I loved you ever since we first met in fourth grade. You were so sweet to me and you understood me in a way no one ever has. I am autistic and you knew that before I knew myself and you helped me understand that about me, helped me accent that I wasn't broken, just different. We shared an interest in anime and video games and we liked talking trash about our teachers behind their backs all the time. We both loved the colour purple and we thought we were soulmates because we were each other's ideal preference for our partner's height and our birthdays were two days apart within the same year. I remember we used to do those dumb kinnie bingos and we always matched up as the characters that were known as the dynamic duos of their franchises. It was always so much fun. I didn't really realise it when we were young but I know now my love for you wasn't romantic, it was familial. But we still had a bond either way. We never forgot about each other and we approached each other again in 10th grade where I accidentally confessed to you and you told me you felt the same so we tried it out. But I kind of regret it.... Is what I used to say. I wanted to try for you because you were my close companion. I love you so much. Yet you didn't love me the way I loved you. We were only trying things out but you were so cruel to me. You had changed over the last ten years and it really hurt. I managed to tell you I wanted us to go back to being friends and you said it was okay but you still hated me, resented me for it. And I don't understand it. I never once got to tell you how you made me cry and made me miserable all the time. Then when me and my friend got into a stupid argument about the definition of the word "indirect" you told me you hated me because I got upset that you just stood there watching when they degraded me unwarratned. Even when i apologised to you, you hated me. And it used to hurt but it doesn't anymore. I got over it. I will never be able to tell you to your face these things because we'll never see each other again but I am better now. Stronger. You can never hurt me again and no one like you will be able to. I don't regret our relationship. I thank you for all the hurt you gave me because you made me stronger against people like you. And you made me aware of your type of people, I know how to protect myself now. I know what my worth is and it's much higher than what you deserved. I deserve more than to be treated like garbage. I want you to know that, hypothetically. You'll never know this but whatever. I heard you got a new girlfriend and I hope you either learn to treat women better or she leaves you to find a better girlfriend because you don't seem keen on changing. You're not the victim, you never were. Just grow up already and stop being an attention-seeker. I'm going to find someone who can truly love me one day and I'm gonna be so happy and you're gonna miss out on all of it. You're gonna miss when we dated. You're gonna miss when I still wanted to be yoour friend afterward. I told all my friends about what you did and I know what you did to them too. I know the pain you gave them. You're not a good person, you never were. It just took me 10 years to realise this. And now I'm grown-up and I know better now. So despite all of this... Thank you for helping me become stronger. Thank you for helping me stop being timid. Thank you for helping me love myself more. Thank you for helping me realise I am worthy of real love. Thank you for helping me respect myself. And thank you for teaching me what kind of people I should avoid. And thank you for all the happy memories that I do have with you. I'll still cherish them.