First love

I hope you're happy now Mylo. I'm sorry for writing this letter to you, I think you've moved on already. But the pain that I'm feeling right now, I don't know how to soothe myself in a way that I don't message you. Tanggap ko na wala na tayo, pero ang sakit parin, and I miss you. I kept lying to myself when I say I don't love you anymore, pero at the same time I won't run back to you anymore. I felt so discarded after our breakup, I'm so noisy dun sa dump ko, lagi kitang pinapatamaan pero ang sakit kasi I don't know how to handle this type of pain. After our breakup you were silent, and I took that as a closure, i tried to block you, but I could only do unfollow hanggang sa binlock mo ko sa Ig kasi along the way I said that I'm always here for you. And it looked like a betrayal to my promise. In my mind, I kept replaying what went wrong and our last conversation. I really wish life was kind enough to let me keep you. Kaya ko sinabi na what comes after this na you were so worried when I repeat it ilang beses sa last call natin, I meant that I've built a future with you in my head and it crumbled nung iniwan mo ako. I still have a lot of love to give to you leon, now I don't even know where to put it. Napalitan lang ng grief and pain. I'll forever miss you in my life siguro a few years from now di na masakit pero maalala parin kita. First love kita eh. Malaki ang impact mo sa perspective ko sa love, now I'm so scared, I'm so scared to start over again. You raised my standards that I don't even know if I'll let someone in again. At the same time I don't want to spend a lifetime yearning for you, It's fucking painful. I want to heal as much as I can so I distanced myself, and you also, kahit na I desperately want to reach out. Kabisado kita, hindi ka sasagot, at the same time kabisado mo ko kasi sasagot ako. I remember pa yung sinabi mo sa letter mo na BDO ka na kahit gano ka pa kabusy you'll make time for me. Naiyak ako ron, kasi totoo nga tinupad mo siya, not until nung last few weeks ng rs natin. Nakakalimutan mo na mag goodmorning or goodnight minsan, hinahayaan mo ako matulog nang may galit sayo kasi di mo ko sinasagot tuwing nagkakaroon tayo ng misunderstanding. Dinala mo past fears mo sa Relationship natin, don't you want to grow with me? Bakit kailangan mo dalhin mga alaala niyo ni KC? Kaya di ko mapigilan magisip kung rebound lang ba ako or panakip butas eh, ilang beses mo siya nabring up kahig nung nakikipaghiwalay ka na sakin. Di mo ko mareassure. I grew anxious sa relationship natin, It started feeling heavy, but I stayed kasi mahal kita kahit na I felt unloved in some moments. I made it clear from the start what I expect of a guy. napakasimple. i wanted someone who would choose me everyday kahit gano pa kahirap. You knew my past pain, inulit mo siya. At some point you're my answered prayer, pero God took you away from me. Baka siguro alam niya na di na tayo makakabuti para sa isat isa. You still have a lot to work on yourself, discover about yourself, and built for yourself. You're in and out relationships so mas mabuti na siguro yon. And for me, ang dami ko rin dapat matutunan, I stayed kahit na malabo na, i begged kahit you were begging me to understand, and to let you go. I thought maabutan pa kita maging registered radtech, akala ko makikilala ko pa family mo personally, i thought we'd build a life together. But, turns out I expected too much. I thought in a relationship both should be the beloved, pero sa huli ako nalang yung sobrang nagmamahal. Ako nalang yung bigay ng bigay, binuhos lo energy ko dito na walang wala na ko ngayon. I waited for you to call everyday, kahit na minsan sobrang pagod ko na, inintindi ko pagkasilent treatment mo sakin tuwing hindi tayo okay or hindi ka okay kahit I'm anxious kasi di ko alam kung ano na nangyayare, especially pag nagaaway tayo at di mo ko nirereplayan nagooverthink ako. Alam mong ayaw ko niyan, pero still hindi ka magadjust, pati pagrereply mo or paguupdate mo. Alam mo kung anong problema diyan. At parang ako yung nagfleflex sa relationship natin, di kita nakitaan much of it. Pero leon sa galit at lungkot na nararamdaman ko, nandon parin ung pagmamahal, nandon parin ung mga alaala natin. Sabi nga nila love transcends time and space, I loved you until the day I died, and for me that's enough.

