Apology

haii, sorry for reaching out to you again after everything. i know maybe this message comes at the wrong time, especially now when your life already seems happier and calmer without me in it. but before i completely let this feeling go, i think i just need to say a few things honestly, at least for myself. first of all, i’m sorry if i ever became someone who made your life feel heavier or more complicated. maybe i handled things the wrong way, maybe i kept too many things to myself, or maybe i ended up hurting you without even realizing it. if i ever did, i truly didn’t mean to, and i’m really sorry for that. i also wanna apologize for reaching out to you again. i already know you have a girlfriend now, and honestly, seeing that made me realize that maybe you finally found someone who can give you the kind of love and certainty that i couldn’t give back then. and genuinely, i hope both of you stay together no matter what happens. i hope she treats you gently, and i hope life feels kinder to you now. you don’t have to reply to this, and i hope this message doesn’t make things uncomfortable for you. i’m not trying to bring back the past, i just felt like i needed to finally say these things honestly. thank you too, for everything you’ve ever done for me. thank you for always being kind to me even when i was difficult to understand. thank you for your patience, your effort, your presence, and all the little things you probably thought i never noticed. i did notice them. i always will. about the gift you gave me before, i’m really sorry i couldn’t turn it into a vlog or post it the way you maybe expected. i actually kept it quietly and accepted it as a birthday gift. i’m just not someone who’s good at expressing things publicly like that. i never really had the courage to record moments or openly show how i feel. maybe because deep down, i overthink everything too much. and i’m sorry too if back then i ended up hurting you, especially when your feelings were genuine. the truth is, at that time i was still trying to recover from my previous relationship. i was exhausted mentally and emotionally, and it changed the way i see myself. it made me feel like i was never really enough for anyone, like no matter how hard i try, i always end up choosing the wrong person or arriving at the wrong time. when we first became friends, honestly i only saw you as someone comforting to talk to. but slowly, i realized the way you cared about me was different, and maybe that’s where things became complicated. while you were brave enough to show your feelings, i was still trying to heal from my past and make peace with myself. looking back at everything now, i realize i was still carrying a lot of unresolved feelings within myself back then. i was trying to heal while also trying to understand who i was, and maybe that’s why everything felt so complicated. please don’t ever think that i never appreciated you, because i truly did. maybe not in the way you wanted, and maybe not at the right time, but your existence genuinely meant something to me. i know after this we’ll probably continue our lives separately again, and that’s okay. i just hope that one day, when you remember me, it won’t only remind you of confusion or pain. i hope there’s at least one small memory of us that still feels warm somehow. thank you for being part of my story, even if only for a short while. and once again, i’m sorry for everything. 🤍

I don't know how to tell u this cause u are far away from me now i tried to reach u but i think it's not only the location what's separating us and i know that I never looked at me like that . I'm thankful for ur presence in my life but it has become a curse for me now. But if it was not for you my life would've been completely boring and blank page . I tried to reach u despite my mind resisting and i know u don't want to be reached anymore, it has been difficult for me to accept. I still feel nostalgic whenever I pass by ur old house cause it holds memories. I was childish and I'm childish even right now . Maybe it's my inability that i couldn't find or impress another girl. I was never good at that. I wish u message me somehow, someday, randomly ask me how I'm ? How I've been?. I love when people call me uv like u used to do once

