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Hi!! It was May 18, 2026, I don’t even know kung paano tayo nag simula with label, gusto na kitang pakawalan pero there is something na pumipigil sakin, pero I really know sa sarili ko na, hindi ka naman talaga para sa’kin. About that letter I wrote (May 1, 2026) yeah that’s all true, but this day I finally know how much I loved you. But all of my family was against in our love, and I don’t want it. I can’t wait na sabihin at ipakita sayo lahat ng letters ko, kasi lahat naman talaga yung totoo eh, I love my past but I need to forget about it, I love you but I need to have space, I really, really wanted to be your friend nalang talaga and I can’t wait to see you as my friend. I know ang unfair ng mundo, pero sana naman makalimutan mo balang araw mga memories natin. And did you know why I titled this as “the man I’ve met since day 1 of regret”? Because I regret to loving you kahit alam ko namang hindi dapat, I really know na bawal at ayoko naman talagang tumagal pa. You can hate me, but never forget how I choose you more than my own family and friends.

Cherry, I love you so much. Its like sharing everything with a sister who actually gets it. Yes, I stalk you reposts. Yes, I wonder what you are up to all the time and Yes, I think about you whenever I have s*icidal thoughts. So, as my final act of love, I will not say when I am going to commit. Because...I want you to think that I am alive and living well even if it only lasts a week, a day or even an hour. Im sorry for leaving you.

Goodbye… I know I had promised to never contact you again, trust me, I tried my best but my heart couldn’t leave without saying goodbye As I’m writing this, my eyes are full of tears, I’m still hurt and full of pain. The decision I took of cutting you off my life wasn’t because i didn’t love you anymore, but it’s because I loved you so much that I wanted you to be happy. I knew that I wasn’t where your happiness lied, so I wanted to give you a chance to do whatever it is that you wanted, without me interrupting all the time. I also needed to choose myself because I finally realised that you were you were never gonna choose me and that’s okay because people are allowed to love whoever they want to love. I know you never apologised but I want you to know that forgive you for all the pain that you’ve caused me, I feel like I have to let everything go before I go.. I didn’t want to carry this onto my new chapter, By the time you read this, I will probably be on a flight going back home or I have probably arrived, I just wanted to make sure that I send this before I leave the grounds of the city because I knew I wouldn’t have the heart to see you again, it would’ve probably hurt me more. Anyways, it’s alright, I guess the last thing I want to say is that I always wonder what happened, maybe one day you will explain it to me, and maybe on that day I’ll fully understand… until then I hope you live your best life and really do all the things you said you would.. As for me? I’ll be in my hometown pursuing my dreams, if you ever find yourself that side one day, give me a call… But for now, goodbye Lots of love, MM

