wish you the best.

idk bro i love you

Hey Barnie, This project was hella good with you innit mate, I really hope to see you again, you are AMAZING and Caring person, tbh I have a Huge Crush on you, it doesn't matter who am I bc Im kinda closeted and it was uncomfortable to me to tell you in person, bc of u knew that I am gay idk how you would have reacted Soo I kept quiet, ik u had crush on some other boy but it doesn't matter maybe u didn't, either way.... Hope to see you soon XCX Anonymous

happy national girlfriend's day dearr hehehe slkdkdk hehehe to my wonderful girl, thank you so much for all the things you've done for me, for staying with me, for helping me, comforting me, making me laugh, and many more.. I'm always grateful for the things you've done for me.. also, i wanna say sorry, i know im not the best lol, there are times that i have made u worried, I've made you mad, dissapoint you, and im so sorry for all of that, and yet you still choose to stay with me no matter what, that is something i really really appreciate.. please don't ever leave me.. I love you so much, i think obsession is just and understatement loll.. but kidding aside.. i really am grateful for having you here.. let's achieve our goals together.. let's both be successful, until one day where in we could finally do all thw thing's we have ever dreamed about.. i love you.. so so so soo muchh mwa mwa!

I have the most sweetest dream. He unblocked me and then we talk for an hour, funny right? cuz joke aside he would never unblock me. I still have no idea why did he need to end our relationship and go play his games like nothing happened after. Is it creepy if someone stalk their ex's whole game account's profile just becuasr they miss them? and learned how to play game that they dont even know how to play or like before (asking for a friend) i really miss you tho dear yuma, i dont even think i will forgot you cuz you keep appearing in my mind telling me you love me all over again... sighh seriously is it normal if someone do that? i haven't done it yet.... yeaahhhh heh -Your K 💐

I miss you so much, to the point it hurts me that you were the one who left. I've never got to know why did you do that or what did i do wrong and i really want the answer that i know I'll never get from you. You blocked me and telling me to live my life fully but it wil never be fullfil becuase you weren't in my life anymore, remember the day before you blocked me? Haha we played a game called "a long road" and I was so tired I went to bed first but before I was about to leave, you said we'll play later but guess there was no more later now. You didn't even give me a chance to play with you one last time and uhm hey I counted it all, you gave me 43 kisses even though those are just texts I love that and i am so sorry that i didn't show you enough love before i tried. You'll never know that I actually figured it out that your roblox user was .. yk since when you showed me your grinding scene with your alt account tbh I dont want you to leave me but what can I do? It's your choice and i cant control it.. idek if you really loved me or just want to feel loved by someone and I couldn't give what you want so you left. At this point i dont even care as long as you're here for me to keep loving you that will be really great but sighhh there's no more you. I've only played game with you once and that's suck i keep blaming myself why didn't I stay longer? why didn't I give you more love? and oops i had a feeling that you have other and i feel really guilty about this.. you thought i was 2 hours ahead of you but im actually 4 hours ahead and wdym by hindu? im not. You forgot my name becuase you keep calling me sweet nicknames but ykw i LOVE that.. i love and miss you so much i could turn into my old self and write a whole paragraph of how i love you like right now.. I remember telling you to sleep well and have sweet dreams not sleep well and then gone out of my life so sudden.. You play JJS, CW and raised a floppa 2 while i was feeling sick in the head.. I havent cried for someone in so long and you are the first person to make me fucking cry this year. You mentioned cuddling with me 10 times.. wow! you want me to cuddling with air? or what you aren't here anymore.. yuma , MY yuma i love you so much, you said im yours and you are MINE.. huh? where are you to be mine now???? why did you have to leave me this way what about staying as friend? i wont bite you, yuma. I can control myself, friend is friend i wont cross the line as long as you're here i can admire you as A FRIEND not as "a girl who like you". I thought letting you vent to me, try to make you feel better and everything will make u stay but NO you chose to leave.. is it becuase i dont look good? is it becuase i dont send my selfie regulary like other couples? is it becuase i dont update about my life that much? i just dont want to bother you.. i thought it will make you stay... TO THE CONCLUSION; I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I WILL WAITFOR YOU PLEASE UNBLOCK ME PLEASE TALK TO ME -Your K. 💐