sabi mo magccool off lang pero bumalik ka sa girl bsf mo. im sorry to be the cause kung bat need mo iignore girl bsf mo dati because i got a little jealous kasi she was always the one with you, you even ignored her dahil you knew i was kinda jealous even though i told you that it was fine since close naman kayo and then one day nagkaroon ka ng fam prob which i respect pero ang sakit kasi nung nalaman ko na kaya mong sumandal sa girl bsf mo and ex mo pero ako hindi mo nakakaya? i comforted you kasi mahal kita pero ang sakit kasi, kasi pano mong nakakaya hindi ako ichat ng ilang weeks? you deactivated your acc and nag seen kalang sa messages ko. ang sakit ng ginawa mo. minahal kita ng sobra sobra. i know its just a cool off pero kaya mokong sandalan and if its not comfy for you then its fine, know that ill always be there for you pero minsan kasi masakit na. kasi how could you leave me and never reassure me? im not perfect but gagawin ko lahat just to make you happy. i even left a plushie with your fav chocolate and a handwritten letter that took me some time to make kasi it was your bday at that time and inabot ko sa bsf ko dahil magkalapit kayo ng bahay pero hanggang ngayon di mopa nakukuha. am i nothing to you? am i a liability? san ako nagkulang? i spent nights crying because i couldnt get you off my head and because of the problems i am facing rn. im sorry if i couldnt be better and im sorry because they treated you like that. honestly, you deserve better, mahal.

I wonder how you are to be honest i really do regret our relationship i hope you're happy tho but tbh i want nothing to do with you idk if it's to harsh but dude like i really really really regret na pinatulan kita kasi to think i gave my first kiss and etc to you and in he end you were just a phase lesson learned ka lng so sadd anyways I'm sorry for the hurt i caused you ad I'm sorry because i started this but im glad i was the one to end it - someone who wishes they never knew u 🥰-C.Y

The devil couldn't reach me, so he made everyone see the softest part of my soul. Just to walk through them like a door. I look down at the blood I blamed myself for, After blaming myself for someone elses problems. I can never speak without it turning against me, Calling me annoying, Sensitive, Loud. But I am just as strong as anyone else, but I can never find the words to express that. No one listens anymore, They making me feel terrible just for speaking my mind, Or turn my words into something rude just to give another reason to hate me. Trust me I'm trying my hardest for you, No matter how many times you go running to my friends to talk crap about me. I'll find out sooner then later. Sometimes I feel like being myself is a crime I comitted, Like I need to tie my tongue down just to keep you happy. People held my hand, while teaching me it was so hard to keep loving me. Why is it I can't shut up? Every word I say is turned into pieces of sand, And walked all over. I am walking on egg shells, and I don't know where to jump. The devil couldn't reach me, So he made everyone see the kindest parts of my soul. Just to walk right through them.

Dear Ismu, I'm sorry. I don't know what I'm apologizing for, but I wish our friendship was stronger. I wish we could've gone back to those old days, where everything felt so fleeting, but most of all I wish I could understand what went wrong. Now I think of you everyday and I wonder if you think of me too, I wonder if you think of how long it has been since we called, or when was the last time we met in person. Wish I could be there for you right now. Being a long distance buddy with you isn't going to well on my end. Imagine the chances of you finding this lolol :p -Numi

Hi jagiyaa I hope your doing well :) I know you don't wanna speak to me anymore but I keep seeing somewhere and I wanna Tell you I'm soo proud of you, I'm sorry I called you my best friend too fast when you just thought of me as a person, but thank you for teaching me the best things in life don't last, I know I'm not you yvaine anymore, I wish I still was but I know you can't keep pushing for us, I thank you for trying and telling me sooner other than just disappearing :) I love you! -yvaine

I regret ghosting you, really I do. I see you and admire you. AA told me you miss me, so do I!! I cannot find the courage to walk to you and fix it buy, I swear I was forced and brainwashed to. Now that I’m not blind, will you be friends with me again? Hint me. Love you.