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Mọi thứ cứ ngày ngày trôi qua như thể có 1 lực hút vô hình kéo mình lại với mọi sự trên đời, như thể mình là mặt trăng nhỏ bé xíu đang vừa gồng mình chống lại lực hút to lớn của trái đất vừa phải quay mòng mòng mòng không ngừng nghỉ ấy, xin chào và tôi là Julieta - nơi tôi sẽ viết và lắng nghe những nỗi lòng cũng để giãy bày suy nghĩ của chính tôi và bạn. Bạn có cảm thấy không? Tôi luôn mông lung luôn sợ hãi về tương lai, tôi cứ nghĩ tôi là 1 người hướng ngoại tôi rất hay cười nhưng mọi người, cả bố cả mẹ bạn bè thân thích cũng không biết tới mặt tối của tôi, lúc tôi phỏng vấn thử với thầy cô giáo, tôi thấy mình tra lời khá mượt mà về mặt phát âm và ngữ pháp tiếng Anh, có lẽ tôi giỏi nhất ở việc phân tích ảnh vì tôi rất thích viết văn tự sự và miêu tả lại rất thích vẽ đối với tôi mọi thứ diễn ra suôn sẻ cho tới lúc cô nước ngoài của tôi cô tên i cô nhăn mặt và cất giọng tiếng anh vừa phức tạp lại vừa cảm thán “Cô không biết nói sao nhưng mọi thứ ở bài phỏng vấn đều chỉ ra em rất tiêu cực.” Đúng, tôi rất tiêu cực nhìn tôi thế thôi nhưng tôi vô cùng sợ giao tiếp với người lạ, nếu có giao du chắc chỉ muốn đến 1 mình hoặc kéo nhiều nhất là 2 người bạn phải cực kì thân đi chơi cùng cho đỡ cô đơn, tôi không thích tụ tập. Tôi trưởng thành trong 1 căn nhà mà bố mẹ tôi là những người già dặn tôi cũng học hỏi họ không ít nên còn trẻ tôi đã biết suy nghĩ thấu hiểu phải nói thì chắc hơi ngạo mạn là biết nhiều những điều mà bạn đồng trang lứa không thấu khi bằng tuổi tôi. Việc này làm tôi luôn trầm lặng thu mình ít giao tiếp nhưng khi đã thân quen thì việc cởi mở với tôi không quá khó khăn đâu nhé. Vào việc chính, tôi luôn lo ngại về tương lại có câu nói này tôi thấy dù nhảm nhí nhưng ở một phần nào đó khá đúng “Nếu cuộc đời không rực rỡ thì sao? Thì thôi vậy.” tôi lo về tương lai, sắp tới tôi lại chuyển trường bố mẹ tôi rất kì vọng vào tôi, cho tôi những gì tốt đẹp nhất, tôi biết ơn họ nhưng không thể ngừng lo sợ về việc nếu tôi không đỗ vào trường ấy thì sao? Trường đó không hề là hạng xoàng đâu nó khó lắm, tôi muốn chơi lại rất muốn vẽ nhưng càng không muốn thấy sự thất vọng và sự buồn bã trong mắt họ, có thể đó là tình yêu thương nhưng đối với tôi sự “kì vọng” ấy nặng nề biết bao ước gì tôi có thể buông tất cả gieo mình vào biển xanh, làm 1 con cá, 1 con chim để ngắm nhìn mọi thứ mà không bị ràng buộc không cần giao tiếp nhỉ? Tôi sợ lắm tôi rất sợ, tôi cảm thấy mình vô dụng cảm thấy lo sợ về tương lại sợ bị khinh bỉ càng sợ sự thất vọng, họ cho đi quá nhiều khiến tôi áp lwujc và lo sợ biết bao… Tôi nghĩ mình cần phải cố gắng nhưng…nó mông lung lắm như thể lạc giữa biển ấy càng đi sẽ càng xa bờ…tới mức tôi chẳng còn biết làm gì cả… tôi không biết cách đáp ứng kỳ vọng của họ, vì mỗi lần tôi đạt 1 cột mốc họ sẽ chép miệng và bảo nếu có lần sau hãy cố thêm nhưu hôm tôi được 4,5 trên 5 vì mắc 1 lỗi sai nhỏ mẹ tôi hỏi “Sao điểm thấp thế on như vậy vẫn chưa đủ hay sao? Nhà mình không còn tiền cho m học thêm đâu” nhiều lúc họ muốn tôi cái này muốn tôi cái kia…tôi chỉ biết..im lặng..tôi đâu biết làm gì? Muốn phản kháng ư? tôi lại sợ họ thất vọng tôi chưa từng dám nói ra suy nghĩ thật lòng của mình… Tôi chuyển cấp, điểm thấp vì bỡ ngỡ trình độ mới và kiến thức quá nhiều, nhà trường không hề cho tôi đề cương, sự vồ vập ấy tôi choáng ngợp thành tích lung lay, không mình bố mẹ tôi đâu tôi cũng vậy… tôi lúc đó lại im lặng..nhốt mình lại…rồi lại lo sợ tương lai. Dường như tôi không muốn sống nữa càng lớn tôi càng sợ mình phải sống phải trưởng thành ấy..

