I miss you

It's been 10 days since we completely cut off contact, but it's already been 7 months since we separated. Instead of lessening, the pain only grows, and I feel such a void, such great anguish that I don't know how to put it into words. I miss you all the time; the pain of longing is so intense that I can even see you during the day, with my eyes open. I wonder how you are, if you're well and happy, if you're smiling with someone or doing what you love most, which is singing. I think I've never taken so long to write a letter because with each word written, the urge to cry hits me so hard, but not enough to make this pain go away. I will always be here, waiting for your return.

I still am waiting for your answer, it’s so pathetic you’d probably never see this confessions right? I still like you. Sincerely so and it pains me on a daily basis to think you’d give no shits about me haha funny right? Cause who am I to be talking.

I miss you, im sorry for everything. I love you, and I don’t think that will ever change.

You were a wonderful memory.

April 1, 2026 To my everdearest, Maxene. ^^ Hiii Maxene! It’s already been like a month since we haven’t seen each other:( spending time with you this march already feels like years! and that’s how baaadly I crave for your presence. Well maybe fate has that already planned for us to have this love story. To come and think of it—it’s already been a few times that we nearly would have seen each other. Don’t worry, magkikita rin tayo one day, if the timing right and just. If we did, I would spend every second just to be with you, like helping you cook ganon, staring at you just to appreciate your beauty hihi. Please don’t listen to the people that only brings negativity to you. People can be so cruel and I know how affecting that is. Instead, focus ka sa mga taong who loves you, stands by you and all of the kakampi you have in life. Including me, okay? And I also want to assure you that there’s absolutely nothing to worry about. Someday, we won’t have to greet each other good morning and good night through phone. But to whisper them and wake each other up with a kiss. Please be with me until it becomes a reality, my beautiful strawberry. :) Here’s to you, my first and foremost ever letter for you, for my one and only minamahal ko. There will be so much more to come in the future, and I hope to be there for you, and with you. Always yours, no matter the distance, Tyrone ❦

I started to fall for you and even though you broke me, I can't get over you.

i haven’t really been able to look at the world the same ever since the day we cut each other off. on the occasion that i come across places we used to hang out at, the memories immediately rush back into my mind. like whenever i drive past that starbucks up on 17th, i can only think of you and how we’d always sit in the same spot by the window every time we went there and talk about god knows what. i don’t think i can ever go inside that place again. i actually haven’t stepped foot in there since the last time we went together November of last year. it’s March now, soon to be April. yet i still can’t walk in there knowing that that used to be our spot, where’d we sit in those uncomfortable chairs for hours and be the loudest, most insufferable people in the coffee shop. we never cared. all we cared about was whatever stupid joke the other one would make and we’d die of laughter every time, even if our jokes weren’t that funny. and every 3rd period i’ll go to that huge storage closet in the band room, and that same rusty old trumpet you picked up on the first (and last) day of music club still sits there, in the exact same spot you left it after we both saw a bug crawl out of it and we ran out screaming and laughing. i’m not sure if you remember that day, but i do. that’s one of my favourite memories of ours. you know, besides the countless night market side quests we’d go on. i can’t ever go back to any of these places without the thought of you coming into my mind. it frustrates me, a lot. but at the same time i look back at those memories because that’s really all i have left of us (besides our photos and texts that i forced myself to put into my hidden camera roll). i’ll admit that i look back at our texts every so often, same with our photos and all our saved in chats on snap. it’s stupid, i know. but that’s all i can cling onto now that we aren’t friends anymore. no memories i make in the future with someone else are going to replace the ones we share that now live in the past. nothing will replace that boost of serotonin i had whenever i was with you, or the dozens of inside jokes we had. it’s a weird feeling. knowing that our friendship is something i now have to say in past tense form. i’ve never really had a fallout like this with someone before, i hate it. it’s so hard pretending like i don’t miss you, and to act like putting this distance between us is something i’m okay with, when it’s very much the opposite. but i have to understand it’s what’s best for you and i. plus, you seem fine, if not better, ever since we broke things off. granted i don’t know everything that goes on in your mind, and i mean, who knows? i could be completely wrong. i could be absolutely right, but i’ll never know. that’ll just stay as something i can think to myself. but what i do know is that where we are right now is for the sake of both of us, and that the distance is more than needed. at the end of the day, i just hope you miss me as much as i miss you.

