My eyes wander When you’re around Can’t help but look for you From the life I gave up To having no life at all Is this my punishment? For being avoidant Please love tell me Roses and lilies are For people who die I hate that I’m fine Until I see you again My mind has only ever known To play a perfectly well victim Can’t face this idea of life alone Am I yearning for the love Or for the friend I had? Locked up in this game of makeovers Can’t seem to move on From this endless loop of reinventions Someone save me from endless struggle Hate that I have to sit with people Who speak badly about you I know this is nothing new but My heart still aches from the poison I’ve let thinking it was honey