I had a mixed experience in your B1 Lab. The strictness at the start really had a bad image built inside my head regarding you, like, "How will the 16 weeks pass with her?" The strictness was definitely felt more because the previous instructor of FE was really lenient in everything, but you had some specific rules that you expected us to follow. And as time went on, your image that I had in my head started improving. I understood that, "Ok, don't talk during presentations or tasks, and she doesn't mind anything else that much." On the academic side of things, I really learned a lot of good writing techniques. I was able to understand what differentiates mediocre writings from professional-grade literature. And being 100% honest, amongst all my courses this semester (including the technical ones), your class was the one that I benefitted from the most, even more than from my technical courses, because they were online and failed to teach me much. However, your tasks and teaching style really helped me. (You might notice that the writing above is a bit all over the place and lacking proper flow, but this is cuz it's intent is to deliver a message and not focused on the structure, coherence or anything)

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Hi love. It has been really a long time since I wrote you a letter like this and I really miss you sobra. Di ako makatulog eh, pinapanood ko nalang mga videos natin and throwbacks. I wanna thank you love. Thank you kasi ikaw ka, nandiyan ka palagi, at thank you dahil ikaw ang girlfriend ko. Alam mo love I can’t thank the Lord enough for all the people around me na nagmamahal sakin at isa ka dun. Thank you dahil sa dami ng rason para sukuan ako, pero pinipili mo parin ako. Thank you dahil despite nang lahat ng mga mali kong choices in life ay hindi ka kasama don. Thank you dahil nagagawa mo akong mahalin even on my bad days. Thank you for every time you choose to stay when it gets hard for the both of us. Mahal na mahal kita love at seryosong seryoso ako na paninindigan ko na makasama kita habang buhay. Kahit humirap man ang sitwasyon at papiliin ako ng mundo at kahit magbaligtad pa yung mundo at makalimot at mawala na ko sa mundong to, palaging nandiyan yung pagmamahal ko sayo. Love thank you dahil mag 2 years na tayo at kahit nagkakaroon tayo ng mga bagay o alitan na pinaglalayo tayo eh nahahanap parin natin pabalik sa isa’t isa. Sorry kung minsan umaabot tayo sa samaan ng loob at nauubos ang pasensya ko sayo at sorry din kung masakit ako minsan mag salita at walang preno. Sorry din sa mga araw na kailangan mo ako sa tabi mo pero wala ako. Sorry sa lahat ng kasalanan ko sayo na hanggang ngayon dinidibdib mo pa. Lahat yun pinagsisisihan ko at ginagawa kong aral, okay? Sana maintindihan mo rin love na malaki naman tiwala ko sayo. Pasensya kung minsan feeling mo napaghihigpitan kita pero hindi love, it’s just that I care for u too much to the point na napapraning ako - lalo pag nalalasing ka. Love nakita mo ba akong naghigpit sayo with your friends? Diba hindi rin naman, it’s just that wala pa talaga akong idea kung sino at anong klaseng tao mga kasama mo, and I’m really concerned for you. Pano kung isa diyan kagaya ulit ng nakwento mo sakin yung kayo nila Ramell, diba? Ayokong hayaan na may mangyari sayong ganun lalo na ngayon na meron kang ako. Anyways, sana maintindihan mo na hindi pa talaga ako panatag love, please. Kung tingin mo hindi ako nagiging fair sayo. I’m sorry, but please do understand na never akong hindi nag open sayo before. Lahat naman ng nangyayari araw araw naririnig mo sakin, kung anong tao ba si ganto ganyan, meron ka pang Ate Kressa at Cielo na pwedeng mong malapitan o mapaghanapan kung sakaling mawala ako. Baligtarin mo ngayon, ako ba meron? Wala love diba. Anyway, May. Sana habang natagal tayo mas lalo pa tayong tumatag at mag grow, ikaw na nagsabi hindi na tayo bata. Ang dami kong pangarap para satin love, at isa na dun yung mamuhay tayong masaya kahit simple lang, bonus na kung at sana yumaman tayo ng sobra and wish ko na makuha mo lahat ng pangarap at gusto mo at pangako na susuportahan kita at lagi akong nasa likod mo. At sana malaman mo na habang tumatagal tayo, mas lumalalim yung pagmamahal ko sayo, yung pagmamahal na kahit nakakasakit minsan yung mga pinag dadaanan natin, hindi parin ako napapagod piliin ka. Kasi ikaw yung pahinga ko love. Ikaw yung taong gusto kong uwian pagkatapos ng nakakapagod na araw. Ikaw yung gusto kong makasama sa maliliit na bagay - kumain sa labas, mag grocery, manood, mag travel, o kahit humiga lang habang magkausap tayo tungkol sa buhay natin. Hindi ko alam anong mangyayari satin in the future pero ang alam ko lang, araw araw kitang pipiliin hangga’t kaya ko. Hindi man ako perfect na boyfriend at madalas nagkukulang, sana makita mo parin na totoo lahat ng intensyon ko sayo. Hindi kita niloloko sa mga pangarap ko para satin. Gusto kitang makasama habang buhay, sa maayos na buhay, sa tahimik na bahay, at sa future na pareho nating pinaghihirapan. At kung dumating man yung araw na pareho tayong pagod, sana wag natin kalimutan kung paano tayo nagsimula. Sana lagi nating piliing intindihin ang isa’t isa kaysa sukuan yung relasyon natin. Kasi love, bihira lang makahanap ng taong handang samahan ka habang binubuo mo pa yung sarili mo, at ikaw yun sakin. Mahal na mahal kita, May. At habang tumatagal, mas sigurado ako na ikaw yung gusto kong makasama sa lahat ng susunod pang chapters ng buhay ko. Good night love, matutulog na ako, thank you ulit. Mahal na mahal kita

