Dear J, Today would have been our first-year anniversary. Instead, I’m sitting here carrying everything you left behind. You left me. You abandoned me—and you abandoned our unborn child. After you found out I was pregnant, something in you changed. I saw it. I felt it. You became distant, cold, and someone I no longer recognized. And I was left trying to understand how the person who once promised me everything could become someone who walked away like we meant nothing. I know you are confused about your sexuality. I saw things I can’t unsee—the way you held your male best friend’s hand, the way you were happiest when you were with him, the way you would hug him or lie beside him like I didn’t exist in those moments. I saw how you missed him even when you were sitting across from me. I was there, watching all of it, pretending it didn’t hurt me. But if you were confused, you should have said it. If you were not ready, you should have been honest. If you were still figuring yourself out, I should not have been the one paying the price for it. Instead, you promised me a future. And I believed you. Because of that belief, I lost everything. I lost my baby—my Margaux Skye. My first child. The one I already loved before I even got the chance to hold her. She was supposed to be my strength, my reason to keep going, my light when things got hard. But I had to lose her while also losing you at the same time. And the truth is… I am still not okay. I struggle every single day. Some mornings I wake up and for a few seconds I forget everything, and then it all comes back again. The silence. The loss. The questions. The empty space where everything used to be. There are days I function, but I am not really living—I am just surviving what you left behind. You may have moved on in your own way, but I am still here carrying the consequences of your choices, your silence, and your absence. And I need you to understand this: Please don’t use other people to hide who you are. Because in doing that, you don’t just hurt yourself—you break the people who trusted you with their whole heart. I am trying, every day, to rebuild myself from something I did not even get to choose to lose. — Me