Why does it hurt this much to love you? Does this mean I should stop? Or that I can even? I wish I could see you again.

I've received the anonymous letter you submitted here.. thank you for thinking about me, I'll be alright and I hope you'll be alright too, I'll love you always too but loving someone doesn't always mean staying with them, I'll always be by your side even after years apart.. thank you for making my life so special.. I hope you'll soon find the girl who will be patient for you and love you more than I ever did, all the best for everything in your life dear, I'll always be grateful for this part of my life.. Yours truly ~your Nilu

I am writing this because I am certain you will never see it. I love you and with all that we’ve been through I have to say it, because I’ll probably never be able to tell you in person. I want to hear your voice, your sweet laugh, and the jokes that would always make me smile. I miss your support and our facetime’s. I’m pretty sure I just miss you. I hope football is going well and praying you have a great upcoming season for your senior year. I’ll be at every game. Anyways I’m one TEXT away. If you do ever see this Im hoping you’ll put the pieces together with the spotify link and finally talk to me, just joking, maybe Ill work up the courage. Love, 8/18 (Ps, if you do find this dont tell anyone, I want to keep us a secret and make sure we take it slow next time.)

Hope this letter finds you in good health and spirit. we are not together anymore, and the reason is me, well, i'm happy that you got rid of the worst human ever, but am sad for not being able to be the best partner. idk if you'll ever come across this msg or not, but if u do, ik you'll know who i am : ) you are the best person i met in my life, and will be so, i will love you forever and will secretly be your well wisher. you're my idol, my inspiration, my dream, my aspiration, my love, my everything <3 . but i think this was our fate, yet, i'll say this was the best part of my life, thank you for everything, i'm truly grateful to you. i want to say a lot of things more but i think somethings should be kept private...just in case...i get to meet you again...or if u start loving me again....we may share...hehe....i love you dear....wish you all the best for your future : ) From, SG

Happy birthday my love, i wish i were there with you to celebrate it with you. I'm sorry love, so fucking sorry. I should've never lied, i wanted to tell you the truth but i couldn't..just couldn't. You were the right person for me but at the wrong time. I tried moving on, really did. It's been 5 months and a week. I wrote a song, poems, heck everytime i close my eyes all i see are your blue orbs. I sound like a moron. I even changed my username to what it was in hopes if you ever wanted to reconnect, i'm pathetic. Funny how we planned a date in Edinburgh..our late night calls..I'm sorry. So, happy birthday my love, stay happy and safe, i wish you the best for your future. And I hope that your future woman will cherish you and love you.

no hay una sola cosa que no haría por ti y lo escribo aquí porque no me importa si solo tu o todo el mundo lee esto, yo te amo y quiero estar contigo toda mi vida y es algo que puedo decir sin pensarlo; te amo changuito y todavía nos imagino llevando a nuestra hija a six un lunes, faltando porque somos jefes en la secretaría y regresando a la casa de mil millones a descansar juntitos viendo la vida que construimos juntos, haciéndote de comer tus cosas favoritas y viendo un viernes botanero juntos, llevando a nuestro hijo todo regañado al futbol los domingos y luego yéndonos por una crepa a periférico ): mi amor todavía quiero esa vida pero solo la quiero contigo porque en verdad si no es contigo yo no quiero a nadie más, erees tú y siempreeee serás tu ): te juro que haría cualquier cosa en el mundo para que lo sepas, para que sepas todo lo que siento por ti; del uno al diez un millón dieguito