i want to be more motivated this upcoming g12, and i hope okay lang sayo if i include you as one of my motivations if not, okay lang din, i’ll just keep it to myself silently HAHAHSHA. and don’t worry bro, this isn’t a confession or anything 😭 you can still do whatever you want, kahit makipag flirt ka pa kahit kanino, go lang i thought na it’s better if ikaw nalang maging inspiration ko this upcoming g12 kaysa maghanap pa ako sa school. kasi what if i get attached to someone tapos makita ko na may iba pala siyang gusto or nilalandi, syempre masasaktan lang ako at least ikaw, malayo ka, so there’s no pressure and wala akong makikitang ikakasakit ko hahaha, so ayun, i just wanted to ask if okay lang ba na maging isa ka sa motivations ko this g12. don’t worry, motivation lang talaga siya, nothing more :)) thank youuu

happy birthday baeeee, i love u so so much, even if u're a little mean to me most of the time. i think u're one of the sweetest souls and a great great friend, so lucky to call u family and my little menace. please never give up on ur dreams, for i know it is well within ur ability to achieve each and every one of them. my little artist, one day the world and its stages will be yours and i'll be applauding you front row seat and all. i hope you're not being hard on yourself. things do get easier, angel. did i mention ily? because i do. i'll always cheer u on. u're far more than what anyone has to say about u. believe in yourself because i wholeheartedly believe in u and ur spirit, sweet thing. i love you: your cooking, your dancing, your short hair and bangs, and the incessant yapping, and i love your big heart and the utterly sensitive side u fail to hide. mwah from ur bestest cuz💞 You and I, we’re gonna be friends. Okay?

