I'm so stupidly in love with you, but there's nothing I can do about it. I'm not in a position where I can just blow up my life as it is and ask you out. That's not possible for me, and I don't know that it ever will be. I desperately want to ruin our friendship, and I wonder if you know it. Every look we share secretly kills me, but I don't know if it does anything to you. I search for you in every room we're in together. You make me laugh so damn much. You're so beautiful, talented, caring and brilliant. I don't know if I'll ever say these words out loud, and I don't know that if I did that you would be receptive to my feelings, but writing them down here feels good. If I never get to love you, I hope that the person who does gives you everything you could possibly ask for and more. You deserve the world.