Je voulais te dire que je suis vraiment désolée pour ce qui s’est passé, avec un peu de recul, je me suis rendue compte que j’aurais dû agir autrement mais je ne l’ai pas fait car je voulais pas faire ça dans ces situations… mais c’est une erreur de ma part. Ça me fait beaucoup de peine de te voir dans cet état car je regrette d’avoir créé cette situation entre nous. Je comprends que ça ta rendu frustré par ces choses là, mais je veux que tu sache que je suis navrée pour mon comportement et ce que je t’ai fais ressentir. Tu comptes beaucoup pour moi et je t’aimerais toujours de tout mon cœur Wassim. Tu es la plus belle chose qui m’est arrivée dans ma vie. Je ferais en sorte d’être toujours meilleur de moi-même malgré les erreurs que j’ai pu commettre car j’y tiens énormément à notre relation et qui signifie ma vie entière avec toi. Je souhaite que le bonheur pour notre couple. Je t’aime Wassim ! ❤️

I can’t even begin to explain my love for you. The way your voice calms my heart, the way just looking at you rests my eyes after a long tiring day, the way you tell me so excitedly about what you did. It’s just so important to me, more than anything. It’s almost been a year (9 months 20 days and 3 hours to be exact) but it feels like I’ve known you for much longer. I’ve never gotten this close to someone this fast. You’re my favourite person Hamnah. I love you THE MOSTEST. Also “Poetry in Motion” means poetry the keeps moving, or in essence keeps “changing”. You are the most beautiful poetry I’ve ever seen.

I can’t even begin to explain my love for you. The way your voice calms my heart, the way just looking at you rests my eyes after a long tiring day, the way you tell me so excitedly about what you did. It’s just so important to me, more than anything. It’s almost been a year (9 months 20 days and 3 hours to be exact) but it feels like I’ve known you for much longer. I’ve never gotten this close to someone this fast. You’re my favourite person Hamnah. I love you THE MOSTEST.

Dear Dad, Why did u have to go so early? I miss u so much. u were such a horrible person but there was good in you and I learned so much from u. My stepdad is such a fucking monster and took advantage of my past and now that ur not here, mom is out of control, shes becoming alot like u but worse. she takes sides with a man even tho it was his fault. None of this would have happend if u just went to the fucking doctors to get checked. I miss u Dad.. its my birthday on Tuesday and ill make sure to celebrate urs on Thursday. If only i could've said goodbye.