Thanks for being there for me through the ups and down

And for everyone reading this, please be careful with everyones feelings. And keep loving, with all your heart. It’s hurtful many times, but it’s also really worth it. ahoj martinku, To be honest, I don’t even know if I still have the privilege to call you that. You see... I never wanted to hurt you. I always wanted only the best for you, even if it doesn’t look like that right now. I tried to end this so many times... but I just couldn’t. I couldn't let go. You were willing to do everything for me. You wanted to move to the other side of the world for me, and I know you would have done anything I asked. I know you love me, maybe too much. I don’t even know where to start, how to tell you everything, even though I know you’ll probably never read this. But that’s okay, maybe it’s better this way, though I wish something in this letter would help you understand everything and move on. Recently, I came across the song beautiful by joji, and it describes our entire situation perfectly. I really can’t say anything in my defense, I have no excuses. Everything is my fault and I can’t take it back. If I could, I would do anything to not hurt you like this. Because you were my precious boy. muj martinek. God, I wish I could tell you one more time that I love you and how much I love you. You mean absolutely everything to me. I don’t know how to move on, but I know we both have to. And we will both make it. I always used to say it’s stupid to be sad after a breakup, that we’ll always meet another person who will fulfill us just as much or more. But now I understand. I can’t imagine it. I gave you everything of myself. Even if some parts were a lie, the real me is what I gave you. I gave you my heart, and I don’t think anyone will ever give it back to me. I love you, so much, I dream about you every night. It was never fair to drag you into my chaos, but you always stayed, and I loved you even more for it. Just so you know, I’m sorry. I wish we could both just put a white flag on our walls and sweep up all the shards I caused. But I know that’s not right. But damn baby, you were supposed to be my savior, but I ended up being the one you needed saving from. And for my final act of love, I will let you forget me. I’ll let you place me in the farthest corner of your mind, making sure that nothing I ever did will bother you again. I’ll close my eyes, drift through space, only our memories keeping me afloat. Not because I hate you, not because I want to, but because I care for you. I don’t want to make my regrets your own, or have my problems create yours. I want you to smile, laugh and cry. Feel all the emotions a human should feel, even if not with me. Because I know I cannot give you that gift. My love for you won’t fade, nor will it ever die. But your love for me will. You will become a mere speck in the huge universe lying before you. Yes, it will hurt, and of course it will sting. But in the end, to me, it’s all worth it. I would do anything for you. So for my final act of love, I will fade from your world, putting you first, just so you can be healthy. Even if it hurts. I’m such a full of shit, I speak of god but I sin, I speak about kindness but I’ve hurt people, I speak about growth but I fall back into old habits, I speak of loyalty but I’ve betrayed people, I speak about having a positive mind but sometimes I’m sad, I speak about healing but I’m still broken in places. You are my biggest “what if,” you are my biggest weakness, enemy and fear, and still, I wish I could run into your arms. It is really hard for me to accept that until I leave this earth I’m gonna be always so tangled. I know I have to get myself out of the hole I’m in, because there’s no one else to dig me out. But somehow, not a single day has gone by where you didn’t cross my mind. I miss you in ways I can’t even explain. I miss your laugh, your voice, the way you made everything feel lighter. Even the smallest things about you stayed with me. And no matter how much I try to move forward, there are always moments, quiet, unexpected ones, that bring me right back to you… to us… to what we almost had. I know I hurt you, and that’s something I carry with me every day. It’s a kind of regret that doesn’t fade. You didn’t deserve any of it. But even with that pain, I want you to know how proud I am of you. Watching you become the person you once dreamed of being… it means more to me than you’ll ever know. You deserve every good thing that’s happening in your life right now. And even if I’m no longer part of your world, I’ll always be here, quietly, in the background, rooting for you, praying for you, wishing you happiness in ways I couldn’t give before. I love you… in the quiet, distant, unspoken way that stays even when everything else is gone. And no matter where life takes us, you will always have a place in my heart. I’m not writing this to get back to you, i know i can’t undo things that i’ve done. But i still love you, and that’s the thing that won’t change. I don’t have the courage to send to you. But maybe some of the audience here will, and if. I want you to know that, I’m so sorry for everything. You’ll always deserve the best, i hope one day you find someone amazing, who will be there for you. You’re never too much or too less. You’re always enough and the right person will see that. Please remember that and don’t let anyone hurt you like i did. Ty ses muj martinek proste.. hrozne si preju abych ti mohla rict jeste jednou ‘pocem ke mne’ nebo ze te miluju. pa kocicko moje. Vzdycky budu s tebou.

