hi this is me, Muhammad Firdaus Hakimi or for those who know me online might know me as Yori/Kiro. I'm writing this letter as a thanks to everyone who have been parts of my life throughout my journey, the up and down. I believe that I haven't took my time to properly thank everyone, so this would be this letter's purpose. First, my mom. Thanks alot for raising me as your youngest son, you raised me to become a strong boy in this world, but it has come to me that your strong boy is getting weak by bottling everything inside his heart. Little by little he tried to take it out without relying on anyone to prove that he's strong, but he didn't notice that it became overwhelming day by day inside his heart. I would like to apologize for every second that I've isolated myself from the place called "home". You never failed to raise me ma, I just failed to become the son that you wanted. Orang mintak maaf sangat mama. Sayang mama To my dad, even though we only get to live together for 5 years. I really appreciate you as my dad, you played a crucial role even while being far away from me and that is heaven. I would've love to grow with you, but fate is quiet cruel for you, the day that you let out your last breath is the day that I hate the world the most, and now? I still do. How is it up there ayah? May I ask if you reserved a place for me? I would love to be your little son again. Saya rindu ayah sangat. Sayang ayah To my brother, I hope that your marriage stay blessed till the end. I hope that your son Ayden will grow up to be a stronger men than both of us. But if I could ask for one thing, please help our mom once in a while. She's really struggling to help the family all on her own, would you lend your hand for her again? Thank you abang. To my sisters, this might be a really long one since I have 4 sisters. To my eldest sister, thank you for supporting mama every day. I can't help but feel in debt for everything you've done for the family. And fyi, I never asked for anything so that you can help mama more. But you can also give gifts to other siblings to, just not for me. Our mom needs it the most. Thank you isya. ------------ To my second sister, I know your struggling alot with life. But I could never reach out because I was drowning too. I would never blame you for how you act, I know how hard has it been for you and I could be the witness. I hope you stay strong and keep living life till it starts getting better. Thank you Sarah. --------- To my third sister, thanks for always having my back. Even though sometimes we might've quarrel a lot, but there's far more of your great deeds to me more than those quarrel. Thank you for always accompanying mom when no one couldn't, thank you for listening to her stories. Thank you awin. ---------- To my fourth sister, we relate a lot don't we? Everytime I heard your playlist playing I realized most of it is in mine too, it feels like we have a lot of matching stuffs in life. Your food taste, your style and sort of your life style too. It's hard to find someone to relate with, thank you Manda. ---- To my friends, I've written a separate letter for you guys. And to those who are extra special, you might be lucky enough to have my own letter to you. ----