Buenoss diasss, tardes, noches queridos televidentes hoy tengo el mismísimo placer de contarles una historia sobre un chico q se fue enamorando poco a poco de la mujer más guapa q existe en toda la esférica tierra donde habitamos, donde muchos cometen el horrible error de llamarlo hogar, y de se seguro se preguntaran el por qué, q se fumo este chaval, pq para ciro el unico lugar q puede ser llamado hogar tiene 5 letras, ustedes q piensan? q puede ser esa cosa q ciro considera un hogar, 5 letras...? penes? no, la palabra correcta queridos televidentes es aidis, si, vos chaval, la mujer más interesante de toda España pq sos mí único hogar en donde planeo quedarme por una banda de tiempo, pq sos la chavala más interesante q conozco dónde cada día con vos es como despertase abrir la heladera y encontrarse la milanesa q sobro del día anterior, si, así de lindo es hablar con vos chaval, bueno, sigamos con esta hermosa historia llena de amor, suspenso, fotos pies, EHHHH hola? bueno q pasa, la chavala ida decide querer conocer al tío majo este q es un capo, y obvio el ciro todo inocente no sabía q por delante de él estaba pasando la mujer más increíble de todas, bueno ciro decide darle una oportunidad para q se conozcan, q pasa en ese momento? resulta ser q ambos se estaban empezando a enamorarse uno del otro, ida decide pasarle una foto a ciro, ciro todo emocionado por ver la foto dice q si, q dale, ida toda una maja le pasa una foto de sus ojos, ciro todo sorprendido no puede creer lo q ve, seguro se estarán preguntando el pq? y si, ciro se quedó totalmente enamorado de sus ojos, para ciro era como ver los ojos más hermosos q había visto en toda su fuvking vida, ciro todo nervioso le dice q tiene unos buenísimos ojos, pasan los días charla va y viene, hasta q llegan un punto donde el pequeño ciro quiere dar el siguiente paso, a q paso se preguntan, seeee al famosísimo "te quiero" ciro lo empieza a usar de repente muy seguido ida toda confundida pq un tío tan guay le dice te quiero se empieza a sentir confundida con todo esto, ciro todo preocupado le pregunta ida todo bien? ida dice q si pero lo q no saben es q ida estaba muy confundida pero no pq no sentía de la misma manera q ciro, pasa q está mujer es la chavala más romántica q existe y empieza a asustarse pq para ella el te quiero es algo muy grande, ida habla con ciro sobre esto, ciro todo triste le dice q la entiende, pasan las semanas e ida decide hablar con el pequeño Ciro, le explica q capaz estaba confundida por el momento pero no significaba q no quería a ciro, así q si, como se lo imaginan, ida empieza a usar el famosísimo te quiero, pasan las semanas ida y ciro avanzan mucho en la relación, empiezan a sentir celos, se empiezan a amar en secreto, hasta q llegan un punto donde para ambos fue la peor desición de la historia de las historias jamas contadas, si, ciro y la tía ida deciden darse un tiempo por pequeñas confusiones q tuvieron en donde no pudieron hablarlas, ambos con el corazón totalmente destruido, se sienten triste, se extrañan mutuamente pq saben q están echos del uno para el otro, hasta q entienden q pueden volver a intentarlo, ambos emocionados por un nuevo comienzo diciden aceptarlo, el famoso cida estaba creciendo más q nunca, charlas y charlas, más llamadas y más llamadas, hasta q si, empezaron a ser más cariñoso con el uno al otro, ida cada vez más segura de si misma empieza a mandar fotos a ciro, Ciro obvio con cada foto q veía seguía sin entender cómo la mina está se fija en el siendo la mujer más hermosa q había visto y entonces si, ambos confiesan su amor, pasaron muchas cosas juntos, superándo cualquier obstáculo q se interponga en su relación, hasta q llegan el primer te amo y el más querido mí amor, ciro todo enamorado no puede creer lo q está viviendo, la tía más guapa q conoce le está diciendo amor? ciro todo emocionado empieza a ilusionarse en secreto mientras q de parte la ida, si, también se sentía de la misma manera, ambos enamorados empiezan a ilusionarse con tener una relación, ciro comete un error la de la cual está muy arrepentido, pero no queremos saber de eso, pq? pq está historia es pura felicidad, una gran persona me enseñó q mientras aprendamos de nuestros errores podemos ser mejores personas, entonces ciro se enfoca en ser esa persona q la tía ida se merece, hasta el punto donde ciro todo nervioso quiere confesar su amor y le dicee: ida querés ser el puré de mí milanesa?

To my best girl, You really left me with the impossible task of making a speech at your funeral, didn’t you? Classic you. Even now, you’re bossing me from wherever you are. We were close in a way that words almost can’t capture. The kind of friendship where one look meant everything. The kind where silence wasn’t awkward - it was safe. You knew me. Really knew me. And somehow still chose to stick around. I’ll miss the little things: our inside jokes no one else would get, the way we laughed at things too ridiculous to explain, the comfort of just sitting together and knowing we weren’t alone. You were kind, funny, brave, and soft in ways people don’t always notice right away. You cared so fiercely for your friends, even when life wasn’t easy. We were supposed to have more time. That hurts. But even in the time we had, you made me stronger, happier, and more aware of how important it is to cherish every laugh, every hug, every ridiculous moment. And just so you know - you succeeded. Everyone here is emotional. Not just because we’re hurting. Because we loved you. Because you mattered. And because you’ll always matter. I’ll carry you with me. In every quiet moment. In every laugh that reminds me of you. In every part of my life that’s better because you were in it. My best girl. Always.