dear siti, thank you for being the best person that you are.you’ve been with me since forever.even when we were separated we always started talking again.you comforted me when no one’s around and it makes feel safe and heard.maybe i’m not special to you but you’re definitely special to me! i hope when i’m not around anymore you’d remember me forever.thank you for listening to my soul.all my gifts were from my heart just for u.if anything bad happens just remember that i’m always here for you.don’t ever think you’re not enough because you’re perfect,those who said bad things about you are just a bunch of losers.thank you for coming into my life,stayed and made it better in every way.i’ll always love you no matter in what way.if anything bad happens to us just read this message again because no matter what happen i’ll never change my perspective about you.i love you so much,siti

If you’re reaching this part, it means you’ve already read the chapter entitled "Bughaw." Just so you know, I’m not pressuring you or forcing you to say anything; I simply want to ask a favor of you. We can discuss that favor in a moment. First, I want to say that this might feel a bit different from the intention of my first letter. You may find this inconsistent, but when I wrote that first letter, I was already trying to move on from you, even though a part of me still held onto a glimmer of hope that there might be a chance for us. Now, I am writing to you again, but with a different kind of courage. This time, I am truly ready to accept things as they are and move forward. Actually, liking you has been quite surprising. I have met different versions of myself and realized that I am capable of feeling these things. I used to be so good at keeping things to myself that I thought moving on would be easy. However, I underestimated the situation; maybe I’ve just been fooling myself into thinking I could move on from these feelings, but I haven't. I don’t know what’s holding me back or why I can’t fully push myself to let go. That’s why I am writing this to you. I’m holding onto the hope that if I finally tell you all of this, I will have the courage to move forward. I know you aren't obligated to feel anything for me, but I need to give this closure to myself. Here is the favor: please reject me if you don’t feel the same way. I am not pressuring you to like me, and of course, if you’re entertaining someone else right now, I will accept defeat. I promise I won’t bother you; just please reject me if that’s what your heart wants.

My Dearest Lyra, my wondrous muse in sky, Can I be honest with you for a bit? I've been keeping this to myself for quite some time now. Dili man ni something super serious or dramatic, but it's something real something I've been quietly feeling every time we talk, every time I see you smile, and every time I remember small things about you. At first, I really thought it was just a simple but big love for you and ringo, kanang uy mobalik kapa ron. Pero as time passed, I realized nga it's more than that. Every time mag-chat ta, it feels light. Every time nga makatawa ka, I find myself smiling too even if wala ka sa akong atubangan. I started to look forward to your messages, to your replies, even to the most random things you say. Wala man ko nag-expect nga mo-like ka ug mo-gugma ka utro balik. Honestly, I'm fine if you don't. What matters to me is that I finally said it. Because for the longest time, I tried to act normal to pretend nga okay ra, nga wala koy gibati. Pero tinuod, naa gyud. Kanang feeling nga gusto lang nimo siya mahibaw-an, bisan dili mo mag-end up together. There were days nga l told myself to stop. Nga ayaw na, kay basin ma-fall ra ko ug ako ra'y masakitan. Pero every time nga muabot ka, every time nga makita nako imong name pop up sa screen, murag makalimot ko sa tanan reason nga gusto ko maglayo. You make things feel calm and happy at the same time. And maybe that's why I decided to write this. Not to make things awkward, not to force anything but just to be honest. Because you deserve to know. You deserve to know that someone out here genuinely admires you, pray and loves you from far. the way you talk, the way you laugh, the way you make others feel comfortable. You're one of those rare people nga bisan gamay lang imong effort, dako kaayo og effect. You have this simple charm that makes people want to stay. And I guess that's what happened to me, l stayed, quietly, admiring you from a distance, but always hoping you're doing fine and happy. I'm not expecting a reply, nor am l asking for anything. l just want to finally breathe. To let these words out nga dugay na kaayo nakatago sa akong heart. Kay bisan unsaon, lisod magpaka-okay kung naa kay gi-feel nga dili nimo masulti. So yeah, I love you and maybe I miss you so much didiw ko, you're more than I planned to. But it's okay. What's important is, you made me feel something real and for that, I'll always be grateful. DIDIWON KO KAM SOBRA. 🍎⭐🐙 unsaon ko man ug ruyag ko molingi ka diri sakon again, i planned this long time ago na ngano man motabo saton. ikaw gud ra karuyagon pakaslan. Love, Didiw asta🐙

