Hey mahi, how's it going, love? Do you remember i used to call you mahu?! That was a name i used whenever i felt enormous love for you. Yah, it's been a while since we stopped talking. It's been 1213days that I've been waiting for a call, for a simple text....... Yk, every day i remember you, except those days when I'm super busy to even breathe....... My heart didn't get the closure to move on to a new chapter of my life. In our last call, you told me you'll call me if you need me, & i replied, "I'll wait for your need." N see, here I'm still waiting and hoping that you would be mine. Nope, I'm not stupid. I know you left to never come back. But still i hope, hope you'll tell me that "i need you, masum," even though i know you're never coming back, nor will you ever need me (sadly, you never even needed me). Tell me, what else can i do without hoping? Hope is the only strength I've left. Yk, i still read our texts sometimes. Sometimes i stalk your profile, and seeing that my loved one is living her life happily makes me genuinely happy, tbh. Yah, it also hurts to know someone else is the reason for your happiness, n I'm not. But I'm happy that you're happy. Whatever, i genuinely wish you the best, and hope you're happy. I always wish good things for you. I wish your relationship with your family to be better. I wish your parents to be softer with you. I wish God will lead you onto the right path. I wish your partner to be more sympathetic, more supportive, more caring, more loving, & more passionate about you. I wish you could achieve your goals & find success. I wish you never feel lonely, unloved, or ignored. I wish nobody would betray you or hurt you. I wish you end up being happy with everything for the rest of your life. I know you will never find this. I don't even want you to see me dying for the first love of my life. "Dandelions" was one of my fav songs. Do you remember i made a video of you? Nevermind. Whatever, take care of yourself. Don't do any harm to yourself for someone or something. It's not worth doing, i can guarantee you. Take care of your smile. You look so beautiful when you smile that i can't even explain it in plain words. And last but not least, take care of your eyes and voice. If you feel low, just put some "কাজল" on your eyes and smile while looking at the mirror. Trust me, you'll feel better. Pathetically, those were the things that i was ready to do anything in exchange for. Never let anyone mess with your smile. I wish your smile never fades away. The reason I'm posting this today is that I'm leaving this country today, n I'm planning to never come back to this country ever again. My flight is scheduled for 17:00....... Till today, our physical distance was only 192 km, but that's going to be thousands of km this afternoon. I have most of your family members' numbers. I know your house, which route you use when you go out, and i also know some of your friends' houses and their numbers. But see my fate: despite knowing everything, i can't stand in front of you, not because i did anything wrong, but bcz i don't wanna put you in an awkward situation. I knew today or tomorrow i must leave this country, but i wanted to stand in front of you at least once and say, "ভালো থেকো ভালোবাসা". Nope, i don't have the chance to stand in front of you, nor can i say goodbye to you....... Destiny is a very complicated path that we cross regularly, doesn't it? Once i thought when I'll leave this country, you'll be the first one to know, the first one to stay by my side. Now see how destiny has made it so messed up that I've to write a bunch of words in a web post that you'll never even look for or find out about. Whatever, that's enough. If you ever need me, you know where or how to find me. I still use the same number, same accounts. Although i know....... তোমার কখনো প্রয়োজন পরবে না আমায় তবুও যদি পরে প্রয়োজন কবু হোক তা বছর সাতেক গত ফিরে দেখো পিছে খুঁজে পাবে আমায় চিরচেনা সেই ভীড়ে আগের মতো নত। Thanks for everything you've ever done for me, n I'm truly sorry for the times I've hurt you 🤍 IT'S B I L L U 𓃠 (07-11-2026_07:17 UTC+06:00 Saturday)