It’s always been you in the moment. I think about you when I’m in class, when I’m trying to get ready in the mornings, when I fall asleep. You’re in my mind, all our memories. I remember in the summer when we were together all the time, I miss that so so much. I haven’t worn my locket in a long time. The one with your face in it. You and your baseball championship medal. The night I watched your game and I was alone the whole time. I think I should tell you now that I didn’t feel alone during the game. You apologized that I had to watch it alone, but I was never angry. I loved watching you so much. Maybe this summer I could watch again, but who knows. If you think it’s okay, come back. Please sweet Ryler, I miss you so much. I miss sneaking out to go to your house. I miss our 4am Pepsi runs. I miss going on runs at 6am. I know you hate running. I’m so sorry baby. I just miss you so much. If you come back, I’ll never make you go running with me again. We can walk if you want. We almost had a year, maybe we could try again and get a year. I love you and miss you so much sweet Ryler