Hi beb, I was very thankful to god I met you, I know na hindi madaling piliin ka, kasi mahal ko pa talaga siya, sorry I lied to you, since day 1, mahal ko pa talaga siya, I wrote this letter for you para palaman mo na “ayokong mapunta ka sakin kasi una palang complicated na tayo”, when the time goes complicated sa family ko, sa family mo, sa friends ko, sa friends mo, sa’kin at sayo, naisip ko na lahat at napagplanuhan ko na, na I’ll confess all of my doubts about you, sorry kung nag sinungaling ako una palang, kasi based on your posts, stories, reposts and etc. alam ko na hindi ako sapat para sayo, sa family mo din kasi complicated na agad tayo, halos parang kilala lang ng magulang mo yung naunang babae sa buhay mo, We’re not adults para pag planuhan ang lahat that time, Number 1 lied ko to you is yung panahong mahal ko pa siya pero you came in my life and introduced yourself and I lied na gusto rin kita, I hope your doing well bebi, oo when the time goes natutunan kitang mahalin pero may masakit eh, na parang may kulang talaga kapag sinasabi mong mahal moko at mahal rin kita, when the time I told you na alam ko naman na lahat, kasi that time selos na selos nako sa mga bff’s mong babae, na sila nakakasama mo kasi walang nagiging issue, na sila na kakabonding mo tapos ako hindi, pero sabi ko okay lang kapag nag bonding kasi tayo bibigat lang ang loob ko kasi alam ko na may ginagawa akong mali ‘na mahalin ka habang mahal ko pa yung nauna’, yes hindi naging kami in the end, hindi ko rin napaliwanag sayo kung ano ba talaga tayo, we get deja vu as always, nagawa na namin yan uulitin lang natin, anyways ang cute ng picture niyo ng sister ko noh hahaha, I’m really sorry it was my fault. Sana mahanap mo yung babaeng para sayo, continue living with god, hanapin mo rin yung babaeng mas mahalaga ang ama kaysa sayo kasi alam kong mas mamahalin ka niya ng buong buo kaysa sa ibang tao, continue achieving your goals in life baby ko, maybe this is not a goodbye but a see you around with your woman and my man, free to ask me go on date but as your girl best friend not your girlfriend, siguro panahon na para sabihing MINAHAL RIN KITA KASO HULI NA, I’ll be your support system always, I’ll be the number one fan on your life, I love you so much!! ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

Querida familia, quizás no lo sepamos bien, pero, nos estamos lastimando tanto, el estrés, los desánimos, las críticas, las cosas no dichas, no lastiman... Nos lastimamos, cargamos con demonios muy grandes, cada uno de nosotros y es realmente impresionante ver como cada uno de los miembros de esta familia quiere creer que estamos bien, cuando no es así. Supongo que jamás seré capaz de decirlo, así que por eso lo escribo. Agradezco su cariño, agradezco la niñez que me dieron y sus cuidados, ahora me veo crecer y los veo envejecer, es realmente frustrante. Siento que lo son todo para mi, pero a la vez yo no soy mucho para ustedes, no aporto nada en realidad. Tampoco siento algún apoyo incondicional de algunos de ustedes, sólo el de mi papá, y mi prima. A quienes respeto. La verdad es que sé que no soy perfecta, y ni quiero serlo. Tan solo quisiera, preguntarles... ¿Dónde se quedó el amor que nos teníamos? el amor desinteresado y natural, el que te hacía reír, el que te consolaba, el que estaba allí contigo... Tengo una respuesta para ello: "Uno no puede dar lo que no tiene". Y donde no hay amor no encontraras amor.