Çok istiyorum özür dileyelim birbirimizden, oturup anlaşalım, konuşup anlaşılamayacak sorun değildi bizimki. Ama istemedin, ben de geri çekildim. Arada özlüyorsun, storylerime bakıyorsun biliyorum, belki sen de yazmak istiyorsun ama -iyi biliyorum ki- benim sert duvarlarımı, senin tekrardan reddedilme korkusu geri çekiyor seni. Bir cesaret bulsan, geri dönsek, unutsak her şeyi. Belki de kafada kuruyorum ve özlediğin kişi ben değilim, ya eski sevgilin -fotoğrafları bile duruyor- ya da başka bir kız var. Herkes bana “senin gibi bir kız, böyle erkeklere bakmaz” diyor, kusura bakma ama haklılar da, belki de bu korkutuyor seni, ama inan ki gerçekten gece 3’te sarhoş halinle yazdığın bir “özledim” mesajı yeterdi yeniden başlamamıza. Benim ilk defa bu kadar açıldığım, ilk defa yakınlaştığım erkeksin. Sadece 1 haftalık, senin gözünde hiçbir şey bunu biliyorum, belki de varlığımı bile unuttun , çünkü ben insan içinde görünmezim. Ama benim gibi zor seven birisi için çok önemli. O mesaj gelmeyecek, her şey bitti. Bir gün başkalarını seveceğiz, onlar için güleceğiz, ağlayacağız. Bir gün gerçek aşkı bulacağız. Böylesi daha iyi olacak. Benim için her zaman “ilk öpüşme hikayem” olarak canlı kalacaksın. Ama sen bir gün beni unutacaksın. Kendine iyi bak olur mu? Bir de son ricam, eğer mümkünse, beni güzel anar mısın? Hoşça kal benim tatlı ilk öpücüğüm :)

di ko ine expect na magkikita tayo ulit, and sa ganung sitwasyon pa.

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hahahahhaha lol kailan ka mag papakita

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i love u so much

kalau bukan dia, maka tidak akan ada lagi. Firstlv from. 2010 - Now

Betu, come here. I know that you are परेशान and unable to handle the pressure, things are becoming difficult for you, and no one is truly understanding what you are going through. You wish that your loved ones would understand your pain and your worries, but every time you end up feeling disappointed. Betu, I am with you in every way. I will give you reasons to smile and won't let you stay worried. Just to hear your laughter and make you smile, I will find some way to make you feel better. Betu, don't worry, everything will be alright

Hi, Lucia Just wanted you to know that at first, I picked sunflowers to be my favorite because they reminded me of you. I loved you back then. Even if you told me how you thought I was stupid and useless I would have still loved you. Even when I dated other people. To me you were blinding. But you didnt like girls. And I think you struggled to like me, even as a friend. I hope you find a handsome, strong man that plays volleyball. And I hope you read this. Its relieving in a way. I hope you listen to rises the moon and remember me. You hummed that song once. It was pretty.

Hillooo I’m currently in class! Nag English mi karon. I really mezzzz youuu po!!😚

I hope you will heal from something that’s bothering us.

i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you please come back i will do anything for you i will worship you i will treat you like a fucking god come back my love please please please come back i beg you i will never find anyone like you i will never see anyone the same way as you i'd do anything please come back please please please you're my first thought in the morning and the last thought as i go to bed you're everything to me and it hurts it hurts nothing feels good without you i want you so bad anything for you

Holaaa, me he dado cuenta que todavía no te he pedido resalir jajaja. Solo te quiero decir que pase lo que pase quiero pasar el resto de mi vida a tu lado. Querrías salir con este tipejo y tener hijos?

An diesem Tag wurde vor 16 Jahren Sana geboren, die schönste person des welt. Seit dem Tag, an dem ich dich kennengelernt habe, gehst du mir nicht mehr aus dem Kopf. Jeder Moment mit dir fühlt sich für mich wie ein Traum an, aus dem ich niemals aufwachen möchte. Wenn du mich umarmst, fühle ich mich sicher, auch wenn das vielleicht komisch klingt. Und vielleicht hatten wir auch schlechte Momente in unserer Beziehung, aber am Ende kommen wir immer wieder zusammen. Ich will es nicht jetzt länge ziehen, ich will dir nur noch sagen dass ich immer für dich da bin in guten und schlechten zeiten.Und ich wünsche dir alles gute zum geburtstag Sano.

i love you, i miss you so incredibly much. i know i fucked up and you did too but the only thing we can do is try forget our mistakes and start fresh. i’m sorry i wasn’t kinder to you when all you wanted to do was love me, im sorry for the way i treated you as if you wouldn’t slip away under my finger tips. but you did, you left. you hurt me just as bad as i hurt you, im sorry for that. i just wish we could work out and go back to how it was, it was meant to be me and you against the world not us against eachother. i still listen to fix you by cold play, hoping one last time id hear ur voice singing the lyrics into my ear because that was our song. i love you daanish please remember im always here if you want to try again, ill never move on.

Happy Anniversary, Sayangku. Terima kasih udah jadi rumah paling tenang di hidupku. Aku mungkin nggak selalu pandai nunjukin rasa, tapi percayalah… aku selalu milih kamu, setiap hari.❤️ Another year with you, dan aku masih jatuh cinta dengan cara yang sama bahkan lebih dalam. Tetap di sini, temenin aku sampai kapanpun itu.