Wow. It’s been two years since we met, you called me your best friend ever since we became desk mates but, it never felt true. My moods and health ruined this friendship, and I humiliated you a lot. Now that we do not talk anymore, watching you talk to anyone and avoid me pains me but I do not want to hurt you anymore. Talk to me or not, I wish you the best. I’m trying. Love you, May. I don’t think we match, and I hope you grow out of your immaturity.

im so sorry about everything and how it all ended between us. im so sorry about how much i made you hurt and how much pain i caused. i feel really bad about the whole situation, and it happened a whole year ago. i understand now how much you actually cared about me. i now realized how much you put your all into me. im still so confused what i did. because now i realize you're literally the only person that actually cared about me this much. youre the only person that put me befire everything else. i just wish i could tell you im terribly sorry. im so sorry to be that one person that gives you trauma. im sorry i wish you listened to your dad at the very first place because he had that gut feeling from the start. i cant believe i would do something like this and im being so honest the breakup was all my fault. idk if you'll ever find this but if you do then i just want to say i really apologize about everything and i hope you find someone who loves you like i couldnt myself.

i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you please come back i will do anything for you i will worship you i will treat you like a fucking god come back my love please please please come back i beg you i will never find anyone like you i will never see anyone the same way as you i'd do anything please come back please please please you're my first thought in the morning and the last thought as i go to bed you're everything to me and it hurts it hurts nothing feels good without you i want you so bad anything for you

Goodbye… I know I had promised to never contact you again, trust me, I tried my best but my heart couldn’t leave without saying goodbye As I’m writing this, my eyes are full of tears, I’m still hurt and full of pain. The decision I took of cutting you off my life wasn’t because i didn’t love you anymore, but it’s because I loved you so much that I wanted you to be happy. I knew that I wasn’t where your happiness lied, so I wanted to give you a chance to do whatever it is that you wanted, without me interrupting all the time. I also needed to choose myself because I finally realised that you were you were never gonna choose me and that’s okay because people are allowed to love whoever they want to love. I know you never apologised but I want you to know that forgive you for all the pain that you’ve caused me, I feel like I have to let everything go before I go.. I didn’t want to carry this onto my new chapter, By the time you read this, I will probably be on a flight going back home or I have probably arrived, I just wanted to make sure that I send this before I leave the grounds of the city because I knew I wouldn’t have the heart to see you again, it would’ve probably hurt me more. Anyways, it’s alright, I guess the last thing I want to say is that I always wonder what happened, maybe one day you will explain it to me, and maybe on that day I’ll fully understand… until then I hope you live your best life and really do all the things you said you would.. As for me? I’ll be in my hometown pursuing my dreams, if you ever find yourself that side one day, give me a call… But for now, goodbye Lots of love, MM

Amy, we liked each other for awhile and especially right after we met online through a roleplay. I want you to know that I miss you and love you a lot, I’m so sorry I messed our friendship up :( rest in peace Amy.. I love you ❤️

you probably won't see this letter for a while... maybe days? weeks? months? maybe even years from when this is being made. i know that we are having a rough patch right now, and i'm hoping that we'll be okay and stronger than ever after this. i love you so much and i can't bear to lose you. i want to keep giving you my all, i want to be someone who you'll be proud of and not disappointed at, like always.. i want to love you even if i don't know how to do that to myself. i know that this'll sound selfish or it might even look like an excuse.. but, it hurts and i'm tired of everything that's happening or that has happened this year. i lost my spark, i'm always tired, i space out, i know that sounds stupid but, that's the truth. i'm depressed and i know it, but i can't ask for help.. maybe this is my "cry for help". i'm sorry if whatever is happening to me is affecting our relationship, i want to be of help to you, i want to open up to you, i want to tell you all these things, but.. i just can't. i'm sorry.

May 2026 Looking back at May 2024, how much have changed. You used to be the light, energy everywhere you went, you used to be the energy, such a confident, brave girl, you had so many friends no matter what they did to you, you were unstoppable, the kind of aura you carried was unbelievable. Look at you now, no one around, alone and lonely, always looking for reassurance, insecure, gets hurt easily, low grades. THIS IS NOT YOU! Idk what happened, why... He came when I was that version of myself, he changed me into this, and now even he doesn't care, idk... He have time for everyone else's plans, but not mine? idk how to exactly describe this feeling but i feel unseen. useless, like i lost my friends for you? to be with you, and in your eyes im no one? you weren't like this two years ago, you were a boy obsessed with me... thats the whole reason why i fell for you, i saw someone trying for me for the first time. Idk i messed up somewhere. Am i that unworthy of being loved? what did i do? what happened to me? why am i being the annoying one now? idk.. Hope happiness finds me soon, may i meet a person who values every inch of me, may i be overloaded with love, then i'll not feel like a burden to anyone. May 2027 will be better hopefully...