I never thought I would send something like this to you again , especially after what you said to me at the end of 2024. After that day I just isolated myself for some time I'll take about it at end But here I am. Let's look one after one . "Nee frnds yadavalu ani nenu ante naatho orgue chesav naatho matladadam maanesav " Did I Stop talking to you for that reason? Funny Evaro L ante nen accept chesa , chats enjoy chesa , question cheledhu ? I have to mention this..! Valu chats lo natho eppudu aa word use cheyyaledhu. More over, they used code names in front of me. If you don’t want to believe, ask your friends. Ni name ae use cheyyanappudu, how can I even ask them? Appatiki vaditho antha bond kuda ledhu. Only okasari bike lo velinappudu indirect ga cheppa — “Mana intlo kuda ammayilu unnaru ga man… what if someone treats them like this? Will you accept it?” ani. “And you started blaming me.” Blaming you? Apatki nenu em cheppanu ante — “Just jagrathaga ra… it’s better to stop. Inka matladaku. Valu ninu normal ga chudatledhu…” ani. Anthe. Exactly idhe cheppa. I can still remember — water plant daggara nilchuni cheppa. "Nannu vadhilinchukovadaaniki oka pedda story cheppi nannu VP chesav 🙌🏻" Aa story endhuku create chesano… I already explained with those 2 screenshots.(First time explain chesnapudu) In those chats, you were just whispering one thing — to break this bond. You wanted it to end. Appudu naku vere option kanipinchaledhu. If breaking it is what gives you peace… then what else could I do? Naaku nee happiness kanna important inkem ledhu. Yes… I did it. "Nenu correct anadam ley , Nedhi thappu antunna" Yes macha… ippudu nee current version lo chusthe, nadhe thappu. Chala sarlu anukunna — ila cheyakunda undalsindhi ani. Andaru ammayilaki jarigedhi niku avvakudadhu anukunna. Life ni experience tho nerchukovali ani telusu… but na friend life lo bad experience undakudadhu ani protect cheyadaniki try chesi… thappu chesa. "Kavalane vadhilinchukunnav ga ??" Exactly same thing okaroju ninnu nenu adiga macha — “Vadhilinchukodaniki godavapaduthunava?” ani. Appudu nuvvu, “Na friend naku adhi inka nerpinchaledhu ra” annav. Ippudu nenu adugutunna… Did you ever think, ade friend wanted ga idhi chesadu just because he didn’t want to be with you? "Or nee frnds annattu nenu L ani feel ayyi vadhilinchukunnavaa ??" If I really felt for you like this so called “L”… chepthuna ga, ni face kuda chuse vadini kadhu anthe kani… “So and so people tho undaku, they’re not treating you well… stop it” ani cheppe vadini kadhu. I wouldn’t have tried to control you. I would’ve just walked away silently. "I think Creating stories to blame someone is also easy" Did I create a story to blame ? I created it for my favorite persons happiness. To give her what she wished for. If you still feel it was just to vadhilinchukodanike… then you already have your answer. I think yaa i have covered everything 🩷 As I mentioned let's talk about it at end Maybe you’re only looking at your side of the coin the part that feels clear and justified to you. But what about the grey areas? What about the other side… the part you never tried to see? I have Even tried till the end to save this , even i have tried after stating this will be the last time . I have tried till that day in 2024 ( i exactly don't remember that date) after that I felt like... Hoo so to listen this im here? Maybe. Then i stopped there After that, I went through a lot, macha — things you never knew about . Some of them are still nightmares for me. And honestly, I don’t want you to know them either. If I decide to question, there are many things I can bring up. But I stayed silent. Not because I was wrong, because I didn’t want to hurt you more.