My Dearest Dave, Happy 3rd Anniversary, my love. 🤍 Akala ko noon hindi tunay ang pag-ibig. Akala ko walang totoo. Akala ko sa pelikula lang nangyayari yung mga pagmamahalang kayang maghintay, umunawa, at manatili kahit mahirap. Buong buhay ko, naniwala akong walang taong kayang mahalin ako nang buong-buo at walang kondisyon. But then, dumating ka. Noong una mong sinabi sa akin na gusto mo ako, hindi ako naniwala. Akala ko biro lamang ang lahat. Akala ko isa lang itong panandaliang damdamin na mawawala rin kalaunan. Hindi ko akalaing yung bagay na pinaka kinatatakutan ko, ang magmahal at magtiwala, ay siya mong haharapin nang buong tapang. Hindi ko malilimutan kung paano mong kinausap sila Pastor at kung paano mo hinanap ang gabay ng Diyos para sa atin. Doon ko nakita kung gaano kaseryoso ang pagmamahal mo, at doon unti-unting naniwala ang puso kong matagal nang takot masaktan. I never thought I would meet someone who is willing to love me wholeheartedly. Someone who would stay, understand me, and choose me every single day. Ang dami nang panahon ang lumipas. Yung dating Dave na minahal ko noon, unti-unti nang nagbago. Pero hindi iyon pagbabago na ikinakatakot ko. Nakita kong hinuhubog ka ng Diyos para maging mas mabuting tao, mas mabuting lalaki, at mas mabuting lingkod Niya. And seeing you grow closer to Him made me love you even more. Marami tayong pinagdaanan. Maraming sitwasyon ang sumubok na ilayo tayo sa isa’t isa, pero paulit-ulit pa rin tayong bumabalik sa kung ano ang sinasabi ng puso natin. Siguro ito talaga ang tunay na kahulugan ng pagmamahal. Choosing each other even when things get hard. There were so many moments when I wanted to hold you closer and kiss you, but we both chose to wait because we want to protect the promises we made to God and to each other. Thank you, my love, for being patient with me and for choosing to wait with me. Hindi ko akalaing may taong kayang magtiis at iwan ang pansariling kagustuhan para sa pangarap nating dalawa at para sa plano ng Diyos para sa atin. Kaya salamat, mahal ko. Thank you for understanding me lalo na sa mga lowest points ng buhay ko. Ikaw yung taong nandiyan kapag umiiyak ako. Ikaw yung taong kayang magpagaan ng loob ko kahit wala kang sabihin. Kapag nandiyan ka, pakiramdam ko tumatahimik ang mundo at tayong dalawa lang ang mahalaga. Thank you for correcting me when I’m wrong, and thank you for always making me smile. Walang anumang bagay sa mundo ang kayang pumantay sa ngiting dala mo sa buhay ko. Lagi mong tatandaan na mahal na mahal kita. Hindi man ako ganoon ka-showy minsan, alam mo namang iniingatan ko lang ang pangako natin. But my heart knows exactly how important you are to me. I am so proud of you, my love. Lagi kitang ipinagmamalaki. At gusto kong tandaan mo ito palagi, kahit mapunta ka man sa pinakamababang punto ng buhay mo, hindi ka nag-iisa. Bukod kay Tita, ako yung babaeng paulit-ulit na sasagip sa’yo, maniniwala sa’yo, at mananatili sa tabi mo. Always remember that you are loved, appreciated, and valued. I will always root for you and support your dreams. “Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.” Ephesians 4:2 Salamat sa pagmamahal mo. Salamat sa lahat ng sakripisyo, pag-unawa, at pananatili. And most of all, thank you Lord, because out of everyone in this world, ikaw ang ibinigay Niya sa akin. Ikaw ang pahinga ko, ang tahanan ko, at isa sa pinakamagandang patunay na totoo pala talaga ang pagmamahal. Happy 3rd Anniversary, my love. I will always choose you. 🤍 Forever yours, Your love, Lorraine. 🫧

Dear MyFuture, First and foremost, I just want to thank God for giving me you. Thank you for coming into my life and making it brighter and happier every day. I truly admire you for who you are, and I love everything about you. I promise that one day, I will marry you, travel every country with you, create countless beautiful memories together, and build our own happy family. I want to have kids with you and spend the rest of my life taking care of you and our future kiddos. So please be patient with dada. Dada is still in the process of becoming the man who can give you and our future children a wonderful and comfortable life. Every effort I make is for us and for the future we will build together. See yaaaa soon, My Love 🤗🤍🤍🤍