This is a bit random but oh well 🤍 I really wanted to go to the counter protest last year in October. I saw you as I was walking up to the group, from behind where the group were facing and I just couldn’t do it. It upsets me as it’s something I really care about. I’m not saying it’s your fault. I just wish that things had been left on a better note so there wasn’t fear of animosity or it being uncomfortable. I really regret the way that it ended between us. I wish that I had been able to process what was happening to realise that the last time we saw each other and sat talking, was actually the last time. I would have hugged you for longer and wished you well, we could have said we’d delete each others contact details and gone on from there. It really would have saved a whole world of pain. I wish that I hadn’t text you afterwards to say it was lovely to see you, that cold ‘yeah’ response was so hurtful and uncalled for. I always feel as though I’m trying to catch up with what’s actually happening around me, as if other people just know these things and I slowly piece it together months or sometimes even years later…I know for sure that I am as there’s been such a rise in awareness for neurodiversity in AFAB people over the past year or so…and I got to thinking that maybe we are both ND and that’s why we always understood each other so well. I always loved the way you see the world and how you think. Anyway, that’s waffling from the point… I wish that I could just turn off my survival response. I didn’t want to join the counter protest and end up embarrassing myself with a panic attack…like HELLO there are more serious issues going on here 😂😂… I guess it just makes me feel sad. I’m so sorry for my behaviour after we ended, the whole thing was a shitshow tbh and I kind of lost my mind for a while. I’ve forgiven myself at last but I still wish that I’d just said and done nothing. I wish we’d just hugged and said goodbye that day in August. I wish I didn’t remember that date. The 1st August 2022. If E was still living here, I know me and her would be out with a ladder cutting all the flags down. In a different world where things were ok, I believe the three of us would 😂 it’s such a silly thought, I know. But I’ve been so angry seeing the flags everywhere…the people that put them up are not good people. I know I could own them verbally, they’re so ignorant…but I really didn’t fancy making a target of myself cutting the flags down alone, you know how people can be here. Anyway…you’ll never see this. I know that. I’m just expressing myself. I hope that one day it won’t be awkward or uncomfortable. Or that maybe I’ll just do the thing anyway…I really wanted to shout at some union flag brandishing gammons tbh 😂😂 I just sat on a bench the other side and watched the whole thing…it was bizarre. But actually really interesting…people are so…you know. I really hope that you are happy and doing very well, thank you for all the lovely memories and again I’m so sorry for how I behaved after we ended, I was very wrong and I know that. Sending love from a distance, always. M 🐌 xxx