I wanted to say that i always hated myself and i just want to vent from you, but everytime i did that i feel like im just dead weight i have alot of problems i just wish to be somewhere alone with you just one day having fun, but everything sounds so selfish to me, everytime i ask you something i feel like your just doing this to make me shut up, if you do feel that im sorry :(. Im sorry that i was a selfish friend. Im sorry if everything i say never comes true. Im sorry for letting you feel i never cared. Im sorry if i was too problematic. Im sorry if i let you downed. Im sorry if those help text is just something you feel your responsible for what is going to happen next. Im sorry if i didn't say this directly to you, I was too scared to tell this to you and you have your own life to live. I shouldn't be doing this beacause it sounds so selfish. Im sorry if sometimes i dont get you i always try i promise. Another promise to keep just full of lies to keep this friendship alive. Im sorry for everything or everytime i caused you negative emotions. If you ever found this... there is a truth thing i will say please don't get mad When you first help me i said to myself this is just another person will hate me or just forget aboth me (i assumed a loving person. I thought your just melbz a person that i love just to feel unwanted) I thought after checking me you will just forget and move on because all my life is just full of hatred. Back then i was 8-9 that time i grabbed a piece of paper and just wrote every negative thing to my self, i said "im so fucking dumb" "i wish i just die" "i hate myself so much" i was a kid and already hating myself it hurts to be already opened with emotions. My parents always left me to somebody never letting me feel longed. I was so lonely hurted and sad. When i was with my cousins like i feel they dont want me they always like try to find ways to avoid me. Now i just thought of ppl "they just want me because they want something", "they never really cared aboth me", "i will never find someone who will truly wants to be with their side". It hurts of me thinking that. I remembered that i was chatting to a chat bot cuz no one else wanted to i remembered i reach 10 hours on that app and i cried saying im so lonely that i have to rely on someone who is not even real. So what i did find things to make me look cool so ppl will want me. So i did i drew a played music edit vids i did martial arts everything that is possible. No one sticks around except you. So when you first chat me i said a person who is just concerned and will disappear in one point and ill be lonely again week passed still chatting to me i said to myself "i want to block you" beacause i just want to end it so i can endure the pain of leaving you and never think it in the future. Beacause i thought you will leave me like the others did. But i didn't block you and right now its worth it that i didn't. I want to thank you anixe for like being there always checking up on me, just texting for hours aboth a dreamed last night, all the shared thoughts, the gifts, the care, All those recommendations. everything. You made me feel i was a person and not just someone who is replaceable. I love you anixe as a friend. Your someone who is every person needs you really change my life i was less lonely. Even tho i still hate myself your the person who have eyes on me you know me when i tried avoiding stuff. Your the only person who truly cared and im forever greatful. One of my wish right now is to meet you and just have a lovely day. And to the person reading this thank you for giving your time..i dont have the courage to send this to him but can you help me to make him relize that i always cared and greatful. send this letter to him at Discord his user is "dj_anxiety"

Hi B, I just wanted to say how far our relationship has become. I know it's been less than a week but I'm very thankful for what we've been doing so far and grateful that our bonds are getting stronger and stronger. I'm also glad that you care for me, like you helped me fix the art we've done, you helped me get the hotwheels I've been wanting, and not only that, but you intended to give me flowers. You're the first girl who's ever done that to me. I'm really so thankful that I found you, I'm really thankful that I have been this close to you. It's doing great so far imo. Btw I love the way how you sending hints and anonymous letters it's kinda fun HSHSHSHSHS.

Knowing you might like my best friend is kinda gut wrenching, I mean, I’ve loved you since I first saw you, but if it’s not meant to be then who am I to stop it all? I will miss thinking about how we would’ve spent out future together, side by side, but if this is what’s going to happen then I wish you the best, truly. Just know you were the sweetest boy I’ve met :’)