I know you’ll never see this which is exactly why I’m typing it. It’s stupid honestly because I’m doing this on an app that’ll probably crash in a year from now. I love you Rickki. I’ve always loved you. I’ll never be able to tell you the truth because we’re supposed to be best friends. I’m. It supposed to feel the things that I do for you. I’m not supposed to love you the way I do or think about you the way I do. I’m not supposed to mourn over your body against mine or your hands in my hair. I’m not supposed to look into your eyes and feel the sparks around me. You’re supposed to be my best friend, and you are, but I’m not supposed to want more. The first night we kissed, I remember it like it was yesterday. It was supposed to be a joke, a silly little flirty joke for everyone in the car to laugh at. We let it go too far. We drug it out and we did things. Things that best friends don’t do. I know you have to feel something. A little bit of something. We talk and all I can think about if your lips on mine, or your heart beating against my chest or the way you spoke to me on those late nights we would stay up for hours talking. There is so many things I want to tell you but simply cannot because I will never risk losing you. I would be your friend and hurt till the day I die then tell you how k really feel and never have you again. I love you, all of you. I hear you talk about other people and I get jealous and trust me when I say I k ke I’m not supposed to. I act like I love jt and I do but because it makes you happy. But I hate it for me because I wish I was that person that wa snaking you feel things and making you smile and laugh and giving you THE feelings. I talk to you everyday but never will I ever mention how I feel. Part of me hopes you’ll one day ask but even then I don’t think I could. I say you have to feel it too but the truth is I don’t think that you do and that’s why I can never speak on it. I’ve thought about you every single day since the day you left. I’ve cried over you. I’ve prayed to have you. But I’m so scared of losing you I can’t tell you. Sometimes I’ll bring you things or offer to do things just to be able to see you. I mourn for you. If I could go back and do tho he differently I would but doing what I did with you would not be anytbing I would change. You were the best thing that has ever happened to me and I know it’s not that way for you because you’ve experienced so much and so much better with other people but the feeling you gave me I have not been able to find it again. Maybe it’s not that “we” took it too far maybe it’s that I did. I read to into it and hear I am, in love with my best friend. I tell you everything and one of the things I told you was how I’ve tried talking to so many people but none of them give me the feeling I was looking for. That’s because the feeling I was looking for was the feeling you gave me. I look for you in everyone. Down to the looks and the personality and the lifestyle, i try to find you in everyone. I’ve heard the saying “I look for you in everyone” before but I never understood it until you. You’re always on my mind even when we’re talking you’re on my mind. You get me and you get me so good but you get me as k am your best friend. And I get you as you are the love of my life. I will never do anything to lose you as my best friend, even if that means never getting to have you as my love.

I miss u soo much I can't stop thinking about you.85811110

You deserve the world. I'm sorry I can't be the one to give it to you.

Can we still be together?I could not live without u being a part of my life you were the only one i could wish for. Without you my life feels empty Theres no one like you. Can you be the one for me? You are the only one i needed, no one else can replace you,Please ถึงแม้เธอจะพูดว่าเราไม่เหมาะกันอย่างงี้ แต่เค้าไม่เคยคิดอย่างงั้นเลย ชีวิตคู่เราต้องปรับกันอีกเยอะ นี่แค่จุดเริ่มต้น เค้าขอโทษถ้าทำตัวเหมือนเหนื่อยมันก็แค่อารมณ์ชั่ววูบอย่างนึง ถ้าให้คิดดีๆเค้าก็อยากจะง้อแล้วคืนดีอยู่เสมอ เรามีกันและกันไปอีกนานๆได้ไหม เธอคือคนเดียวที่เฝ้ารอแล้วปราถนาเสมอมา

Hello, Love. Just wanna say "hi", even you won't reply. You know, I have a lot of something to say.. But, I guess.. I'll just keep it myself 🤷🏻‍♀️. Honestly, I really want to talk to you, confess (again and again), have a long deep conversation with you, hang-out with you, I want to get to know you more. Unfortunately, we can't. You know we can't do that, sweetheart. This love is forbidden. And even if I say I don't care, it still does matter. We both know that. But even with all the prohibitions and obstacles, it doesn't change the fact that my feelings for you are genuine. I know this is real, admit it or not. I don't know how, when, why, or what are the reasons why I am inlove with you. I just feel it. Like what I've said before, you don't have to reciprocate me. But sometimes, I won't deny it... It breaks my heart and I can't accept the thought that you will never be mine. We will meet some other people, and you might forget me. A part of me hopes that one day, if life ever allows it, I could be your last. I want to prove my love, I want to show you and make you feel it. But maybe, I'm meant to love you quietly. I hope that you'll find all the happiness you deserve. I truly mean it. Maging tayo man o hindi sa huli, tunay kitang iibigin. Tatanggapin ko ng buong-buo, ano man ang mangyari. I'm not asking for anything, I'm just stating the fact. Sa puso ko ikaw ang nag-iisang naka lock (wala lang, ni rhyme ko lang ang "lock" sa "fact"). Kidding aside, mahal na mahal kita. 🤢💘

sadafasfa :) love u

i’ve always typed things on these website hoping one day you’d find them. i think about you and your smile. i look for you everywhere. i sometimes see you in my mind all around. i look for you in people i meet. i miss you truly. i know you won’t see this and i know you don’t care anymore but there’s always part of me that hopes you come back & we do it right this time. we are more mature now than we were. please call me or text me. you know my number hasn’t changed..