And for everyone reading this, please be careful with everyones feelings. And keep loving, with all your heart. It’s hurtful many times, but it’s also really worth it. ahoj martinku, To be honest, I don’t even know if I still have the privilege to call you that. You see... I never wanted to hurt you. I always wanted only the best for you, even if it doesn’t look like that right now. I tried to end this so many times... but I just couldn’t. I couldn't let go. You were willing to do everything for me. You wanted to move to the other side of the world for me, and I know you would have done anything I asked. I know you love me, maybe too much. I don’t even know where to start, how to tell you everything, even though I know you’ll probably never read this. But that’s okay, maybe it’s better this way, though I wish something in this letter would help you understand everything and move on. Recently, I came across the song beautiful by joji, and it describes our entire situation perfectly. I really can’t say anything in my defense, I have no excuses. Everything is my fault and I can’t take it back. If I could, I would do anything to not hurt you like this. Because you were my precious boy. muj martinek. God, I wish I could tell you one more time that I love you and how much I love you. You mean absolutely everything to me. I don’t know how to move on, but I know we both have to. And we will both make it. I always used to say it’s stupid to be sad after a breakup, that we’ll always meet another person who will fulfill us just as much or more. But now I understand. I can’t imagine it. I gave you everything of myself. Even if some parts were a lie, the real me is what I gave you. I gave you my heart, and I don’t think anyone will ever give it back to me. I love you, so much, I dream about you every night. It was never fair to drag you into my chaos, but you always stayed, and I loved you even more for it. Just so you know, I’m sorry. I wish we could both just put a white flag on our walls and sweep up all the shards I caused. But I know that’s not right. But damn baby, you were supposed to be my savior, but I ended up being the one you needed saving from. And for my final act of love, I will let you forget me. I’ll let you place me in the farthest corner of your mind, making sure that nothing I ever did will bother you again. I’ll close my eyes, drift through space, only our memories keeping me afloat. Not because I hate you, not because I want to, but because I care for you. I don’t want to make my regrets your own, or have my problems create yours. I want you to smile, laugh and cry. Feel all the emotions a human should feel, even if not with me. Because I know I cannot give you that gift. My love for you won’t fade, nor will it ever die. But your love for me will. You will become a mere speck in the huge universe lying before you. Yes, it will hurt, and of course it will sting. But in the end, to me, it’s all worth it. I would do anything for you. So for my final act of love, I will fade from your world, putting you first, just so you can be healthy. Even if it hurts. I’m such a full of shit, I speak of god but I sin, I speak about kindness but I’ve hurt people, I speak about growth but I fall back into old habits, I speak of loyalty but I’ve betrayed people, I speak about having a positive mind but sometimes I’m sad, I speak about healing but I’m still broken in places. You are my biggest “what if,” you are my biggest weakness, enemy and fear, and still, I wish I could run into your arms. It is really hard for me to accept that until I leave this earth I’m gonna be always so tangled. I know I have to get myself out of the hole I’m in, because there’s no one else to dig me out. But somehow, not a single day has gone by where you didn’t cross my mind. I miss you in ways I can’t even explain. I miss your laugh, your voice, the way you made everything feel lighter. Even the smallest things about you stayed with me. And no matter how much I try to move forward, there are always moments, quiet, unexpected ones, that bring me right back to you… to us… to what we almost had. I know I hurt you, and that’s something I carry with me every day. It’s a kind of regret that doesn’t fade. You didn’t deserve any of it. But even with that pain, I want you to know how proud I am of you. Watching you become the person you once dreamed of being… it means more to me than you’ll ever know. You deserve every good thing that’s happening in your life right now. And even if I’m no longer part of your world, I’ll always be here, quietly, in the background, rooting for you, praying for you, wishing you happiness in ways I couldn’t give before. I love you… in the quiet, distant, unspoken way that stays even when everything else is gone. And no matter where life takes us, you will always have a place in my heart. I’m not writing this to get back to you, i know i can’t undo things that i’ve done. But i still love you, and that’s the thing that won’t change. I don’t have the courage to send to you. But maybe some of the audience here will, and if. I want you to know that, I’m so sorry for everything. You’ll always deserve the best, i hope one day you find someone amazing, who will be there for you. You’re never too much or too less. You’re always enough and the right person will see that. Please remember that and don’t let anyone hurt you like i did. Ty ses muj martinek proste.. hrozne si preju abych ti mohla rict jeste jednou ‘pocem ke mne’ nebo ze te miluju. pa kocicko moje. Vzdycky budu s tebou.

