hey zoye , Ik things are so hard. I know it all hurts but do remember zoya , youre a person with the heart that wont even feel hatred at full force ,youre so pure that u always give a person the doubt in their wrong doings even if u dont express it .You were born with the softness of a gentle breeze yet the strength of graphene .YOU HAVE NEVER LOST IT .YOU ARE NOT LOSING IT AND YOU WILL NOT LOSE IT I believe in you ,and even though it sounds an understatement when it comes to you.I LOVE YOU .I love u with all the depths of my heart ,with all the ways my heart is able to love with, so i want you to know my dearest buddy , that: 'If you have a million lovers ,am one of them.If you have one lover , am the one, and if you have no lover , then am dead'. ill love you enough that no ones absence of love makes u feel empty , this heart of mine can carry the weight -actually warmth- of loving u equal to all loves combined. . your craziest friend -MAHEEN