It hurts me a lot too.8581110

I imagine you being as gentle with someone else as you were with me, and it makes me sick to my stomach. I've never met someone so patient, so giving, so understanding, and I'm scared that I won't meet someone else with even half as beautiful a soul as yours ever again. It feels strange to grieve someone who is still alive. Someone I never really even had, but pretended I did. I'm sorry I've hurt you. I'm sorry it's religion that came between us before we could even give it a try, before I could let you love me the way you silently promised you would, before I could repay you threefold for all the ways you've built me up. You've been a lighthouse in every storm, constant and grounded, and I don't know what I've done to even deserve knowing you, but what I do know is that I've put you through more than you deserve by being in your life. I'm grateful you're in my life, but I apologise for intruding on yours. Sometimes I imagine an alternate universe, where our fates were kinder, and you spend every third day at my house hanging out with my younger siblings who love you, and my brother finally has an older brother figure to look up to. Or maybe, on other days, I take your dog on walks with you, fingers intertwined like they used to be. Your hands always ran warm. We walk home along the shore near your house, and I have comfortable chats with your sister and your parents, and I tell them how well you treat me, as I know you would. You always do. You always have. Whoever gets to hold you will be the luckiest girl in the world. You're so easy to talk to. So calming and careful and sincere. So honest, so smart in the way you saw through every part of me that I doubted. I selfishly thought no one would ever know you or love you the way that I do, but you're so perfect that I think it's impossible not to. I wish things were different. I wish this tightness in my chest was from a nightmare, not reality. I wish you would tell me I'm pretty without being worried that you'll make it worse, make us fall further apart than we already are. I wish I could hold your face in my hands and kiss your nose, or rest my cheek on your shoulder again, or hug you again. Just one more time. And I want to stay friends. I want you in my life. But right now, the thought of having to see you as someone other than the only man in the world who understands me makes me cry. I've cried every day for weeks. The headache doesn't go away. I've made so many mistakes in my life, but the biggest one is being someone you fell in love with. You told me nothing is my fault, that I've done nothing, that you could never hate me, that I'm not a bad person. But I can't bring myself to believe you. It was my religion, my beliefs that fell between us. And, despite knowing how it would play out, I let myself pretend that I was right for you and you were right for me. And I hurt you because of it. You've grown into every part of my life, and I don't know how to live without seeing you everywhere. I miss you so so so so much. Even though we still talk in spite of both our aching hearts. I love you, and I'll always love you in some small part in my chest, with the innocence of a child being carried to bed after falling asleep on the couch, and with the depth of two sort-of-adults who feel everything in its fullest. I started writing this hoping you'd never see it, but some part of me hopes you will, and see all the things I'm too scared to say out loud. You deserve the world. You deserve everything. And I'm sure you'll get all of that and more, but it won't be from me. I'm sorry it can't be from me. I'm always here for you. Stay strong. -D

I often wonder where love goes after it is no longer welcome. Perhaps it lingers inside forgotten playlists, waiting for someone to press play one more time. Perhaps it hides between photographs that neither heart has found the courage to erase. Or perhaps it simply learns to live inside silence. Sometimes I catch myself believing that somewhere, without even realizing it, you're listening to the songs we once shared. That maybe, for the length of a single melody, my name still exists somewhere between the lyrics. It's a comforting lie. The kind the heart tells itself when the truth is too quiet to bear. Your photographs still rest where I left them. Not because I refuse to let go, but because they are the last proof that, for a brief moment in this lifetime, you were real. I searched for you once. Only once. Only to find that even the place where our story began had quietly forgotten your name. Perhaps that's what goodbye truly is. Not when someone walks away, but when every road that once led to them slowly disappears. Still, there are nights when I almost reach for our conversation, forgetting that the door between us was closed long ago. Some absences never ask to be remembered. They simply become part of the air you breathe, quietly follow you wherever you go. Maybe one day the songs will lose your voice. Maybe the photographs will become nothing more than ordinary pixels. Maybe your name will arrive in my mind without breaking anything inside me. But until that gentle day finds me, I'll keep these fragments where they are. Not as a promise to wait, but as a quiet thank you to a love that once existed, even if only for a little while. I hope life has been kind to you. And I hope, wherever you are, you've found the peace we couldn't find together. To the person who became my favorite memory ⁠♡.

I really miss you.. Lately I have been thinking about what happened between us and how I must have confused and offended you. I was confused and scared and just a mess of emotions. I am really sorry. Please, can we talk this out? When you feel like it, of course. You were one of my best friends for a while and I must be honest, losing you broke me in ways I never thought I could be broken.

i miss you and i hate how we ended why did you do that i loved you i thought we would last forever please come back steven i don’t care if you hurt me again i just want you in my life you made me feel okay about myself and i wanted to live for you and now i don’t even have a reason too i miss our convos and kisses and hugs and holding hands none of the lustful stuff i loved you for you silly i hope you do good in volleyball since you quit football i love you