To my jaan, my love, my shammas ❤💕 happy 4th month anniversary <3 my blacka. it’s our 5th anniversary we are able to celebrate and the 4th month of being together. i don’t even know where to start, because somehow a simple “happy anniversary” feels way too small for everything i feel for you. i’ve been staring at this for so long because nothing feels enough for you. no words ever feel like they can hold everything i feel, everything we are, everything we’ve built together. but i’ll try, because you deserve to hear it. <3 so enjoy your read. sometimes i sit there and think about how strange and crayzyyy it is that you’re not physically here, how can someone who started as just a person on a screen have become my person. like somehow, out of everything and everyone, it was you. and it still is you. every single day. not just someone i love, not just someone i talk to every day. you feel like something that exists in me. like i know where to find you, because in you’re in my world and you’ll probably never realize how much you’ve become part of me. you’re just everywhere in my life. in my thoughts, in the way i smile at nothing, in the way my mood shifts just from hearing you, the way i feel, the way my days are shaped around you being there. you’re the first person i want to tell things to, the one i look for without even thinking, ‘did blacka text?’ and even then the surface wasn’t just enough for you.. was it? you don’t even leave me alone in the quiet parts of me. the parts i don’t want show anyone. the late night thoughts, the overthinking, the rude side i try to hide... and somehow you never made it feel like too much. you just understood it, or at least you tried to, and that means more to me than anything. it’s like you found a place in me that no one else ever reached, and you stayed there without trying. and yeah, we’ve had our moments, like the drama i create, the silence sometimes, the misunderstandings, the small fights, moments where things felt fragile, the times where words didn’t come out right, where emotions got heavy. but even then, there was something underneath those negative things that NEVER broke. . even with everything we’ve been through in these months, something kept pulling me back to you and you back to me every SINGLE time. and bro it’s not even forced, it’s just the heart wanting to be with you again. like no matter what happens, in those moments, we never stop choosing eachother. because everytime we stay & we always work through it. we don’t let go. nd i’m sorry for this sudden break shit, i rlly don’t know whats possessing me saying all that crap to you. even now, i’m still thinking about you. and i really love you, like really, really. i hate that i make it complicated, not me crying rn 💀💀💀pathetic, because i chose it for myself, i still am at loss ☹ i dont even want it anymore ... but guess what there hasn’t been 1 day we didn’t speak to eachother and of course i wouldn’t break that record so yeah here i am writing my heart to you even when you don’t read. i guess it all just happens naturally, because it’s you. overcomplicating everything because i feel everything 50x stringer when you’re involved >:( like even this letter, but i hope you enjoy love <3 but still i love you not just for the good moments, but for all of it. the chaos, the comfort, the silence, the laughs. i love the way you are, the way you talk to me, the way you exist in my life without even trying to be anything other than yourself. i think about all the time we’ve spent together, all those hours that never felt like too much. talking about everything and nothing, staying up way too late, laughing at things no one else would understand. it never felt forced, never felt empty. it was always us, just being us, and somehow that became my favorite place to be. sometimes i wish i could explain to you exactly how much you mean to me, but it’s deeper than words. what we have isn’t loud in the way people expect love to be. it’s not about grand things or perfect moments. it’s in the hours we lose together without noticing. it’s in the way time bends when it’s just us. it’s in the small things that would mean nothing to anyone else but feel like everything to me. it’s in every little habit we have, every inside joke, every moment that’s just ours. no one else would get it, and that’s what makes it so special. you’re not just someone i love. you’re my place, my home, my comfort. my person in a world that feels too big sometimes. like standing under a sky that feels too big but still somehow feels like home. like something i feel in my chest before i can even put it into words. and even with all the distance, even with everything that makes this harder than it should be, though it’s sad i can’t be there with you for this anniversary, but it doesn’t change what this means to me. if anything, it makes me feel it even deeper. because what we have isn’t about being in the same place, it’s about how close you are to me in every way that matters. i still feel you in my days, in my thoughts, in everything i do. distance doesn’t take that away 😊!! even if i can’t stand next to you right now, my heart is still with you, like it always is, like it always will be. so i don’t care about the distance or how things look to anyone else for example some noob friend, nobody can change my mind on how i feel about you and i’ll let anyone know who wants to hear it. what we have is real to me. you are real to me. i’ve never once felt like you weren’t real to me. if anything, you feel more real than things i can touch. this 4th month isn’t just time passing or just a number. it’s a collection of moments that turned into something meaningful. it’s proof. it’s the proof that what we have didn’t just stay a passing feeling, it grew. quietly, deeply, in its own way. and i love that it grew with you. and we didn’t even notice that it’s alrdy 119 DAYS long. i wouldn’t want to miss any anniversary, NEVEREVER. and if i could, and i would choose US & YOU again and again and FOREVER. in every version of ALL the possible WORLDS <3 nd ofc i don’t know exactly what the future looks like for us, but i do know that i want you in it. i want more memories, more conversations, more moments where it’s just us being us. No matter how far apart we are, you still feel one of the closest to my heart. so yeah, happy anniversary my love <3, my blacka, my jaan, my shammas. thank you for being mine, and letting me be yours. you’re the just my forever i didn’t know i could find. thank you for being you. thank you for staying, for caring, for making me feel the way i do, in good and fragile. i’m really, really grateful for you. let’s aim for 690 anniversaries atleast <3

