Sometimes while walking in the streets or sitting in the subway, I look at all the girls around and I think that none of them deserved to be loved by you. I'm not talking about them being pretty enough or not, what i mean is bigger than that. It seems like by the help of those thoughts, i try to box out other girls so the only loveable person left would be me. And sometimes while seeing a middle-aged woman, I found myself thinking she can be your mother, especially when they have a little girl with them because i know you have a little sister. You know what? I know everything about you, not because we've talked too much or i've stalked you. I know everything about you because your shadow is living with me for more than six months. I've woken up next to you in my dreams. I baked a cake for you in my fantasy. You kissed goodbye and left for university in my fantasy. In my mind, we have had a complete healthy love and relationship. But it's been three weeks that i've woken up from that dream and fantasy. I want to stop myself from those kind of fantasy because THEY WILL NEVER EVER BECOME TRUE.