Querida familia, quizás no lo sepamos bien, pero, nos estamos lastimando tanto, el estrés, los desánimos, las críticas, las cosas no dichas, no lastiman... Nos lastimamos, cargamos con demonios muy grandes, cada uno de nosotros y es realmente impresionante ver como cada uno de los miembros de esta familia quiere creer que estamos bien, cuando no es así. Supongo que jamás seré capaz de decirlo, así que por eso lo escribo. Agradezco su cariño, agradezco la niñez que me dieron y sus cuidados, ahora me veo crecer y los veo envejecer, es realmente frustrante. Siento que lo son todo para mi, pero a la vez yo no soy mucho para ustedes, no aporto nada en realidad. Tampoco siento algún apoyo incondicional de algunos de ustedes, sólo el de mi papá, y mi prima. A quienes respeto. La verdad es que sé que no soy perfecta, y ni quiero serlo. Tan solo quisiera, preguntarles... ¿Dónde se quedó el amor que nos teníamos? el amor desinteresado y natural, el que te hacía reír, el que te consolaba, el que estaba allí contigo... Tengo una respuesta para ello: "Uno no puede dar lo que no tiene". Y donde no hay amor no encontraras amor.

Hello again! Sorry gid if I disturbed your supposedly quiet life na naman. This lil thing wasn’t even supposed to be a big deal, happy crush lang ba gwhutvajaisn. It’s just weird lang gid nga our last interaction felt like an “away” (at least for me), then everything shifted so suddenly. Not so fun fact: you’ve been showing up in my dreams like wadafuk 😭 not just for one night, but for a whole week taina. Maybe because I was kinda invested before things got chaotic. I tried to reason it out na lang before that I wasn’t planning to stay, especially when your words felt like sharp nails. That became my coping, kay I knew how stupid and naive my decisions were. Back to the present—honestly, I wasn’t planning to say any of this kay nahuya nako simo. I know may sala ko, and I def get why you were mad. Wala ko man abi kabalo nga it would reach this point ang akon katangahan. Supposed to be pang ig stories and notes lang tani to ease my depressed arc sa life. But yeah… thanks? maybe because my attention shifted to you (in a positive way), I dodged a few arrows that could’ve wrecked me again and again. In addition, I didn't pursue this thing para lang may pangpalubag loob ha, everything is genuine. Hayz, ma-miss ko gid magngirit just because you viewed my story 🏃🏻‍♀️but fr, it’s totally fine if ipa-billboard mo pa ni akon embarrassing moments hahhahahz I guess this is just me clearing things out :) On the other note, basi himuon mo nga big deal ang mga crushback jokes ko sa ig stories ha (plz wala ko ga-asa fr 🙇🏻‍♀️) sincerely, tuer:)